Hi. I'm having some horrendous experiences with dreaming. I had no idea what it was so have had a look into it and thought that maybe talking about it will help, so here's what happens. *Sorry for the long post.*

When I was young I would usually know I was dreaming. *The dreams would usually end badly so I watched until I was so scared at what was about to happen that I'd wake myself up. *No real issues there.

*A few years ago something completely different happened and I woke up from one of these and ran into my parents' room where they were both lying there dead. At this I woke up again and a sequence of about 5 horrendous dreams occurred.*I finally woke up in a terrified, sweaty mess.

*Since then it's happened a lot but it's developed. The usual occurrence is that I'll be in a dream but unaware. Something will happen or be out of ordinary to lead me to work out I'm dreaming. Instant panic sets in as the dreams never end well. I know that if I don't wake up something horrendous will happen, and it often does. That is if I don't manage to wake myself up first.

*I start to kick and s scream but can only do it to a tiny extent. I can feel myself moving in my body but I stil can't get out and the impending horror causes total fear. Finally I'll wake up.*I'll go to the bathroom or something and realise I'm still dreaming and the cycle repeats Itself. Often 5 or more times. It often ends in my wife waking me up due to the noise I'm making. I wake up exhausted, sweating, *and heart pounding.*If I fall asleep within a short time it always happens again so I stay awake for an hour or so, *afraid to go back to sleep.

*I do the reality tests and sometimes they work, but obviously only if im suspect I'm dreaming. Even if they do work, *as soon as soon as I realise it's a dream it's all out panic.*I've read about people enjoying their lucid dreams but this never happens as it's always a nightmare as soon as I realise.

*I've established that maybe I'm having a combination of lucid dreaming, false awakening and sleep paralysis?

This is a simplified version of What's been happening for about 5 years or so now.*I don't think I'm joining up as I expect anyone to solve this for me, *just sharing for my pen piece of mind!*Probably stupid to write about it just before I go to bed!