I am new to this site, thought I knew everything about dreams and dreaming up until a little over a week ago! Now, I am so very confused and I need answers that I am unable to find elsewhere...any answers or suggestions will be deeply appreciated!

On May 1st @ 12:30 a.m., my middle child, Rebekah Abigail, 27, was instantly killed in an odd, freakish type auto accident. Becky and I were estranged at the time, though I continued to make many attempts to reach out to her, she never replied, sadly. By the time the "Jaws of Life" cut my daughter out of her vehicle & life-lined her to the nearest Trauma Hospital, I got the first call a little after 3am. We woke my 19 year old son up to provide him the news and have him pack up quickly, so we could fly him out on the first direct flight to Indy...my daughter would be on life support for several days so they could find matches, as she was an organ donor & had everything to give, as she only had head/brain trauma. I was unable to fly out with my son, as my ex-husband was "forbidding" it and I also have Leukemia & am unable to currently travel due to low Platelet counts.

Since May 1st, I have been unable to sleep more than a couple hours at a time, even with the aid of sleeping pills, but ALWAYS dream of her during my most short sleeping cycle & awake in a sweat. I do have a couple of burning questions only my daughter could have answered and sadly, took them with her! I wake up abruptly, seemingly having more answers to other things about her, but never the couple of questions I frequently mull over during waking hours...they are almost like nightmares, but very real and true to life and no symbols, nothing I would ever consider a "normal" type dream, and I never sleep long enough to get into the REM phase of dreaming.

My Question:
Has anyone else had this happen to them, and does anyone know what this may mean, or even how this can be possible? I now dread going to sleep, as I awake each time, continuing to go through the same event...I am unable to function. I need answers and that is why I am posting this!

Respectfully,
Pamala