Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

I've having tendencies to do extreme things now.

Suddenly blasting music way too loud for the eardrums but I realised it was bad within a second and switched back to normal volume again. And I was eyeing my wrist just two days ago after I saw a penknife in a bookshop. Please tell me my borderline disorder has not raise again. Or it's just my depression worsening. I'm having problems even without going pass a day not feeling messed up. My mind's all filled up with the wrong thoughts, my eyes are looking at the wrong things, even my heart is eyeing at the wrong person, and anything I do doesn't help me any more. I don't feel satisfied doing anything nor do I feel hope for tomorrow.

My mood is just switching between good to neutral to bad within a couple of hours. It's as though the trigger switch is right in front of my face. I get affected by things easily, and I take all words to me at surface level. The moment something is displeasing to my ears, the switch turns to bad mood. And then I realised I can't be in bad mood for the whole day so I tried doing something to cheer myself up, and I go back to normal mood, but my heart is still in a fluster and I have no idea how to settle it down.

The torture comes when you feel like you're going mad but you know you can't with all the responsibilities weighing on you. And so you are hanging in mid-air with a mood on a roller coaster ride and a heart in such agony it feels like there is a permanent knife stuck in it.

I really hope my appointment with the psychologist would come soon and he/she will be willing to listen and able to understand all I have to say. I hope my train of thoughts wouldn't malfunction on that day so I can talk for a couple of hours. I have nothing to hide, ain't a private person. I only dislike talking about it to people who refuses to see the deeper part in it. Please save me from this pit, I can live like that forever. So either you turn me mad or return me back to normal. Thanks.

Don't worry my friend, most of us here are on this same path. I have a lot of thoughts in my head as well. I feel philosophical, silly, stupid, logical, and all sorts of things most of the time. I guess it's because I'm worried about my future.

Hopefully in your dreams, you can find who you are, and hopefully ask your subconscious for solutions on how to escape that pit. But don't be afraid to admit anything here, at least you'll get it off your chest, and you can go back to it again and see how much you've progressed.

I hope everything goes well at the appointment. It's good to have someone who's willing to see you sublimate your worries, it makes you feel a little better (hopefully).

I'm probably not as extreme as you, but I think I know what you mean, but I won't try to make myself look like I'm omniscient or anything. But I think you should let those thoughts manifesting inside you to come out, but don't speculate on them too long if you find them disturbing for your overall health. I think just letting them out as something unnecessary and eliminating what's bad to you is better instead of concealing them, which will only make things worse.

Chipped my tooth on Christmas Candy. And a merry Christmas to all of you, too!

Originally Posted by ThePreserver

Chipped my tooth on Christmas Candy. And a merry Christmas to all of you, too!

Ouch! That's a bummer. :/

Originally Posted by ThePreserver

Chipped my tooth on Christmas Candy. And a merry Christmas to all of you, too!

eesh... I remember when I was 11 (i had this problem where my baby teeth wouldnt come out (i had like 10 left)) and I ate this chewy halloween candy... 2 of my teeth came out O=

like 3 more came out naturally, and the rest had to be ripped out

It's a damn good thing I had a scheduled dentist appointment for the third because I can get my tooth fixed (hopefully). My last tooth chip I can't even tell it was fixed, so hopefully this one is no different!

I realized that if I dressed like a girl for Halloween, I could probably fool a lot of people, especially with my pre-teen slut voice (or just a slut voice)

And I think I might try to do a drawing of me and EVA (but exclude Snake from the pic)



That means I have to free-hand this, since I can't Photoshop the reference photo for me to base the drawing from.

This is going to be fun!

Bah, this morning my mom asked me to get my brothers B-day present from the closet(His birthday is on Christmas) and on the way there, I stubbed my tow on my mom's clothes basket. Because it's made of weaved wood, it like ripped my entire nail off my pinky toe, and cut me pretty bad. 12 hours later, still hurts like hell, and I fell very uncomfortable in shows and socks now

Owch man, hope it gets better!

Now for me to get some sleep and hopefully practice a WILD after a few hours without someone WAKING ME UP!

I am up too early again, and don't want to think of the cleaning that is to be done. And an awkward conversation is to be done with my friend, too.

Wonder what that was about.... :p

About the difference between sex and love. She's planning the marriage to my brother already and is living in my home for two days, practically speaking.
Bro creates obsessions, I think.

You know, I want to have a lucid dream where Amazon women confuse me for being a manly man because I killed a large creature, and their leader will force me to become their husband. That would fucking rock. Muscle bound chicks with large breasts and big butts...I can dig that.

Then again, I would be forgetting my goal to met EVA...sigh. Decisions. Decisions.

I miss people; real social interactions. I commute to my college, so I never "get" those interactions anymore, and most of my friends are gone.

I just really fucking miss people; they marginalize and trivialize eachother on the internet... everyone stops talking to eachother except for a select few in each clique. Very lonely.

I see girls still make complaints about guys wanting only one thing in a girl on Facebook.

OH MY FUCKING GOD NO WAY! I DIDN'T KNOW GUYS WERE LIKE THAT.

And yeah, I miss social interactions too. People I want to hang out with have to either work a full shift or are too traumatized of the opposite sex degrading their feelings.

Girls are stupid, and boys are stupid. Grow up and become men and women one of these days... (I mean people who are legally adults, but emotionally still children.) Buuut maybe I can just sit quietly to myself. All of my old "friends" aren't even my friends anymore. They've moved on. I see statuses saying "Had a great time chilling with *tags 4 people*!" And think, "Oh, thanks for thinking of me and even considering me. I thought I used to be your friend."

Pisses me off so much.

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

You know, I want to have a lucid dream where Amazon women confuse me for being a manly man because I killed a large creature, and their leader will force me to become their husband. That would fucking rock. Muscle bound chicks with large breasts and big butts...I can dig that.

Then again, I would be forgetting my goal to met EVA...sigh. Decisions. Decisions.

Sounds like you just want a domme. Those are easy to find and come in all shapes and sizes. Too bad xmas is over. I might have sent you one as a gift. Damn.

She's all I need baby. I've been working for months to get her. I met her in a lucid dream, but she was running from me to show me something, and that makes it more exciting than any domme.

Even if you gave me a domme, I'm currently at my parent's house, so it would be awkward.

And welcome to the Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain Thread! Haven't seen you post anything here Don't be shy, we have WAFFLES.

Laziness haunted me. Christmas is exhausting.

I am sick/stuffed on "Mochi Chocolat". My step-daughter bought it for me while in Japan-town (?) in San Fran.

I had a decent visit with my eldest daughter, but it ended too quickly.

I messed up my foot about a month ago or more and it's still bothering me. I was just sitting at my desk and stretched, putting my feet against the wall. The I pushed harder on the outside of my foot and it painfully popped. The soreness is under my pinky toe near my arch. :/

Plus, a couple of days ago a few of my youngest daughters friends came over to check on her. One of them said: "Hey, back when I was doing stuff I borrowed some from some people and I have to pay them back. Do you have any stuff I can get from you?"
I told her I have never been in that game. Then she asked "So, you don't have any beans or anything?" I told her I had absolutely no idea what that even was. Keep in mind, this kid is only about 14 years old. I have no idea what my youngest said to give her the impression I'm some druggie Then she got on the phone and the person she owes is her uncle.
I've heard from several people that the youth of my town have major problems with the synthetic crap and 20 year olds have problems with pill trading.

Lol, Zhaylin appeared in the end! I'm glad you could see your eldest daughter, but don't know what to say about the friends of your youngest.
I don't have much experience with drugs myself. Only I've tried weeds twice, and a doctor injected me diazepam once. But I wonder what those kids will take when they reach our age.
Bah, my mother is always bitching about my smoking, I'd like to see her in your shoes for a day, Zhaylin! She would get crazy in the first two hours, I bet.

Grey Goose tastes like shit but my stash ran dry and I'm not going to be sober on Christmas (well, Boxing Day actually but I didn't get any time alone last night so my Christmas celebration starts now). I'm sitting here eating Fuzzy Peaches (the candy) while drinking this gnarly stuff, it's the only way I can get it down, even with the Coke.

EDIT: Nevermind, it tastes better now.

Don't you find it irritating that whenever you're trying to jot down something important (like writing your dream journal) and the world makes it too noisy for you to write anything till you're the only one awake in the night?

^ Kind of. I usually stay up until 6:00 AM because that's the only way I can get any peace and quiet, while everyone else is asleep.