Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

I've drank (drunk?) myself into a a bit of a stupor and it's a much better feeling than I expected. Not nearly as enjoyable as being high, but it's alright nonetheless. The main difference is that while I'm high, I can zone out and think about a million things at once; but while drunk, I just zone out and hardly think of anything at all. I guess it has it's time and place, I'll be sticking with marijuana though. Alcohol will just be an alternative when I can't get my hands on any bud.

Also, I really need a girlfriend.

hjmmmmm i've drunk some. I got drunk last night and thought i wouldnt want to tonight a tll.. somehow though, it's nice, i feel fucking awesome. While with the right poeople or person it can be nice to be drinking. hehe

I'll spend the rest of the day alone and I'll treat myself some white wine. I don't know why they prefer red wines on Christmas. here is one very nice bottle of white and it would be rude to ignore it.

probably because red is a christmas color

I've stopped drinking when I realised I do not know how to appreciate wine at all. I'm just drinking thinking I can forget about my troubles. It only worked when I tried it for the first time, as for the rest of the other times, I'm in a quite aware state even after drinking, body just react slows to these stuffs.

I need a girlfriend too.

Originally Posted by Carrot

Same.

While I was writing my dream journal, my grandma entered the room twice, once to take something, another time to make a phone call. And the phone rang again and I simply refused to pick it up, this time it was meant for me though. Now my mother is coughing really badly in the living room.

Where's the peace a man needs?

Do you know how hard is it to recall your dream in detail? Why do I have to get disturbed so many times? Is an hour of peace too much to ask?

Edit edit: OKAY I AM REALLY MAD NOW. MY FIRST DREAM JOURNAL ENTRY WAS RUINED.

I feel your pain my friend. I KNOW I could remember the dream I had when I woke up around 7 AM. But I didn't feel like typing it down since I wanted to do a WILD, but now I forgot the dream...fml. And I normally have decent recall, and even if I do forget, I eventually remember.

And don't worry, just keep on dreaming!

Even though it would be best to get a girlfriend, I'm still going to hold on to EVA in my dreams.

Edit:

YES I REMEMBER A DREAM I HAD NOW HAHAHAHAHA (but it's not even worth putting as a DJ loool)

Argh, I'm dogsitting at a house half an hour away from mine but I spent the night at my house because of Christmas, now I've gotta drive there immediately since I woke up so I can feed them. *grumble grumble*

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Plus, a couple of days ago a few of my youngest daughters friends came over to check on her. One of them said: "Hey, back when I was doing stuff I borrowed some from some people and I have to pay them back. Do you have any stuff I can get from you?"
I told her I have never been in that game. Then she asked "So, you don't have any beans or anything?" I told her I had absolutely no idea what that even was. Keep in mind, this kid is only about 14 years old. I have no idea what my youngest said to give her the impression I'm some druggie Then she got on the phone and the person she owes is her uncle.
I've heard from several people that the youth of my town have major problems with the synthetic crap and 20 year olds have problems with pill trading.

Also, beans.

At first I wondered what that image was....took me like 20 seconds to look at the top right corner...LOL

I'm drinking too. And tired. And lonely.... And worried.

And I need a girlfriend too.

EDIT: Oh and yeah, beans are ecstasy, but who knows really, they could just mean any pills these days. Stupid kids. No respect for drugs.

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

I feel your pain my friend. I KNOW I could remember the dream I had when I woke up around 7 AM. But I didn't feel like typing it down since I wanted to do a WILD, but now I forgot the dream...fml. And I normally have decent recall, and even if I do forget, I eventually remember.

And don't worry, just keep on dreaming!

Even though it would be best to get a girlfriend, I'm still going to hold on to EVA in my dreams.

Edit:

YES I REMEMBER A DREAM I HAD NOW HAHAHAHAHA (but it's not even worth putting as a DJ loool)

I'm a perfectionist kind of person.

Perfectionist meaning that I want things to go perfect but that doesn't happen all the time in reality. And I was so upset that I was disturbed so many times when I was writing my first dream journal here, I just yelled halfway when I was using the laptop.

I was near the ending in my entry, and I was disturbed for the last time, so I decided to save it as a draft. But the entry looks to me like it's published, so I deleted it but it leaves a permanent "deleted" entry there. Fortunately I managed to undelete it and complete the ending. But I'm not sure of what I typed anymore, and I did countless times of proofreading. Gonna proofread for the last time, make sure it adhered to my dream and leave it for the day.

When I had my first DJ entries, I completely forgot about organization, it was just some huge chunk of text with my rants toppled with little explanations of my dreams. If you look at my first DJ entries, I sounded like I was some retarded 14 year old on crack or something haha.

But yeah, I get what you mean. It's good to have your journals organized so it'll be easier to glance over them in the future. That's good for you to try to be perfect, but don't go too crazy, it's hard at first, but you'll find a process that's convenient for you. ( I think I pretty much have an okay format when doing my Dream Journal entries).

And maybe you'll remember the rest during the day!

I add a lot a pictures in mine if I can, and I hope that doesn't bother people, but it helps me quickly associate what I was dreaming at the time, which saves a huge time from reading them over again.

What they use ecstasy for?

@ Carrot, things can never go perfect. Don't suffer about that.

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

When I had my first DJ entries, I completely forgot about organization, it was just some huge chunk of text with my rants toppled with little explanations of my dreams. If you look at my first DJ entries, I sounded like I was some retarded 14 year old on crack or something haha.

But yeah, I get what you mean. It's good to have your journals organized so it'll be easier to glance over them in the future. That's good for you to try to be perfect, but don't go too crazy, it's hard at first, but you'll find a process that's convenient for you. ( I think I pretty much have an okay format when doing my Dream Journal entries).

And maybe you'll remember the rest during the day!

I add a lot a pictures in mine if I can, and I hope that doesn't bother people, but it helps me quickly associate what I was dreaming at the time, which saves a huge time from reading them over again.

Hahaha. This isn't the first time I am writing a dream journal. The very first entry was on my blog. And it is simply just blah blah blah, oh and this happened, oh and that happened. Oh me god. Lalala, twirls~ But I guess it's pretty organised for my first attempt.

As for now, I try to recall as much as possible, my feelings too if I can remember, and jot them down in order. I read somewhere that emotions are important in a dream too, it reveals much things. My memory isn't that bad though, so if I close my eyes and try to visualise, I can see the dream coming back to me if the dream was important. I just don't like to be disturbed when I am trying to recall stuffs. It breaks my concentration and I need a lot of time to get back in that same scene I was visualising, especially if I'm flying in a rage.

Oh so you were the one adding pictures to your DJ. I was looking at recent entries and noticed one with lots of pictures.

I personally do not prefer pictures in my DJs. The most probably a photo of the idol whom I dreamt of. I kept dreaming of my idols. XD I think the image I have in my dream is perfect, and any photo in reality do not match to that. So I would rather just keep it to words. Let me guess, are you a visual person?

Lol, Link can drive me crazy with those pics! Imagine, to read a DJ thinking of DNA and meiosis!

Originally Posted by sinoblak

@ Carrot, things can never go perfect. Don't suffer about that.

Thanks.

Am trying. Guess there's no immediate cure for trying to think prefect huh? Haha. I guess the best cure for me is to see another perfectionist struggling to be perfect too.

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

At first I wondered what that image was....took me like 20 seconds to look at the top right corner...LOL

Hehe yeah, I made sure to pick a picture with the name it for that reason.

Originally Posted by tommo

EDIT: Oh and yeah, beans are ecstasy, but who knows really, they could just mean any pills these days. Stupid kids. No respect for drugs.

That's very true. :/ I think I'll just keep living my life happy pretending they don't, though. (Just like I pretend that most pills today don't contain pipes and speed and caffeine. >_<)

Originally Posted by sinoblak

What they use ecstasy for?

For creating states of ecstasy. It's basically just a really, really euphoric feeling that amplifies all of your senses by a factor of like ten, removes all your fears and insecurities and personal boundaries, and makes you want to be best friends with everyone in close vicinity to you, to the point of hugging and sometimes even kissing them and wanting to learn everything you possibly can about them and make sure they're having as great a time as you are. It can also be trippy from time to time or at high doses, but it usually isn't. Although, on the comedown things can get pretty delirious if you're adequately exhausted and/or sleep deprived.

Thanks, Alyzarin. I don't intend to try ecstasy, but was pretty curious.

Sure thing. Ecstasy is one of my favorite drugs for sure, definitely my favorite non-hallucinogen (at least by normal effect, I do have a habit of taking advantage of that delirium ). It's also the only drug I can take these days without feeling anxiety, though I still don't use it, either.

I listen to music as my drug.

Last night I was in my underwear in the cold, but I didn't care. Started humping the air listening to dubstep and remixed songs.

And using most of the accents I can pull off too. I was home alone, which is why I went crazy

By the way Alyzarin, I watched this video, and it reminded me of you in a way. (It reminded me of the squirrel song)

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

I listen to music as my drug.

Last night I was in my underwear in the cold, but I didn't care. Started humping the air listening to dubstep and remixed songs.

And using most of the accents I can pull off too. I was home alone, which is why I went crazy xD

By the way Alyzarin, I watched this video, and it reminded me of you in a way. (It reminded me of the squirrel song)

I listen to music on my drugs, especially dubstep and remixed songs. Nah, though, it's true. Drugs don't make music better, music makes drugs better, and just about everything else too. I'm glad you're having so much fun with your voices. XD

What a happy little song! I'm going to be stuck listening to that on loop lol. Which reminds me, I need to start watching those episodes, guess I'll get to that in a minute.

You're like the female version of me. Are you my Anima?

Except I don't use drugs, but still are you?

The song is really very sweet! And in deed, it reminds me of you, Alyzarin.

It's "I can't decide" by scissors sisters if you want to listen to the whole song.

Yep, I'm going to be listening to this song for a while.

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

You're like the female version of me. Are you my Anima?

Except I don't use drugs, but still are you?

Wouldn't that make it even more accurate? The anima is the female side to your personality, but also your link to the subconscious, the id to your ego, the bliss junkie living within us all.

Originally Posted by Wikipedia

Id

"It is the dark, inaccessible part of our personality, what little we know of it we have learned from our study of the dream-work and of the construction of neurotic symptoms, and most of that is of a negative character and can be described only as a contrast to the ego. We approach the id with analogies: we call it a chaos, a cauldron full of seething excitations... It is filled with energy reaching it from the instincts, but it has no organization, produces no collective will, but only a striving to bring about the satisfaction of the instinctual needs subject to the observance of the pleasure principle."

That sounds like me.