Puppieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! Congrats Deery! I love the name Can't wait to see a pic! |
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Rave: I got a puppy!!! |
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Puppieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! Congrats Deery! I love the name Can't wait to see a pic! |
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It's past 5:00 AM, I've been up all night. This is likely to fuck up my routine for the next several days, especially since I ran out of my meds earlier this week. I spent the last few days getting back on schedule, and I've set myself back a great deal in this one night. I didn't even do anything noteworthy, just mindlessly browsed the web. >______________> |
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Wrestling has ended, and so although my daily calorie intake has probably decreased by 1000, my mind is thinking "I don't have to make weight tomorrow" and so I have been constantly hungry 24/7. I eat two bowls of cereal, still hungry. I eat a third, then I'm still hungry but now sick. It's the same with every meal, I might have a condition I'm starting to think. Now, I haven't put on any excess weight and I still have been eating fairly healthy, but the problem is that I am eating faster than my parents can go grocery shopping! During the season they understood that I needed to make weight so they wouldn't buy that much food so I wouldn't be tempted, but now they can't make the transition. Tomorrow, however, I will be going with my mom to personally show her how much food I will be needing, but for now I simply will sit here, hungry and mad |
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I had a pretty bad cheat day today but I did work out, so I guess that's cool. |
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Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law. Love is the law, love under will.
Grats on the new pet, Deery. Wish your mom told me she was in the market and I would have just given y'all some |
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My current mood: stressed af |
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DILD: 9 | MILD: - | DEILD: - | WILD: 2OBE: 3 | AP: -
I can see you sleep through your bedroom window. You're killing yourself with lucid dreaming.
*sigh* Well, now that the puppy's finally asleep, I have a peaceful window of time to look up puppy training videos before he wakes up. |
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I would be stressed too Crashyy! What a hassle with the transportation. I hope they get everything resolved soon. And I hope you have a good time with the bands |
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Rave: First day of work was pretty good |
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Actually, I just want to get laid (without dating). I don't want men to come to me for emotional fulfilment; I want to feel sexy and be sexually desired. I don't think anyone here understands what I mean. |
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I finally replaced my doddering old Android phone! It was old and slow and glitchy, and no amount of tinkering was improving it much, so it was just a constant annoyance. Calls would take forever to get from the dialing screen to the "connecting" screen, apps took forever to launch, and browsers would crash constantly. It also had a locked bootloader, so custom ROMs were not an option and I was stuck on Android Gingerbread. I grabbed a used HTC One M8 off Swappa, and it's so fast and smooth It's the only device using the 5Ghz channel on my home Wi-Fi, and downloading my apps was crazy fast. It should replace my tablet for audio, too, which will be a lot more convenient--my old phone had crappy sound and the headphone jack hasn't even worked for months. I went with the M8 mainly on the basis of audio quality. A lot of apps and mods seem to play nicer with this version of Android, too. |
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If you have a sense of caring for others, you will manifest a kind of inner strength in spite of your own difficulties and problems. With this strength, your own problems will seem less significant and bothersome to you. By going beyond your own problems and taking care of others, you gain inner strength, self-confidence, courage, and a greater sense of calm.Dalai Lama
everyone. Grats on the upgrade, Taosaur and for your car being fixed, Auron |
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Last edited by Zhaylin; 03-24-2015 at 08:27 PM.
Rave: I now have access to the teachers lounge. Free coffee/espresso until I'm finished. |
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Got home from work this morning expecting to enjoy my last day of free time before school starts by playing some Wasteland 2. But instead, we had no power. There was a 3-alarm fire a block away in an old warehouse/factory building, so electric was shut down in case it would reach power lines. But hey... at least it wasn't my building on fire. I guess it started around 3am. My initial thoughts: organized crime! The building's been in 'renovation' for the last several years, I believe to be transitioned to apartments. So after several years with little to no noticeable progress, the owners must have decided to just burn it down and collect insurance. Or maybe this has been a secret safe house, but the feds are on to them. Or maybe I've just been reading too many mafia stories lately. |
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Last edited by sefalik; 03-25-2015 at 09:45 PM.
Mixed rant/rave: It's 3am and I should be sleeping. But it's summer and I have been slipping back into my night-owlishness. I have school tomorrow, but it feels so unnatural to try to go to sleep. There's something about being awake and everyone else being asleep that makes this my favourite part of the day (well, night) when I am awake and not generally exhausted, but nevertheless, this probably isn't too good for me. If only I could go to school in the night and sleep in the daytime -- I believe my days (nights) would become about ten times more productive. I can take my vitamin D in tablet form, thank you very much x3 |
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Alright, rant time. |
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I like destruction and reality, and one invariably leads to the other.
'Dreams are real while they last. Can we say more of life?'
'We die to remember what we live to forget'
This is how I feel about my psychologist friends (well, friend) too. I understand the diagnosing part, but what does he actually do with his patients afterwards? Affirmation exercises and all that stuff seem a tad phony to me, although that's perhaps I've never truly felt depressed or suicidal or anything. Whenever I feel sad I just go 'well live goes on' and I suddenly feel happy and stress free. I guess meditation has something to do with it. Perhaps you could try going to a therapist? I've never heard of anyone who cannot feel better, even temporarily, by talking to someone else about their problems. |
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Through my experience, became aware of my breath, then
Began to cultivate my art with the intention of the heart,
Started to use my sentences as reflections.
And what I saw was God was in all of us and we all come to be interconnected.
And all that was depended on all of us
And had effects like a domino when you let it.
Go with the flow, that the universe holds.
I think I can relate. I think my previous relationship would have worked out better, if we had something like that in place. We're a few hours from each other, and I'm busy as hell, and she was too...so it made it all most impossible to see each other. |
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I'm glad you're safe, Sefalik. Enjoy school! |
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I know exactly what you mean. I used to torture myself by reading all sorts of comments and message boards about Christina Hendricks (because honestly who doesn't have a crush on her, gender regardless), about how much more desirable she is than any "skinny bean pole bitches with no tits", that she's what *all* women are *supposed* to look like, and that she's a "Goddess". I thought to myself, "I want to be called a Goddess." In many circles there's been some considerable push-back against fat-shaming, descending quickly into skinny-shaming. It's like people can't realize that ALL WOMEN ARE DIFFERENT, and that no one should desire all women on the face of the planet to look like only one woman. Is that what people want? One massive army of identical fembots, marching the Earth? |
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The gig on Tuesday started at 7:15pm and we arrived in Brussels at 7:00pm so we had to run to the venue and we got there just in time. |
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DILD: 9 | MILD: - | DEILD: - | WILD: 2OBE: 3 | AP: -
I can see you sleep through your bedroom window. You're killing yourself with lucid dreaming.
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