Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Originally Posted by Crashyy

This is fucking ridiculous. I didn't go to school today 'cause I'm still feeling really ill, like everything hurts and I just feel awful. Now we have to do a group assignment which is due tonight. The thing is, we already finished it on Friday but my friend 'lost' the file. And now they both want me to do it on my own. If I don't do it, they'll put the blame on me and we'll get bad grades. They always take advantage of me.. When my friend had the flu, he couldn't even send one e-mail. But now they expect me to walk to my dad's house ('cause we only have a computer over there) which is like a 15 minute walk, work on the assignment for an hour and then go back to my mum's? So they can get good grades by doing absolutely nothing?? I'm really pissed off rn

Go on strike. Tell your friends how you feel and that they should quit taking advantage of you, if they want you to remain their friend. Real friends aren't users.

My mini rant for today: I come home from work around 3 in the afternoon: "Boy I feel tired, I'll just take a short nap, set my alarm two hours later at most so that I can actually fall asleep within that time frame"....

...5 hours later, night time, when I finally wake up...

"Of course."

But it feels SSOOOOO GOOOD....

Edit: Also, WHY on Earth did I have a dream that I met Lizzie Velasquez, but she was SUPER rude and stand-offish to me, while crying about her lost cat...

Originally Posted by Crashyy

This is fucking ridiculous. I didn't go to school today 'cause I'm still feeling really ill, like everything hurts and I just feel awful. Now we have to do a group assignment which is due tonight. The thing is, we already finished it on Friday but my friend 'lost' the file. And now they both want me to do it on my own. If I don't do it, they'll put the blame on me and we'll get bad grades. They always take advantage of me.. When my friend had the flu, he couldn't even send one e-mail. But now they expect me to walk to my dad's house ('cause we only have a computer over there) which is like a 15 minute walk, work on the assignment for an hour and then go back to my mum's? So they can get good grades by doing absolutely nothing?? I'm really pissed off rn

I dont agree with dreery, always try get the work done regardless. It is however vital in my opinion that you notify the teacher/lecturer about the incident. In this case since you have done all the work, you have evidence that your team members were willing to submit the assignment without having contributed.

I hope you did the assignment, Crashyy, if only for the sake of your own grade. I would definitely let the teacher know, though, or they'll just keep taking advantage of you.

heh, Deery, sounds like my "naps"

My rant is friggin bug bites. I've still not identified the buggers, but I think they're microscopic and living in my sheets. It's the only thing I can think of. They look closer to a mosquito bite because the bites are raised with a dimpled center. Flea bites, in my experience, have always been flat. These bites are random too, but mostly on areas laying against my desk- my butt, thighs, back. They are not clustered. I just looked at bunches of bug bite pics lol... not chiggers, ticks, spiders or fleas. The closest, as I said, is mosquito. But there's not so much as a fruit fly in my room at this time.

Every time I find a new bite, I put a bandaid or steri-strip over it to keep me from digging at it. But it offers very little comfort.
I can't do laundry until Tuesday and that's a long time to suffer!!!

Friggin annoying little monster

Other than that, all is well.

**EDIT**
Just looked at a bunch more pics and these very well may be from my old nemesis the wolf spider I've not moved my desk out from the wall in eons (it's really wedged in it's spot and is a major nusance to move). I think I'll tackle that tonight. Perhaps I'm getting attacked by spiderlings. Or maybe momma gets hungry while I snooze. Either way, Let there be death to them all!!!!

Rave, Rave, Rave!

Just had a coffee with a friend. I asked if L would host my dream game and L said "YES"! L said that I need more people than there are on Dreamviews to do the dream game and her friends doing the Psychology course that L is doing might be interested. I told L to get me the enrollment forms and L said, "I'll hold you to that".

L is comming to Dreamviews soon.

We are going to meet at the same coffee shop when L has gotten used to Dreamviews.

I will take my envelops with calander pictures folded (and sealed) in to the coffee shop. L will randomly choose a sealed envelope and put it in a box, at L's place. Then I will be able to chant,

"Gimme a dream about the target picture in L's dream game box"

Yipee (!!!)

Also,

I did an adult year 11 high school Psychology class then I did a year 12 adult, continued education, class about 5 years ago. So I know the work required. That is, I know what I'm in for. And L can help me. And together we can interest some other students in Dreamviews ( and my dream games).

Yipee (!!!)

I will keep you posted.

The first picture target was revealed on 7-March (was an elephant mum and her baby running towards "Me") in this thread:

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http://www.dreamviews.com/beyond-dre...ewing-yr8.html

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Here's a great elephant Youtube:

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Kamahl ~ The Elephant Song: http://youtu.be/_SSt22nmkG4

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Kamahl ~ The Elephant Song

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Published on Mar 2, 2014

Kamahl ~ The Elephant Song


Tell me said the elephant*
Tell me brothers if you can*
Why all the world is full of creatures*
Yet we grow in fear of man*
Tell me said the elephant*
tell me why this has to be*
we have to run from man and hunter*
never safe and never free*

refrain:*

-people kill without regret*
although they fly by jumbo-jet*
let the word all may remember*
let the children not forget.*

Gentle is the elephant*
Pulling loads and everything*
we love to hear the children laughing*
when we,re in the circus-ring*
Happy was the elephant*
Happy was his jungle life*
and then they came, the cruel hunters*
with their rifle and their knives*

refrain:...*

Listen, please listen, said the elephant*
if we want the world we know, to stay alife*
Then man and beast, we must work together*
And together we will survive*

Listen said the elephant*
It is conservation time*
So take the warning when we trumpet*
For the future of mankind*

refrain..

Why is the world so full of people who like to hammer things early in the morning?

I have never once felt the need to hire people to come over to my house and hammer things loudly outdoors at 8am, but somehow, no matter where I live, this is a favorite pastime of my neighbors.

I am annoyed.
I didn't find any spiders. I lathered myself in body lotion, let it dry, went to bed and was left alone for the most part (I figured they might not like the taste lol). But I sweat a lot in my sleep, which just re-activated the lotion and I woke feeling like a slimy mess.
Then, I sit down for 15 minutes and people want me to run them to the Post Office. No. I already have to go to the city today and sit in the car for an hour while I wait on my eldest. I told them to practice some delayed gratification. The Post Office will still be there tomorrow. I'm tired of running everyone around creation and back. I already have to dip in my oil fund for gas to get to the city and back

And now my son is about to come in and chat me up. Blah.

Rave: Should have a job soon, just waiting on the background check.
Rant/complain: Ex-GF decided to finally text me some "I was thinking about you" stuff after over a month of not hearing one word from her after I left a voice message saying "please call me back, do you want anything at all?". That was me at one of my most desperate moments, and she didn't even have the decency to call back...instead she waits forever and sends a text!? My heart is going to sit this one out. I'm not texting her, or calling her back.

Originally Posted by DeeryTheDeer

Can any guy here please explain to me the cognitive dissonance between society telling girls all their lives "If you don't have the perfect, immaculate breast, waist to hip ratio, all men will run away from you screaming with their heads on fire, and no man will ever love you or want to have sex with you until the day you die" and men saying with resentment "Women have it so easy dating compared to men. Any woman can get laid any time she asks, and all men in all corners of the city will come panting with desperation".

One of these people is lying...

If it's apparently so easy for women to date/get laid, then how come all the guys I'm attracted to ignore me?

I believe it's just a "grass is greener" type of thing. (totally based on generalizations, and not every single person, because that would be impossible to explain) On one end, you have guys having to deal with rejection after rejection until someone says "yes", and the other hand, you have women who are trying to look their best while waiting for the person they approve of show up.

Both situations are rough, and I guess it would seem easier to the opposite sex, when in reality, they're both difficult. If you really want to get laid, flip the roles, and be the aggressor...and lower your standards. If you're in it for sex, it shouldn't be that hard as long as you make up your mind that you're not going to be attached to that guy for longer than that night.

As for finding a date....that's a different situation. We could be in the same boat. I've talked to people who I've told later on that I probably would have asked them out....but I didn't want to get rejected, so I left it alone....and most of them turned around and said they would have said yes. Maybe your guy is someone who just doesn't want to ask because he's afraid, and maybe my girl is out there waiting for me to ask her. Well I know my girl is out there waiting....I just gotta get my life together before I ask anyone out for anything. Dating is expensive as hell.

The two guys in the case I did will serve minimal time. One of the guys (the father of the younger guy) is only getting 2 years in prison with a 40-year sentence. The guy who did most of the coercion , stalking, alienation, etc. will get 10 years in jail. Both will be on probation for the rest of their lives, basically, which is a joke.

The article also mentioned the father's other son received $20k from this for his ministry and won't give the money back. A family of fucking psychopaths.

Rave: I have no debt. No. Debt. At. All.

My credit card AND my student loan are completely paid off, on top of which I also have a crazy surplus of money in my checking account right now. I'm actually kind of scared. Don't worry, I won't go and burn it all away on hookers and blow.

Originally Posted by AURON

Rave: Should have a job soon, just waiting on the background check.
Rant/complain: Ex-GF decided to finally text me some "I was thinking about you" stuff after over a month of not hearing one word from her after I left a voice message saying "please call me back, do you want anything at all?". That was me at one of my most desperate moments, and she didn't even have the decency to call back...instead she waits forever and sends a text!? My heart is going to sit this one out. I'm not texting her, or calling her back.

I hate it when people just stop contacting and don't give you any reason. I'm guilty of it too, though, so....

Both situations are rough, and I guess it would seem easier to the opposite sex, when in reality, they're both difficult. If you really want to get laid, flip the roles, and be the aggressor...and lower your standards. If you're in it for sex, it shouldn't be that hard as long as you make up your mind that you're not going to be attached to that guy for longer than that night.

As for finding a date....that's a different situation. We could be in the same boat. I've talked to people who I've told later on that I probably would have asked them out....but I didn't want to get rejected, so I left it alone....and most of them turned around and said they would have said yes. Maybe your guy is someone who just doesn't want to ask because he's afraid, and maybe my girl is out there waiting for me to ask her. Well I know my girl is out there waiting....I just gotta get my life together before I ask anyone out for anything. Dating is expensive as hell.

I don't have a guy anymore. I did have one a few months ago... we got along pretty well and had a lot in common, and he was fairly attractive. He warned me that he wasn't exclusive, and I said sure, whatever. I one day just texted him that I wanted to hook up, and he kept being hesitant about it, said he wanted to be "ethical" about it. I told him if he didn't want to I'd back off, but he insisted it wasn't that. Well, suddenly I got strangely depressed and lonely, feeling like no one loved me, so I told him nevermind, because I didn't want just sex. He said he understood. I stopped texting him after that for a whole month, mainly because I feared it would just be awkward if we met up again from then on. When I finally texted back, we agreed to meet up again, but I slept through it because I napped too long. I told him I was so, so sorry for missing it, but he was understanding and cool about it. I told him the next date I'd pay, but he said he didn't think of it as a "date" at all. He admitted he was already in a relationship that was "getting pretty serious", but he still really wanted to be friends if I was okay with it. That's when I stopped texting him for good, and deleted his contact number from my phone.

Nothing since then has gotten anywhere close to that, and in fact I got so fed up with online dating and how long it took so many guys to actually reply back that I deleted my account, so now I have NO online dating, again.

Years ago, in fact I think I even wrote about it on this forum at the time, I was also dating a guy I really liked, but he said he didn't want to keep dating because he had too much heartbreak from his ex-girlfriend. And another guy pretty much friendzoned me (he was really depressed, down on himself and melancholic, and it kind of annoyed me, but he was cute). I wonder if what all these guys really want to say is "you're not sexually attractive. I can't fuck you."

Honestly, though, I've realized recently that my negative brain habits have been concocting all these huge lies that nobody loves me, cares about me or even notices I exist, when I start to gradually remember things that oppose that narrative, like my coworkers saying hi to me unprovoked, and being really sad about me leaving to go to a new job, or my mom or sister bringing something home for me every once in a while that I didn't ask for. It's so tempting for my negative brain to scoff away, reject and forget about little pieces like that and pretend nobody cares about me.

In fact, I went to a friend's birthday party once at a club, and this really hot guy started grinding with me on the dance floor (I didn't mind). We talked to each other off the dance floor and things were going well, so I asked for his number and he gave it to me to put on my phone. I later told my mom and sister about this and they thought he was being creepy and disrespectful. That really poured cold water on my excitement. I care too much what they think apparently. After a while, I thought maybe it wouldn't be the best idea to go after him- in fact I didn't want to get hurt. So, hesitantly, I deleted the phone number and never called or texted him. Now I think, maybe I should have just gone for it. I feel bad for leading him on and then dropping him like that. This is one of those instances that I need to stop conveniently forgetting about when I whine to myself that I'll never find a guy who wants me.

Originally Posted by DeeryTheDeer

I hate it when people just stop contacting and don't give you any reason. I'm guilty of it too, though, so....

When people don't contact me, I end up at the strip club, and I have other people contact me. Just say "I'm not interested", so I can end up at the strip club anyway, but at least I wont have that nagging "well maybe her phone is dead" thing in my head.

Originally Posted by DeeryTheDeer

I don't have a guy anymore. I did have one a few months ago... we got along pretty well and had a lot in common, and he was fairly attractive. He warned me that he wasn't exclusive, and I said sure, whatever. I one day just texted him that I wanted to hook up, and he kept being hesitant about it, said he wanted to be "ethical" about it. I told him if he didn't want to I'd back off, but he insisted it wasn't that. Well, suddenly I got strangely depressed and lonely, feeling like no one loved me, so I told him nevermind, because I didn't want just sex. He said he understood. I stopped texting him after that for a whole month, mainly because I feared it would just be awkward if we met up again from then on. When I finally texted back, we agreed to meet up again, but I slept through it because I napped too long. I told him I was so, so sorry for missing it, but he was understanding and cool about it. I told him the next date I'd pay, but he said he didn't think of it as a "date" at all. He admitted he was already in a relationship that was "getting pretty serious", but he still really wanted to be friends if I was okay with it. That's when I stopped texting him for good, and deleted his contact number from my phone.

Odd, it's usually the girls that have too many people to reply to....unless they're very attractive. I know two guys that hook up with chicks ONLINE ALL THE TIME, and they're the same two guys who hooked up with chicks IRL all the time...usually having multiple GFs etc etc. I tried it for about half a year strong, and I got a few replies, and the only girl who actually wanted to meet up was pretty hefty. In my opinion, online dating is worse, because it forces you to judge a person by their profile picture. Sure, you can write a novel about yourself, but who's going to look if they're not interested in your profile pic? This doesn't mean that you're unattractive, because you are. It just means there's a bunch of guys out there looking to bag the hottest skank out there, and a bunch of skanks trying to bag the hottest guy out there. When they get a message from someone like us (has common interests, hobbies, music whatever) they ignore it because of the "ZOMG I got 200 PMs today from superhotsuperficalletsfuck people" profiles.

Originally Posted by DeeryTheDeer

Nothing since then has gotten anywhere close to that, and in fact I got so fed up with online dating and how long it took so many guys to actually reply back that I deleted my account, so now I have NO online dating, again.

Well at least you got replies. Most girls never wrote me back, and I know they got the message, because it would show that they looked at my profile. And another thing that would kill me....I'd read a profile "I'm kinda geeky, I like computers, video games, anime, starwars etc....." Hopes would be high, and I'd get to the end of it and the last sentence would say "NO BLACK GUYS PLEASE"......

Originally Posted by DeeryTheDeer

Years ago, in fact I think I even wrote about it on this forum at the time, I was also dating a guy I really liked, but he said he didn't want to keep dating because he had too much heartbreak from his ex-girlfriend. And another guy pretty much friendzoned me (he was really depressed, down on himself and melancholic, and it kind of annoyed me, but he was cute). I wonder if what all these guys really want to say is "you're not sexually attractive. I can't fuck you."

It really sounds like you're attracted to the wrong guys.

Originally Posted by DeeryTheDeer

Honestly, though, I've realized recently that my negative brain habits have been concocting all these huge lies that nobody loves me, cares about me or even notices I exist,

Online dating left me feeling like I was the ugliest person in the world, and I would never find anyone. I hated my race, I hated racism, and I thought I was going to die an old bitter man.

Originally Posted by DeeryTheDeer

when I start to gradually remember things that oppose that narrative, like my coworkers saying hi to me unprovoked, and being really sad about me leaving to go to a new job, or my mom or sister bringing something home for me every once in a while that I didn't ask for. It's so tempting for my negative brain to scoff away, reject and forget about little pieces like that and pretend nobody cares about me.

In fact, I went to a friend's birthday party once at a club, and this really hot guy started grinding with me on the dance floor (I didn't mind). We talked to each other off the dance floor and things were going well, so I asked for his number and he gave it to me to put on my phone. I later told my mom and sister about this and they thought he was being creepy and disrespectful. That really poured cold water on my excitement. I care too much what they think apparently. After a while, I thought maybe it wouldn't be the best idea to go after him- in fact I didn't want to get hurt. So, hesitantly, I deleted the phone number and never called or texted him. Now I think, maybe I should have just gone for it. I feel bad for leading him on and then dropping him like that. This is one of those instances that I need to stop conveniently forgetting about when I whine to myself that I'll never find a guy who wants me.

People are always going to have their opinions about a situation. What really matters is if you're affected by it or not. I know a looooong time ago (probably my Psylis days) I made a post in the help section about dancing with girls who I can't seem to get a date out of. LOL, I couldn't help but think of that. There have been "oh we both were drunk...had fun, and that was it", but there also have been moments where I met someone that seemed mentally physically, and spiritually a match....only to never meet up again, or only once again. I don't know....life is crazy.

Rave: Sorry guys, don't mean to trivialize or anything, but I am REALLY glad I don't have to worry about the dating scene.
I would get with whoever. I'm not picky at all. Usually, I'd go for people I thought who needed me (not wanted, loved or desired me).
But unless I'm told to be exclusive, I wouldn't be. I can love too many people. Then loyalties and time and love is questioned and it's just too much of a heartache and hassle (hurting other people hurts me more than it should, so I just avoid people).

No rants here. The bugs have been leaving me alone for the most part (I wake with one bite instead of a million - yeah, it's more like 4-6 normally, but it FEELS like a million lol).
I can't get comfy. I'm either too hot or too cold- but I put on an over-shirt and I just adjust my heater with my whims.

Been farmvilling and little else. I try to time it so my farms are all ready at about the same time, but then I get decorating and rearranging things. If I did have a rant, it's that 90-95% of all farmville neighbors are useless. They never click on your feeds. And when they do, they never press "like" so you know who to thank.

I have to go to the store tonight to pick up celexa,but other than that, I'm on strike. I might take them to get food for the next few days, but other than that, Mom's Taxi is on vacation

I woke with "Nothing Else Matters" stuck in my head this morning. What a strange thing to wake to especially seeing how the last dream I recall was of walking around in a very sexy swimsuit and telling little admiring girls that they had to be much older before their moms would allow such a thing... then one mom called me a whore (which wasn't offensive for some reason) and started talking about my brother in a biker gang (no so IRL lol).

So, I've been listening to music on YouTube, which I rarely do. I'm more of a listen-to-the-radio in the car kind of person. I'm always singing something though.
I saw a link for Metallicas "Turn the Page" and I forgot how much I hated their remake so I listened to Bob Seger's.
When I sing along, it brings tears to my eyes.

Not because the music is particularly moving, but hitting certain notes in a certain way, always tears my eyes I can't mock the animals in a baby voice without tearing either. Strange.

Now I have a rant.
My bird wont stop sqwuaking. Squaking/ Squacking. Why is that word so impossible to remember Sqwawking. Nope. That's not it either. Oh well. Don't care.
Squawking. HA! Got it! Now, to remember it.

My weekend was full of happy.
So much happy that my face hurts from smiling so much.
Other parts of my body even hurt due to the happy I was feeling, but I don't even care.

Nothing like a nasty little "adult" bully though, to drag you kicking and screaming off cloud nine over some damn Swisher's.

Perhaps I was too quick to celebrate.
I don't regret it of course, but it makes me keenly aware of the consequences.
In the moment I felt unstoppable, but today I just feel helpless.

I can't cure cancer.
I can't bring my family closer together.
I can't even keep my phone bill paid.
And I damn sure can't seem to connect with anyone in my area, they always gotta be many hours away, and that makes no sense whatsoever.

What else am I incapable of?
Falling off the cloud makes me distrustful of heights.

Originally Posted by AURON

Well at least you got replies. Most girls never wrote me back, and I know they got the message, because it would show that they looked at my profile. And another thing that would kill me....I'd read a profile "I'm kinda geeky, I like computers, video games, anime, starwars etc....." Hopes would be high, and I'd get to the end of it and the last sentence would say "NO BLACK GUYS PLEASE"......

That's crazy... I've heard about people making rude "NO BLACK/FAT/ASIAN" statements like that online, but I've never actually seen it for myself. I will confess... one time I was chatting back and forth with this black guy who was kinda husky, but had pretty green eyes and lots of common interests. We had some nice conversations about things we liked. Then he asked me, "So, what guys are you normally physically attracted to?" ......... I didn't want to reply. If I was to reply truthfully, I would have said "well, usually I date white, skinny guys, but it's not a hard and fast rule"... but I didn't want to offend him or hurt his feelings. So I never replied back. His tone also came across as a little insistent, so that furthered my reaction.

It really sounds like you're attracted to the wrong guys.

Well what types of guys do I look for, then? I like guys who are intelligent and somewhat introverted like me. So far nothing has worked out. Ever. I've literally only had 1st/2nd/3rd dates my entire dating life. Never had a "boyfriend".

Interesting, I'm just trying to get into the dating thing. I'm really unsure about how to even go about it. How am I supposed to navigate between all these people that are way awesome as an introverted, inexperienced, confused little guy like me? I honestly don't even have a clue what I could put in any sort of "About me" section because I really can't think of what interests me and what I enjoy and what I'm all about. In any case, I got Tinder on my phone and so far I got two matches. One, I majorly messed up by 'replying' to her when I think she had sent a message but it was really just the app itself writing something to me, so my first message to her was super awkward. She didn't reply. The other match disappeared immediately after I sent a message that I thought was pretty good... I'm not entirely sure how to approach this at all, I feel like the proper way would definitely be something out there in the real world? I just feel so damn intimidated by my inexperience, and I know that it isn't just a mental block. It actually changes how people view me and how they'll behave around me, so it is a genuine obstacle that I don't know how to get around.

Originally Posted by DeeryTheDeer

That's crazy... I've heard about people making rude "NO BLACK/FAT/ASIAN" statements like that online, but I've never actually seen it for myself. I will confess... one time I was chatting back and forth with this black guy who was kinda husky, but had pretty green eyes and lots of common interests. We had some nice conversations about things we liked. Then he asked me, "So, what guys are you normally physically attracted to?" ......... I didn't want to reply. If I was to reply truthfully, I would have said "well, usually I date white, skinny guys, but it's not a hard and fast rule"... but I didn't want to offend him or hurt his feelings. So I never replied back. His tone also came across as a little insistent, so that furthered my reaction.

Well, I guess he was a little unsure about himself, and was seeing if you would still be interested. We all get that way at some point. I try to remind myself "well if she's talking to you, then she's interested. Don't worry about your flaws."

Originally Posted by DeeryTheDeer

Well what types of guys do I look for, then? I like guys who are intelligent and somewhat introverted like me. So far nothing has worked out. Ever. I've literally only had 1st/2nd/3rd dates my entire dating life. Never had a "boyfriend".

Don't look for any. Stay busy, stay occupied, stay active, and you'll find each other. Every single date or girlfriend I had was a random occurrence. I've tried to piece together what happened, and how it happened, and would come to the conclusion it was "fate". When in reality, it was just coincidence.

Originally Posted by Maeni

Interesting, I'm just trying to get into the dating thing. I'm really unsure about how to even go about it. How am I supposed to navigate between all these people that are way awesome as an introverted, inexperienced, confused little guy like me? I honestly don't even have a clue what I could put in any sort of "About me" section because I really can't think of what interests me and what I enjoy and what I'm all about. In any case, I got Tinder on my phone and so far I got two matches. One, I majorly messed up by 'replying' to her when I think she had sent a message but it was really just the app itself writing something to me, so my first message to her was super awkward. She didn't reply. The other match disappeared immediately after I sent a message that I thought was pretty good... I'm not entirely sure how to approach this at all, I feel like the proper way would definitely be something out there in the real world? I just feel so damn intimidated by my inexperience, and I know that it isn't just a mental block. It actually changes how people view me and how they'll behave around me, so it is a genuine obstacle that I don't know how to get around.

Just go for it. In real life, the worst a girl can say is no. In online dating, you simply get no reply. Don't sweat it, and take it one day at a time. If you ever feel frustrated about the app, or preoccupied with it, then it's probably not a good thing keep. Also you need to know exactly what you're looking for, and what you're going to do when you find them. Are you in it for a date? Casual stuff? Or are you in it for the long haul? Regardless of the case, it all starts out with a simple greeting, and at one point we're all inexperienced. We all level up differently, just try not to get down on yourself if you don't end up with the results you expect, and use any knowledge gained from it in the real world. Personally speaking, I think getting shot down all those times during my online dating experience helped me become a little more fearless when it comes to talking to women.

I couldn't tell, acatalephobic, if your post was happy or sad. It sounded like you had a great time.

My rant: Gah, bug bites are back... sort of. It's the same spot on my shoulder. I doubt the buggers are feeding on the exact same spots. More likely, I just picked the scabs and re-irritated it. My daughter said the ones on my shoulder sort of look like bed bug bites. But she said they're easy to see and nests are easy to find (she's lived in some questionable places). So, I have to take my "bed" apart and look between the blankets. Which is a friggin pain in the butt to do. I have about 5 blankets folded JUST SO to make my mattress (for lack of a better word). I only wash those every couple months. I have 2 top layer fitted sheets that I wash then my covers

I should learn to just leave my itches alone. Now, I can't bear to have shirts on my shoulders so I wear them down which just looks and feels weird.
I'm I'm now actually wearing jeans. My skirts are getting on my nerves. Cat hair keeps getting in them and then the hairs stab my skin and annoy me. I really hate skin sometimes I'm just too easily bothered and overly sensitive.

A rave is that I ordered some more coils from Amazon. After shipping and handling, it's about the same price as going to the Mall. The coils aren't supposed to arrive until Wednesday through the following Monday. So, I could've gotten them faster by just buying them at the mall on Wednesday.
What will sell me is if they're of better quality. The last batch of coils I bought were given to me in a ziplock baggy and out of 4, 2 of them were good and one of those 2 was excellent.

And now my son wont go away... chatty people always chatting...

Rant: just driving out of PetCo with some food I bought for the cats and dog, and as I wait to turn into the main road, I check for who's coming, and there's only one grey car I have to wait to pass before I merge in. Once they pass, I merge onto the main road, but as soon as that happens some huge black pickup truck is right on my ass honking for a very long time. How the fuck did it get there?? Am I really such a bad driver that I didn't see him? Or did he try to get over to my lane and not see me there? Either way, I took it VERY personally and it pissed me off.

it hurts
fuck, why does it hurt so much
invisible threads of agony: binding me, suffocating me
keeping me from reaching out
from feeling, from being

i want it to stop
but it doesn’t, and it won’t

i know it will pass
but knowing doesn’t help

i want it to stop
but i
can’t
pull
the trigger

because i know how much they’ll hurt
i’m not numb to their pain
i feel it just as keenly
i‘ve known it just as well

---

i envy their selfishness
i envy their strength

but i hate them for leaving
everyday i want them back

i imagine what they felt
and all i see is peace

until that final moment
when clarity strikes at last
a cruel burst of insight
then regret, then anguish

then light

then nothing

---

fuck
why does it hurt this much?

cascading chemicals
neurons dancing to an arrhythmic chorus

logic is meaningless
understanding: worthless

my ability to care is gone

---

i don’t know if i’ll be here tomorrow

but do any of us?




tl;dr fuck depression

I ended up doing the assignment by myself, but I'm still gonna tell the teacher about what happened.

Rant: I'm going on a school trip to Italy in 2 weeks and of course my earphones stopped working today..
I'll have to get new ones, because there's no way I'm going to survive a 13 hour bus ride without listening to music lol.

I've been getting into lucid dreaming again and I forgot how well mantras worked. In the past few nights, I woke up several times after a dream so I could write them down.
Now this morning I woke up at 7am, went downstairs to have some water and then I went back to bed. I just was lying on my stomache when all of a sudden sleep paralysis kicked in. My heart was beating incredibly fast and I felt really uncomfortable, so I decided to move my fingers to get out of it. But afterwards, I immediately regretted that decision. I probably missed out on such a great lucid dream

Deery, I sympathize. Other drivers annoy the heck out of me sometimes. Check your vehicle for blind spots. If he was there, perhaps there's a reason you didn't see him.
When I first got my car, I noticed a couple blind spots, so I stuck some bright pink yard sale dot stickers on the places, to remind myself to look more carefully. After a couple months, I didn't need the dots any more.

Mzzkc

Crashyy, glad you did the assignment Sucks about your earphones. i hope they're not too expensive!
My kids let a puppy into my room some 7 years ago or so and he chewed up an expensive set of Boise. I friggin loved those things and never have gotten another. I hate earbuds with a passion, but they're about the only thing I can afford

My rant is that I felt psychotic last night. I wore my headlamp, laid in bed, and every time I felt a tickle or a pinch, I'd pop under the covers with lights blazing to catch the culprit. Only, there was never anything there I gave up after 5-10 minutes, so my psychosis isn't severe at least
I did see some dead skin though. Perhaps that's attracting dust mites which is triggering allergies I can't wait for Tuesday to get here so I can wash everything!!!

I guess I'm getting bit elsewhere but I never notice until after i wake up. but aren't reactions fairly instant?

A rave-ish is that I get to play at being a tattoo artist this weekend. Paula bought a tattoo gun and she wants a tat on her chest but she can't do it herself. she's made the transfer, so all I have to do is trace it. It'll be interesting if nothing else
My daughter, Destinee, now has a tattoo. her first. It's really good, but it still needs a lot of work and Destinee is a big wimp she may just keep the outline before she agrees to go under the needle again.

Time to find food... Have a great day DV.

Originally Posted by DeeryTheDeer

About 5 years ago, I used to wish that I was invisible. Not only invisible, but have everybody's memory erased that I ever existed in the first place, so I would never have to feel embarrassed by other people's knowledge of my existence ever again.

Let me just say this: BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR. I am invisible now. Nobody in real life cares or notices me.

This is real life. It's the internet but it's real life. And I care about you.

Originally Posted by DeeryTheDeer

Can any guy here please explain to me the cognitive dissonance between society telling girls all their lives "If you don't have the perfect, immaculate breast, waist to hip ratio, all men will run away from you screaming with their heads on fire, and no man will ever love you or want to have sex with you until the day you die" and men saying with resentment "Women have it so easy dating compared to men. Any woman can get laid any time she asks, and all men in all corners of the city will come panting with desperation".

One of these people is lying...

If it's apparently so easy for women to date/get laid, then how come all the guys I'm attracted to ignore me?

No one is lying. I come from a position of a guy with very clear experience and knowledge of how people treat each other based on appearances.
All guys like those "perfect", model-type girls who you just want to fuck until you can't move.
It's just a fact, we all have the kind of sex drive (well, the straight ones, obviously).

But any decent guy who desires a deeper connection with a girl will go for someone based almost entirely on personality.
I say almost because looks are always important.
If you have some pretty much insignificant thing wrong with you like small boobs or ass, any decent guy will love you if you have a good personality ("good" as in matching with them, someone they like and have at least some things in common with).
If you have a big physical issue, like some small or large deformity, there are a small percentage of guys who can look past that and love you for you.

This applies to girl's feelings about guys as well, by the way.

Think about how you end up liking a guy. It's pretty much the same as how a guy ends up liking a girl.
But there a guys who will never go for you, and there are guys you will never go for.

Those guys who only like "perfect" looking women, you definitely do not want to be with them anyway.
Believe me on this. There is a primal desire to be with the best of the best,in everyone, but Zhaylin has it right (she said this a while ago). It's better to "settle".

And I don't mean settle for anyone who is capable of being with you, but settling for anyone who you really like and who likes you.

Sorry I'm fairly drunk and don't know how to end this. I've talked for far too long anyway.
Just go for a guy you connect with emotionally and someone who has a similar personality to you. You will be happy if you can learn to be content.

Oh yeah.... RAVE: I have almost finished my floatation tank! I just need to put a roof on and I'm done! Floating in infinity coming shortly lol!

Originally Posted by tommo

This is real life. It's the internet but it's real life. And I care about you.

DAAWWWW! Thanks tommo!

But there a guys who will never go for you, and there are guys you will never go for.

My dating life in a nutshell. I'm never dating online again.

I put in an offer on a second home. This is scary, ya'll.

Originally Posted by DeeryTheDeer

My dating life in a nutshell. I'm never dating online again.

Online dating sites are full of creeps anyway
I'm on project evolove. It's a personality-based dating site, so the quality of the crowd is much better. Last week I was flirting with a cute American guy. Later I convinced him that I'm a man. It started as a joke but now he doesn't want to talk to me anymore.