Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Yeah, no, I didn't make the pie this time. And no... not me.

Rant: Just got stung by something. I walked outside and saw a wild turkey attacking itself in the chrome on the trailer and I got stung in the back. I know RC moment. Oh, ha ha!

And totally sorry about jumping into that your book club thread to help someone... I probably should make a thread for other newer members. I feel bad.

Originally Posted by Lang

Yeah, no, I didn't make the pie this time. And no... not me.

Oh, bah. I meant the person who baked the pie. Never mind.. I guess it was only funny in my head.

Originally Posted by Lang

And totally sorry about jumping into that your book club thread to help someone... I probably should make a thread for other newer members. I feel bad.

Why would I mind if you posted in the book club thread? I'm glad you helped that person.

I didn't know if you were talking about the pie or the video? Sorry. I'm not him. That is what I meant. BTW, is the video not showing up?

That area on my back where I got stung is now swollen. To be honest, Not in the mood to argue with anyone.

Originally Posted by Lang

I didn't know if you were talking about the pie or the video? Sorry. I'm not him. That is what I meant. BTW, is the video not showing up?

That area on my back where I got stung is now swollen. To be honest, Not in the mood to argue with anyone.

Oh, no, it's showing up just fine.

I'm sorry about your back, Lang. I would hope you wouldn't have anyone to argue with? Sending some positive vibes your way.

Originally Posted by MoonageDaydream

Oh, no, it's showing up just fine.

I'm sorry about your back, Lang. I would hope you wouldn't have anyone to argue with? Sending some positive vibes your way.

I think those vibes worked, thank you!

Rant: It's very muggy out. Soupy dreams are not always fun dreams. At least for me. I also had one of those dreams that people were not so excepting of the way I am? I recall telling the dream characters to excepted it or fuck off. Yeah, that's what you get when you open the window when it's humid.
The video, I was hoping that people will keep thinking Critically when they are online. Never assume that something is true or you think it is coming from a credible source.

Here I go double posting...

Rant: I almost forgot where I put my Mask. I went to wash it by hand, just in case, I needed to go out somewhere. At first, I didn't know where I put it. We have other masks but, that one has a filter on it. This caused me to do an RC... Like I do other times.

And yes, I left Discord and deleted it. I just couldn't do it anymore. Everyone on there, for the most part, was cool but, I just needed a change. Sorry if people on there are wondering what happened but, It didn't feel fulfilling to me to be there. In a way, I felt like my presents there was more trouble for what it is worth.

Rave: I'm doing well in a project that I'm working on.

Well. My uncle died today. I think he's probably doing a lot better now, though.

Originally Posted by MoonageDaydream

Well. My uncle died today. I think he's probably doing a lot better now, though.

Dear, MoonageDaydream,
Please accept my deepest condolences on the loss of your uncle.
We will keep you in our thoughts and hearts.

With sympathy,
~Lang.

Thank you, although I have a feeling. Right now, he's very happy, getting barreled inside waves only we can dream of.

Very happy. Another new song done, and Dad thinks it's my best yet!

Most precognition is just a very subtle arising from known things and biases. There is real precognition and it can be heard to determine which is which with out a great deal of familiarity.

When I was in 6th grade I was playing dodge ball. I ran to get a ball by the back wall and another student body slammed me into the wall for the ball. I decided to be the bigger man and walk away. I got about 20 steps away and with out thinking anything I ducked and a ball flew over my head because the guy who pushed me into the wall had family issues at home and couldn't help but continue to be aggressive. I got smug about it and then WHAM I got hit in the back of the head by another ball from that kid. Precognition happens in a state of non thought. When I ducked there were no thoughts in my head, I was just in the moment. When I didn't duck the 2nd one I was thinking about how smug that moment made me feel.

Rant
It's hard to lucid dream or focus around here, 30 degree in my room and 40 degree outside

I need fume hood, but my parents are afraid that it will catalyze me working with very dangerous stuff that will get me killed, but that's not true. I don't think it's bad that they do, I wouldn't trust my child with that either. But I wouldn't work with stuff that'd be all that dangerous. It'd be required to work with it, but not to survive it. In case any of the gasses came out, you'd run out coughing and would have to leave the room for a while, but you don't end up with bioaccumulation or any of that stuff, it's only acute if you breathe high concentrations for a while, otherwise it all heals up again. But my mother doesn't really trust I understand the danger, which is just unfortunate, so it takes effort to make her feel comfortable with the idea.

Well, and then there's my father who thinks that you have to spend your money for "useful things" and believes I only buy stuff because I like the feeling of spending money, which he takes from the fact I buy so much, but chemistry is just a complex and expensive hobby. And I do have my own money, but he doesn't let me buy stuff anyway since he finds it frustrating because, again, he thinks I just buy things for the sake of having spent money, and that hobbies need a practical use. He just became unreasonable over time, I guess. He gets angry for very strange reasons. He's just from a harsher family, in times where your parents just punched you until you did what they wanted. He would never do such things to us though, he just gets loud and stops after half an hour of nonsensical reasoning and nearly destroying furniture. He wasn't always like this, but he's got various medical stuff that makes his day harder and over time he just didn't look so bright on life anymore. One of his medical things even makes him more aggressive, if I remember correctly, so with someone with all this shit he's pretty calm as far as I can tell. I love him, but he gets annoying quickly if you say a wrong thing. Maybe I can buy another thing this year.

You know what's also annoying? Laborhandel-Krumpholz (translated = Lab store Krumpholz (last name) ) is a lab supplier with a rich supply. I bought a gas mask from him, and ammonia didn't make me feel like my throat is on fire, so that means it's a good quality mask as far as I can tell. Package came quickly within 3 days, even with corona starting out (got one of the last couple of masks he had, luckily). But then I bought 100€ worth of distillation stuff. Well, it's been nearly exactly 4 months now. No answer. I am hoping, from the reviews of others, that it will take only 6 months to get here, so that I will have it a few days before my birthday. It's really the only store that provides exactly what I need in a price I can pay, and according to some older reviews it all worked fine a while ago.

Also, an idiot has taken control of my life since primary school and I am currently getting rid of him. His words are extremely manipulative and can turn many people into what he wants them to be. He's had many friends which left him, and now I know why they left him. He manages to make your subconsciousness like him while you hate him, and thus make it considerably harder to leave him. Then he also guilt trips you and you're his. And while you're with him he judges your profile picture, your name, which letters you capitalize.

Originally Posted by Draeger

Also, an idiot has taken control of my life since primary school and I am currently getting rid of him. His words are extremely manipulative and can turn many people into what he wants them to be. He's had many friends which left him, and now I know why they left him. He manages to make your subconsciousness like him while you hate him, and thus make it considerably harder to leave him. Then he also guilt trips you and you're his. And while you're with him he judges your profile picture, your name, which letters you capitalize.

Hoffe, es wird besser für dich.

Originally Posted by Lang

Hoffe, es wird besser für dich.

Danke. Mit der Hilfe von meinen Eltern werde ich das wohl schon schaffen. Nur blöd das er tausende Aufnahmen von mir hat. Aber Hauptsache er hält sich zukünftig aus meinem Leben raus. Kann er ja ruhig hochladen, ich erzähl dann einfach jedem das er eine schlechte Person ist und man sich nicht mit ihm anfreunden sollte.

Here in English:
Thanks. With the help of my parents, I'll be able to do it somehow. Just bad that he has thousands of recordings of me. But it's okay as long as he disappears out of my life. It wouldn't be bad if he uploaded all of it, then I'll just tell everyone what a horrible person he is and that nobody should friend him or talk to him.

Sounds like emotional blackmail? From what I have heard those kinds of people never change. Would you say that he is suffering from a Narcissistic personality disorder or Narcissistic Sociopath? It sounds like he has some of those traits. No apologies, no guilt, no remorse under any circumstance. They are cold callousness and lack of empathy for others, plus grandiose self-admiration and disdain for others equal a sociopathic narcissist who believes that they deserve to exploit people and dispose of them when finished.
I guess, just as long as you have a good relationship support system that is backing you, you would be okay. Don't be alone on this. Don't be afraid to get some professional help for yourself. Seek help if you can. Someone who can help you would be better at telling you what you should do when you are dealing with a person like that, then people here would.

Sorry, I know, this is none of my business. I'm practically a stranger. I just don't want to see you go through what I had gone through before. It's emotionally draining to deal with a person like that.

~Lang.

Originally Posted by Lang

Sounds like emotional blackmail? From what I have heard those kinds of people never change. Would you say that he is suffering from a Narcissistic personality disorder or Narcissistic Sociopath? It sounds like he has some of those traits. No apologies, no guilt, no remorse under any circumstance. They are cold callousness and lack of empathy for others, plus grandiose self-admiration and disdain for others equal a sociopathic narcissist who believes that they deserve to exploit people and dispose of them when finished.
I guess, just as long as you have a good relationship support system that is backing you, you would be okay. Don't be alone on this. Don't be afraid to get some professional help for yourself. Seek help if you can. Someone who can help you would be better at telling you what you should do when you are dealing with a person like that, then people here would.

Sorry, I know, this is none of my business. I'm practically a stranger. I just don't want to see you go through what I had gone through before. It's emotionally draining to deal with a person like that.

~Lang.

Thank you for your words. No worries, it's always encouraging when people talk to me about it and give me tips.

I'm already feeling better, slowly slipping out of the feeling of having to be his servant. Sadly, school inevitably forces me to meet him in less than 2 weeks. But I'll do it somehow.

Spoiler for Rant.... :

Rant: I know when I went to my college reunion, years ago, people were trying so hard to show how much they've changed Or how perfect their lives are when the mere "effort" screamed that they haven't. Take a high school reunion, or even people on FB for example, If you go back to high school or you friend them on Social Media, for an hour or a week, a month or so, eventually they will go back to the same roles that they had when they were in high school or in grade school. (IMO) I don't have social media anymore. I was stalked on there.

I once had a person on a forum, telling me what I should or what not to like because they didn't like that person that I liked? Among other things. And not in a "Just an Opinion way", but, forcefully, do what I say or else. Didn't sit well with me. They were a bit of a Bully/ possessive type person.

I finally, blocked that person, they whined, cried, and threw a major fit because I told them that I don't want anything to do with them. And I still don't.
I do apologize, if they thought that I cared about them in that way. I don't feel the same way they did? The whole thing just left a bad taste in my month.That person made me feel like I had to doubt myself for too long... Seriously, they had no business in telling me what to do or how to feel. Or even how to dream. The whole thing felt very weird and very stressful at the time...

I have some friends that I keep in touch from time to time. I just have a family who supports me and love who really loves me. (Off-line relationship)

Sorry, I just had to say it. I have learned my lesson to NOT to take crap from someone who is not going to truly let me be myself, or the way I am or let me dream?

Sorry, that is a lot... Yeah, that was my rant for the day.
That was in my past. I guess the only thing I can do is to be positive, look to the future, move on and hope that I will stay strong...

I am gonna get fume hood. I now have the power to do the chemistry. The fume shall be hooded outside.

In all seriousness, time for carcinogens, light poisons and hyper corrosive stuff, for those of them that fume. That's the real chemistry. Time to update my signature and title.

Originally Posted by Draeger

I am gonna get fume hood. I now have the power to do the chemistry. The fume shall be hooded outside.

In all seriousness, time for carcinogens, light poisons and hyper corrosive stuff, for those of them that fume. That's the real chemistry. Time to update my signature and title.

Good for you, I am sure you will have lots of fun with that. I hope you don't mind if I share a story. It reminds me of when I was in college, taking chemistry lab. It was our final exam. Yes, we had a fume hood to do our experiment. See, normally, we worked in groups of 3, and because I am ridiculously clumsy, I always did the math, the other two girls handled the glassware. But for our final, we had to work alone. There was this one rule. If you had a chemical spill on you, you had to go use the shower, and you automatically failed your exam because you couldn't retake it!! And if you fail the exam, you automatically fail the course. So of course, during my final, I spilled sodium hydroxide all over my hand. OUCH. So... instead of failing chemistry lab, I just kept discreetly going over to the sink to wash my hands, and hide my agony. My hand was red for days.

I passed my exam though

Be careful. Dude. There was very bad explosion in Lebanon today. There are 30 people are dead and around 2,500 injured from the explosion.

Originally Posted by MoonageDaydream

Good for you, I am sure you will have lots of fun with that. I hope you don't mind if I share a story. It reminds me of when I was in college, taking chemistry lab. It was our final exam. Yes, we had a fume hood to do our experiment. See, normally, we worked in groups of 3, and because I am ridiculously clumsy, I always did the math, the other two girls handled the glassware. But for our final, we had to work alone. There was this one rule. If you had a chemical spill on you, you had to go use the shower, and you automatically failed your exam because you couldn't retake it!! And if you fail the exam, you automatically fail the course. So of course, during my final, I spilled sodium hydroxide all over my hand. OUCH. So... instead of failing chemistry lab, I just kept discreetly going over to the sink to wash my hands, and hide my agony. My hand was red for days.

I passed my exam though

What a stupid rule... even as a professional chemist you always spill chemicals on you, otherwise they wouldn't need gloves, so why don't students get to make mistakes? But I am not going to experience chemistry until university anyway. My current chemistry teacher is really, really easy to anger, and also has, to say the least, really idiotic ways of teaching. Well, and he also looks like he has given up on happiness since it's like hate and fear follow him in and out of the room and it's the worst lessons with my chaotic classmates. Well, and he's going to put us next to burners as our first experiment (first experiment in years of math and german lessons, which is apparently a thing one does in chemistry lessons now). If I am lucky I'll be put with any girls, who are nearly all sane people. If I am put with some specific arrangement of boys, I am going to discretely write my last will, since they will set the gas supply of the school on fire and detonate the entire pathway to the next gas supplier, and in their last moments hold another guys head into the bellowing flames of hell that will be spreading throughout the room.

Well, to the sodium hydroxide thing, ouch. I hope you didn't have any horrible scars from that. Funnily enough, my hands nearly start like bleeding if I put any sort of soap on them but withstand hydrochloric acid, bleach and sodium hydroxide, and like anything else except concentrated sulfuric acid for more than 10 minutes with itching at most. Only thing that hurt me yet was copper(II)-chloride for some reason. Was lucky not to have the latter on my hand yet.

Originally Posted by Lang

Be careful. Dude. There was very bad explosion in Lebanon today. There are 30 people are dead and around 2,500 injured from the explosion.

No worries. Not like I'm making isocyanogen tetraazide. The biggest explosion that could happen would just get sucked up by my fan before it reaches me, and any shrapnel would be caught by a plexiglass pane I'd have put in front of it, and it would only be accidental because of flammable fluids or gasses in small scale. So, again, no worries, I am careful.

Originally Posted by Draeger

What a stupid rule... even as a professional chemist you always spill chemicals on you, otherwise they wouldn't need gloves, so why don't students get to make mistakes? But I am not going to experience chemistry until university anyway. My current chemistry teacher is really, really easy to anger, and also has, to say the least, really idiotic ways of teaching. Well, and he also looks like he has given up on happiness since it's like hate and fear follow him in and out of the room and it's the worst lessons with my chaotic classmates. Well, and he's going to put us next to burners as our first experiment (first experiment in years of math and german lessons, which is apparently a thing one does in chemistry lessons now). If I am lucky I'll be put with any girls, who are nearly all sane people. If I am put with some specific arrangement of boys, I am going to discretely write my last will, since they will set the gas supply of the school on fire and detonate the entire pathway to the next gas supplier, and in their last moments hold another guys head into the bellowing flames of hell that will be spreading throughout the room.

Well, to the sodium hydroxide thing, ouch. I hope you didn't have any horrible scars from that. Funnily enough, my hands nearly start like bleeding if I put any sort of soap on them but withstand hydrochloric acid, bleach and sodium hydroxide, and like anything else except concentrated sulfuric acid for more than 10 minutes with itching at most. Only thing that hurt me yet was copper(II)-chloride for some reason. Was lucky not to have the latter on my hand yet.





No worries. Not like I'm making isocyanogen tetraazide. The biggest explosion that could happen would just get sucked up by my fan before it reaches me, and any shrapnel would be caught by a plexiglass pane I'd have put in front of it, and it would only be accidental because of flammable fluids or gasses in small scale. So, again, no worries, I am careful.

Okay.

And MoonageDaydream sorry, I didn't see you there. That sounds painful!

The storm is bad here. Storm warning. A tree just came down right outside my house. If it went the other way it would have hit the house and me. Would be surprised if the power goes out.

Rave: My stitches came out today. I slipt on the ladder a week ago and cut my side open on the sharp edge of the ladder. I bleed a lot.

Originally Posted by Draeger

What a stupid rule... even as a professional chemist you always spill chemicals on you, otherwise they wouldn't need gloves, so why don't students get to make mistakes? But I am not going to experience chemistry until university anyway. My current chemistry teacher is really, really easy to anger, and also has, to say the least, really idiotic ways of teaching. Well, and he also looks like he has given up on happiness since it's like hate and fear follow him in and out of the room and it's the worst lessons with my chaotic classmates. Well, and he's going to put us next to burners as our first experiment (first experiment in years of math and german lessons, which is apparently a thing one does in chemistry lessons now). If I am lucky I'll be put with any girls, who are nearly all sane people. If I am put with some specific arrangement of boys, I am going to discretely write my last will, since they will set the gas supply of the school on fire and detonate the entire pathway to the next gas supplier, and in their last moments hold another guys head into the bellowing flames of hell that will be spreading throughout the room.

Well, to the sodium hydroxide thing, ouch. I hope you didn't have any horrible scars from that. Funnily enough, my hands nearly start like bleeding if I put any sort of soap on them but withstand hydrochloric acid, bleach and sodium hydroxide, and like anything else except concentrated sulfuric acid for more than 10 minutes with itching at most. Only thing that hurt me yet was copper(II)-chloride for some reason. Was lucky not to have the latter on my hand yet.





No worries. Not like I'm making isocyanogen tetraazide. The biggest explosion that could happen would just get sucked up by my fan before it reaches me, and any shrapnel would be caught by a plexiglass pane I'd have put in front of it, and it would only be accidental because of flammable fluids or gasses in small scale. So, again, no worries, I am careful.

Oh wow, you really do seem older than you are. I figured you were a college chemistry student or someone who works in chemistry. Please, please be careful. And don't do what I did. It was stupid. Yes, the rule was stupid, too, but not worth permanent damage (although I did get lucky and it healed up. Now that I think about it, I think it took a couple weeks). I should have used the shower, and then taken it up with administration. I certainly would do so now, I would NEVER do what I did then.

I have to say this. Coming from a science teacher and a mom. I would not be buying a fume hood and working with dangerous chemicals while still in high school. You have plenty of time to continue your chemistry experiments when you're older and wiser, and with a few more courses in chemistry under your belt. Right now, you need to continue learning the basics from that teacher that you don't like so much. You may not like him, but he has a lot he can teach you. Over-confidence is dangerous.