I'm one of those people who's afraid of literally everything. At nighttime, I'm always very jumpy, and I still sleep with the light on occasionally. I love lucid dreaming though, and have been lurking this sight since the summer, and I've had a couple of DILDS, but I really wanna WILD. I've tried initiating SP in the morning when its light outside, and I've felt that wave of vibrations before, but i've never heard voices, and I always got too excited and couldn't continue.
Until last night- I woke on accident at three in the morning, when my cat had to go out. I got back in bed, and was really sleepy. I immediately felt SP kick in, but i've never had it this bad, I closed my eyes and saw a blue circle turn firey red, then felt my heart pound, but when I opened my eyes again, I saw a large black monster sitting on my chest- heard voices, and weird distortions in my room and I tried to scream, but couldn't- and I tried to shake it off, but my body was frozen. it almost felt like I was dreaming. I was eventually thrusted into a completely unrelated dream.
The day after I had that episode, I was so excited, because I was sure that if I tried it again that night, I could get into a lucid dream. But then when night time came arround, I turned into my usual paranoid self, and now, even being by my bed terrifies me.
TL;DR version: Want to WILD, sleep paralysis is scary! How do I make it a little less scary for myself?
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