Thread: Tell me about weird things you do/mental conditions you have.

When I go outside I have to check a lot of times if I have all my clothes on. I've some fear of looking at my feet and realizing I went out with slippers

Hehehe...cool. Does this have anything to do w/ your dreams?

Okay. Let's make the little confession.

I have Schizotypal Personality Disorder. Schizotypal Personality Disorder is believed to be on the schizophrenia "spectrum" and is primarily defined by odd beliefs and behaviors as well as a poor rapport with others. I am nothing but "whackjob quirks". I could write a huge amount of things I do/believe/perceive that would be considered odd and whackjob.

I guess I can say dreaming-wise, before I moved to a place that didn't allow burning things, I used to burn incense as soon as I woke up to mourn the passing of the people I met in my dreams.

i get random giggles and laugh attacks. i'll be walking down the streets and out of nowhere i'll start laughing. even at my job, it will be quiet then all of a sudden i'll burst out in laughter.

I have mild OCD, nothing too serious but occasionally I need to recheck things, like I always have to check to make sure I have my keys every 20 minutes while out, and when I go to bed, I set my alarm, then reset it like a dozen times to make sure it is set. I also randomly have to align things just right. Which is odd because I have a huge clutter in my room, and everything is disorganized and a mess. Things are all over the place and nothing is neat at all, it is just chaos, and I don't mind. But then, I have like a sticky note laying on my desk, and I feel a need to perfectly align it to the front of the desk, so it is parallel with it. Nothing else is parallel, but I need that one paper to be.

It is very mild though, and I don't think anyone even notices that I have OCD, since it doesn't really effect my life. Though it is kind of funny, because I always wash things to a really high degree and things like spots on silverware bugs me. So people probably think I am OCD with cleaning plates and silverware and stuff, but even though I act kind of OCD about cleaning those things, I don't think it is related to my OCD. In that one specific case, I think it is just a personal preference and I have a high standard for things I might put in my mouth or my food on.

Physically, I have Ehlers-Danlos Disease Hypermobility Type with the possibility of a bit of the Vascular Type. I've always been fairly flexible. But that's about it. I have loose joints and have to be careful not to dislocate anything and I can have early onset ostoarthritis. My joints have ached or hurt since I was in my teens. I'm one of the lucky ones as I've only broken 2 bones throughout my lifetime and both were because of falls. But my bio-dad and his mom both had brain aneurisms which tells me we may have some vascular cross-over because anuerisms aren't supposed to be hereditary.

Mentally, I supposedly have anxiety. Personally, I think I'm a highly sensitive person because I don't feel distressed or "anxious" about things just overwhelmed to the point of falling asleep. I have a very high level of empathy and can read subtle body language naturally. I'm not emotional about it. I don't cry or things like that when other people are distressed. I'm a fixer. I try to intuit what needs to be done and I become anxious (in a restless/physically uncomfortable way) if I can't do anything to help. I abhor chaos. So helping other people, in no way is altruistic. It's selfishly motivated. By helping others, *I* feel at peace.

The other weird thing I do is that I almost always have a baby wipe in my hand. I buy cheap baby wipes, place them in an old Cottonell container (before cottonell went to crap and made all of theirs flushable), and then I pour 91% rubbing alcohol over them. I'm not afraid of germs. It's just that I hate the feel of dirt. If my hands feel dirty or sticky, I can wipe them whenever I wish. But it's a self-perpetuating problem. Without a wipe in my hand, my hands dry out and the residue of the wipe makes my hand feel dirty, so I have to wipe I go through about $3. of wipes a week (around 252 wipes a week). A tall bottle of alcohol will last a couple of months though. I don't drench the wipes.

I also have a tad OCD. I'm always rechecking to make sure I have my car keys. I locked my keys in the car once, several years ago, so I guess I'm just afraid of doing it again.
I also have the intrusive thoughts associated with OCD but I usually keep those under control.

I've been on Zoloft for anxiety/panic disorder since I was 12. Supposedly I might have ADD; I think I'm just lazy and bored because the pace of school is so slow.

I hum tunes to myself all the time. Sometimes I don't realise I'm doing it until someone says, "Cut that out!"

I don't do the things I actually want to do just because of laziness. Like brushing my teeth, training, doing some homework (yes I do, because if I don't I will not get a diploma) getting a #$"#% job and go back to playing the violin already. Hold my toilet needs until the last moment just because I don't feel like letting go of my laptop or pausing my game Sometimes this results in both toilets being in use and me being in trouble

I leave the house without shoes on more often than not, I recently stopped biting my nails but now picked up the habit of biting the skin off of my lips, I have mood swings probably every 4 to 6 months, I have self diagnosed myself with anxiety after realizing how much I overthink every interaction I have ever had with a human being, and I Google every problem I ever experience probably not helping with the self diagnosing.

I have the tendency to growl unintentionally when I get mad. One time at college during breakfast, I was filling up a cup with orange juice and a guy came next to me and began get himself a drink. I immediately growled being ever so disturbed and pissed to all Hell as my immediate reaction made me distance myself from him and continue on my way. I usually have this tendency to explicitly distance myself from people whenever they get too close to me physically, I get a horrible vibe and my comfort level freezes over when they're around a certain perimeter. But mainly just the majority of humanity. Usually if I see an attractive guy, mainly those with a goth-like appearance or someone I have became VERY close friends with, then that negative vibe is nonexistent.

I also have really bad ptsd and anxiety ever since I was around 14. Being bullied and discriminated throughout my life is mostly the blame for this. Being physically and verbally abused for my sexual interests, beliefs, my love for Shadow, and even the kind of music I like and so on. And though not always but at most times the littlest of things can turn me down causing me to tighten up, cry, shiver, sweat, yell, having little to no control of the negative thoughts that spiral through my mind and so on.

A joke, a picture, a scene from a movie, a conversation, certain words like hallucination and weirdness feel like a needle piercing my heart as there is this terrible non-physical pain that takes forever to ease down, this is due to of course things I dealt with in the past an what people have associated me with those particular things with.

I also hate the smell of my mother believe it or not. I find it disgusting and I get into a frenzy whenever I am forced to wear something of her's as it's extremely uncomfortable and I feel like I'd vomit (I'm glad she's not forcing me to wear her clothes again). She, to everyone else doesn't smell bad etc. and she probably wouldn't to any of you. But I think it's just the fact that she has became one of the most evil individuals in my life and that I really despise her and like a dog, the scent of someone I hate makes me furious.

All of this are things I hate living with but I do not agree seeking psychological help or pill usage since they are things that have also caused me to have ill thoughts and attacks. But Hell, I'm still kicking it up to this day...surprisingly...

I also sometimes smell non-existent things like as if someone is smoking, or something is burning at random times.

When it comes to romantic relationships, I have a fairly bad fear of abandonment, this I think comes from a mixture of my foster car upbringing from ages 2-5, and the fact that I've had lots of people leave me without so much as an explanation. It's not that I'm afraid of being alone, once a relationship ends, yeah, it hurts a lot but I'm able to deal with the pain in (usually) healthy ways. I just hate the idea that I'm putting in 100% of my heart and soul into a relationship and that the other person doesnt give so much as a shit and could just end it at any time without a second guess, I'm a relationship oriented person that knows what I want and I have a hard time believing that someone's feelings for me are real even if I'm told they are.

Originally Posted by Astaroth

When I go outside I have to check a lot of times if I have all my clothes on. I've some fear of looking at my feet and realizing I went out with slippers

You should move to Hawaii...everyone goes out in slippahs! Although, technically they're flip flops so it would potentially worsen your fear out of pure confusion.

I have a lot of quirks, but perhaps the strangest is one is that whenever I'm listening to someone speak or sing I unconsciously air-write in cursive the words that I hear...or I air-type (with my hands in whatever natural position they were already in) and all my fingers twitch. It's really bizarre...but it's made me really good at spelling!