RelaxAndDream

can´t remember why i got lucid but here i am and i start flying i am high enough to see different islands and states. there is a big part of an island that is grayish censored. for some reason i think this is the google map of america and Vietnam has censored it so america cant look it up. i fly there and up close it looks like everything is covered with grey snow or something similar. also there are a lot of climbing shoes [not too long ago i saw a "black mirror" episode where they could block people so they got grayish and one couldnt hear them; also i send my climbing shoes to get repaired and the package is missed so that probably how this theme came up].

i remember my goals that i loosely came up with before i fell asleep. i want to meditate so i fly and look for a good place to do so. there are several platforms some are skew. i land on a platform and see someone i know that is further down doing something. i dont want to get distracted so i ignore him. i rub my hands to prepare then i sit down. this time i let my eyes open and focus on my breathing. i want to unfocus my eyes but only seconds after this attempt a guy i know? is climbing up to my platform. i wave with my hand to signal him i dont want him here but to late he is there and we start talking. i know him from my past but i dont remember his name. he tells me a name but its not familiar but i remember to know him from school and that he was in b class. we are on a small something on water. he turns into a child and i fly away. i want to go down a chimney to complete a TOTM. everything changes into comic visuals and i feel like watching instead of actively participate and decide what i do. i fly to a building stand in front of the chimney and throw down something like a bomb. i see third person from inside the building outside of the room. the room is burning and several people are there burning and running away. i slide down and run out of the room. a line of fire emerge out of my shoes wherever i run. some more bad guys start burning and die. i fight one with bare hands, enter another room and freeze another one with an ice blast. i find myself outside again and the comic theme is gone. ok this probably wont count for the TOTM...

i start another attempt and start flying. this time flying is more difficult. i am pretty slow and i feel like i get soaked to one direction. i kick of on a building wall and float to a big building looking like a very old church. the stone is oxidized like in a cave. my hand touches a wall that sounds hollow. ah this must be an chimney. i fly up a little and find the opening. i look into the chimney and it looks buried. i try to open it up with telekinesis but its not working. nevermind i think and just jump feet first in and slide down. i find myself in a kitchen. i have a small paper bag in my hand. i look outside the kitchen and see a room where a kid is sleeping on a couch. i open the paper bag and put out several tomatoes. a cat that looks like mine back at my families house walks around me and attacks my leg and stuff. i push it out and close the door to the kitchen. i want to morph the tomatoes into something nicer but seconds after i closed the door it opens again and my mother, looking slightly crazy and tired with a cigarette in her hand [she is a non smoker] approaching me yelling something. i hold my hand in front of my like i want her to stop but she just pushes the cigarette in my hand and it burns i walk backwards and phase out of the window and wall but she is holding me so my hand is stuck with her in the kitchen. she still yelling something at me. i manage to release myself from her grip and with a wave of my hand i erase her memory she is confused but shortly after she gets hostile again. i feel like i completed the task anyways and dont bother to wake up so i dont forget anything.

i finally managed to get lucid in a low effort way since i am back from india. the last days i even had problems remembering dreams at all...
even tho the lucid was nothing too special it felt like coming back. "wow i can do everything again, what to pick...?!"

after several awakings this morning where i was struggling with recall i finally had a short clear dreamlet after waking with which i could work. i evaluated the dream and what was odd and where i should have become lucid and felt asleep again:

i find myself in a car ride. the driver uses a headset that is connected to something similar like a walkman but more futuristic and fancy. i assume he is learning a new language and listening to lectures. but he doesnt repeat or say anything. we park in a garage and i ask him what language he is learning. he tells me the name and i dont know the language at all. i talk to someone else? who tells me it is exactly the same language like English? or something. i move away and find myself in a building.
i pass a Pinboard and notice our workplan. i pin it off the wall and wonder why it is here because i am in a unknown place in a different city or something? i approach a guy and talk shortly about the piece of paper i hold in my hands. he says something odd and goes away. this triggers my lucidity and i do a nosepinch. i turn around and have the TOTMS immediately in my head.
first i want to find my smartphone. i move around a corner and expect the phone to be there. just 2 feet away from the first place i look i notice my phone on the floor. i pick it up and do the standard waking move: turn on the display to see the time. the display turns on and it looks like my typical background but where normally the clock would be there is just empty space. it doesnt bother me. now i need someone to call me. i shortly hold it in my hands and see if someone calls but i dont try hard enough because three girls approach me. for some reason i just ask one of the girls if they could call me. she nods. but then the thought strikes me... "you need my number right?" i take her phone and dial my number. at the end there is no button call but continue. i hit that button and give her phone back. at that point i already think that this might not be the right approach to get the task done but i go with the flow now.
i feel like it would be stupid to stand next to her so i walk away around a corner into a room. on the way i notice some other rooms. they look like offices but for some reason there is a lot of women cloths like bras and underwear and stuff. so i move into a normal looking room and then hold the phone to my ear. i hear no ringing. for some reason i feel like jumping of the balcony head first straight down to the ground. i enjoy the feeling of acceleration. i still hold the phone to my ear and suddenly hear a voice. we talk shortly some nonsense like: "hey whats up" and "i come back to you". i start flying and fly up back to the balcony. i enter the building again and now one girl is standing around. i cant tell if she is one of the three from before. we walk back and i ask or tell her that i found it weird that there is so much cloths stuff in those offices? we approach one and there is a hot babydoll. i ask her if she could wear it and she agrees in general. i think that it might need to long to change her cloth that i would loose precious dreamtime but on the other hand there probably would be a shortcut for this. for some reason we agree on not changing cloths and i remind the other task i want to get done.
i tell her i look for my glasses and start looking around on the ground. i also put one hand in her pocket to see if it is maybe there. i see something similar like my glasses on the ground but its just a pattern of the floor what i find interesting because it looks like a optical illusion. i continue looking around and shortly after i find my waking life glasses on the ground. i notice that i already wear a pair of glasses (i can see a light frame around my visual field) i put on the glasses and i have slightly the feeling of seeing a litte sharper than before but the effect is maginal. [sadly i expected this effect already because i wear glasses in waking life so for me glasses make me see better. i might test this with a different pair of glasses like sunglasses or a "special" pair of glasses] . i see a guy standing on a closet. he says something. i approach him and intend to push him thru the wall behind him. i push him and he phases thru the wall the feet still on our side. i explain to the girl that it was nothing bad and that it didnt hurt him. that is cool i can not only phase myself thru stuff but also others, good to know.
now there are no goals left. so what to do? i find myself on a street. i think about to visit a desert and some pyramids. i had some medium success with flying and phasing thru several buildings and with this "teleport" or change the dreamscenery completely. i think about if i really need to want to visit a special place or if i just can make one up and fly there. i look around and see a plane. i remember some old TOTMS and decide to fly in direction of the plane. i pass thru some trees with not too much space in between them and i worry what might be behind them. and fair enough behind the trees there is only dense fog and nothing to see. i decide to fly straight to the ground and fly through the earth and come out on the opposite side. i cant see anything so i concentrate on the sound of acceleration and the feeling. everything gets darker and at some point i feel like i should be through and flying "up" again and suddenly i see some buildings around me. i walk shortly and decide to fly on a balcony. while i start flying and feel slightly problems with flying i feel like waking up but i dont fight it and just awake happy with my latest lucid dream that hooked me again to invest a little more effort in getting lucid and doing cool goals.

Tonight i finally could sleep in as long i wanted after some hard days of work. before i got to bed i looked up the totms of this month. i wanted to do the book of secrets, changing weather and switching to black and white.

i wake up at night and remember a dream where i started throwing fireballs. i didnt get lucid but this is always a good sign that my awareness is higher than usual. i stand up, go to the toilet and set my intention.
i fall asleep and i have a dream where i am in a building. i have some trouble with someone? i go out and in front of the building a car is parked. i notice that i have an item in my hands. like a thing that you can use to plug in two headphones in one port. but instead i go to the wheels and stick it into the valve and let out the air. i go to the front wheel. here i have to screw of the cap first and repeat it. here you go.
i stand up and walk down the street. it is night. im thinking what to do next and this moments of reflection make me lucid. i start flying and fly close to the street straight thru different buildings. i phase thru all with ease. but now i start to worry that i might loose control because the scenery is changing so fast. i slow down and find myself now high in the air. i keep flying and look for a good spot to do the advanced task. i want something in the nature. i fly over a small hill with threes and a meadow. i land there and while landing i think about how i get snow and suddenly touching the ground everything around me is white. a lot of snow is lying around. but it seems like it snowed days ago. the snow is not fresh and slowly starts melting. i feel the cold around me. i seem to wear a pullover. i touch some of the snow. it is cold but not as could as ice should be. okay how i change the weather now? i look around. there are no leaves on the trees. i try to will better weather but i accept that this wont work "okay maybe i can swipe of the snow" i think and start swiping around and i manage to make the snow disappear right infront of my eyes. my swiping gestures gets bigger because this method seem to be very slowly but the parts i can make disappear gets bigger and bigger. after some time nearly no snow is there anymore. but it seems that this does not really change the atmosphere to a nice warm day...i approach a small naked plant. i will her to start growing and it does. it gets a little bigger and some branches start to spring. but its not enough.i pause and fly up again thru different stuff and find myself in a room again. i jump out and fly down again and suddenly i see full colors of green. i smash into the ground and find myself on a healthy and well nourished meadow. i see a lot of clover. wow the weather changed. i get up and look around and the trees start to bloom. i notice that its pretty comfy and warm. i wear a t-shirt now. i look into the sky and i see full orange and yellow tones of color at the horizon. i start with some gestures because its still kind of night. i want to make the sun appear. the full red and orange colors raise a little but instead of a sun i manage to rise some bright glowing stars. i make them disappear again and try again but now different symbols of the sun appear at the sky. some numbers appear next to them. okay so no typical sun nevermind. i let it go but notice that its gotten brighter.
K. starts to move in bed slightly and my attention shifts to my waking body. i keep calm and concentrate on the dream. i hear a voice talking and i start to engage my dreambody. it seems to work but seconds later the church bells start pretty loudly. so i woke up and make mental notes of this lucid.

i fall asleep shortly after and i think i have a short nld. K.´s alarm clock goes of around 30min later. she gets up and i put in my earplugs and my sleeping mask. i lay there not too comfy. i feel like i fall slowly asleep but i notice that my arm is not comfortable. i change the position of my arm and instantly i find myself in a dream lucid. wow was this a wild?
i am in a building with high ceilings. i jump around a little on different hights. i find it interesting that no matter how high something is when you aim for it and jump up you always get high enough.
after some climbing at some metal beam i decide to think about the totms again. "okay what was the basic one i wanted to do?" at first i cant remember but then i do: find the book of secrets. i look down and instantly see two bookshelves. i am pretty happy with the fact how easily i summoned the shelves. i jump down and look into the first one. different books and magazines. some seem to look like waking ones i own. but nowhere there is secrets written on it. i look into brownish one. its a empty book i got by a friend of mine. it looks pretty similar. outside is written something like: treasure or safe or something. not secrets but in a way related to the sense of this word. i look inside and only on the first side are some notes. it looks private. something about bondage*another word* i have the feeling its not what i am looking for and close the book but open it again. the layout of the notices have changed a little but for some reason i dont keep reading but close the book and start to look in the other bookshelf. again it seems like i recognize some books. one looks like the black dream yoga book. for some reason i think i dont have to pick them up because i know them already...[to sad now when i think about it it would be very interesting to read some more and see what there is]

some part i dont remember. i dont know if following was in same dream or another.

i am lucid and i think about what to do next. i try to make my dream black and white. i am in a room and dont know how to start. for some reason i summon money out of my pocket. first there is only a used tissue but after get it out a lot of money is around. i think i asked a dc to give me some glasses that change my perseption into black and white. he give me a pair of glasses where one glass is a little brownish. i look at him and ask him "this will work?" he nods. i put them on and my vision changes. it gets a little darker and the colors get full and high contrast but not black and white. i put them of and next to me are different ones. i put them on but again not black and white. "hm" i start with swiping again to get ride of the color. it works in some way. everything i swipe over gets darker and less colorfull but a plant for example is still greenish in the end. i dont get it completely black and white. nevertheless the effects i created was pretty cool.

again memory hole.

i think what totm i could to and remember the other basic totm. i am sitting in a chair like in a bus. i turn around and there are two girls sitting. i excuse myself for interrupting and ask one of them to tell me a totm that i should do AFTER i wake up, she looked confused at first but then tells me an easy math calculation. [i cant remember the equation anymore] i tell her there has to be a better totm and she stands up and goes somewhere. now we room. i fly thru some walls where i think she is and we talk again but i dont remember what.