The Dream Magic Experiment

I dreamed that I was in a town. I was there supposedly for vacation. I was with some people. For some reason, I was attracted to one of the guys. I hugged him from behind, and we were like a couple. We took a tricycle somewhere, near the beach, a house. Later on, however, I can't seem to remember his face. Or I mistook one guy for him. I can't seem to find him anymore.

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Notes:

- This is one of those dreams with longer notes than dream content. I wish I could remember more of my dream. It seemed important. I didn't do incubation, but I couldn't get the issue at hand out of my head.

- I woke up in a panic, but it may not be due to this dream. I thought I was going to be late for work or school. It's been years since I was required to be on time for work or school. (anxiety of making a decision soon before it's too late, long-term consequences)
- I've been experiencing anxiety these last few days because I have to decide something big, something that barely has any benefit to me except to live with a guy I like very much. He didn't let on whether he likes me back or not... he just needed someone to share the rent in a new place, I think... ("vacation" and hugging a guy, other people were inconsequential in the dream)
- There are a lot of risk on my part: I will have to move all of my stuff, pay another deposit and advance in the new place, be farther from commute areas (especially train). I'm also emotionally involved (seems that he isn't), so if ever he dates a guy (who isn't me), I'd be devastated. But I'll be stuck in the same place, so I can't take a time-out. He, on the other hand, might be able to by simply staying at the guy's place or even his home.
- If he moves out, I'll be stuck in the place or have to find a new place (so it's another move). Staying would be problematic because the only reason I'm moving in the first place is because he's there. If he's no longer there, why would I stay? The place itself has no benefit for me, except that it's the hub for yuppies, and even then, so what? ("I can't seem to find him anymore")
- ... I think I'm starting to understand the dream now... (notes in the parentheses above were added after this line)

Home with some people. Before that we were in a school. Then suddenly home. I recognized Castel and a few others. Then one I mistook for Barera was actually Jake. Talked how to fix a clock? A cooking clock-like thing. The food is more delicious. Lico was there. Jake asked if he could buy something. Told him we have to wait. Not sure if I have the key. He said he has. Was surprised mom would trust it to him. Checked key to make sure. Asked Lico if he can "guard" the house. Raincoat. Jake has umbrella. Prepared a raincoat for him just in case. Mall. Bridges. Crossed. Lilibeth(?) us. Andy. Ken-kun was there. Bought him a yellow pad for something. Another guy was there. Was troubled he has white shirt. He said something about a shoot out. I consoled and hugged him. He hugged back then seeming troubled again, he ran out. What happened. Our friends asked. Told them. One guy/gay joked I scored. Punched (or tried?) him for the stupid joke. I was concerned. The others told him off for his tasteless joke.