Linkzelda's Dream Journal

10.04.2014

Gunpoint, Scammed, and Building my Way Up for Revenge (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Things start out at an open-field environment that seems to mix around the usual large park setting, and a skateboarding park as well. I’m near an individual that looks like he’s African-American, and is wearing a black shirt along with either white shorts, or regular jeans.

He slowly turns around, and shows a gun, and now I’m at gunpoint. I try not to react to quickly, slowly trying to make the conversation casual, and less likely for the dream character to try and do something rash. He keeps pestering me with threats, and seems to be only using the gun as a means to make his words known without anyone questioning them.

This prompts me to slowly walk backwards while feigning as if I’m afraid, and the moment I found a way to run, and have him have a difficult time if he were to shoot me, I took the opportunity immediately. I didn’t hear gunshots, though something about this interaction makes me have feelings as if I want to encounter this individual again, mostly due to something they did to another individual.

I’m not too sure which individual they caused harm, or even death to, but feelings of revenge started piling up, and feeling a sense of incompetence of not being able to save the individual because I was left empty handed to try and protect myself. The transitioning in the dream is a bit shaky, mostly due to me not really taking the time to recall it in detail the moment I woke up from it.

The dream shifts to where I somehow land inside a large maroon van, which feels kind of awkward since I was in the process of trying to reflect what happened before I escaped from gunpoint. There’s two females I believe that I have a conversation with, and I don’t know what was stated, but I believe I finally recollected what occurred before, and shared my story with them.

They seemed to have been sympathetic for me, and offered me some money to get by, which either implies they knew I would probably want to get back at the other individual, or whatever was stated in my story, the individual that was harmed by the enemy, in this case, probably was of essential help. Whatever the case, I thank them, and had intentions of going to a weapon store, since I felt the individual I’m after couldn’t have gone far.

But with the logic of dreams, sometimes when you feel so close to something, or someone, you’re literally thousands of miles away, or implied to be in a completely different circumstance, which kind of throws plot development out of the window. For some reason, when I tried to get to a weapons store, I felt as if I was scammed by someone, maybe the same women I talked to, when they stated the money was either fake, or something like that.

Seeing how there’s too much going on, I decided to use whatever money I had in my wallet, and invest in going to a hotel to see how I would assess the circumstances I’m having to deal with right now. I still feel like I’m inside a vehicle, waiting for whoever is driving to arrive at a destination for a hotel I could go into.

And the environment itself resembled a city where there's elevated train tracks.

I can't recall what happens next. Either things ended up being pointless to me, since the plot development was basically nonexistent with these sporadic dream shifts, or my recall for the rest faded away when I went back to sleep.

06.04.2013

Fix Yourself Instead of Fixing Others (WILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

We're in a room, the fancy hotels that would have a large glass window that let's you see the city and beyond. I'm wearing a blue polo shirt and black jeans, I tried not looking at her for a while and decided to focus on something rather than her.

I don't know why, things felt awkward, so I continued to look at the darkness over the window. The room we were in was at least 200 feet or so above the ground. I didn't focus on the city itself, just the darkness. The moon is beautiful just using peripheral vision, it illuminates the bland structure of this simulated city.

Eva: You know looking at the city is not really real.

Me: I just wanted to enjoy the view, even if it's just simulation.

Eva: You didn't come all this way just to look at a city, or the sky, or the moon. You came to see me right?

Me: .............


Eva: Don't be shy, there's nothing wrong with you wanting to see me. Wait, are you afraid of what people will think about you just because of me? Remember what happened to those people who mocked you right?

They were just distractions, they prevented you from having fun, even though you knew it was all a dream, and not reality.


I turned around, ignored the city view and decided to sit at the edge of the bed Eva was resting on. The bed is kind of hard to describe, all I know is that there was a bed, and that it consisted of a dark maroon color with different shades of red. The bed was comfortable, but I just wanted to sit at the edge before things get too comfortable in this room.

Me: They were my friends Eva.


Eva: Sure they were your friends, but they didn't really take your behavior too kindly. You let them drain all the kinds of fun you could've had.


I slowly turned around to her, slightly irritated, but she was clearly right. Instead of trying to argue, I decided to let her give her own opinions on how I reacted towards these people. I felt a complete sense of privacy within this dream, only one person to really focus on. There was a brown desk to the right of her, and it had a lamp shining with a hue of yellow. The base of the lamp was a laminated brown marble texture with mixes of white, gray, and milky yellow.


Eva: Come a little closer.


I decided to just freeze and not make a move. She takes the dark maroon bedsheet and gets closer to me.


Eva: I'm just kidding silly, come on, lighten up.


I still didn't know what to do, I decided to just let her take action.


She's just wearing a black bra and underwear, and she gets closer to the left side of my shoulder. She wraps her arms around me and we stayed like this for a few minutes. I started to phase out, slowly feeling her presence around me. The feelings were mixed, and I decided it was best to let whatever happen, happen.

She broke the silence and went back to the topic on my experiences with friends overall.


Eva: You spent more time satisfying these people more than being pleased with yourself. As long as you had an emotional bond with them, you respected them no matter how they looked like. You even allowed yourself to almost fail college just so you can help another friend out.


Me: But she really had a difficult time...


Eva: Yes, but you're not responsible for her life.


Me: But she was my friend.


Eva: Do friends almost make you fail college?



Me: Tch.....you really are honest aren't you?


Eva: Isn't that what you wanted me to be?


I closed my eyes and thought things over, it was the first time in a long time since I talked with someone in my dreams where they struck a nerve on me a few times. I realized I shifted my perspective back to myself near the glass window, except this time, I was bracing my back against it.

I had my left leg up forming an "A" and had my right leg completely stretched out. I decided to look at the bottom of the bed with the dark maroon sheets hanging all the way, almost touching the floor. I still didn't want to look at her directly, but at least have her in my peripheral vision.

I did it so that I would have more focus on her because I would be forced to see her presence. She gets off the bed and slowly walks towards me. I looked down on the dark red carpet with random circular designs. I get a bit anxious, but I quickly realized that I'm being a wimp for nothing since this is just a dream.


Eva: Come on, she wanted you to have some fun for yourself, there's no point feeling depressed about her, she has her own life to worry about.


I'm back at the edge of the bed again, focusing on her with my peripheral vision once more, and she sits to the back of me, spreads her legs and locks them around my waist. She moves her arms under mine, wraps them on my stomach and places her head on my back.

Eva: Instead of trying to fix others, try fixing yourself. You shouldn't feel awkward around me, I'm just trying to help you. You're thinking about the worst case scenarios, and you wonder why it's so difficult for you to find me.

You're already aware that this whole experience is within the confines of your mind, and you shouldn't let other people's opinions affect what you want to do with your life, both in waking and dreaming.

Those same people who tried to change you ended up leaving you and forgetting about you, they focused on their own lives, and you should do the same. You realized that no matter how much you wanted to help people, that virtue has its limits. There's no point in trying to cleanse a person of their doubts and guilt, there are just some things people want to hold on to because of the memories behind them.

I'm sure most people have at least one experience that they regret, and they let it drag them down. You shouldn't try to help them fix their problems if they're consistently showing that they don't want to forgive themselves. What hope is there for a person who doesn't want to help themselves? The only thing you can do is to simply have faith that they will make the right decision.

You have to try your best and keep pushing forward, and I'm more than happy to help you. If you really want to live your dreams, you have to be willing to make difficult choices, even if it means forgetting your friends. It also means allowing yourself to change in order to accomplish those goals, there's no point letting other people drag you down; don't become too fixated with their lives that you forget about your own responsibilities.

Do you even know what you want to do in the future?


Me: [*editing that part out*]
I just want to continue pursuing knowledge and developing myself, is that so wrong?

Eva: No, I didn't say it was, but I..............


editing that part out >_>

09.05.2012

Hotel Alarm (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

It's very dark at night, and I need to find a place to stay in, and I forget who tells me this, but there's only one hotel available, and it has what I needed to get. I go inside of the hotel, and there's a lady in front, assuming she's the one who gives out cards to go into hotel rooms and all that. She's wearing the preset secretary type of outfit, dark blue dress with a white long sleeve shirt underneath, and she was fairly tall.

I could barely see her face at all.....she was literally that tall, or maybe my perspective of being able to look up was very limited. I walk around the hotel a bit, and I open a door slowly, and I see that this much be the kitchen, or the dining area of the hotel. The floor was a black and white checkered floor.

I think I saw a white microwave, those really big ones that huge a lot of energy, but heats things faster than the regular ones. I thought that I would be able to go inside of the kitchen/dining area, but then an alarm triggers.

It sounded a lot like the alarm I was going to use to wake me up, and it made a strong beep and faded it, but it was still really loud. I look over and found the alarm, it was white, had a small black screen on top, and I saw some green numbers and/or font glowing. I call the lady, and she quickly comes, and I said that the alarm triggered.

This moment felt weird to me, I felt like it was supposed to be my fault, but the lady didn't mind setting the alarm off at all. She does some weird motion with her hands pressing the buttons that was underneath the covering that moved downwards.

She comes back to me, and that's all I remember.

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09.05.2012

Making Albino Rats Float and Die (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

So I'm on top of a black metal building, and I believe I'm with a male that's sitting down on the A/C fan. He's wearing a white shirt, dark pants, but I'm not sure if that's him or if this was just me looking at myself, and then shifting back into the perspective of the person sitting down.

Anyway, I have in my hand an Albino Lab rat, cute little thing, too bad it's going to die. I get a very strong urge to see this thing eradicated. I forget hot it dies exactly, but I do know some kind of crushing was involved. After one rat is gone, I remember another one showing up on my hand, except this time, I'm making it float move my hand. It looks at me, and it's just as cute as the one before.

I think some electricity surges out to my hand, and I probably killed the little guy right there, but I don't recall actual experiences of seeing it die.

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09.05.2012

Apartment with No Bed (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I remember going up an elevator that was white, and I'm following some girl to the right of me. She looks familiar, but I'm not paying too much on how she looks like. The elevator finally reaches the destination, we both get out and turn to the right.

She mentions that we're close to the room now, and I believe the levels in this floor was in the 400s. I look to my right, counting the rooms we're passing, and after 2-3 doors, she opens the door I'm supposed to go in, though I don't know why I need to go in. I believe she's wearing a white sweater that's faded a bit.

I look down on the floor, and to my left, I see a gray carpet layer on top of the dark brown and shiny wood flooring. To the front of me was a window, it was closed, but it was the main thing that enticed me in this dream. It was so nice outside, calm, a few gray skies, and I would presume that it was fairly windy instead of it being hot as hell here in waking life.

The girl disappears, probably went to the bathroom, but then again, everything was so enclosed, it's like this place would be perfect for those who want to have an efficient lifestyle with minimal distance to get to where they needed to go. There was a sink to the left of me as soon as you entered the room, I think, and the toilet was just a little bit further.

I'm wondering where the hell is the bed in this place, and I assumed that the gray carpet layer was a spot where a previous bed was on top of before.

I can't remember much after that.

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09.05.2012

Jumping out of Windows (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This dream was a sudden rush, you either get out as quickly as possible, or die. I don't know what the hell is happening in this dream, but a random dream character in some kind of dark outfit tells me to come quickly and get near the window. I wonder why, but the moment I hear some noises in front of me, I could sense that a lot of entities would be coming it, so I take immediately catapult through the window.

I believe this dream resets itself a few more times, that's all I remember.

04.27.2012

John Travolta and Blonde Girl (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

The John Travolta look-alike doesn't appear until later on.

I'm inside a house, and I'm near the dining room, and it's one of those fancy wooden tables with a shine to it. It had a white table cloth on it, and there's this wierd machine that looks a little bit like a mini-space shuttle machine with legs extending and landing on several sections of the table.

It's white, with black parts that attaches it to make it whole, and its feet are triangular. Me and some random DCs are supposed to use it to spread out the white table cloth.

We managed to spread it half-way, and I wondered why the table isn't being covered completely. I go to the right side where one of the DCs were sitting at, and a huge portion of the cloth was on the floor.

I go back to the left side of the table, and because the machine was still on top of the table with the cloth stuck underneath it, I have to pull the cloth as hard as I can.

After that's taken care of, there's another shift.

John Travolta is out in the backyard somewhere. The place is mostly just green grass being bored by brown fences on all sides. There's one part of the fence that you can flip to go to another backyard, and Travolta is trying to hide that same spot to prevent a girl from finding out.

The blonde girl is maybe 4-6 years old based on how tall she was, maybe 3-4 feet tall....and she wore a black or dark green dress.

The girl asks him some question that I can't remember exactly, but he makes some random and lame excuse that he went to school or something.

The girl is completely clueless, and falls for it, and declares in an adorable cute voice of a young child,

"Oh okay....I never seen you in school before though..."

and she leaves.

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04.27.2012

Room Hotel 200+ (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I put the title as Hotel 200+ because I can't remember the exact room number I was in later on in the dream...and some parts may be a bit jumpy, since I have some lapses with my dream recall, so I'll just assume I had dream shifts here.

I believe I was inside in my apartment before the Hotel, and I wanted to eat the rest of the tortilla chips with the spinach dip that was inside the fridge. There's this feeling in my stomach, like it's growling and that signals that I'm hungry, which is why I had the sudden urge to find the food and pig out on it.

It's day time in the dream, and I'm busy fiddling around with doing something in my apartment. I think I kept the entrance to the apartment unlocked, and it was slightly open too.

I saw my laptop was near the white wooden table cabinet I normally put my laptop on, and it had the same background screen in waking life of showing only the top area of Eva wearing a black bra.

(My laptop is on a chair near my bed, not on the cabinet in waking life....that could've been a time to RC if I was aware )

Then I realized someone is coming in the apartment, and I'm surprised that they randomly just opened the door and came in.

It was a blonde girl, her face is slightly cheeky, she's wearing a gray shirt and dark blue jeans I believe, and she says "Hi" to me in a cheerful voice.

It seems she found out about the background photo of Eva on my laptop, or maybe I was the one worried as assumed she found out.

I mean, the laptop was open, and any person with sight can obviously see Eva in the laptop as a background picture. But I don't think she was surprised too much by it, and I told her she can come in.

The dream shifts a little, and I think some guy is doing some kind of filtering with my trash can or something like that. He gets a transparent trash bag, uses some weird machinery that's supposed to decompress the contents in it I guess, and then he's finally done.

It smells like chicken strips with that weird spicy smell where the meat has that dark orange type of flour or batter to it pre-cooked and frozen.

I asked him what he did with my trashcan, and I forget the exact word he declared to me, but when I asked him what the word was, he's like,

"You know? De-Oxidized? You do know what that is right?"

It takes me a while,

"De-Oxidized?....Yeah...yeah, I know."

He leaves and the blonde female, I'm not sure where she went lol.

The dream shifts where outside, and I'm maybe 10-30 feet away from my apartment here, and apparently, I just have my underwear on.

I'm aware of this (not aware that I am dreaming unfortunately) and I try to cover up my body with the clothes I have on my arms. Instead of actually wearing the damn clothes, I just try to cover it up as if I only had a leaf to cover my private parts.

Then the dream shifts again to where I'm inside some fancy building, it looks like a hotel, or maybe even a college dorm area. There's some people looking at me, but it's just them glancing for a few seconds, and I think I have clothes on this time.

I see a long leg extending all the way on the floor. Whoever it is, they wore blue jeans and a sneaker, so I jumped over their leg instead of posssibly tripping over it.

Then it appears again, I walk over it........






Then again...................I do the same thing....





and it shows up one more time I believe.

(I wonder if that was Kaomea trying to trip me or something...LOL) You did say you and GypsyKiss would do pranks to wake people up in their dreams >.>

I continue walking, looking to my right and see rooms over 260+ in their numbers, and I had a feeling that isn't where I'm supposed to go, so I turn left, and see rooms around 220+ in room numbers on the doors.

I head that way and I forget what I did after that.

04.27.2012

Luisa is Married.......... (Non-lucid)
NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm on the Swiftkit IRC Client, so I guess I was planning to play Runescape, or at least see if any of the channels I used to be a part of are still alive.

I go to a channel called #Integrity-PC, I'm assuming I'm in it because some of the members' names show up, but I rather not post them seeing as I'll probably forget them all anyway.

One person that used to be Voice as now an OP rank, and he tells me Luisa, one of the girls I drew in waking life, is married to someone, but I don't know who