RelaxAndDream

had a lot of fragments with some wakings over the night but didnt write anything down till morning.
after GF left the house i did SSILD and felt asleep again even though it was already 8:30 and i had around 9h of sleep... cant do this every day but yea... earned a decent lucid with not too much access to memory..

i cross a street with my brother. i think about jumping up a pretty high wall, some lucidity streams in. i see two pretty ugly women, fat and with a stupid look in their face hearing music thru earphones. one of them has one in her ear and one in her nose. all this results in me being lucid.
i sing a song about how stupid those two are and continue to move with my bother. i dont do any RC... but i jump up the wall i saw. my brother continues to walk on the pavement. i jump down where a gap in the wall is and smash down pretty hart on something loose on the ground. i smile to my brother and repeat it one more time. i jump next to him and start using TK. with a simple hand gesture i let a parking truck behind me levitate. i wonder shortly that its so easy but i keep going and "throw" it some meters in front of me on the pavement on a cat/dog of an owner... i instantly feel a little bad. but we keep moving and the car and the "accident" disappeared. i let a older chubby man float around and turn him in air. but i dont want to do any harm so i try to let him down softly on his feet but he has problems to stop turning around and so it needs some more seconds and mange to set him down save. we continue walking and i think about how to make some points... for some reason i just dont remember my 3 step task or any of my incubated goals what so ever.
so i decide to make some fire in my hands. as some of you know this is not a specialty of mine. while walking i imagine energy flow into my right hand and visualize a fire but its not working. to concentrate better i stop moving. and use both my hands. i hold them like i would hide a ball in between them and slowly pull them apart. i have a small flame in my right hand but i cant expand it and it turns off fast. i repeat it and my palm is burning a litte but again cant do anything with it. i concenrate a little more and now i have a small ball of fire in between my hands and while i pull them apart the fire is expanding. i hear a background noise that says something similar like " Plz dont do any fire here (so nothing starts burning) and nevertheless the pro guy who do flames is in town so there is nothing to win here" ignoring the voice i feel satisfied so far with my fire bending and i continue walking with my brother.
i tell him i want to hear some set of Sigil. while we approach a house (of a previous dream i think) i ask him if he could ask out loud for some music by sigil. he asks and as we enter the house i hear some music. we approach a girl and i ask her if we can turn on sigil and she answers "this is sigil already" i am not sure but go with it and listen a little. i ask loud what to do now. i think about my personal goals thinking if i already did one by coincidence but i cant remember any and remember to summon my cat. i know cant say what was first. the idea of summon my cat or the black cat that sits next to the door. i see it now and think yea that is not my cat. i want to make mine appear right infront of me. i make a wipe around with my hand and blur the background a little and try to see my cat. i see some patterns but not really a cat. i stop and see my cat sitting right next to ne black one. nice i call him and he comes to me. i pet him a little and decide to wake up what i do


so far not so satisfied with my commitment and outcome of the competition but i will try do to some decent daywork and incubate some cooler stuff. tomorrow i have to get up early so probably no lucid again... :/

Tonight was the first night since last Friday where i could sleep in and i knew i could make some points. normally i would try to be more aware during the day and incubate now and then what i want to do with my lucid and maybe get of the computer some hours earlier and read a little or meditate but yesterday i just couldnt motivate myself...
nevertheless i got some lucids but they where very short with bad quality and my overall awareness of the night was not to good too..

i got to bed at 23:15 and woke up for the first time at 3:45. wrote down a dream and go to toilet.
i lay on my back, do progressive body relaxation and start with SSILD-Cycles my concentration is not too good again and i feel restless. after some cycles i lay an my side but dont fall asleep. i continue doing cycles but turn atleast two more times... not too good but i try to stay calm. after some time i feel drifting away. i see some HI and get an interesting bodyfeeling. suddenly i feel light vibrations and my body starts to spinn in my bed. i try to promote the feeling but suddenly it stops and i lay in bed again a little dissapointed.
i stand up and sit on my desk [which is at a different corner in my room] i pick up a small container and notice that there is more inside as i thought and the screw cap is broken at one side. i think about put it into another container and while standing up i wounder and do a nosepinch. i am already dreaming! the feeling i had was indeed transition! just like that i try to push my thumb thru my palm and it works after some seconds. i am happy and jump right thru the wall outside. i hang in midair and for some reason i dont fall down... the quality is not too good... i try to get down, i look up and around and suddenly i start falling. i look down and there are some people going on the pavement. i crash next to them into the street and say "hi!" but they ignore me. i step onto the pavement and shout STOP to freeze time but everyone is moving on. i repeat my command and one guy seems to be a little confused and stops moving but more because i am shouting than because i freezed time okay so thats not working. i now shout REWIND! and after a second shout suddenly everything runs in fast rewind. good finally i get any reaction... i pick up a girl next to me and lay her down. i inspect her body from head to toe and make her stand again. the people go past me and i think about my next three step task. mass TK... i start with a traffic road sign. i try to lift it and it starts to shake. i think 'this sign is not heavier than a feather' and the pole rips out of the ground. i throw it aside and now i want to do it with a tree. it seems to be windy because the tree is moving. i concentrate again but wake up trying.

now its 5:15 and i drink something and go again to the toilet and again repeat my procedure

i am in a room that has similarities to a doctors room. there is a girl with very long hair. the hair gets stuck somewhere and i help her. a woman enters the room and she is harsh [this is some Harry Potter residue i think]. she says my hair and or my beard has to go. i sit in the chair and the girl starts to cut my hair. i trust her. then while still the woman is there she shave my beard with a razor but without water or soap. it hurts and i tell her. i stand up and leave the room. i move some stairs up, pass some people and enter a toilet where i look into a mirror. my beard is only shaved half and it looks terrible. my hair is short and has no shape. i am a little pissed and ask her if i done something to her or it was just random... we move down the stairs again and i slide on the handrail. we go to a party and i meet an old classmate C. she tells me she had some funny feeling in her mouth after eating some food half an hour ago. i tell her i know the feeling and i had it too some days ago as i take some drugs so i didnt know if it was the drugs or the food... [for some reason i feel like i talked to her about it already] we stand in line and there is another friend Y. some people are pushing and he pushes strongly back so that we nearly fall down from the terrace. i look angry to him because one could get hurt but he just smiles. i ignore him. he seems to know the security? because a guy next to me tell him he wants to buy a package of cigarettes for 2€ too... i see there is a desk with some prices/gifts. i conclude that the entrance costs 10 € but when you pay more you get a gift? i talk to the guy at the counter about a festival and that it was pretty big and all. that i like smaller ones and if he organizes another smaller one. he tells me that this party here goes also two or three days. while talking he changes into an attractive girl i start to flirt a little. i remember my beard and my hear and hope it looks not too bad but she seems not reluctant. suddenly i see a video of her doing some flicflac in the woods? and landscape changes and i am in the woods on a swing. i swing around and look at the horizon. there i see some lightnings and just like that i lift my arm and try to manipulate the lightnings. now i see a transformer station and i see some lightning coming out of my hand. i do a nosepinch and i am lucid. i notice that the quality is pretty bad and try to rub my hands on the swing but its not enough. so i let myself fall down from the swing to the ground and crash down with my whole body. this stabilizes enough and i stand up. behind me the sun goes down and it looks pretty nice. i move up the hill where i saw the lightnings and want to do some TK again. some stones are already levitating and i lift a handful more. there are some runes with blue glowing signs and i pick up one or two and activate them so they disappear but i wake up before i see an effect.

Remembered: 5 dreams (1 semilucid) and 8 fragments; 1 lucid dream

semilucid:
i move thru a street and see a bike chained to a lantern. the saddle is off and the bike is somehow filled with water. i think maybe to make it even more theft secure? i think about how to picklock it, thinking about what spell might work for it and how difficult it would be to learn it [i hear a lot of Harry Potter audiobook at the moment] i decide that i am more of a dreamcontrol guy who affects his body and surroundings instead of using spells and a wand. while thinking this i start flying instead of walking anymore and fly only a meter over the ground thru a street. and wake up.

lucid:
i am in a restaurant and sitting with some people at a table. we start eating and i am sitting at a corner of the table. the guy next to me needs a hell lot of space for his arm. i make myself as tiny as possible and eat my food. after some time i ask him if he would like me to go around the corner with my plate so he could have even more space. he declines and i make a joke like "hey but you need more space every minute, i cant see my food anymore because your arm is around it..." i smile and tap his back. he nor anybody else find it funny and i stop smiling and finish my plate... he wants some licorice and bubblegum so i stand up, go to the next room and get it for him.
while in the other room i start to get lucid and do a nosepinch. i cant breath in but i can breath out a little with some snot noises. close enough i think and i start to put on some cloth because if i want to fly outside it might be could. i put some weird cloths on i wouldnt wear in waking but there is nothing else so... i enter the room again give the guy his licorice and bubblegum after taking two hands full of licorice out into my pocket and eating some and tell them i leave. i kind of dont know where to because i am confused where i am exactly i decide to go to the "anne ecke" a bar and tell them i wont be out to late because i am alone but i want to go drink a beer and maybe i find someone. they tell me they will message me when they leave (so i might get a ride if i like to). i leave the restaurant and go up the street. i stop and my awareness rises to fully lucid. i remember the competition and dont want to waste this lucid like yesterday! i am highly motivated to collect some points and i start with random dreamcontrol. i see some people at the end of the street and i use Telekinesis to make a elder guy fall over. he falls and rolls down the street. i instantly feel bad to do something like this to an old man and shout out: "STOP" and time freezes. i do a hand gesture and time reverses. he rolls back, stumble and walk some steps backwards. time is running forward again and i see from the corner of my eyes how he stumbles again, falls and rolls down the street again. i ignore it, go past him and stand between some DC´s.
i make a rising hand gesture with both hands and say "you all might have superpowers now!" some of them start smiling appreciatively. i approach a woman who is holding her baby stroller and tell her to jump because she now can jump pretty high! right next to her someone jumps up like two meters. she wont let go the buggy and i tell her the guy there will hold it. she tries hesitantly and jumps normally. i tell her "no, jump higher. jump up there" and point to a window terrace at around 5 meters height. i jump with ease and she jumps up also. because the terrace is small she has some problems with balance and instantly falls/jumps back down but because of the hight he hurts herself a little. i feel a bit sad to not thinking about that and jump down without any pain.
now i remember my incubated goals, put my hand behind my back and say "hey sivason take my hand!" a second later i feel a hand and turn around. a guy with a little longer black hair around maybe 35-45 years and some funny cloth that reminded me of a football tricot stands in front of me and smiles at me. "hmm i thought you would look different... and is this a football tricot?!" "no its not" i look a little closer and agree that it is something unique. its color is blue with some lettering on it. it has an asian touch. next to me is one of the DC´s that stood around me previously and wants my attention and to say something. i ignore him and push him slightly aside and say to sivason: "nevermind, hey i wanted to ask you, since you have a lot of experience with dreamcontrol if you might show me how to summon a fireball between my hands, something like a miniature sun" he smiles again " ah i know exactly what you mean." behind him a guy with a costume? appears i ignore it too and focus completely on sivason [i regret this a little because i cant remember how the person looked. in some way it reminded me of someone or something?]. i hold my hands like holding something in between and expand my hands a little like holding a ball. he ignites the space with a lighter and some fire appears between my hands and i form it to a ball. it is pretty weak. after he uses the lighter he moves away and i follow him. because of the moving the fire goes out again. we approach a table and i tell him "ah you use an external lightsource too... i thought i could do it without and make it appear just like that. i can do without problems lightning and water" i hold my hand next to something like an mp3 player and some bolts come out of my hand to the mp3 player and it turns on. i squeeze my hand and water drips out of my hand. " i already can do some fire when putting in some liquid and ignite it..." i show him how i pur in some water into my palm and ignite it with my thumb imitating a lighter. the water in my hands starts burning and its hot. i startle a little and shake my hand so some of the liquid falls down on the table and the fire gets smaller. sivason says something to me but we are at a funfair and it is really loud. i cant understand or concentrate on his words. i start loosing awareness again and look around for a calmer place. i move some meters away and look around a corner but there is a concert too, i look into a building but there is something like a self-help group. i go back to him and start getting uncomfortable and unbalanced which lead to a
FA: i am half sitting half lying in a back of a bus and try not to move to DEILD back in. i imagine the last dream but it feels uncomfortable and crooked so i move straight and then try to get into the same position after awakening. i give up and want to note down my dream. i look around for a paper and take a something hard that is in a saran wrap. someone enters the car and i tell him i am not scared of some guy? i have another FA and wake up for real.

to bad i lost myself in doing fire and getting distracted by the noises. i incubated a lot more after the fire but i forgot it :/

this night was better but considering the huge amount of energy and intention and microawakenings with journaling i put in i am a little disappointed that i had only one lucid. i did two bigger WBTB´s one with a WILD attempt and one with SSILD. the first half of the night i was a little pissed because recall was tough and needed some effort. but after 5h of sleep i woke up with a lot of dreams that just like that came up. so thats okay but considering old days where i was more in practice i got 3-4 lucids a good night with way less effort... maybe within some days it gets better. i think i over complicate it with wanting to get a save lucid with techniques instead of just setting intention and fall asleep with mantra like i would normally do.

Woke up at night, wrote down some dreams, decided to try to WILD, laid on my back and relaxed my body. after some time noticed i am to awake for a dive so i switched to do some SSILD cycles. changed my position to the side and imagined to climb up some stairs up and down and up and so on.

Dream started: still in my bed and try to fall asleep. its 10:40 am and i feel awake and should start my day. have a little bad mood because i wanted to LD this night and it didnt work... someone enters the room and i talk to him about it.
a lot of vivid NLD scenes...
then i enter a room. a lot of people are around. i throw something behind my back over my shoulder into my other hand. [i practiced this some month ago in waking, then did it shortly in one lucid and dreamed about in maybe two other NLD´s] i notice "hey you did this in your dreams.... wait this is a dream" Nosepinch to confirm it. i instantly remember all my tasks for this lucid. i want to do basic II advanced I and bonus. how convenient that i am in a room with some people. i turn to the next guy and start pointing with my finger on him and laugh like crazy. while i do this i look at him and get a short doubt if i should have picked someone else because he looks like someone who dont like to be laughed at and punch you in the face for that. i ignore this thought and laugh even harder. he gets a little angry and tries to slap away my hand but i react too fast and pull it back before he hits me. he seems offended and goes away. i am in really good mood so i pick a chair and say "people hey some attention please" step on the chair and do a frontflip down on the ground. i (too) strongly feel the rotation and think that i had luck it didnt destabilized my dream or did it stabilize it...? some people are laughing some start to talk again. "Hey psht PSHT do you hear this? i think my phone is ringing" i dont feel or hear anything but i look around and suddenly see atleast 3 phones that lie around or are held by people whose display turn on like they where ringing. i just expect that my phone in my pocket will ring to. i put my hand in my pocket, search a little and get it out. its not ringing or vibrating but i see the display is on and in a mix of English and German there is written incoming call. my display looks strange so i have some trouble to take the call. the symbol disappears. [i remember Sensei´s thread which says: dont focus to much on hitting some buttons when you want to write a text but concentrate on the text and let your "fingers" do it on their own.] with this in mind i just put the damn phone to my ear and expect that i picked the call and talk to someone. at the beginning its an automatic machine-voice but after some seconds i hear a guy talking. i seem to talk to "Stratos" a troubleshoot hotline for phone and internet? (maybe because i had some trouble with the phone some seconds earlier?^^) He asks me to start to tell him who i really am. I tell him "Your mama can tell you some authentic data" and i hang up . i go out on the terrace and look around. my vision blurs a little and i dont remember why. maybe i put of my glasses or something? i dont care and continue i try to move a flowerpot with TK and it wont work. i get a little confused if i might not be dream? i do another nosepinch and breath long and deeply in and out. my awareness raises again and i see through the window the guys. i see some flowers and approach them. they are not that big but have really really bright colors. i smell them and some are smelling and some are not. when i look from up close they look exotic. i i really enjoy to take my time to look at them in detail. it feels good. i remember that i want to blow up the earth. i didnt decided yet if i want to fly into the outer space or try to teleport there. i think about lying down and "fall asleep" for teleportation. i look for the right place (damnit that i always need to find "the perfect spot" for everything...) i go down some stairs and see a couple entangled in eachother. i move my hands in a gesture to split them apart. they hold on to each other but one can see that a force is pulling on them. i think about to pick the guy up and throw him out of the picture but i decide i dont want to be mean and let them be together so i stop. i look down the path i am going and see that it is a long winding path. i ask them if its crowded there at the end and she tells me it depends... i start flying and fly with high speed down the winded path. i am so fast i miss the mark. i stop and paddle back a little. the path changed into some red and blue waterslide. i find it cool and fly with high speed back to the middle of it and sit inside. i start slideing but for some reason i start thinking about my waking body and have a FA where i write down my dream. i see on the paper that i already wrote down that i woke up at 10:40. i look at the watch and change the time to something around 7/8 and start writing. i rip out some paper to write on and notice that i rip out more then i wanted to. i wake up for good and see that i didnt write anything down, neither any time or the dream. so i remembered my FA in my FA xD

To bed at around 10:15 pm

First wakeup: 4:00 am one fragment (i do FP-measurements and instead of one plate i have for every transfection one and i did forget the 2mM ß-Me) +

NLD:
I am in an airplane perspective and shoot things on the ground. perspective is changing and i am on the ground. my task is to kick little yellow plasticcars on the site. i have a radar. my mom is coming: "you run so lovely"... her hands are dirty. a girl cross my way i tell her she needs to turn off her phone or take out the simcard because she appear on the radar.
im in the lab now and do measure something as an experiment. a girl i saw sometimes in the university is coming in and we kiss each other. "seems to fit [between us]" i think. on the other side of the room is a new equipment, something with ice. i ask myself what it is good for. i am satisfied with my measurement and go over to R and M.

WBTB with some SSILD cycles and Mantra´s:
5:40
i am sitting at a table with my roomate L and her girlfriend J. we eat some savory pie which J has done. L is asking if F has feelings or if he changed in the lately. My opinion is F still has feelings but them changed (he has a new GF now). L stands up and goes on the balkony. its windy outside. Someone is visiting us and the topic remains. i tell him my thoughts about it. i´m sitting in my room at a table (that normaly is not there) and eat the rest of the pie. the pie is dry. my curtains are closed but its really bright from outside. i wonder for a sec if i forgett to close the curtains or if it is the superbright moon. I do a RC and am lucid. i want to summon Nightfeather and expect her to be outside of my room. i leave my room but instead of NF there is another guy in our floor who enters the kitchen. i go into the kitchen and its full of people. i dont understand right and ask what they are doing. someone tells me to not speak so loud because its night and everyone is sleeping. i am stressed out because its my home i dont know the people and the fuck he tell me what to do? i repeat a RC because i just cant belief this is real. i ask them if they want to kidding me its 4 am in the morning (i kind of know the clock on the counter says 20:50) i want them to leave but noone cares. i leave the room but come in a second later go to a dude that has a particularly annoying and stupid grin on his face grab him at his balls and pull him out of the kitchen into the floor. i enter the kitchen again and ask if someone else dont want to leave and the room starts to getting empty. i say the pretty one may stay and you can choose who is the pretty one of you. but i kind of alrdy choose a girl which top kind of is up and i can see her breasts which have piercings. i find it interesting move to her and kiss her. a girl behind me asks: Really? Her? she is so dumb! and her lipstick stains... i wake up.

I lay still and DEILD:

I´m now in the city [Fünffensterstr.] and remember i wanted to summon NF. I expect her behind the corner [at Rathausstr.] and go there. there are some people but its relativly dark and i dont see her. i call her name: NF, her real name but the wrong one (ups). then i remember her real one and shout S. i turn around and a girl is coming in my direction. i ask her if she is NF and she affirms it. that makes me somewhat happy and i take her hand and we start walking. she looks super sympathic. she has dark cloth on a beanie on her head and really dark red to black hair and a very friendly face. i rub my hands and we keep on walking. i tell her if she can show me a trick and if she can show me what she can do. in front of us is dark night with no stars or moon. suddenly at the horizon its getting brighter. after some seconds a hugh moon is rising slowly. i am excited about it and she smiles. after i look to her and to the moon again the moon is smaller to a normal size and rising much faster until its all up. now its not that dark anymore. i say to her Wow this is awesome i normaly have big problems with that same as with changing the weather. and she agrees with me. i think whats might be next and i ask her if she would like to show me a dream of hers. she nodds and tells me we need to get to a building for this. we keep on walking. i rub my hands again and we cross a bridge. i want to summon a little boy behind my back because i want him to bring me this little rubber massage balls because i have now for some time the idea to use it for dreamstabilisation to have it in my hand so i have a sensual stimulus the whole time. but there is noone behind us and we reach a street. we are at a hobo corner. there is some piss on the ground and a lot of beer. i see a guy on the other side of the street and i tell NF to remember me to ask him about the ball when we reach him but while i tell her that i see that he is drunken as fuck and falls to the side. i say nevermind and we keep on strolling. we cross the road without looking right and left and in the middle of the street some scooter drivers cross our way one after another. they drive while looking on their phone and i try to use telekinese to take it away from them. at two i can push it a litte bit so there hand moves like you like you would collide with them. but they dont loose it, dont care and keep on driving. with the third one i bother more and accidantly push him of the street and he drives into a bush. i say ups and NF just smiles. we keep and walking slowly. we reach a building that reminds me of a cinema or something and i think we wanted to enter but i wake up again.

i set my intention again and repeat my mantras but dont force to get another lucid because i want to sleep and i fall asleep fast.
6:40
i remember standing in a mall and eating something. someone is standing next to me. someone is passing us with a dog and he sniffs my hand and snap my hand and growl but dont bite me. i frighten for a sec and then just wander what that was because i didnt do anything.
i am still at the mall and somewhat go to a girl in a group and kiss her because i just like that know that must be a dream. i go away but come back shortly after and she is looking at her phone and i see three times my name like i had called or something. the time says 9 am. i ask a dude what time is it and he tells me 11 am. thats not possible i say because on her phone its nine. i finally remember the weekly task i just didnt remember and touch her shoulders and tell her OOOHHH the task. okay wow do you see right behind me some plants? i see her look wander and she nods. i look behind me and see some boring typical office plants some feet away. i think for one second thats more far away than i wanted to be but who cares. we walk there and i tell her i want that the plant speaks to me and she can choose which one of those. she points at a branch of one plant and i follow the branch to see which one of those plants it is. its a human size one with a white pot: i start talking to the plant like it would be a child or a dog but it dont responds. instead of that it stats to shake with its branches. the girl and some of her friends make sounds like you see a little baby or a puppy. i ask the plant if it would be so nice and come a little bit closer and the whole pot starts to slide in our direction. everyone is cheering and i say nice thank you and now back again and it slides back. i see a little behind that plant and another did the same without asking
task done i think and want to make some fire in my hand again. and again nothing -.- i tell them that if i had some liquid in my hand and someone ignites it i have no problem. i try to ignite it with my thumb that could be a lighter but it doesnt work neither. some of the guy finally uses something like a lighter and my hand is burning. i throw the fireball into my other hand and than on one of the guys. his chest starts buring slowly and i take away the fire again and throw it on somebody else. but there the fire end and only a spot of liquid is on his cloth. we walk a little bit further and there is a butcher on the right site. i want to do some mindcontrol and approach the counter. i see in the background that they have a strange animal in a glass box and it still moves. i tell the saleswoman i want to see it first. she bring it and put it on the counter. it looks a little like a beaver or something and it dont moves anymore. i tell her i want to take it but for free. she somewhat disapears in the room behind and she comes back with her chef. she tells me how much it costs but i tell her i want it for free and she will give it to me. i get what i want and turn around to the girl and the guys and smile. i then point at the thing i get for free and try to make some lightning but it dont work that well. i make some stupid sounds like bztbzzbzt and now it works *facepalm* i wake up again. my roomate is up and i hear constant noises so i decide to write it down and get up soon.
in this dream i was not that clear or lucid. i could do what i want but everything felt like i was in a sitcom or something and not in "reality" but nevertheless i finaly accomplished to do the weekly task


Fragment: big tent. L sleeps left of it outside. i enter the tent and there is awning. its dark and i kick someone accidentally. i throw my sleeping bag and my sleeping mat into the tent. J and i talk about something and at the other side of the tent some girl i dont know is just sitting there.