Letaali's Dream Journal

I was adjusting my sleep and got lucid during a nap. Another personal goal attempt. I should keep count. Would be interesting to know how many times I had to try before I succeeded.


I'm with old friends on a trip to some far corners of Finland. We stop at some gas station that's selling all sort of stuff. There's a circular, wooden hot tub on sale. The thing is 10 cm deep and 50 cm across. I can hold it in my hand. I think my whole party of 6-8 people can fit in it easily, so it's size is a bit paradoxical. The tub has vihtas and a sauna stove. I buy the tub.

I go back to my friends. They are in sauna, so I join them. It's not too hot. I tell them of my purchase. They like it. The sauna has rows of bunk beds with blue covers and my friends are resting on them while enjoying the heat.

After sauna, people get dressed and get ready to sleep. I chat with some of the girls, when a small hand movement turns back time. "It was 1am and now it's 9pm!" I exclaim loudly as I look at the nearest person. It's Hanna. We are outside the gas station again. I go to her and say "I turned back time!" I look at the nearest clock and slightly move my hand. Time moves forward and back without effort. I stop at 9 pm and become lucid. The first thought on my mind is sex, unfortunately. I get close with Hanna, but I manage to drag myself away from her. It might be too late, I feel being excited in waking life. It might pull me away from the dream. Sure enough, visuals are instantly gone as I focused on waking life. I stay calm. Even without visuals, I know the dream is around me. I have to focus on seeing something in the dream. I choose Hanna's pants. Old blue shorts with a thin white stripe. Nice, I'm back. Time to go.

I want to try my personal goal again. I fall into my old plan and search for a doorway there. I want to believe the dream can show me the way, so I just walk away from the station. The road turns into a field of flowers. Visuals become a little weird. The ground is tilted 20 degrees, but I feel like I'm walking on a flat surface. I find a white wall with flowers painted on it. There's a small square shaped wooden door with a flower shape carved on it. I would have to crawl through it in waking life, but here I just open it and step through. First there's nothing but white on the other side. I keep hoping to find the way to the frozen planet, but this doesn't appear to be white snow. Details appear. Odd looking, wonky, white corridors in every direction. I'm in a maze. "No worries, this is the alien spaceship. I'm closer to the frozen planet. This will work." I think optimistically.

I look for a path going up, trying to find the bridge, but I fail. The white corridors have crudely drawn symbols at crossing paths: heart, club, spade and diamond symbols. Looks like someone used colored pencils to draw this world. But it gets weirder. Twitch emotes live here. They bounce around in small clouds and some of them merge together. For some reason the army of emotes scares me. I remember another dreamer suggesting laughing when scared, so I do that. Laughing appears to do nothing. I end up on a dance floor full of these emotes and I'm attacked by hundreds of vampiric Kappa faces that have merged together. I wake up.

In the first scene that I can recall I'm staring at an artwork I made. It's from first person perspective, my perspective. It's way better than any of my drawings in waking life. In the artwork I'm flying in a vast cavern. The jagged cave floor looks like a copy of the cave ceiling. Looks like we are between two planets that are close together. The cavern is foggy and there are three monsters flying in front of me. They seem to be my friends, since they are flying in the same direction. Part of them is not visible due to the fog. They are green and insect-like. Like Cell from DBZ. I want to add more color to the cave and think about opening photoshop.

Suddenly I'm at the top of a staircase and the cave opens up in front of me. It's dark. I make a flashlight appear and shine it into the darkness. I see monsters. They run away from the light. Most of them do anyway. One of these humanoid beings comes towards me regardless. He looks like a baby that just learned to walk. I am slightly scared, so I raise my hand and try to make the baby disappear. I fail, but become lucid. The baby asks what I was trying to do. I try to make him disappear again, but nothing happens. I remember my goal, but not how I was planning to reach it. The baby keeps bugging me. I'm looking down at my clothes to keep my focus on the dream. I'm wearing a white and green ski jacket. More specifically, it looked like a white jacket with tiny green leaves in a neat pattern. I grab the left sleeve with my right hand to focus on how it feels.

I look up and the flashlight is still shining into the cave. A man with short black hair teleports into the light and stands 20 meters away from me. He is wearing a light brown flight jacket. We stare at each other and then he just walks away and teleports. I enter the cave and sit down. The baby is still right next to me. I start spinning and focus on the frozen planet. I visualize the ground turning into snow and the walls flying away from me as they are replaced with distant mountains and starry night sky. While I'm spinning, the baby asks if I'm taking him there as well. I finally answer him, saying pretty indifferently "I guess." All this spinning and visualizing does is take my focus away from the dream and I wake up.

Sigh...Well it's a lucid dream. It's progress.