non-lucid

Well again with the same supps as last time.

4mg G, 250 C and 200mg L-Theanine.

I had taken this combo other times but I guess I never really got to sleep in or never went lucid when I took them. The last two times I have taken them I have been lucid no less than three times in 3 separate dreams throughout the night.

Pre-WBTB: I was in some sort of competition and racing against others. It was a maze of sorts and some underwater events. There was school work or trivia questions involved. This was early in the night and I didn't take notes on this until late in the morning.

Post-WBTB: I think these are the order they happened, I had many through out the night so they kind of got jumbled and some of the details are fuzzy.

Dream 1: In an apartment and I think it was a female celebrity. I wound up with two women and carried one around. I started kissing both of them on the neck and mouth, woke shortly after.

Dream 2: On a ship working and there was a lot going on, cranes and forklifts moving stuff around. I looked up and the cranes were lifting big red bells and some were starting to fall down. I thought this was rather strange so I did an RC, 7 fingers... LUCID: I decided it had been awhile since I flew so I took to the sky. Its always tricky starting off for me but as soon as I started going up the speed increased and I was flying high. I don't have to flap or point my hands I just do head forward. I flew up pretty high and could see fields, I came upon some sort of ruins. I just remembered this part, I tried to yell focus and it didn't come out right and I thought I might have talked in waking life and it woke me up. Thinking about waking life seems to be a constant theme with me. I always think about my real body or what I am doing and wake up right away. I really need to focus on the dream itself and have a long goal or several goals planned out in the dream.

Dream 3: I was in some strange place and ended up with another guy and some I was with and some other guy who may have been a 'bad' guy. We were talking about lucid dreams and stuff we could do and I think I was Lucid or at least semi lucid. I was going to show the guy what I could do. I ended up summoning fire balls and throwing them at the wall around the guy, they kind of exploded and melted into the wall I guess, it effected the wall more than the surroundings. Anyways I did this a few times and then I left the room. Either this was the same dream or a different one but I was with two girls in the same area or type of place. I jumped off a roof and onto the ground, I know I was absolutely lucid at this point. I wound up at an outdoor café with people eating around tables with umbrellas around them. I decided to begin using telekinesis on them and throw them around. I threw a couple people with my mind and then also tried to just crush them in a ball with my mind. I know this is rather morbid but it was kind of fun to do, there was no blood at least . Anyways I did this for awhile and don't remember how the dream ended there.

Dream 4: This was my last and most remember able. I cant say if it was fully lucid or only semi lucid but it involved me having super human strength and flying. I think this was on the tail end of the supps so while it was a pretty awesome dream I don't think it was fully lucid. Anyways it may have been at the tail end of dream 3 so I may have just lost some of my lucidity. I had a feeling people were in trouble above me in the clouds. I flew up through clouds and fog and found people in a balloon above me. They were looking for something on the ground but couldn't see anything. I went and checked below us (at this point I was still lucid or at least partially, because I remember worrying about not being able to see and waking up). I grabbed the balloon and drug it down to the ground, they were looking for lemon and lime trees for some drinks they had. I got them to the ground and we then were in a store. I don't remember many details about the store but I do remember a snobby kid who wanted this and that. After the store we were headed back up in the air and there were people falling out of the sky. I was rescuing them but couldn't hold that many of them. I was hanging onto the balloon again and we decided that we needed to get rid of some of the soft drinks we had onboard so the people could be onboard the balloon. I began throwing them off the balloon. They were the size of AA batteries and I ripped a couple of the tops with my teeth and drinking them down quick then throwing the empty can.

There were a couple more insignificant or dreams I don't remember any details about but overall it was a really adventurous night.

Let me preface by saying I haven't written a dream journal entry on here for a bit but last night was pretty crazy, and I completed the TOTM. This is the first TOTM that I have completed within the month it was in since January.

Supplements at WBTB: 4mg G, 250C, 200mg L-Theanine

Now I had about 10 different dreams I remember for the most part, they start to run together a bit and the order is not exact but here is what I have. Also I did have some dreams before the WBTB but I cannot recall them right now.

Dream 1: I was driving home or going home by foot and went by a school or building that was getting worked on. When I got home there was a guy working on the siding on my house. He was replacing some that was messed up. I saw that he was using a certain kind of caulking and was curious about it. We talked a little bit and eventually he was gone but not sure where he went. I thought he might have disappeared in my house. I went looking for him and thought this was pretty weird so I did an RC by looking at my hand, 7 or so fingers. Lucid: I was blown away of course since it had been awhile since I became lucid, so I tried to stabilize the dream a bit by concentrating on my hand a little more but whirled out.

Dream 2: Now this one actually started Lucid but I just flowed with it for a bit so it would stabilize. I was in a corn type field and I could see my wife in the distance. I called her name and she looked at me, the dream cleared quite a bit. I interacted with the environment a bit by touching the corn and said "focus" again. I began walking a different way to do my own thing. For some reason I had a hard time walking in a straight line and seemed like I couldn't control myself. I woke myself up at this point by thinking about me in bed.

Dream 3: This one was my longest and most memorable. I rolled out of bed on the opposite side I sleep on, I knew I was lucid but still needed to check since I always have to really convince myself. I got up and turned on the light and looked at my hand, 7 fingers Lucid: I went through the door and around the house to the living room area. I still couldn't believe this was a dream so I wanted to check again. I tried to flip on the light and it didn't work, I knew this was another sign of dreaming. I then thought about the room I just came from and if I wasn't dreaming then I would have left on the light in my room and woken up my wife and daughter. I looked outside and I could see a glass door where my room was and the light on. My wife (didn't look like my wife) came out and looked mad, at this point I realized this was definitely a dream. I turned toward the front door and thought of the TOTM and planned to do telekinesis, I have done this before in other dreams so was comfortable with it. I saw a little wooden vase on the table by the door and concentrated on tossing it up in the air. It flew straight up to the ceiling and bounced off it. I wanted to experiment further with something bigger. I spotted the couch (which was a huge sectional) and with a little more will was able to lift it straight off the ground as well. It flew into the ceiling. As I am doing this I use my hands to guide what I am moving with my mind. Lastly behind me was a Christmas tree with a bunch of presents around it, I concentrated again and lifted all the presents and tree with my powers. Pretty sweet! I thought what do I want to do next. This is where it was one of three events, I am not sure of the order. First I went outside, it was bright out and I could see a lake from my front yard (I cant see a lake from my house). I wanted to fly, I leaned forward and kinda floated down and hit the ground. I then tried again and started going up but the dream ended. Next was I continued on to the back of my house to my laundry room, I thought of the other TOTM and tada a bar was in my house. I asked the bartender for a shot and he didn't' hear me, I gave up on that and ended back somewhere else, maybe with my wife in the bedroom. Either a different dream or the same one I was headed back from a different part of my house and ran across the bar again. I looked and there was a full shot on the counter. I picked it up and looked at it, there was salt around the rim and I assumed it was my tequila shot. I drank it and it tasted like sprite and lime I guess, kinda fresh. I then grabbed a lime off the counter and ate it to get the flavor gone, plus that is what you do after a tequila shot. I don't remember what happened after this.

Dream 4: I don't remember what we were doing but me and my wife were driving and had just come from somewhere and were supposed to get something. I was talking to her and wanted to tell her about the cool dreams I had last night, she doesn't really ever care when I tell her so I just said I had the dreams and that was that. We were almost home and we realized we forgot something so I turned around in my driveway to go back. At this point I think the supplements were wearing off.

Dream 5: I think this one was one of the last ones but it could have been before my WBTB. I was on some mission to get some jewel or secret weapon or something from some girl in china town or some downtown area. I had some body guard type guys with me who could whoop butt. The guy had smuggled some sort of weapon that looked like an umbrella in his suitcase. I had to talk to some girl and she gave me a code word or location for the thing I was supposed to get. Others were after us and trying to get the same thing. I was some sort of espionage/spy stuff but is pretty fuzzy now.

Pre Bed Supps: 250mg Valerian 30 mins prior, 100 mg 5htp at bed. Bed @ 1115

WBTB: 4am Supps: 3mg G, 250 C, 250 Valerian and .5 mel

Routine: Got up and took my Valerian right away to keep me rather calm and hopefully keep me on the sleepy side. Read some old DJ entries and went back to bed 25 minutes later, right before I layed down I took other supps.

Had one non lucid prior to WBTB and didn't have too hard of a time getting back to sleep.

Woke with this around 530 or so but didn't record till around 8 or 9.

I was downstairs in an inside/outside living area. I was lying in a bed and we were either really cleaning up or moving out of our house. My wife was upstairs throwing a bunch of stuff out of a window like papers and whatnot. I told her that it would probably make more sense if the bagged it up there so she didn't have to pick it up twice. She didn't really care for my comments. I layed down in bed to go to sleep with lucidity on my mine (this was in the dream), I woke again (FA) and there was a dog on my head. I ended up laying on the dog and trying to get back to sleep again, still thinking of lucidity. I put my head near the side of the bed and it kept sinking down further and further never ending. I thought that I might be in a dream at this point. I tried to open my eyes but it was very difficult, I could open them a bit but they would clamp back shut. After alot of struggling I got them to stay open but they were fluttering a bit. I fought a bit more and finally got them to stay open. I did a RC with my hand and brought it up to my face but couldn't see it. I tried again and again I couldn't see it. It was like I knew it was there and I should be able to see it but it just wasn't there. I rolled out of bed (didn't even get stuck in the covers this time) and was finally able to see my hands. They looked normal. Oh well, back to bed. I turned to get back in bed and it was now a tan couch now. I checked my hand again and really looked and noticed some awkwardness about them, then I saw the wavyness and the shrinking and growing of the fingers.

LUCID: I didn't study anything like I said I was and just walked over to the side of the room with some cabinets and a refrigerator. I was in a basement of a house, not huge just a single large room and a small bathroom off to the side. I went into the refrigerator since I wanted to try some more food and opened it. On the bottom I saw a can of peanut butter. I grabbed it and took off the lid and got some with my finger from inside the top ring of the container. It wasn't bad actually, tasted nutty at least. I just tasted didn't chew or swallow. I then decided to find some dog biscuits to do the task from last month. I went into one cabinet which had pots and pans. Then I told myself they were in this cabinet and opened a top one and there were a bunch of different bagged items. I went through a few of them not recognizing dog treats and then again I thought they are here in the back. I grabbed a yellow bag and tried to read it but couldn't make anything out. I knew they were either cat or dog treats. This will do. I opened it up and got a handful out. They were shaped as animals, kind of looked like the animal crackers but they had the color of a salami type meat. Pink with some of the white specks riddled through them. I dropped a couple on the floor for the dogs that were by me and then popped one in my mouth. It tasted meaty, nothing amazing or gross, just there really. I then began picking up the mess that I made, wrappers on the counter. I thought this was funny that I was cleaning up and it didn't matter but I kept doing it anyways. I tossed it all in the trashcan in the bathroom. I saw a window and thought to go out it but wanted to find some people to do the St Patties day TOTM on so stayed inside. I did however want to jump through the ceiling to get upstairs. I remember I pictured in my head this failing and it did. I jumped up and went through some of the ceiling tiles and came back down with broken tiles around me. Stairs it is. I headed for the stairs on the other side of the room and started climbing them. I was about half way up when I heard my daughter and wife talking about me liking frosting. Happily I replied "I do like frosting" and before I got to the door to go to the upstairs I woke up.

I was pretty excited I had this lucid that lasted probably 5 to 10 minutes after my previous 5 or 6 have been less than 10 seconds.

Pre Bed - 500 mg Valerian, 3 mg melatonin 11 pm.
WBTB - 250mg Choline, 3 mg G, .3mg melatonin.

First dream I remember after WBTB is being in the kitchen and getting my vitamins together for bed and WBTB, I took another whole 4mg pill of G and this stressed me out since I had taken the 3 earlier and I knew I wouldn't be able to get back to sleep. Of course this did not lead to a RC.

I was in a meeting at work and we were finishing very late. I was going to go to bed and headed up some stairs, something prompted me to do a RC half way up the stairs. I looked at my hand quickly and then dropped it, then I realized it might not have looked right I looked again and there were the 7 fingers. LUCID: I was really baffled that this was a dream so I just decided to go ahead and continue on what I was doing and heading to bed. I began walking and came out.

I keep forgetting to stabilize. I wasn't really super excited too but I think every time I do gain lucidity my dream really destabilizes.

So two nights in a row for lucids, two last night. They haven't lasted longer than a few seconds for the last two nights. Guess I need to go back to stabilizing more before I get moving in the dream. I had 5 dreams I remembered clearly but only annotating the lucids on here.

Pre bed - 3mg Melatonin, 500 mg Valerian at 10pm
WBTB - 2mg G, 250mg C, 250mg Val, .3 mg Melatonin. 4am. (usually do this earlier but alarm didn't go off)

1. In a grocery store at a red box. I was trying one of my CC that has been acting up lately (worn out strip) and it wouldn't take it. I ran it over and over again. A couple got behind me in line and this added to my frustration. I looked for my other CC but I couldn't find it in my wallet. I did find another card but it was probably for a grocery store to get discounts. I got out of line frustrated. I turned around and got ready to walk out. I was at the end of all of the check out lines and reached in my pocket to get my keys. I pulled them out and half were missing. This frustration led me to do a RC and I found I had 6 fingers. LUCID: I immediately thought of dog biscuit TOTM and began to walk and whirled out of the dream. This is probably my shortest lucid to date.

2. I was lying in bed sleeping and heard the TV. I thought maybe I was dreaming since the TV wasn't on when I went to bed. This may have been a FA WILD but I am not sure. I had a couple of dreams after the last lucid before this one. Anyways my eyes seemed like they were glued shut or I was just so very tired. I finally managed to get them open and I was in a bedroom. I looked at my hand and saw five fingers, but I wasn't really convinced. I struggled with my covers a lot and then finally managed to get out of bed. I looked at my hand again and thought I saw a faint 6th finger. This was not my bedroom but a bedroom I had at my dads house when I was in high school. No bells went off yet though. I went to the window and looked out. I saw trees and a street beyond them, it was very peaceful outside and still dark out. I tried to look at my hands again and again a faint 6th finger but it was still dark in the room. I walked to the bedroom door to the light switch and on the way there I pinched myself under the arm. Didn't feel anything, but still not convinced. I then turned on the light switch and it didn't work. I looked and there were several different plates. I switched another on and the lights came on. I looked at my fingers now and had seven on one hand. I checked the other and had 7 as well. Lucid: I thought of going downstairs and getting a dog biscuit, again I immediately spun out. Not sure what is going on lately. Guess I need to work on stabilizing a little more once becoming lucid and I am a little calmer.

1st Lucid in almost 3 weeks and ruin it.

Pre: 100mg 5htp 930pm
WBTB: 3mg Galantamine, 250 Choline, .3 mg Melatonin. 1am.

Quite restless getting back to sleep but after about an hour I fell asleep and woke with this about an hour later.

I was at a house with my daughter and my wife. I don't remember what she was doing but my daughter was in the buff. My wife noticed that she had a pretty bad rash on her behind. I went to the bathroom to get the butt cream and all of a sudden I had to number 2 like I had bad Mexican food the night before. I almost didn't get down in time and it seemed like the earth was coming out of me. I remember wiping and thinking WTF? At this point I did a RC and bam 7 fingers

Lucid: I was pretty excited since it had been awhile since my last lucid. I stood up and grabbed some of the bottles that were on a metal shelf next to the toilet. There were lotions and whatever other stuff is on those bottle on the shelves in my bathroom. Anyways I started trying to read them to no avail really. I touched the top of the metal grated shelf and headed into the hallway. TOTM with the dog bone was on my mind and I was going to the kitchen to find one. I got to the hallway and had shouted focus a moment before. I was walking down the hall singing "FOCUS, FOCUS, FOCUS" very excited. I saw the cabinets above the kitchen counters. They were pretty dark and then I thought about writing on dream views after I try the dog biscuit and then thought about waking up and wham whirled out.

I don't know how many times I have done this to myself. I just need to stick to the task and think of nothing else. I laid really still for awhile afterwards trying to DEILD to no avail. I had a bunch more non lucid dreams after this but no more lucids.

So before this one I had another non lucid dream that I got up and took notes on around 4. Went back to bed, had this and woke up 3 minutes before my alarm at 5.

It started as me watching a gun fight out side, there was green grass around and it was a little hilly. Somehow it morphed into me in a gun fight and the background was now a convenience store. I had a hand gun and was taking people out left and right. I wound up getting an uzi from one of them and took some more out. Again I had a hand gun and there was a guy with a plastic badge hanging from his pocket with glasses. He was suspicious so I took him out. It didn't seem like my bullets were doing much to him but they took him down regardless. I got a box of ammunition off of him and was going to reload my gun. I ejected the clip and looked at it. It was a strange clip that went from small to big and back to small to big again. I wasn't sure how to get the bigger bullets past the smaller opening. I realized that if I put the clip back in my gun and pulled it out again that I could will it to the size of the bullet that I had in the box. I had to find out what size the bullet was in the box so I looked at the box to read the size. As I was focusing on the letters on the box (which were very out of focus), instantly I was in a bed reading a tag on a pillow I believe. This was a sort of false awakening but I already knew it was a dream at this point. I did a RC (hand check) here and realized it was a dream. LUCID: It was very dark in the room and trying to stabilize on my hand was pretty hard. I felt kind of stable in the dream. I got up out of bed after some fighting with the darn covers. To the right was a small window and I contemplated going out that but decided to explore the house to see what house I was in. I went toward the door and opened it. I looked at my hand again to try to get more stable but it was still really dark. There was a hallway to my right and a banister in front of me. I tried to go right but was frozen in place, I couldn't move. After a little stress I woke up. This has happened to me before while I was flying in the dark I couldn't control where I was going. I think that I wasn't stable enough. I totally spaced out on using vocal commands and tactile stabilization techniques. Pretty sucky for my first lucid in about 10 days.

Well I just typed this whole thing and it didn’t save right and now I am starting all over. Going to type on word on my computer then copy and paste. Sucky.

Bed: 1115
Supplements: 100mg 5htp, 250 mg Valerian Root
WBTB: 4 am
Supplements: 250 mg Valerian, 4 mg Galantamine, 500 mg Choline, .4mg Melatonin

I was a little restless getting back to sleep but after about 45 minutes was able to.
I woke up about 45 minutes after I fell asleep not thinking I had slept at all except I remember a fairly vivid dream. I recalled a bit and then went back to bed quickly.

Non-Lucid: I was eating with others and an ex-coworker was among them. I was being very quiet and then all of a sudden broke the silence and asked if they still worked there. I had a hard time conveying what I wanted to say during this dream. The words would come out slurred or very quiet and the DCs had a hard time hearing me. The scene turned into an office type area and we continued to chat about work a bit. I left to look for my room since now I was a hotel . I went up a couple of floors since my room was 501 or 50 something. I passed some stairs and saw a couple more people I knew and said something indiscernible to them as well. I was on floor 5 but it was a bunch of offices and this area I wasn’t supposed to be on. Not sure of this transition but I ended up outside by a bay. The weather was grey and wind. There was a large boat and a bunch of shopping carts lined up in the water, they were moving up and down with the waves. I went around the boat to a pier area. I needed to get across the bay but there was a huge line of people to take the transportation boats across. The line was behind and above me on a wooden dock area. I stood there wondering how I could get across, thought of swimming or taking a different boat but could figure nothing out. I woke from this and recalled for a bit then went back to sleep.

Laying in bed with my eyes closed there was a female with their arm over me, not sure who it was at this point. They had their hand on my boy parts and the dream got a little sexual at this point so to keep it PG13 I thought something was a little strange shortly after this and did a RC.

LUCID: I did some stabilization with my hand for a bit then started touching stuff around the room. I rubbed a blanket on the bed which was very fuzzy and really focused everything. I touched the window which was nice and cool. I was in a cabin type room with wood paneling and tall narrow rectangular windows. Instantly I thought of TOTM invisibility and the infamous girl’s locker room. Fortunately there was a school across the street, unfortunately it was an elementary school and that wouldn’t work. I hit the window with my elbow, broke the glass and went through. The school was till across the street, I was in a parking lot/street area with roads/highways above. I noticed many people around and thought about the new years resolution TOTMI yelled focus a couple of times and it seemed to focus a bit more. I saw a police officer about 100 yards away and was going to ask him. I looked down at my clothes and I was wearing a white shirt. I wanted to be in a suit or something nice. I tried a few times to will new clothes but had no success. I got pulled from the dream but was able to DEILD right back to a scene with a smaller boat. I was headed toward the boat to get in but was pulled back out of the dream. DEILD again and very wary of getting pulled out again I didn’t open my eyes and didn’t move. I was in a boat moving along a canal (feeling). There was a lady in the boat talking about mailing a package and she was concerned with the size and the price of the box. The boat stopped and I was out of the boat. I reached out for something to grab and felt something with my left hand, a rough wall, stucco. I opened my eyes and was solid in the dream. We were at a strip mall type place that was outside with grey stucco. I climbed some stairs in front of me and entered some glass doors into the first shop I found. As I entered the shop there was a rack of coats by the door, I touched them to anchor myself further and yelled “focus” again as I turned a corner. I saw 2 guys and a customer (girl from the boat) at the counter. They were all looking at me since I just shouted a moment earlier. I thought of the new years TOTM again and walked up to the guy at the counter behind the register. I asked him “what is your new years resolution” he was very perplexed with this question. After a few seconds of him thinking he said got out …. “To think” and I said sarcastically “you want to think?”, the then said “ well I have an inspection coming up”…. “To pass inspection”. I was good with this answer and then backed up. I had a plan for the opposite TOTM. I stood on my hand (this was not graceful like I imagined, more like a neck handish stand then a full on hand stand). I said “gravity is reversed today”. This was less dramatic than I anticipated as well but they did float up in thie air like they were in space. I flipped back around content with this and as I left I told them “opposite day is later this month”. Outside I looked for somewhere to do invisible task and saw a lady and two kids go into an apartment area. I flew/floated across the street to an area with houses/apartments. I went into a door. The room was bare and dark, marbled grey and black and kinda futuristic looking. There were many doors but all of them were locked but one. I went in the unlocked one and it was a tv room with a couch and a big dark window above the couch. 2 DCs were in there, one was Eddie Murphy and the other was some Arabic guy. I looked down and had a bunch of clothes on. I took a big snow outfit type of clothing off with some difficulty. I grabbed a football with some writing on it off of the entertainment center and began to toss it back and forth and hold it like I was going to throw it. Eddie wasn’t happy with this and he asked me about my broken window. I said that it didn’t matter anymore. I decided I was going to fly up and out the window. I took off and landed on the windowsill. I think I might have had an FA here but not sure. Behind me I knew it was a counseling session for people who thought they were in dreams but weren’t. To be sure I wasn’t crazy I did a RC again… phew still dreaming. I was perched on the window sill and in front of me was a huge pine tree; I thought of crashing through it but decided to focus on TOTM. Across the street were a dirt parking lot and a restaurant there. I flew over and landed in the lot. There were a few RVs in the lot and the restaurant was a seafood restaurant and it was up some stairs and off of a wooden deck. I decided to make myself invisible then. I closed my eyes and thought about brining my hand in front of my face and not being able to see it. I felt I was invisible and my eyes were still closed, right before I opened them again I thought about people who said that they can’t close their eyes when they are in a lucid or they wake up. I thought about me doing it just finds and at that moment woke up.

This was around 7am and I got up and wrote good notes since some of the details from earlier started to fade. I went back to lay down and hadn’t been asleep for but a couple minutes when my daughter got up. Not sure if the supplements did everything or it was a placebo effect. I am going to keep experimenting every few days.

I took a nap yesterday since I was beat from barely any sleep the night before and decided to try to WILD. I was very relaxed and had many scenes and thoughts drifting around my head. All of a sudden I found myself somewhere and I 'knew' where I was and what was going on, that feeling you get sometime in a dream that you just know something even though there is no evidence to support it. Anyways WILD: On a hillside with big rocks almost buried. We were fighting waiting to fight the Germans. They would run down the hills and sit on our heads and necks and either fart or pee or both. As soon as the motion started of the dream I woke up realizing what was going on jolted me from the dream. I wont count this as a LD though since it was probably less than 5 seconds.

Last night I tried 5htp as a sleep aid and it seemed to work, I slept a little restless but peacefully. This morning had this pretty vivid dream.

Game of Thrones setting/time. I was in a kingdom and we were on a very steep hill trying to conduct business. I had a couple of flags from other kingdoms I was trying to get up hill. We were the step children of the kingdom, I guess we didn't have it very good. So we were getting made fun of thorough a window from a girl/queen of another kingdom. I went down to the window and ripped the screen off and grabbed her head and pulled it through the screen (game of thrones style). I got a little trash talk out of the way when the body guard came up to me with a spear/weapon, I released her and shut the screen. The lord of our kingdom just got back from the store, he had gotten some portable flooring and some outside chairs I guess to spruce the place up. There were a lot of people sitting around and I helped him get things set up. Moved some of his wood flooring parts and some IKEA chairs onto it. That's about it.

So after several nights of crappy sleep and poor recall it is finally back to almost normal. May have been some of the meds I was taking not sure though. I remember at least 3 or 4 separate dreams, unfortunately no lucids.

1. Doing yard work in my back yard. A DC was watering spots of the yard in no systematic order at all. My daughter found something in the yard that was small and inside the grass. I looked and saw a sort of snail and I sprinkled some salt around and on it. It seemed to grow bigger as I messed with it. I used a stick or carrot or something and put it by its mouth which it latched and grew bigger and bigger. it started coming at me a bit trying to get my arms and at me in general. ended up being the size of a medium/large snake which I grabbed and threw down a hill in my yard towards the neighbors fence, which it rolled under and was gone. I headed inside the house and next to the back door was a type of planter box area. it was a wood structure and had 6 or 8 large square cubby holes, each with a different habitat in them. 1 area had gophers another had ants and another termites. I don't remember what others were. I got some termite killer from somewhere and dumped it into the ant part. Some splashed up in my mouth as well as some dirt and I ran into the house and spit in the sink, I got some out of my mouth and realized there was some food being prepared in the sink. Not sure of a transition here so I chalked it up into a different dream.

2. The next few dreams are all scrambled together so not sure if they were all one or not but I will split them up. In a house/hotel, pretty large with 3 or 4 floors. In a foreign country. I had just gotten there and headed out to find something to eat with a few DCs. Wound up at a pizza joint and others were now my family. we had placed our order ahead of time but apparently called the wrong place with our order. the wrong place called the place we were at and told them of this. we wound up getting the pizza and had put some tables together. I ate so much that I made myself sick to my stomach. I went down stairs since now I was in our house and made myself throw it up.

3. Still in foreign place back in hotel. I had set up where I was going to sleep right by the front door on like the desk. I realized this was going to be very loud at night and looked around at the other places around there to sleep. they were all taken up. there was something playing over the intercom system throughout the building, it believe it was a comedy skit or something of that nature. I was trying to find a good place to hear it from but could find no where to sit. The first floor was really crowded so I went up two floors. there were fewer people but all of the tables were taken up. the rooms were very colorful, multiple colors in each room. there was a big window with a cliff/mountain close by that I could see and there were people sitting on it. I headed toward the balcony trying to find a good place to hear the broadcast, it got quieter. I went back in the room and found another room with very few people in it so I sat against a wall on the floor. Later on or even before this I was helping with a group who was getting food together for everyone in the hotel, which was many thousands of people. There was a table area with others prepping the food.

4. Driving with a DC. he was on the phone talking about area we were in, Japan? Over speed bumps and through the streets. when we would up where we were going to a gated area I was driving. I tried to go left through the gate but it was yellow caution taped off. I got close to the tape and others I was with were concerned with what I was doing. I backed up and parked and decided we would just walk into the area and not drive. there were many other people coming in a big line to get in. I was driving an older 80s type pick up truck like a chevy or a GMC which was kinda beat up.

So not a very interesting dream but at least I could remember some of it.

So I got plenty of sleep and really only had a small fragment of a dream in the morning. I didn't work on recall through out the night just kept trying to get back to sleep.

I was playing pool with a DC and I was solids. I had a shot in the side pocket and I lined up with a couple different balls. I shot a white ball and a red ball and scratched. The DC I was playing with stacked the balls all on top of one another until they were about 6 or 8 high. He hit the stack and the balls went everywhere.

Not a very cool dream.

So I did a lot of intention setting prior to bed and when I laid down I was repeating some mantras and trying to remember some of the TOTMs and what else I wanted to do. I was trying to convince myself of all of this and it seemed to just make me anxious and not be able to sleep. When I finally put my mind to rest a bit and start drifting off I could feel myself going to sleep, partial dreams and partial awake, it was very strange. My dream seemed very unstable and very chaotic, I could see buildings and objects just growing which apparently I was causing, nothing vivid whatsoever though.

I woke up many other times with just snippits of dreams but didn't really concentrate on recall since I just knew I was going to have a lucid later (which never happened). Instead I focused on getting back to sleep.

Woke with this one in the morning which wasn't really super vivid but I recalled quite a bit none the less.

I was with a DC in a car. We were headed back from somewhere but not sure where. I was in the buff for some reason but not sure why. I was very upset at my nudity and was just kinda covering as much as I could while we were driving. We ended up in a auto shop maybe a chop shop, not really sure. We stopped by the supervisor who was by a computer or something and asked about how much it was going to be to get a car that we 'aquired' fixed. The price popped up on the register as 12 thousand something maybe a 234 but not really sure about the last three digits. We continued and parked, I think I was clothed at this point or just forgot I was in the buff. There was a couple of guys working on buffing a car with a squirt bottle and small hand held buffers. We turned into the guys who were buffing and the DC I was with found my sun glasses on a motorcycle which I had apparently misplaced. Don't remember this transition but I wound up at home in a kitchen getting breakfast ready for my daughter. my wife showed up and wanted to show my step son the car we got. We went to the garage and there was a white porche sitting in the garage. She told him to take a look inside and he started to drive it, turning out of the garage. I was yelling at him to stop (not yet able to drive), he finally started to back up and I realized the car was just a Honda morano or something not amazing like a porche. He almost backed it into a wall and finally stopped. My wife began to get on him and he ran at me trying to get away, I held out my arms or hands to block him from getting me and wound up making him do some crazy flip backwards.

That was about it. Nothing too amazing, I had really anticipated a lucid last night too. Maybe tonight!

So I didn't sleep great last night since my wife is sick and coughing all night I decided to sleep on the couch which was not comfy at all.

1. I woke at around 130 or so with this. I don't know if I was all the way asleep or what bit I knew I was dreaming, I also knew I was uncomfortable on the couch. I was with my family in the valet area of a hotel or parking lot, I knew it was a dream not sure if I WILDED there or not but immediately I spiraled out and adjusted so I wasn't so uncomfortable and tried a DEILD and think I was successful for a couple of seconds but was still uncomfortable and had a headache so I gave up and woke myself. I got up and took some aspirin for my headache and went back to bed.

2. This one was weird. FI was with a group of people and we were unpacking a large package/present. It was just a large cardboard box with packing tape on it. I was cutting the tape with a knife or scissors. Inside the box was a machine which gave people diseases and for some reason it was a coveted item or a good thing to have. Like to give yourself a bunch of diseases was a good thing. Some diseases were breathed in and had containers labeled with what the diseases were. I remember not wanting to touch some of the containers.

3. On a ship walking around I ran into the supervisor and he showed me an evaluation that I hadn't seen but it was really in bad shape. He was the last one that was going to sign it and I needed to run it to our office to get it fixed. I remember that I kept leaving my had places and I had to go back and get it a couple of times. In a big open area I was waiting for some others but did not feel like being there since whatever we were doing I found stupid. I headed up some stairs and there was a girl there trying to zip some material onto the stair rails. She asked for my help and I held the bottom. This rail cover turned into her outfit which was some sort of zippable one piece suit thing. I watched her try to zip it a couple times but the zipper kept splitting as she would get about a quarter way down. I asked if she wanted some help and notices she was in her birthday suit underneath and I tried not to look. I then tried once and it split for me. I unzipped it all the way and was able to zip the suit up all the way. She was very thankful for my help and gave me a hug. I told her that I knew how horrible it was to have to be naked places.

I had every intention of a good lucid dream last night, I think the couch squashed those intentions. Stupid couch.

I actually took 100 mg of B6 2 hours before bed and was pretty restless for the first few hours before I fell asleep and woke a few times with mediocre at best recall. I had two dreams I could remember at all but no lucids.

1. First one started in the wild. There was dirt, I was on a path and I faintly remember being on some sort of vehicle like a 4 wheeler or a motorcycle. There were animals but nothing significant. I was then leaving a house and I had a basket that I was taking stuff in. one of the wood slats in the basket broke and I put it inside the basket and was going to fix it later. I was then with others in a canal type area. Cement canal with water in the bottom and an overpass for the freeway close by. The group of people I was with was younger kids and we were fending off animals like snakes and lizards with sticks and rocks. There was then a bear who began to come at us and we retreated to under the overpass.

2. This dream was a little clearer but still not the really clear recall I normally have. This was a similar scene to the mini cooper scene in the movie Italian Job. It was more like I was watching this happen than participate. There was someone driving the car which was smaller than a cooper and also a narrator describing what had been done to the car to make it so agile. The driver was running from cops and this was all taking place on a cargo type ship. The car was going under and between big cargo containers and eventually lost the cops. The drive was very bumpy as well and seemed to get bumper as the chase progressed. Another person with the driver (who was the main guy) went to steal a circuit card that was crucial for the job to be a success. But it turned out the card was stolen much to early to be of use. These scenes were much more detailed but my restless sleep kept me from getting really good recall on them.

Ok well I was out of town and didn't have the time to do these on a daily basis.

29Dec13

I took notes on this one after the fact, a couple dreams after and wrote the night after I had it so it was pretty fuzzy.

I was dating or met and started dating a girl. There was another girl (her friend) who was dating one of my friends. Bars and clubs. Rode a bicycle with both of them down a street and going up and down street curbs. Other girl began to go crazy and tried to steal my car, I got in passenger side and pulled e-break so she couldn't take it. Ended up at a show where both of them had been performers. I took a seat for the show in a theater in the second row down, had to pass a few people and sat next to an older lady who had to move her leg or her purse. The intro was someone from the dukes of hazard apologizing for the crazy girl not being there and sorry they could not perform that night. The second act started with tall skinny girls dancing, they were all fully clothed from head to toe in heavy woven fabric doing crazy dancing.

30Dec13

This one I went lucid in and took notes right when I woke up. There was a lot more before this but I only remember snippits.

Started with me on a ship. I was going to the aft end and up a couple of decks. I went outside to see how the deck looked to see what shape it was in. For some reason I was carrying a blanket. Anyways when I got there it was really rusted but it looked like it had been freshly painted in some spots. In the water was clouds of stuff either dirt or rust. I turned around to head in and at this point is was night. A girl who worked for me was standing there and was very sad. I talked to her and found out that her husband had died. I asked from what and she said it was something crazy like malaria. I consoled her and hugged her deeply and for a long time. She climbed into my lap like a child would and straddled me. A few more people showed up there or were there and I just noticed. I knew or had the feeling that her husband was a jerk and bad for her. I told her that she should go out with another girl that was there and they should tear up the town, trying to break up the tension. Another girl crawled up to the girl who was very young, maybe 2 and I was surprised she was there by herself. I told the girl that I would take care of everything with her husband and left. I got up and started climbing stairs up and thought, "oh I have a lot to do, stressful" this was a cue to do a reality check, hands, fingers were 5, 6, 7 nice.

LUCID: I thought of flying up the rest of the way and then remembered I was working on anchoring. I looked at my hands in detail, wrinkles and hairs, moved closer to the light to get better detail. I now felt anchored! I was half way up stairs but now I was climbing up boxes. I climbed to the top and now I was on a stack of boxes and crates in a big open area, still on a ship. I anchored again since I was in a new place. Once I finished thought what should I do? I thought try to shoot fire balls from your hands? why not? This was one thing I had on my bucket list. I put my hand in the air and did some moving and thought and some words and said "fire!" and threw my hand forward. The ball went it was a ball a little bigger than a baseball, it was kind of a puttering fire ball, it was black and then on fire and black and kind of moved this way and that way. This is not the type of ball I wanted to shoot. I imagined more what I wanted it to look like and threw another. Much better it went faster and kept fire and straight. I threw it towards a couple of people and they jumped out of the way. I threw several of them all around me at people. fun. How about ice? I then threw ice balls around me in a similar fashion, these were just like snow balls. Then I tried electricity/lightning, my favorite by far. Balls of light went and when they hit gave the DC they were thrown at a nice jolt. To my right there were a couple people who looked like they were going to retaliate, so I began to use both hands and threw a barrage of fire balls towards them. Needless to say there was no retaliation. There was this really large guy behind me who I had thrown a couple of balls at and he dodged, I hit him with lightning and it zapped him. I finished throwing balls and climbed down the boxes. He was kind of mocking me so I thought of something else I could do, a "finishing move" I guess. So I threw both my hands in the air and said "Meteor!" and brought them down, at this point it began to rain meteors and got the mocker. I was thoroughly pleased with myself. I headed toward a door that was in front of me to further explore. As I reached toward a door knob the big guy grabbed my leg and pleaded with me not to go. I kind of stressed a little bit since he was so big and I didn't know if I could get him off of me. I shook once and he went off a bit. I started getting a bit mad and thought that if I couldn't get him off he was going to get it, I didn't have a plan for it but it was going to be rough for him. I did one more shake and he was off. I opened the door and walked into a neighborhood. The grass was green, it was a nice blue sky. The neighborhood was nice and I had just stepped out of the front door of a mid sized house, stucco siding and the clay shingles on the roof, 2 story. The house next door was similar as well. I noticed a big tree with green leaves. The road was a light blue like it hadn't finished loading the color yet. I practiced anchoring and probably didn't do it for long enough. I began walking toward the house next door and contemplated what I was going to do, break into the house? whoosh... out of the dream.

31st - Not much recall and only snippits.
The funeral of a friend and a moment of silence.
Waiting for others when I was leading, they would not follow. it was a mall like area.

1st - Not much recall and only snippits again but maybe an OBE?
Main thing I remember is falling asleep, I felt dream bodyish and just kind of rolled out of my body. I looked back in my bed and saw my wife sleeping, I didn't' see me.... or did I? My mind was playing tricks on me but it was definitely a dream now that I am remembering. I never became fully lucid since my mind convinced me I was just up from bed, don't remember what happened after that.