Mouka's Mind Palace

(This is from September 16.)

I woke up into a lucid dream from an episode of sleep paralysis. I looked around and was in some kind of dorm room, there was a futon on the floor, a small area with a microwave and mini-fridge, and the regular dorm room surroundings. I also saw a mirror on the wall and wondered what I looked like, so I looked into the mirror and saw myself. I was confused at first, because I knew I had wings, but I couldn't see them in the mirror, so I kept concentrating on my reflection until my wings appeared. After that, I attempted to call Afiel into my dream, using every trick I could remember. Yelling his name, visualization, closing my eyes and reaching out, etc, but none of it worked. At that point I was annoyed, because this was my second lucid attempt to bring him about and I didn't want to fail again, but then I looked into the mirror while visualizing him and there was his reflection in the mirror! He was standing behind me; using the mirror had worked. I spun around and he was standing there looking all excited that we were able to do it, and I ran over squealing like a little girl and jumped into his arms. He said he honestly didn't think it would ever work and he was just humoring me all this time, and that he was "pleasantly surprised" when he woke up in my lucid dream. I wasn't sure how to leave the room since there was no door, but I had pretty good control and stuck out my hand, which caused a big hole to open up on the floor. We both jumped through it and came out on the other side in midair, just above the lowest layer of clouds and the ground below us like green patchwork. Afiel didn't seem to have a problem flying, right away he spread his wings and caught a current of wind. I, however, was immediately falling as soon as I exited the hole. I spread out my wings and tried to steady myself, and was able to finally get myself going in flight after a few failed attempts at hovering. As I flew, I saw Afiel much higher up, his huge black wings were maybe three times bigger than my little white ones and he was blocking out the sun. I followed him up and we just flew around together enjoying the view and laughing. I remember at one point seeing something interesting on the ground, so we landed in the grass and were surrounded by lots of cool old stone structures. We flew together through a lot of odd places just exploring, occasionally ending up in weird dimensions that didn't make sense. Every few minutes or so I would be surprised that my dream was so vivid and was lasting so long, and had this feeling that Afiel was somehow helping me keep it anchored. Even so, I kept randomly touching things and rubbing my hands together thinking it could possibly buy me more time. We flew through a weird ribbon-like thing in the sky and wound up in this scene that was a giant translucent blue cube about a mile in size that would start over at the beginning once we reached the end, like some kind of dimensional loop. On the sides of the cube I could see offices and floors of buildings just floating around strangely, and beyond that was infinite darkness. The darkness eventually closed in and the dream faded away.

(This is from September 15.)

I was shopping at some kind of flea market / antique mall. I walked through the various booths with Cory and saw some interesting things, like some very tiny props used for a dollhouse or something. There was a mini table with a mini stick of butter and sliced loaf of bread and other foods. It really struck me because it was so realistic looking even though it was tiny. They were in a glass case with some other things, and I wondered if they were big enough to use as props for my BJD Ian, but Cory said they were too small. There was also a tiny piano the size of a finger and it was playable. As we walked around the booths, we wound up outside some doors to the next area of the market. There were tons of people sitting around waiting to be let through the doors, but they were only letting in five people at a time. They had a TV set up for people to watch while they waited. The whole area was very rustic looking with wooden walls and lots of old advertising signs all hung up. We finally got to the front of the line and the people letting others through the doors were my old friends from middle school! I saw Jessica ushering people through. When it was our turn they let Cory through but he was number five, so we were separated. I went through after a while and couldn't find him, so I went to the book area and looked at the old religion books. I found an awesome book on rituals for Egyptian gods and got that, then I saw a huge section of nothing but copies of the Qur'an and I thought I would find a nice one since I've never read it before. As I was looking, this guy came over and looked through them with me. I asked what would be a good translation and he kept pointing to different things but not speaking so I thought he was a mute. I found a really nice one and put that with my Egyptian book and another book that was red but I don't remember what it was about. Then Cory found me and asked if I was ready to go, so I gathered them and headed out. As I walked away, the guy I thought was mute said goodbye to me and I was surprised.

(This is from September 14.)

I brought about a lucid dream through sleep paralysis. As I was in paralysis, I visualized my bedroom exactly as it would be if I were awake, and awoke into a dream of me laying on the bed in my room. The surrounding were very unstable, however, and the air was heavy like a blanket and strange looking. It was almost like heat waves, but no heat. It looked a lot like the air in hell from Constantine. I couldn't lift my hands to rub them together in an attempt to stabilize so I just had to deal. I crawled out of bed and looked around, but everything was normal except there were a lot of alphabet magnets on my TV screen. I stumbled down the hall trying to fight the heavy air, but I just couldn't stabilize and the dream faded away.

Cory had hired these two slutty girls to paint my car for me as a surprise, but I was pissed because I knew they didn't actually know how to paint cars and I had no idea why he was letting them. When I went out to take a look, poor Celtius was not painted at all. They had spray-painted some black letters on the side of the car and it looked awful. But for some reason he kept defending them. Then he let one of them stay at our apartment for a while, and it got to the point where he was just fawning over her and doing whatever she wanted. I was so angry, and I kept crying and trying to get him alone so I could talk to him about it, but she followed us everywhere. The other girl who didn't stay got snippy with me when I asked about the "paint job" and I wasn't in the mood to argue so I just flipped her off and went to lay down. One day while we were at a store, Cory snapped out of it and we realized she'd had him under some kind of spell, so we ran into an elevator and got the doors to close before she could follow us, and then ran out of the store.

I was a displaced orc living in a strange land that was set up like some kind of prison labyrinth. It wasn't actually a prison, but it was grey and simplistic like a prison. The through-ways were difficult to navigate and the whole of the land was one giant maze, but we had no choice because the orcs had been kicked out of Durotar and Orgrimmar for some unknown reason and this was where I had settled. There were other races living here too, mostly people who supported us and left on their own free will, some blood elves and trolls and such. On the corners of the maze roads were phone booths, and these were set up on every corner and "sponsored" by a person or group that would keep them clean, like those Adopt-a-Mile programs. As I was standing against a wall with some blood elves, they began to talk about how silly the booths were, and pointed to the one closest to us that was sponsored by someone named Snowsparkle. They assumed it was some girly weak person and set a bomb in the booth. I was afraid because I knew it would be a big explosion and someone could get hurt, so I called out for help. Then this huge imposing centaur appeared and defused the bomb and sent the elves running off in panic. Apparently he was Snowsparkle. He thanked me and said that indeed would've been a big explosion, and to properly thank me he said he wanted to show me something amazing. He picked me up with one hand, I was like the size of his forearm, and we galloped away. After a long while we were in Durotar, and we stood upon the road leading from Razor Hill to Sen'jin Village. There were hundreds of orcs all lined up heading back into Durotar, carrying sacks of their belongings and looking happy. The centaur told me we were all allowed home now and I remember being overcome with emotion and I just sat there on his shoulder crying in joy. He took me back to my temporary home and I decided I would move back to Durotar with the other orcs. I packed up all my things for my journey back, which wasn't much and fit into one bag. To get from the place I was currently at and into Durotar, I had to pass through a magical home. I ran into the house humming that magic carpet song from Aladdin because I was so happy, and I think I realized the house existed between dimensions, and that Durotar and the world I was in were actually separate dimensions altogether because that land was grey and Durotar just immediately was bright and reddish. I ran through the kitchen, still humming, and saw Thrall standing over the stove cooking something. I waved to him as I ran past. Then I entered into a bedroom and there was a huge dresser against the wall with a closet door to the left of it. I knew I had to crawl through a drawer in the dresser to reach Durotar, but I was nervous because I felt claustrophobic. When I opened the drawer, I could see Durotar on the other side. Instead, I opened the closet door and found inside that it was completely empty except for a mirror. I pushed the mirror and it opened into a small room that was mirrored on all sides, and this mirror room opened up into Durotar. I stood on the road, incredibly happy that I actually made it there.

(This is from September 9.)

I woke up into a dream, but I was in my old bedroom at the house we had in Arab when I was a kid. Nothing was really happening except I was sitting on the bed, so I had time to ponder over my situation. I realized I didn't live here anymore and that I must be dreaming, so I attempted the palm reality check, and sure enough my finger went right through my hand. I flew up into the air and hovered around the room a few times to gauge how much control I had. Then I remembered I wanted to practice calling Afiel into my lucid dreams, and I got excited because normally when I LD I get caught up in the moment and totally forget and Afiel and my's little experiment. So I call his name and attempt to visualize him, but nothing happens. I close my eyes and try to will him there, but still nothing. So I left the room and went to the door leading outside next to the pool table, constantly looking behind me hoping he would randomly show up there. Thinking I'd have a better shot at it if I were outdoors in a large open area, I opened the door and was just about to head outside when I saw a big bear wandering around right outside the door! I totally freaked out and suddenly I heard a vicious barking behind me, and next to the pool table was a rabid Rottweiler dog, so I slid in between the outer door and the screen door to keep them both away from me and tried my hardest to will them away. Unfortunately the bear had freaked me out enough that I lost control of my surroundings so I was stuck. Suddenly I couldn't hear the bear anymore, so I looked outside and saw the bear had turned to stone, and Rina was standing there looking all smug and laughing at me for being afraid. He pushed past me and walked into the house, the rabid dog now gone, and heads to the kitchen. At this point I am completely lost, because I have no idea how I'd summoned up Rina of all people when I was attempting Afiel. So I followed him into the kitchen and he tells me since he's my guest that I should pour him a glass of water. I tell him "Are you kidding me? I'm not wasting a lucid dream pouring you a glass of water, you prima donna." and he got all huffy and poured himself some water. Then I heard my phone ringing from outside the dream, and the whole scene broke apart because apparently my brain thinks telemarketers are more important than bugging the crap out of Rina.

I was visiting some spoiled rich kid's home and I noticed my old DDR pad in the closet. It's for the PS2 and they said I couldn't have it back because I only have an XBox 360 and the pad wouldn't be compatible. The kid is talking about all the games he owns and heads downstairs into a basement area. When I looked down there, I saw the kid and two girls laying down on a futon playing console games.

Cory and I had a routine where we would visit this small locally-owned candy store each time we went on a trip to that area of the country, which was often. The owner of the store was the lady who owns the food truck near our apartment. She'd always recognize us when we came into the store, and I remember once telling her my zip code and she got all excited and said her zip code started with the same two numbers as mine, which I thought was a strange thing to get excited about. We bought a bunch of interesting looking chocolates and I also got a red and white striped peppermint that was shaped like a shoe. The owner said the shoe had to be eaten a certain way so the middle doesn't melt and become raw. We noticed that they also sold cherries, and rights to pick as many cherries as you wanted from the trees outside. As we left, I saw rows of newly planted cherry trees growing next to the road. After we got home from the trip, I followed Cory from the parking lot and through a crowd of people all sitting on picnic tables under a sheltered patio. One of the people mentioned the ASVAB so I went over curiously to help him study, but my social anxiety kicked in and I just stood there awkwardly not saying anything.

I went into Walmart and decided to work there. Apparently I thought since I used to work there when I was younger, I was allowed to just jump behind a register and start working whenever. But when I got behind the register, I noticed they looked different and had touch screens and stuff, so I got nervous. I couldn't figure out how to start, so the bagger told me I had to scan my badge to start every transaction. I annoyed lots of customers because I took so long to figure it out. One of the other cashiers took pity on me and took over my register and I opened a new line. An old guy with lots of TVs and inflatable pool toys came through and I had to lift each heavy TV to scan it and deflate the pool toys, but then I accidentally dropped a box and freaked out thinking it was a TV I'd broken, but it turned out to be a box of Capri-Sun drinks. After a while, I was called to the back and confronted by the manager asking why I was there since I left years ago. I lied and told her that I was still employed there, I was just working at another store in a place called Alphrettia, Georgia. She didn't believe me and looked up the store there on her computer, but I was desperate not to get yelled at so I sprinted off through the garden center and into the parking lot. As I ran, I passed Will Smith who was sitting in a car, and I waved at him and he waved back. I remember thinking he must drive around a lot because I see him in that car almost everywhere. Then I jumped into my car where Cory was waiting. After I pulled out, I realized my brakes weren't working, so I drift along in the parking lot trying to avoid small children and stuff. The car finally came to a halt when it lightly hit the bumper of a big white truck, and a lady got out and immediately recognized us because she's was regular at Cory's store. She said we were lucky she's such a nice person and said she'll forget that it ever happened.

(This is from September 8.)

I was with a tourist group and we were all at the mall. The group leader was the angry dad from Family Matters (I think his name was Carl?). I suddenly had a craving for soda but the closest machine near us didn't have the kind I wanted, so I secretly separated from the group to find another machine. I wandered into the food court and saw a bar right in the center of the court with a bartender standing there. Then I realized that the bartender was a friend of Cory's, and he looked kind of like Sock from Reaper, but I wasn't sure if he remembered me or not, so I walked by to see if he'd wave at me. It turned out that he did, and he said hello and waved me over so I sat at the bar and talked to him. A little later, Cory came over to see him and I was worried because I knew I was supposed to be with the tourist group and I was certain that Cory would get annoyed at me abandoning them for soda. Instead, he didn't get angry, and we all sat down and chatted. I think somebody else joined us as well.

I accidentally dropped my TV remote off the balcony of my apartment, ten floors up. It landed in the snow among some trees, but the remote was white so it blended in and I was unable to see where it landed. I remember the snow being very vivid, and everywhere. For some reason, I was deathly afraid someone would steal my remote and I ran down there immediately to find it, but I kept getting sidetracked by people standing on the street corner talking to me about their day and stuff. After I broke free from the conversations, I looked around for my remote but I couldn't find it anywhere.

On a beautiful spring day in a public park, I was sitting outside on the grass with a bunch of other people. I think it was some kind of outdoor seminar, because there was a man standing up in front of us talking about different kinds of puzzles and the history of them. We all listened attentively and took notes. He told us a riddle about a man and some trials he went through, and I knew the answer to the riddle, but he kept asking other people if they knew what the answer was and none of them knew it. I was getting annoyed that he refused to call on me. Then he asked two nuns who were sitting next to me. The nuns stood up in front of everyone and started talking in these demonic voices about how the answer was Satan, and how the answer is ALWAYS Satan, and the guy holding the seminar tried to get them to sit down but they kept going on and on. It turned out that they were actually demons posing as nuns. They eventually sat down and the man gave us all scratch lottery tickets. I scratched mine off and saw that I'd won 87 million dollars, but I didn't act excited nor did I freak out, I somehow knew that would happen. I gave everyone in the group a million dollars each, even the satanic nuns, and then went on my way.

(I haven't updated this dream journal since the 5th I've been super-busy the past few weeks and only had time to write them on my iPhone before jumping headfirst into my day. I'm not going to go through and upload all the dreams from all 16 days I've been offline, just the more memorable ones - I gotta keep my tag collection growing! It's awesome to see my tags change size and give me an overview of what I dream about most.)

(This is from September 7.)

I lived in an apartment with a roommate - a meek little lady with big wire glasses. When she moved in she brought all these couches with her, and she would put a couch in the den based on the holiday. She currently had a pastel-colored Easter couch out there and it slightly annoyed me because it was really gaudy and didn't fit. It was dinnertime currently, and we both sat down at the table, and I saw that she was wearing a Touched By An Angel shirt so I told her how much I loved that show. She told me she'd invited her boyfriend over for dinner, and he sat down next to her. Except he wasn't human at all, he was a Klingon, and I remember being really freaked out because he just seemed so annoyed and uncomfortable sitting at our quaint little table eating roasted chicken. Then things got really bad after my roommate decided to start flirting with me in front of him and mentioned she had a crush on me. I, of course, wanted nothing to do with this situation, but the Klingon got angry and challenged me to a fight, and soon enough I was running out the door and into the backyard with this guy screaming and swinging a sword at me. He kept telling me to stand still and accept an honorable death but I kept dodging him.

I was staying at a hotel that overlooked a futuristic expressway, where I could see hovercars going to and from their destinations. My suite had multiple rooms but there was one bedroom I really liked in particular. However, when I came back to my suite after doing some shopping, I saw that the room wasn't a bedroom anymore. Instead, it was smaller and was filled with boxes. I asked the room service guy and he said there was never a bedroom there in the first place, only that small storage area.

During a college class, all the students were paired up to do a project. I waited until the last second and couldn't choose a partner, so I got the last person left, who happened to be Michi. I was really excited to be paired with her since she's like a little sister to me, even though I wasn't sure what she was doing in college since she's only five or six years old. The teacher pulled me aside and asked me to find a new partner because he thought I was a bad student and would hold Michi back. I got super upset at that accusation, even though I knew I often didn't do my homework, but it made me embarrassed and I decided never to go to that class again. Instead, I skipped that class every day by going home to eat and then coming back after it was over. But one day while skipping I couldn't find my car in the parking lot and the city bus had already left, so I wandered around campus looking for my car. A group of people sitting on the grass in the commons area made fun of me for being so bad at my project and told me to just quit school already. Instead of crying and leaving, I got determined to prove them wrong and I went back to class. We were watching some Spongebob movie and everyone in class complained because it was a horrible movie. Spongebob was walking around on a real life beach, and this large girl in a bathing suit kept staring at him funny. Halfway through the movie, the ground started shaking and we all ran outside to discover dinosaurs were attacking the school. Everyone was in a frenzy trying to escape and ran off in big crowds, and I grabbed Michi and took off, but was terrified that we'd be squished because the dinosaurs were just randomly stepping on people.