Dthoughts

Felt quite good about a particular employee in our building. She can be a nuisance but i've been thinking about it a lot and why it is so. Otherwise she is quite sweet and innocent.
She was guiding 3 of us as we where like playing with building block or learning... Like a kid. Well there where some cookies. I took the last one, gave one to someone else and "accidantilly" shoved an entire cookie in my mouth. I looked at her, and she is a woman of discipline. But to my suprise she says its okay! It's the brown spice ain't it? . . I'm like, Nah I think it's the sugar content that my body craves. Her reaction was blank. . Upon waking up I figured that maybe complying with other people's thoughts is more conductive for social positivity. That's what I took from this dream.

I saw the younger sister of an old muslim friend yesterday. Who is a weird dude. Went to jail for a year. Came back even weirder.
I also made an application to work in a Hotel as a cleaning lady (lol). Or boy. hah. These things seemed to have influenced this dream content.
Also happened to see American Beauty last week which features a (Gay) scene not unlike this one.

Had a lot of dreaming which I forgot but eventually me and O came to this Hotel. He started to lay in bed and he actually went to ramble for a little bit about how he is not gay or some anti-gay thing. I respond normally I think saying ye, well. I'm not gay either. (Nothing against gays!) . So I feel kind of tired and lay down in the space next to him and just after he said this his leg started to move towards me. He's getting awfully close and he reaches for my private parts. I'm like.. Naaa thanks dude.. . The thing is. 5 minutes before this happened in the dream he actually checked if all the windows where closed and the door was locked. When I denied he tried to grab me and whispers in my ear something slightly vulgar, I think. Basically saying "Your not going anywhere and ur going to be phucked". Hell fucking no I ain't. And I resist but he is considerably stronger than I thought. I know that in real life he underestimates me big time and thinks he can handle me.. In this dream this followed the same scenario and he was suprised at my resistance. He wasn't moving me. I was guiding him towards the window though and I kicked it in and started screaming for help. I had some trouble with my voice. But I succesfully screamed. Making it sound serious. The thing about my voice feels like a choke in the throat. As if from fear. I often have it in dreams. Well, O didn't wait for help to come and he jumped out of a 10th floor window into the bushes some serious distance away.

It looked like he already planned this escape route the bushes where a pretty good aim. He still fell out of a 10th floor building or something and I'm pretty sure bones where broken. He tried running but the police where already there and captures him. I kept screaming; "You are lucky" towards him because he survived the fall. Then later on I was in this hotel room with a sort of cousin of mine who owned this place or something and called the housekeeper who didn't want to clean this mess for me untill i told her this story. Then she finally understood or something. Weird scenes.

I'm in the shower with some dude.. I think it was the same guy who tried to rape me earlier. We are not touching though, it's actually more like a shared army shower. I look through the mirror and I try to eyeball a girl who I can barely see through it. I suddenly get a good look on some mature boobies. I try to look outside the window and eyeball another woman. I take care not to get caught though that would be kind of creepy. I hide from being seen and try to keep to myself.

Later dream scene. Walking around town. See an old friend of mine I happened to bump in to last month. He is very succesfull at school and does really well in Uni. He sees me passing by on the street and he asks me how to make money. I say "Just be a rapper like me and make a mili".. Lol.. ?! Later on he is with me in my house and I tell him i don't actually have a million. He says "Its okay.." .