DannyCool

This dream happened in my deep sleep it was very vivid but I had no lucidity.

There was a man who I know who is always getting into a bit of trouble and he has a diabetes problem. He was sleeping on the side of the street. Things had obviously got worse for him. He had an empty bottle of the hard stuff beside him and we were not sure if he was going to wake up. He was moving. Now if you tried to move this guy you'd probably get knocked out and for some reason we were not calling the ambulance like this happens regularly so what can you do type thing. Nevertheless Mzungu seems to have no problem staying up all night to keep an eye on him and make sure he is ok. Mzungu tells me to go home and just leave my number with him. Mzungu is clearly on the lucidity all night watch looking out for people in his sleeping bag on the street hardcore style! I decide to go for the more scientific approach and go into a big laboratory where they have all sorts of survelance cameras and hi tech equipment. There are a few drunk people around and then I see on one of the tables a good clue to my reality checks but I don't pick up on it.

There were many reminders of lucidity in this dream but I did not pick up on it.

Fell back to sleep at night wanting to go to the toilet wishing to have a dream doing the visualisation method in MILD. I am in the countryside at my home. My body looks like a dream and I know I am dreaming.

I start to meditate as that is what I have been intending to do when I go lucid. I definitely know I am dreaming. There is a bird flying over head and I think it is going to poo on me (which is actually good luck!) but instead it drops me a big crystal in the shape of a diamond. I knew instantly what this meant and put it into the heart of my dream body and continued to meditate. Many women manifest but they really represent my craving mind. I get teased by many of them and decided fire would be the best thing to repel them. I start to wish to generate fire from my hands but know it is going to cause a lot of damage. Then I remember another action I wished to do in my dreams was pray. The next thing I put a massive dome force field around the myself and the countryside so that my craving mind represented by the women could not get in.Now I could enjoy the countryside again. Ahhhhhhhhh phew....

I went for a walk but I could still see the women off in the distance wanting to get through the dome. Sometime later I was going for a walk and I had a little bit forgotten about the dome and I met Mzungu's 'friend'. She was so beautiful. She a wisping brown hair. Chocolate coloured skin with a few freckles. Her eyes were deep brown and her body was as soft as silk. And she had the blue pants on of course Mzungu. Let me tell you now she was not interested in alligators (not the snapping type anyway!). I couldn't resist but as I started to feel the intense craving I knew I was going away from my meditation and this would only increase my desire in the future. I felt angry and fire came out of my hands. I put it over her head so she would not get burnt but she still continued to tease me under the flames. This time I had enough and I blasted out an enormous force field so that no craving would every come back. The whole environment turned into the Buddha.

This had happened in previous dreams but this time I knew it was just a representation of the crystal I was given at the start. I started my breathing exercise like Mzungu told me to do. The fantasy and craving eased off. I knew I did not have to go against the craving. I just relaxed deeply in peace and opened my eyes.

After my lunch I fell asleep and had a WILD out in the countryside. I kept telling myself "When I am dreaming I will know I am dreaming". I woke up a few times knowing I was dreaming as I seamed not to be stabilising. Then I fell asleep again. I could see my son Matthew and my ex-Wife Melissa. Melissa was giving me a list of instructions on what to do when I was minding Matthew while Matthew was looking up at me smiling with not a bother on him. Matthew is 8. I looked into his face and then I knew I was dreaming. There was something about the twinkle in his eye and as I stabilised myself looking at him. Melissa had finished giving me the instructions and had gone away so immediately I said to Matthew would you like to go flying. He looked puzzled but then he said ok. So a grabbed him in my arms and flew up into the sky. I could see the clouds around me and could feel the height we were at. Then I remembered about the black hole. Probably last months task but anyway it is meaningful to me. I told him we were heading up to the black hole and he looked puzzled again but said ok. We went up into space and found the black hole quite quickly and kinda disappeared into it. We were in there for a while. I wanted just to see what would happen next. Now this is when I realised that dreaming is not dreaming as the whole of our perception including ourselves turned into the Buddha in the form of a golden statue. I stayed in that state lucid for some time not very long and then opened my eyes. All my thoughts had stopped and I was one with nature looking up at the sky. I then realised that the whole point of dreaming and waking life is to understand this and stay in this reality. The lucidity in daily life and dreams becomes much more vivid and I am able to understand and see everything clearly. This is definitely reality free from personal interpretation. A flower is a flower and a tree is a tree without any other stories going on. So dreaming is not for dreaming but for being fully present in the dream and daily life.[/SET_ANCHOR]

Dream 1 Vivid: The road where I go for my daily walk just seems so so so long... It is winding up into to the distance... It is so beautiful and natural with the lake mountain and lush green from the Irish weather but yet my CB (Conceptual Brain) the love of my life is not happy and needs loving as usual . It seems my CB was waiting for a sign of some sort that I was dreaming but sadly the lucid dream did not happen. There was some sense of a block in this dream as I noticed flies following each other around in a circle and I felt the path I was on with my CB was never ending and pointless.

Dream 2 Anxiety: I was on a push bike in my local city and I was late to go to my meditation practice. I often make a joke about people rushing to meditation and this is exactly what I was doing. I was cycling up wrong way streets and cycling straight into the traffic where dream characters were getting upset. Telling me to slow down of course. The dream was not the most important thing nor getting to the meditation class on time but rather the lucidity. Nevertheless I pushed on trying to succeed. I found a place that was doing a similar class to mine but I never quite got to the class...

Dream 3 Vivid: There is this black leech like a parasite with long black hairs on it on my sons back who is eight. I bring him to the doctor and the doctor removes the problem and finds the parasite and he says we have to completely destroy it. This seems to represent my CB which I love so much and how I might harm my son if I don't destroy it

Dream 4 Vivid: Everything in this dream felt like being at home. All the settings were at places I have spent a long time. I was on retreat for a number of days with many of my friends in a place I have spent many years at. The master who was leading the retreat this time though was not the usual master he looked exactly like Jim Carey the Hollywood comedian actor. There was a dream character I met the day before who was very upper class English and opinionated (a bit like me actually ) he had a lot of information about the teachings we were to receive. The next day when Jim Carey delivered the teachings he was referring to a quote from a book when the English man interrupted him and said that that quote was raaather from a tv show. JC or he was looking a bit like John Cleese out of Faulty Towers at this stage was furious that he had been put down by the English man and he started laying in to him verbally saying RAAATHER it was a film actually and a book knowing that he was actually correct he got down off the throne and headed to leave in the middle of the teaching giving out to this English gentleman so strong like 100,000 crazy school teachers on speed. My own Conceptual Brain got a big shock from this cause I always think I know what I am thinking and think it is me.

Dream 5 Anxiety and Vivid: I was in a very dark city were there was a lot of suffering. It was wet dark and pure gangland culture. It felt like I had been living in this culture all my life and needed to break out of it somehow. We were on the streets and the gangleader said that we had a big deal to do tonight which involved people being murdered, raped and drugged real chaos plus all the people around me were really affected by negativity. I had a choice I could stay in it and abuse all these people or try to get out. The boss said that anyone who leaves before the next attack would be shot by this sniper . I thought it was worth a chance to try and run away so when no one was looking I slipped away and started running. The sniper saw me straight away and I saw him. I wished him happiness. He shot a bullet into my forehead. I wished him and everyone happiness. He walked up closer to me and shot a bullet into my mouth. I was still aware wishing him and everyone there happiness but my conceptual brain was gone for a moment.

Still no dreams where I am aware of being lucid. What tutorials would be good to do?

Overview: Compassion and contentment is what I am aiming for which is more evident in the memorable dream. Is there a way I can turn the anxiety dream into a memorable dream? Is there first a way to know I am suffering in the anxiety dream and then have humour about it and then turn it into a memorable dream. Of course there is suffering and anxiety everywhere so I need to accept it before I turn it into something heavenly. When I have that rushing in an anxiety dream if I turn it into compassion like saying "Wait what am I doing!" this is hurting me and instead open up to the DCs and give them hugs or just listen to them. This is where I used to make the mistake before when I would not meet people where they are at and just arrive happy out in my own world

Memorable: Saw how beautiful my friend in a non-sexual way. Her hair was coming down over her eyes and her face was soft and calm. I was seeing her truly. I teased her about her hair and she did not like it. She is usually bossy over me so being in the dream gave me confidence to tease her.

Memorable: A beautiful lady a little younger than me who I know in real life wants to see my secret room in my house. I consider it but know it is better not to. Dream does not continue to me showing her. It is like she is telling me that I have something special myself that I don't need to share or search for and that this is my happiness.

Memorable: There is a big black beetle with a scorpion tail about the size of a dog following me around. A DC is telling me what all this is about. The scorpion can go through walls. The scorpion does not want to hurt me at all. I met a big black beetle in my bag earlier that day and put him out to the grass.

Memorable: There was a time when all the continents were together and there were dinosaurs but no humans. Most of the continents were desert but in the middle there was grass. I was looking at this on a big map with a DC. The big lizards were the dominant creatures in the land. The map was very detailed. I was discussing and debating with the other dream characters.

Anxiety Dream / DCs: I am in a car like a mini van taxi and the wipers are going quickly (really quickly you know the way they do). We are trying to get somewhere on time! I am afraid I am going to loose something. There is also a DC in this dream that I am trying to please but I don't meet him or her.

Anxiety Dream / DCs: I am getting my fitness levels up so I can succeed in the world. Then I can go places and be right the DC says!

Anxiety Dream / DCs: DC had sold my house and everything in it and I was awake thinking I was in an empty house. It was only when I ate my toast I realised that it was not sold. DC is quite mean and punishing type.

Anxiety Dream DCs: Went for spaghetti at a restaurant with a good friend of mine. The spaghetti was coming out of a machine and you had to eat loads of it. We were both very hungry. We cut off the end of the spaghetti when we were there. There was some DC in the background (like totally of stage miles away) cause we were not really meant to be there. It was a wonderful close experience with my friend of intense happiness but some anxiety about the DCs. I cut off the spaghetti and left it ready for the next people to call. There was a rushing sense to this dream. There was a sexual nature to this dream where I wanted to get happiness there was a lack of compassion and contentment.