Tomas's DJ - "Exploration of the inner Self"

Very life like dream....

It seems that the theme of tonight dreams were, "almond croissant".
There is a man wanting to buy a croissant, and I am trying to convince him to buy an almond croissant.

I'm driving my mum's green Polo with my friend George. We are driving at night, through some outside village curvy roads. I am not sure where we go or where from, but suddenly there is a car behind us trying to race with us. For some reason, I have a feeling it has something to do with the almond croissant. So I go faster and faster, but he's still behind me. I am thinking to myself, that he must be a really good driver, as I am going really fast. He is still behind me. Then we get to a crossroad, of a T shape. I am going to go right, but want to take a short cut and pretend to go left, then suddenly turn right. However, he takes me over. I go right after him. We get to another T cross road, but I go too fast, and I fly of the road, straight through a wooden fence opposite into a garden belonging to a small house. For a moment, it seems like my uncle mum's house in "Jilove". The first thing that comes to my mind is that its ok, as the ground seems and feels soft so the car didn't get damaged. Suddenly, a young guy comes. I know it is the man from the car I was racing with. I am telling him, that he should have had the fence gate open :-D but he seems that he wants to pick a fight or so. He tells me that he won't help me in any way. I think to myself that the car is ok, so we just drive off.

Then I say something about white buckets from work and almond croissants again. It really makes no sense :-D

I am in a big house. There is a house party taking place and there is just Eli the customer from work and I. I am walking through the house. It is a strange house with complex structure of rooms. All the rooms are on different levels, but it is very interesting. It reminds me a little bit of George's uncle house. I'm walking through the ground floor outside to the grad. It seems like a beautiful day. I walk through the garden, and where I see a big tree. Ellie is sitting on the tree. She is wearing blue jeans and has bare feet. The weather is getting worse. I'm telling Ellie to come down. She's telling me that it's okay it's not raining so much. I tell her that if she comes down, I give her ALMOND CROISSANT! She seems to be more open to talk now. I notice that she is wearing a blue t-shirt. I can see her gigantic boobs. She has black and white crossed jacket. I go back to the house, browse through all the rooms, but I get bored soon.

My family and I are at my auntie's house. We are sitting outside. There is a small dog sitting there too. It looks like Tobi, the dog we used to have, but just similar. I feel that the dog is waiting for some specific song to be played. I feel that I know what song he wants, and I feel the need to play it.

I was in a massive cathedral, which seemed to be a school. Just to make the picture better, I wouldn't be surprised if I saw Herry Potter!! I was there with my friend... I had the feeling, though couldn't see them around. (there were a lot of feelings of the situation and the setting, although I couldn't really assume it from the images I saw, just a feeling). My friends and I were very good students. Nevertheless, there were some teachers who didn't want us to do particularly well, because they believed if we were too smart we would have caused troubles and rebelled against the system. Then I opened a large, heavy wooden door held together with metal nails and plates... I saw a large dark room with several lines of old fashioned wooden school desks. There were loads of dusty huge books everywhere. I jumped into the room and under one of the desks. There was almost complete darkness, only some rays of light got through the dirty cathedral windows. I feel this was somewhere at the top of the cathedral.. massive attic spaces or so. I could hear someone walking around.. looking for me. I don't know why and who it was.. probably one of the teachers. As the steps got close to me, I grabbed something in the dark and threw it on the person. I think it was a pointer or such object... some stick for sure.

Then I was sitting in a class room, and old lady walked into the room. She was a teacher. She called me outside that she wants to show me something, but I knew she was a nice one. I felt like I had been called out very often. We walked down the staircase, and the lady was talking to me all the time. I cannot remember what about though. Then I asked her what she wanted to show me? We walked down the spiral staircase, and then she stopped by a small gothic shape window. She pointed on the window with her thin, wrinkly finger. So I came closer, had to go on my toes so be able to see. I guess that it was at this point when I realized how high we were and how enormous this building must have been. I saw the inside of the cathedral. Massive space of the inside, lit by the colorful light as the sunlight went through the mosaic of the windows. I was amazed. I think I saw some people waling downstairs... But it was so far I could not be sure. I remember thinking, its not surprising that people get influenced by religion when it presents itself in such a way! Then the teacher showed me a sculpture of a monkey.... And told me something about football....And an idiom that I didn't really understand, but its meaning was "not to get lazy when the thing are going well". After this, we walked back, up the stairs. I have tried to tell her that there is a Czech idiom of the same meaning "neusinat na vavrinech", meaning "not to fall asleep on your trophy".. I tried to explain it with using words "not to fall asleep on bay leafs" (this is interesting, I used bay leafs for cooking the previous night). Then I walked out on some balcony. It was a beautiful sunny day, with azure blues sky. I could see coast and an ocean, I remember to be able to smell the fresh ocean air.

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I was in a coffee shop similar to Starbucks, or maybe it was. There were nice comfortable sofas everywhere and a long counter or a bar. I stood by the bar, resting my hands on it. I must have been thinking whether I was to stay by the bar, or I would sit down. Suddenly, I notice a Vietnamese man nest to me, sitting on a stool by the bar, resting his elbows on it. Then he pushes me away with his right elbow. I felt anger and fury rising in me. I looked at him with a cold look and asked: "Excuse me??" with my eyebrows raised up!
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(the following section was a mess of images)
I saw some guards or police arresting my neighbors in Czech. My parents got out somehow. One of the neighbors owns black horses. They are very skinny. Those neighbors were supposed to go to jail for 14 years each. They couldn't decide whether they go both together or one first and then the other.

* I think I am in some kind of game. I am in a complex of old abandoned buildings. I know that there are black and white soldiers around. They wear futuristic armour, similar to the iron man or star wars one. I am going up on an outside staircase circling around a concrete column. Suddenly there is one of those black soldiers. Somehow I know it's my friend "El". I start shooting at her. She falls on the ground. I pick her up and carry her up the staircase and put her down behind a corner. I take of the Armour or scaphander. She wakes up. I am thinking to myself, that they must have it somehow timed up that she wakes up at the right moment. (this last bit doesn't make sense, but this is the way I remember it).


* Wehave a New Year resolution that we are going to eat healthy. My friends and I meet up in our kitchen. There is"Mk" and "Rsh" and I. Mk brought three bags of salad. "Mar" is going to cook something. "Mk" wants to go to Tesco, but can't make his mind. He asks if I go too. I am thinking whether I need something as I know that when I go, I buy loads of stuff that I don't need.


* It seems that we are around TateModern or similar kind of building. There is supposed to be a big balcony with a garden or playground. However, we find here just a massive hole with some columns erected in the middle. Something is probably being built there.... ((then I'm talking nonsense about Mk and Mr, New Years resolutions and news :-D)


* I went skiing in my village. There were many skiing entertainments. There were snow dunes and. I jumped and spun on those. There was also big snow wall, as half U ramp. So I was jumping on it too, but towards the end, there was less and less snow to the point that I had to stop.I tried to sky though, but I couldn't. I had to walk.


* I was in some kind of psychology experiment. I had to get through a maze. I was playing against other people. It was taking place in a basement of some large and old building such as supermarket. My goal was to find documents and money, so I could get out from the maze. As I walked through I saw draws and wardrobes everywhere. The documents and money were supposed to be in one of them. I had to run and search for them. I found some in one of the wardrobes in an old blue, flannel jacket. It was a valet with various documents and money. However, there was no ID that I needed to get out from the maze. (there was a woman playing against metoo. I thought itwas my neighbour " "Kourilova". One farmer asked her whether she was pregnant. She got angry and told him not to ask her that ever again! I don't know where is this last bit coming from or what does it mean. Bizarre)


** this was an extraordinary colourful night. Looking forward to more of those.

I am sitting on the floor in a large white room and there is some workshop taking place. There are other people sitting on the floor too. We are all sitting in a circle. I have noticed a small metal box with some ornaments on its sides and X or O on each side too. The box is in the middle of the circle. there is RG sitting there too. I have e feeling that we are playing some kind of game, even though we are all still.

*this is all I remember.

I am sitting in an old fashion train, that is going pretty fast. I see myself sitting by the window and the country quickly passing by. Its an old fashion carriage. There are some old leather suitcases above the seats. I have noticed a young blond girl sitting on the right, when a tall man enters the carriage. He looks around for a few seconds. I am thinking he must be tickets collector. But then he leans towards the girl, whispers something to her ear, they both look at me. Though I dont have the feeling that they are talking about me. Then suddenly everything stops and tuns gray. Then I woke up.

Im standing in a living room, all is in yellow/brownish color. I see large sofa of sand color facing away from me. I notice that the room has the whole front wall as windows and like afternoon sun is lighting up the whole room. May be the room is of yellow color because of that. There are some white decorations in the room. Im standing still. I can see hand railing on the left side, polished stainless steel. There seem to be images of website floating along the hand railing. Somehow I know that is of the self development website I want to start soon. Suddenly I see a female cleaner polishing the hand railing but the web site windows too. This is where I wake up. I have very warm feeling from the whole dream, probably because of the sun lit room.
*I struggled to remember any details, tough I feel that there was so much more going on in this dream.

This was quite an interesting experience. I remember waking up and having difficulty recalling what was I dreaming about. Though remember writing down one or two words. One of them had something to do with soldiers of warriors. Then I went to sleep for a little longer in hope to be able to get back to the dream and being able to remember more later. When I woke up, the page in my notebook was plain, with no words written. I must have been dreaming about it then. Strange.

I'm sitting on a sofa. There is my mum, my brother and I. We are going through a catalog with some electronic equipment. As I focus on the pages I can see that those are vibrators for women. Well, I have pretty grown up relationship with my mum. However, I feel a bit uncomfortable. So as we are going through the pages and looking at different types I see that there is a computer in front of us with the same stuff on the screen. There are some presentation videos running. I can see strange pink vibrator, with some sort of blunt barbs. (I remember seeing similar barbs in one the documentary about steroids I watched the day before. Those barbs were there on liver as a kind of cancer. Probably projection into my dream). I am touching the barbs (its there now) and thinking how come it doesn't hurt woman. My mum agrees with me. The top of the vibrator has a flat, rectangular, vibrating "thing". I have a feeling that it is for clitoris stimulation. (At the top of the vibrator??). Then I can see some simple vibrators. My brother says that he has had enough. My mum says that she has had enough too, that she is fine with a simple one you spit on! (what??) I wonder what does she mean by that.

Now I am sitting by a table with my mum and my brother waiting for dinner. My brother is wearing simple gray gym top. From the way it looks, I have a feeling that my mum bought it for him. It could be a Christmas present. My brother says that our step mum is coming. (Not surprisingly I don't find it strange despite I don't have a stepmother). Suddenly, I hear a thick, deep sound similar to an airplane. It does surprise me a bit, but before I am able to think about it further, my grandmother appears. She says hi to me, to my brother. My mum is waiting if she says hi to her too. Suddenly, I can see some sort of floating icons above my grannies head. My mum starts touching them, as if she was adjusting some setting. Apparently, she pressed some wrong buttons as the operating language is different. At least I have the feeling. The icons are orange and round-ish. My mum changes the setting back to english. I think I was there, sitting and thinking how does it work.

(in following part, there are just segments as I have lost the order of them)

I go with George up the road to the chestnut trees. His mom finds a notebook. I wonder what is written in it. I can see pictures of our primary school classmate (Chlupacova).

Georges older sister is calling me that George's father committed suicide. Somehow I know that George did so as well not that long time ago. I am in my room, trying to calm her down. I try to reason to her why it may happened. He may have done it because of George committing suicide or also because he was stressed from work. I have the feeling that he was very stressed at work. Now I find myself sitting in their kitchen by the table. I can see George's mother cooking, and his sister is there too. I'm asking how they are dealing with it also in terms of money. Mother says that she already claimed death insurance. I look above her, there are phone-books at the top of the selves. That reminded me that she is as an insurance agent. I mention that her husband was recently promoted (meaning that she may get some more money because of that... this is very strange as I am not money oriented.) I am worrying whether they will cope financially. G mother is wondering how do I know about his promotion. So she stands there thinking how much she can get. I have a strange feeling about the two suicides and the death insurance)

There was also a dream about George and I jumping from a cliff to the lake, and when we got on the shore, we realised that we had our mobile phones in our pockets. I knew that it was has happened before, just the same. My phone was Siemens m35 just like I had when I was younger.