non-lucid

This is the kind of dream that was so amazing, at the end of it, fully oblivious of being in a dream state, I looked back upon what had just happened, and exclaimed that it had quite truly been the best day of my life. So here goes the story:

We open up behind a boulder. I hide here with my colleague, although I have no idea who they are. In front of us lies a great canyon, and spanning it a massive bridge. This bridge leads to our capital city and it is the key point of our defence. And then we hear it. The noise we had all been dreading. From behind the rock, we suddenly see something truly awe inspiring. A massive seafaring vessel, 450 feet long and styled as a private yacht rolls up on a wheeled contraption and smashes into the near side of the bridge. Thousands upon thousands of Chinese stealth soldiers pour out of its belly and stream across the canyon floor. Above them, the vessel unloaded vehicles that attempted to break through the defences on the bridge itself. As we hid behind the rock, we watched our countrymen begin their valiant defence.

While behind the rocks, I saw purple energy generators all over the ship beginning to boot up. I immediately knew that they were about to generate a field around the entire battle that would allow space to be manipulated. As they booted up, I focused on a spaghetti noodle on the ground and managed to pick it up and snap it even in the weak, pre-boot field that hung in the air. The soldiers stormed and stormed toward the opposite end of the canyon, a seemingly endless mass pouring from the belly of the beastly ship. As the field booted up, the men all raised off the ground, floating along in one giant formation right at the bottom of the bridge. They had the height advantage but were suddenly set up like pigs in the slaughter. As one last man ran toward them and floated up, I told my Lieutenant to watch. I focused everything on wrenching that man from the air and slamming him on the ground, but all I managed was to wobble his flight path and cause him to drop from the field and land on his rump, to the amusement of all the waiting soldiers who were too far from the battle to care.

And then, the moment I have waited for arrives. The opposing commander, a girl of a darker complexion than the soldiers and dressed in black commando garb comes out of the ship. She wields a pink beam, like a lightsaber that is flat and wide and comes out of a pistol grip. In this moment I remembered that I had stolen a similar device from one of her guards another day, and it was in my gear. The only problem was that I had no power cells. All I had was my Lenovo laptop, the greatest piece of shit the world of computers has ever seen. But I knew she would have just enough juice. Quickly, I rigged the grip to the bottom of the computer and wired it up to the battery. When she came near the rock, I hit the shitty power button and the blade came out. It was a sad and shitty thing compared to her own, but even a foot long solid state laser can cut a woman in half. I ran up behind her and lay a deep and vicious cut in her side. She cried out, I smacked her in the face, then leapt and flew through the air to join my comrades. On the other side were many of my friends operating as the commanding officers. And with myself out of the line of fire, I ordered David to boot up the ultimate defense. We didn't have the fancy psionic and laser powers that the enemy had, or some crazy big boat. No, what we had was a bridge made of invincible beams, and a rotary cannon with 22 barrels, each 22 feet long and 22 inches wide. She fired at 2000 RPM and could instantly rip a whole army to shreds. And that she did. The poor soldiers all squished together under that bridge melted like butter unter a blowtorch. With only an eighth of her army remaining, now hiding behind the pillars, I flew over to the opposing commander. She was struggling with my crude laptop beam, trying to figure out if it was our tech or hers, and how to operate it. When I came close she tried to turn it on and finish me.

"You see, the problem that you're having here is that your laser beam is great, and that laptop is a piece of shit."

She threw it aside angrily and reached for hers. I slapped her hand away and disarmed her, throwing it over the side of the cliff. In the background the cannon booted up again and turned their boat into scrap metal. She tried to initiate hand-to-hand but the cut I'd given her cost her any chance of winning. Instead I held her, and showed her the battlefield.

"You've lost. Understand that part, just forget about the battle. However, I could be persuaded to let you join me."

My hold on her slowly loosened into more of an embrace. We stood together on the cliff face, watching the fireworks unfold as pink lighting and fire shot from the dying ship. Slowly, I turned to her, and planted a gentle kiss on her lips. She was paralysed in confusion. I looked into her eyes. "You put up a good fight, better than anyone yet. I'm impressed." I laughed. Her confusion intensified, but I could see the intentional defiance and pride in her eyes. She knew I saw it too and shied away into the cliff face. I let her go, and turned back to watch the sights. Suddenly her arms were on me, reaching for my throat, trying to find a hold to finish my life.
I threw her, first in a judo sense, and then in a darth vader sense. She calmly floated down the cliffside toward my side of the canyon. I followed, and dropped her on the soil of my homeland. She stood up, and could understand my power. This was my domain, and I did not need any technology to be in control. And yet I did not exert anything over the world, happy to let it play out. She stood up, grabbed me again, and kissed me hard. We stayed this way for some time. I broke it off, smiled, and said to come with me. We slowly walked into the mass of my men, and I lost her in the crowd.

And now the ultimate moment of my plan. I found Samuel, my giant Sudanese commando, and told him to detain her. The poor misguided girl would spend her time in jail for killing my countrymen. He and some men ran to find her, and I began the debrief with my commanders.

Standing over the battlefield, one of my friends asked me how the battle went. I turned, looked at them, cracked a smile, and said

"All things considered, this was hands down the best day of my life."

I went to so many places in this dream. I started by travelling to many small asian countries, where I was camping out in the bush. I found a cat out there but it was shitty and not soft. I remember finding some forgotten power out there but no idea what it was.

Later in the dream, I woke up in the middle of a bank robbery. It was me, chris, simon, arshia, and seth. Seth was just hypnotising everyone with psychic powers so it was pretty much a walk-in walk-out kind of affair. We hopped in the car but it was too crowded so I jumped out and walked home. When I got back to my apartment, which was on the 30th floor of some building, I saw that someone was banging on Liz's door and accusing her of housing druggies and prostitutes. They left, and she walked out exasperated. The top floor was just our two units and she had to walk past my place to get to the elevator. I had just walked in and was down to my boxers from running so far home. I said hi and she just walked in clearly needing to vent. I said "sorry about the state of things in here but I just robbed a bank". The cash was at Seth's place. She couldn't believe it and started laughing, but when she realized it wasn't even my first robbery she became very interested. I told her I was dead tired and full of adrenaline and lay down on my bed. She lay down with me, but quickly pulled an xbox controller from under my pillow. She asked me more, and went to close the sliding door but I kept saying "bank robbery". She laughed because right outside on the patio was her roommate, who was some insanely hot teacher. I asked if she heard what I said and she hadn't, so I started laughing at her this time. Then I realized Liz was having a party or something, and there were like 6-8 beautiful girls just walking around in my apartment raiding my kitchen to put on a big bbq for everyone. I was just very sweaty and hald naked, but I suddenly got extremely distracted by a cry outside from a friend of mine.

And the rest of that dream I left my place to go look at different buildings in my complex. Why!?

I'm on a plane when the news comes. In an hours time, Trump is resigning. I can't believe it. The plane goes wild, and I just think about why it's out of the blue.

we land in this giant mall complex that a lot of people live in. I walk with my friends in and around all these long routes toward what will surely be an amazing event. Not many people are there, and the floor in front of the podium is empty as he begins quoting bush and talking about how great he's been so far but is tired of the press.

He starts his performance, which involves singing karaoke. I rush up to the front and find the floor is all trampolines, so I'm jumping up and down and making poses. I get right in front of trump and keep giving him thumbs up, and then an amazing moment happens. I jump up and make my whole body horizontal, and then mid-air me and donald fist-bump. It was glorious.

The rest of the dream doesn't matter.

This was an interesting dream. It was very existential. I was at some giant mall with a girl who reminded me of brittany. We were getting pretty close, when I noticed a guy next to me vomit extremely hard into his backpack. I puked too in solidarity with him

I went downstairs for a bathroom and found some bunk rooms that I knew were mine, and Lotts and the shitty shed boys were all hanging out together. I emptied the puke and checked facebook messenger and found out that Lotts had added 120 of his shitty friends to the dankerton chat, and ruined it forever. What the fuck. I freaked out on him and spent a few minutes using advanced tools to kick them all out at once, but it was no easy task. We could not abandon that chatroom and all it's history.

When I finished I went back to the bunks to talk to them and they were gone. I caught them outside leaving to their cars. When I confronted lotts about it he was being a bitch. His ghetto friend started asking me if I knew how hard he was and brought out a big bag of shrooms. It was at this moment that simon messaged me. It was his graduation party tonight and he was calling me asking me where the fuck I was. Lotts' bullshit cut me off from the information. I teleported back home and found the boys in suits. When I walked down the hall, I saw chris and his date for the night. She was beautiful. I immediately felt a pang of jealousy. Chris finally had a girl, and now I was the only one left. Why me? Why am I not good enough?

I entered the bathroom to prepare and escape the envyous view. But when I looked in the mirror, she was standing next to me. So beautiful. An amalgamation of all the girls I've been attracted to in recent months. As I stared in the mirror, something incredible happened. She was gona and replaced by me. I could look at myself from a side angle, a new, unbiased look so different from that head on view we get used to every day. I began to think out loud. "Is this who I am?" I looked deeply into myself, and admired my hair, giving me a devil-may-care look at that moment. I tousled it a bit, and suddenly I was an entirely different man. An older man, with facial features highlighted so differently I may as well have been a stranger. I looked at this man and admired him, but decided to go on. Another tousle, and my hair was long, slicked back, and I had the features of someone in slytherin. I could not recognize myself at all. I began trying to return to my old self. Feverishly messing with my hair, trying to find my way back. I never could. So I just gave up, and accepted this person I had turned into through random chance, and walked back out that door to go to this party. Maybe on this night I would find something or someone.

I wake up.

This was one where I really should have reality checked. I was at my old house and went on the upper balcony. It was the evening and down by the pool was my brother with some girl. There were also two friends of mine in there that I can't remember. I dove in the pool and we all sat agains the back wall looking up at the sky. In the night sky was the moon, but it was shimmering. Shimmering like it was covered in water. Suddenly I realized that it must be the apocalypse, and instead of the moon it was a giant planet coming to smash us and end earth. I had no thoughts of dreams, only of enjoying my last moments. I looked up at the beautiful sight, and Tom and his girlfriend put masks on and said they had them on to prepare for the aliens. What weirdos. The planet suddenly swooped in extremely close, at cloud height, and we stared up at a single giant island in the sky among this vast sea that had turned the night sky blue.

I had this moment after a long string of dreams at different parties. I was walking down the road, fully came to, but thought it wasn't a dream as it was unusually normal. Now because I'm in nofap right now, I thought back to all these parties and said out loud "I am so proud of myself for not masturbating this whole time. I deserve praise for all my hard work." And then I just woke up haha.

I was at a co-op of cottages. Quinn was there, and she was hosting a 24/7 naked hot tub for all the residents. I was way too busy to go in the beginning, as I just got a new dirtbike and there was also some pressing fight from earlier in the dream. I kept riding around doing stuff, saying I would join them, and flaking at the last minute. Tristan was in the tub with them always. I wanted to join but was nervois about how my past would be dragged into it. I rode my bike some more then went to join. As I did, Hogarth showed up. I knew that we were both two of the 100 living shape shifters. Me, a bird, and he a snake. Quinn wanted us to meet and I kept screaming thta he's a fucking snake.

We did battle. He nearly bit me many times with his fangs, and then we used animal form less. I could fly in my human body and he could use the 4 elements in his. It was an epic battle, and it ended with me flying high into the atmosphere, slamming into him, and sending him into the ocean. He floated unconscious, and I manifested a broken iphone that would play a loop of a mudkip. He took it as the gift intended and left. I joined the hottub. This was definitely influenced by ghost in the shell, because every woman had perfectly erect nipples. So weird. We were talking, then one girl said "Funny how we all have such high eyelines to avoid staring." She was right. In my own dream I was peripheral boob watching. after talking for a bit a little girl in the tub wanted to go down to the beach cabana. We're doing a mass migration when I decide I'll ride my minibike naked in my bath robe there. I go to get it, but it's in pieces. I try to assemble it as there are only 10 pieces but Hogarth comes and asks if I'm coming. I make it look like the assembly will take all night and I am flaking again, but really I will put it together quick and catch up for some more fun.

My alarm goes off. I did flake on them

I was at a movie with Rob and Simon. I realized it was an LD and kept telling simon it was. I tried a few times to meditate but it kept bnringing on nightmares or causing the dream to fall apart. At one point I rubbed my hands together and that really worked but by then I thought that if I spoke I would wake everyone up in the real world so I just slipped back into the dream and went on.

Later I found myself at a graduation ceremony. It was for Hannah's class, and all of these people from my past and from HC were there. So many faces that are insanely distant yet somehow my mind still has them all stored deep down somewhere. I was not invited to the grab but kept stumbling in with a hoodie on. I couldn't get the hood to stay off my head so I looked like the depressed kid from the nothing to lose video. Hannah came up to me after the grad and I hugged her so deeply, I missed all human connection and she was sucha warm presence. She invited me to her after party and I walked around a lot with her friends before my alarm went off.

Last night, in my dream, I pursued the girl I loved and grew to become a man.

I found myself outside of a classic American diner, which was situated at the very edge of a tall cliff. It was in such a way that the windowed wall opposite the counter was flush with the cliffside, like an extension of the geography. Across from the cliff was an even higher one, which was covered completely in ivy, giving the view a beautiful green backdrop. I had vague memories of that fact that I had fought my way here, and was very ready to take a rest. The food here was not at all that of a classic American diner, but was actually sushi style haute cuisine. The chef was an accomplished monk, and he cooked alone. I ordered a meal, and it was surprisingly simple yet refined. First came a course of small tofu cubes, made of many layers of different coloured tofu which had been marinated and simmered in the essence of duck, raspberry, and brown sugar. They were extremely tasty. The next item was cubed chicken, also the same size of roughly a raspberry. The chicken was so delicious and tender, and there was a whole bowl of it instead of one piece which went against traditional high-end cooking. After eating these and a few more courses. I had arrived at the exact perfect amount of full.

While I was eating, a group of girls had shuffled in and taken a seat. I found one of them in particular to be very beautiful, and she had a certain spark in her eye that told me she was special. I finished my meal, thanked the chef, and with no reason to loiter, ordered another meal. The chef seemed uncomfortable, knowing I would end up too full and would not enjoy each bite now that I was not hungry. He also explained that there was no other food, just the one set of courses that he had perfected. I said perfect! He began to cook, and I ate the chicken while often looking over at her across the place. When I finished my second mean, I saw the girls were almost done, so I lazily floated out of the window and hovered above the deep canyon, legs crossed, meditating. I felt a complete satisfaction with the meal, and with my ability to float effortlessly, but a strong yearning to talk to this girl held me back from concentration. I floated once again into the restaurant and found the girls gone except for her. She was in the booth across from the stool I had been eating at and was with the chef, who I realised was her father. I knew if I was to win her over I must achieve monk status even beyond her father. I could already fly, but I knew that was nothing.

Soon, I began to talk to her. I sat lazily with my head resting on my arms and started asking her questions. She thought I was too old for her when of course I am actually much younger than everyone thinks I am. I could tell she had some measure of interest in me by the conversation, but she was still at unease as I was simply a stranger in her father's restaurant.

Then, the moment of reckoning came. The goons that I had fought to get here, a villainous bunch who wore spiked leather and rode motorcycles, came from far down the cliff's edge looking to cause trouble. They knew there would be lots of money here, in a place with such expensive and rare cuisine. They approached the restaurant and got to about 50 feet down the cliffside, just across a wooden bridge that gapped a large crack in the cliff wall. It allowed for a pointed defence, and so I swiftly headed to cut them off on the near side of the bridge. They laughed in my face, pulled their guns, and shot me in the chest. Before I went down I managed to strangle one of them to death through manipulation of the force. My body gave way, and I fell off the bridge and down down down into the abyss off the cliff's edge. I felt the crack of the impact and then opened my eyes, standing once again atop the bridge. The villains were stunned. How had I materialised? Immediately I knew the answer to that impossible question. In my fall down the cliffside, I had achieved a full-fledged monk mind through my understanding of death and my yearning to be with her. When I died, my spirit left my body and I guided it into the body of the man I had killed on the bridge. The moment I inhabited him, my energy rearranged every molecule in his body to fit the shell that I had grown so accustomed to, down to the white robes I had been wearing.

This was what true power felt like.

I removed the rest of the bikers from the situation and returned to the restaurant, but she was gone. The chef was there, but he eyed me with an uneasy gaze, thinking me to be a practitioner of the dark arts and not an enlightened one like himself. Surely he had sent her away for her own protection.
Soon enough, I discovered the truth of the situation. She and her friends had been trained as warrior priestesses by her father, and they had returned down the same path the bikers had just come down. I went to meet them, and see what their intention was. It was to kill. So I stood there, and I let them cast me from the cliff. The impact with the cavern floor was great, and then I was on top of the bridge again, unmoved and unchanged. I was smiling, right at her. This was just a joke to me, a light-hearted act all put together for her entertainment. I could see her start to understand. Her friend threw me again, and once more I returned. With each reincarnation, I became more lighthearted to the situation, while their concern and fear rose. But I showed them no aggression. I looked at her, deep into her, and hoped she understood I was not the enemy. Then I flew away.

My dream continued for several hours. I returned to where the bikers had come from and fought many people, training to be stronger and gaining new abilities. I took down a helicopter mid-flight and learned how to teleport. It was a fun dream but also a dangerous and stressful one at times, as I never reached lucidity.

After some time, out of the corner of my eye, I realised one of my battles had taken me back to the diner. I went to the same spot across the bridge, and lo and behold the girl and her friends were walking up the cliffside, come to eat. I stood there, hovering an inch off the ground, and waited for her to see me. When she did, I saw a recognition and understanding in her eyes. She had changed. She turned from her friends when they reached me, walked to the edge of the cliff side, and fell off. In an instant, she stood before me.

I floated up to her, both of us smiling and full of pride.

"I figured it out, dummy"

"I know"

We kissed.



I spent a long time with her for the remainder of the dream. We talked about our lives and our adventures, and at one lull in the conversation, I forgot about it all and my dream shifted back to the battles and leather men. Soon enough I woke up.

Good morning.

In my dreams last night, my mind crafted for me a perfect tragedy. I will recite it now.

It begins with a simple thing. I am going to university, and it is my first day on campus. I am moving into my new dorm room. It's on the ground floor of a nice building I've never seen before, but as I'm bringing my bags in I realise that I am on a floor that is filled to the brim with pretty ghetto dudes, like my childhood neighbourhood. I have no problem with it as long as I stay unharmed. I get my bags and head to my room, not sure of what to expect. On the way down the hall, however, one guy starts paging me, asking me to give him my knife. This is because before going to bed I was thinking about the rap battle on Hollywood boulevard I had when that guy asked for my sunglasses.

I gave him the knife so he'd leave me alone and went about unpacking. The first day we had off, so I went to the movies. The theatre was full of people playing this iPhone app that was all about sex and crime and loaning money and making money. I'd never seen it before but it was like the next Pokemon go. Just as the movie started, some hoodlums went backstage and started screwing around with the operation, so they shut the movie off. I was hitting on the mum next to me but she had her sons with her and she had to keep it tame. After 5 minutes I just gave up on the film and left. I was going back to my room when I realised something. This app was more than a game, it used real world money and pretty much encouraged actual crimes to take place to offset the virtual ones made. As I walked down the hall the guy who took my pocket knife was begging another guy for a 3% loan. The dude shook him off, so he started following me along with another dude. They started yelling about how hard their fathers worked to get the money for them to attend this school. They told me to give them my easy money. I told them to kindly fuck off and make their own. They grabbed me and pulled knives. Somehow, in slow motion, I grabbed my knife from the guy then grabbed the other one, and stabbed them both to death while they held me tight. The knives moved in and out easily, and their grips slowly faded as they fell to the floor. What the fuck. I'm so fucked. I just killed two guys. I go to my room and call campus police, tell them I was being mugged and had to kill them. "Sounds like a likely story, two young black men attack you and you defend yourself, eh? You sure that's what happened there, son?" Fuck that guy. I'm no racist and I'm not about to go down for it. I flag down the officers he calls in, explain it to them every step of the way, and get the fuck out of there.

Then the story changes. Somewhere along the road after that incident, I bumped into Anna Kendrick. I saw her in a movie last night and was thinking about her a lot before bed, and here she was. I thought she'd be a huge diva in person, but this version of her was just so sweet and amazing. Like a movie character. And suddenly it was my life. I pulled off some grandiose romancing and managed to get the girl. She and I fit together like two peas in a pod, but more than anything she was just so beautiful I couldn't look away. After some time, we retired to my room. Passionately kissing her, we slowly disrobed, and I entered her.

And then I went soft.

For a man, this is pretty much one of the worst things that can happen. The anxiety that it causes pretty much secures the fact that you will not be recovering from this. She starts to blame herself, stating she isn't pretty enough, she isn't doing the right thing. I am just losing my mind. I'm still kissing her all over and generally enjoying having this absolute unicorn in my arms but I can also feel everything falling apart. We try and try, and we go to a hot tub and we try in there. Nothing. Finally, I say that I'll take the old man pill, and I know I have a couple left from when I did ecstasy and my guy gave me some as a 'backup'. I pull it out, pop one, and now I know we need to kill 30 minutes. A man comes from out of nowhere asking what I just did to the water, I try to explain it was a medication that I took but he thinks I poisoned the water, so we get out. We have lots of time anyway.

As soon as we get out of the hot tub, with the timing of a Shakespearean death, everything changes. Out of absolutely nowhere comes Javier Bardem. Before he speaks I know that something massive is about to happen and I can already feel the heartbreak. He approaches me as if he knows me. As if everybody knows me. I nod back to him, and he smiles. "Mr Bingus. Your work here has become most groundbreaking, and it has not been ignored by those in power. I have a proposition for you."

I know this feeling in my gut. Anna has her arm around me. She is shaken, confused, she just wants to go back to my room and feel loved, like it isn't her fault. I owe her this so much. I think to myself VERY clearly,
"No matter what he says, ignore it and go back with her. She is what matters. I am self-aware of this right now, and I will not allow this turn to ruin everything when I am so close to happiness."

Javier goes on to outline what it is he's offering me.
He tells me it will pay 2 million dollars.
Anna is very rich and money is no reason to leave her.
He explains that I will have a leading role in this.
Anna is my leading lady, I will be fine with just her.
He tells me there is a new research project opening up across the country, where all of the bright young minds in the nation are gathered together, living under one roof. And this is where I am to go.
It couldn't hurt to see what he's talking about. It sounds boring, and it might impress her. I agree to go see this place.

When we get there, it is basically everything I was not expecting. The first thing we see as we enter a classic old ratty residence is a room full of kids my age, all hanging out and playing music, exchanging scientific ideas. The ultimate creative session. Something I've never had. We walk further down the hallway and see art on the walls from the students. Very cool, I think. Then, at the end of the hall, I hear a familiar voice. And the voice pops its head around the doorframe. It's Anna. Anna M, from my actual life. The prettiest girl I know. She smiles, excited, and pulls me into the room.

"Check it out!"
"You're living here too?" I ask. I look around the room and Jessica is here too. And I can see other girls bags.
"Yep! And we're all rooming together. We're the film kids of this operation, and we're going to make a documentary about the amazing things that will happen here. And you've been chosen to direct it. We're your crew!" She gives me a big smile.

She hasn't seen Anna Kendrick yet. She's being very warm with me. I think to myself, how could this possibly get any better. A room of beautiful girls who will work under me, a whole community of the best of my generation. Against one girl. Then, as if god wanted to rub it further in my face, I look outside. Mustangs. Scooby vans. VW campers. It's the fucking 70's. This fucking town, for some reason, is still the 70's. That is why everything is so old here, the clothes so cool and the dorms so old school.
I look back at Anna Kendrick, who's in the room now, giving me this look like "Am I still worth it?" Her soul is being crushed. I am at such an extreme level of elation that I say the worst thing I've ever said to somebody.

"You know Anna when he came to the school to see me, I thought to myself, 'How could he possibly offer me something that would make me want to leave you?' Well, It's the 70s out there." I climbed out the window, jumped down to the road, and started checking out the cars. I want to start talking all about them with her, but before I even looked in the window I knew I'd made a huge mistake. I turned back and just started running.

I ran all the way back to my dorm, which I thought was across the country. I sprint down the hallways, around the corner and slam into the wall next to my door. I listen carefully and I can hear bags being packed. I open the door slowly, and she's right there. Immediately she starts to cry. I rush towards her, her hands coming up and her head shaking, thinking I would try a romantic kiss or something. Instead, I just hug her, hold her tighter than anyone in my life and just tell her how much I love her. How much I miss her and need her in my life. As we embrace, both crying, she says "I knew you would choose me over that shitty place." She breaks off and smiles, looking me deep in the eyes. Deep in my soul. She wants to kiss me. But this moment is empty. The moment she said that I knew in my heart of hearts that I could not choose her over what would certainly be the best time of my life. Her face starts to melt. I enter a powerful internal dialogue.

"She is convinced. She thinks my reality aligns with hers. I am drowning her, pissing on her soul. Pissing in her face."
As I say this, I see myself drag her unconscious body to the bathroom, drop her limp head in the toilet bowl and begin peeing on her face. This is the most fucked up, disrespectful thing I've ever done. And I'm not even in control.

"She is somewhere on the scale between love and devotion, and I have just come back, only to mix her a most powerful poison dart. Surely, this will kill her."
I slam the lid on her neck. Crush of bones.

I snap out of this freakish nightmare. I am still holding her. I can feel her heartbeat.
"Of course, Anna. Now I'm very tired. Let's go to bed."

I don't know who that girl was but I haven't felt so comfortable and motivated during sex before.

Funny, she exists somewhere in my memory, wonder who she is.

I was up at the cottage for it all.

At first I was there with the families from new years, but then strange things started to happen. I went up to the big house and found Mati and Timay's mom. She was asking me weird questions about teenagers and I didn't really answer them. I found Brittany, and we started flirting a bit. I hung with Brit on the couch for a while, then went down to the water to a second cottage that was there for seome reason. All the families were there, and at one moment I looked out the window and saw whales breaking the surface of the ice on the lake. I yelled out, and everyone came to the window. I then realized they weren't whales but giant Walruses, and following behind them were giant black bears with the bill of a Platypus. I reached for my phone and recorded a snap story of it all. Behid the bears were so many animals, horses and cows and elephants and dogs.

We were all laughing with joy, and I ran out on the beach. I wanted to touch an elephant, but a big bull was protecting them and I got too close so he slammed me with a tusk and sent my flying back inside.

As the animals slowly walked into the distance, I said "This was the most entertaining day in a long time"

And then, I saw a rocket launch happen about 10 clicks out.

And as we all cheered again, we watched it slam into the sea.

Wow. An african migration and a rocket crash in the same 2 minutes. Cool dream. Never checked if I was dreaming though, too busy enjoying it

What a ride. I forgot most because of how fucked up the ending was. My parents were on vacation, and I was keeping the house. The back of the house was in an alleyway, and our neighbour across the alley was a great dude. I kept talking to him, helping him with chores and stuff. On the last day of my parent's vacation I was really busy and extremely flustered. I burned my dinner, left food outside (??) and fucked up remembering to grab my keys that the neighbor left for me in his back garden. When he came out to find me, he saw how stressed I was. He said it was fine I fucked up, and suddenly I was in the water. We lived near a small island, and he'd taken me here to swim in the waves and unwind. Two cute girls were in the water ahead of me, and I started facetiming my parents to talk to them about my day. They felt bad and said that they would be home soon. Dad said I should take the family credit card and go buy myself an expensive dinner to relax. I said sure, and on the way home to get it, my mind dropped.

My mom was in her pajamas on the back porch, checking the hot tub water. She wasn't really doing anything, just staring at it. I talked and she didn't respond. I facetime mom. She picks up. This mother creature stares long and intently, curious, at my mother's face on the phone. My parents exclaim shock and interest, like they're seeing a deer. I am seeing a demon 3 feet away from me. I scream and teleport onto the plane with my parents. The cute girls from the beach are sitting with us, and I nap on one of their shoulders.

I forgot most of the dream, but for one part. I look around, and I am in my childhood home. I am upstairs, and immediately instinct tells me to run to the attic. All is the same when I get there. The desk, the computer, the chair and floor mat, and most importantly, the smell. That same musky smell from all those years ago, still burned into my mind so that at any moment I now know I can return there in the dream world and simply be. What a comforting feeling. If a place can live on in such purity long after it is gone, it gives me hope that when the day comes and someone has passed in my life, they will still live on in me. Amen.

This dream was extremely long and complicated. Like a feature film.

The gist of it however was that I went back to high school. It was a school for kids who would become elite professionals in sports or law or anything. There were some pretty girls but mostly the atmosphere was of little partying and lots of hard work. Eventually we ended up at a waterfall that was full of deadly reef plants. Everyone had to devise a way to swim through. I flew over.