non-lucid

Dream - Lucid

I remember being outside at night with my friend Dakota. Someone else was there too, but I can't remember who. We were having to fight zombies. It was like a video game, where we had to kill these different types of zombies in one level to get to the next one. In this level, one of the first levels (there were 1 or 2 before this one), there were 3 different types of zombies to kill, each type deadlier and harder to kill than the last, and we only had a limited amount of ammo.

I remember before we went out into the level (we were just hanging out behind something so the zombies wouldn't see us), I was telling Dakota about what I did in the previous level (Dakota had gone through it already; he was at this level way before me). It had a beach on it, and I told him that after killing a few zombies, I laid down on the beach. If zombies came up after that, I'd just take them out. That level really wasn't that hard compared to the one we were in now.

I remember seeing, at some point, Dakota or the other person that was with us, fighting with someone's mom, I don't remember if it was Dakota's mom or the other guy's mom. But they were arguing about when they had to be home by.

Alright, back to the zombies. First, I remember talking to Dakota about what would happen if we lost all our lives. I asked him something about if we'd just come back or if we'd really die. He said if we lost all of our lives, we'd really die. It was real life, after all.

We decided to go out and kill some zombies. We went out from behind our little area. The zombies started to come out. We were shooting down the easier ones to kill. Not too bad, but then we got to the last ones. They didn't look like zombies, but more like almost invisible aliens with this big blue light streak going horizontally through their mid-sections. Dakota was telling me to shoot them, trying to instruct me what to do. I was trying to take one down, but he kept hitting me. I finally ran out of ammo and then energy, and died. I thought I was dying for real, because I thought it was my last life. But then, I was back where we started, sitting behind something with Dakota. We had been so close to completing the level!

I remember coming out from behind our little area a few times and killing off the easier zombies. Those crazy alien-like ones were really difficult to kill, and were very aggressive. We were trying to prepare ourselves for that.

Dream - Lucid

I saw a glimpse of a page in a book that said something about Catholics not committing suicide because they would go to Hell.

~

I was in some sort of classroom at a computer. I think I was in the 5th grade again. I remember working with a partner, but I don't remember what we were doing. I remember getting up to go somewhere because we were finished and were allowed to go.

I also remember something about my married friends Tori and Taylor. They were in the 5th grade with me (not so in waking life) and were apparently engaged already. I remember seeing Tori with a ring. She didn't look like she was a 5th grader, but it was understood that she was. I remember all of this taking place outside on a sunny day.

Dream - Lucid

I was outside at night, looking for my coworker, Nate. I was on some sort of drug. I found him sitting on a park bench. I sat down next to him and talked to him for awhile, talking about a dream I had that night.

Then, he asked me something about the drug I was on. I told him it was some kind of fake weed. Then, we started making out. It was really intense and really good. I remember him pulling away once, and me involuntarily gnashing and grinding my teeth. I smiled and we started making out again.

Then, I remember being in his room, and laying on his bed. He had taken all his clothes off except for his underwear. He looked nothing like he does in waking life. He was all muscular and tan and was wearing a blue thong. I instantly found him unattractive. He started talking to me about his figure or something.

I then was sitting on a bench outside talking to some girl who was supposedly his sister. Her name was Emilee. She was very blonde. They had another sister as well, who was also blonde. Anyway, I was talking to her, and she started talking about sex. Then, her mom approached us. She sat on the bench and started asking why I was there and what we were doing since it was so late. Emilee started to make up some weird story about my boyfriend since high school breaking up with me, and something about elephants. Her mom thought it was bullshit and asked Emilee to leave. She left, and her mom started talking to me, asking me what really happened. I didn't think I could make up a believable story in that short amount of time, so I just winged it. I told her that Emilee was right, I had just broken up with my boyfriend since high school and I needed a friend. I also told her I had no idea what she was talking about with the elephants. Her mom seemed to believe me.

~

I was entering Disney World before they opened. The sun was just starting to come up. I walked by this roller coaster that they were testing out before they opened. It had weird cars, they were all bugs. I remember specifically some being smiling, yellow caterpillars. I remembered I had ridden that coaster before.

There was nowhere to walk by the roller coaster except for super close to and between the tracks. I'm not sure how I ended up there, but I tried to avoid the carts as they were run through the track over and over. The sun was up now as well. As the carts were continually run through, the coaster started falling apart. Pieces started to fly off. I had to dodge a few. I even saw a whole section of cart fly out into a field somewhere. I started to think that they should probably close that ride.

Then, I remembered I was meeting my family there. I saw a huge line by the entrance to the park closest to the messed up coaster. I don't remember where I met my family, but we found each other. My dad started talking about how we were under a tornado warning. I looked into the sunny sky, and in the distance, I saw a huge wall of dark clouds coming towards us.

We all went to look for shelter. We came across this tent that had lots of wicker furniture under it. My parents wanted to stay there, but I lifted a piece of it up, and it was super light. There was no way we could hang on to anything there. I told them we should go to the arcade instead. We left and entered an arcade. Perfect, we'd be safe here. My brother started to play ski ball while we were there. I decided to play as well. For some reason, I was having trouble throwing the ball up into the goals. The thing was built weird, to where I had to roll the ball on the edge of the machine for it to get it into any goals. After the ball getting rolled back to me a few times, I finally started to get the hang of it. I felt like I was doing pretty well. Our games ended, and the machines started to feed out our tickets. My brother had scored higher than me, and got a few more tickets. I remember my score being 21.6 or something like that. I took my tickets and started trying to fold them up, but was having problems. My dad asked me something about the tickets.

The next thing I knew, we were in the car, driving through Disney World. My dad was driving. He said
"Doesn't that look like a funnel cloud?"
I looked to the right. Sure enough, a huge, billowing funnel had formed out of the wall of clouds. What was eerie about it, was that everything else was light and sunny, save for that area. My brother said something, I don't remember what, but as we drove, the funnel started making its way towards us. It was a full-blown tornado now, and a huge one at that. My dad said, frantically,
"Why is it coming this way?!"
I told him to drive. It made its way behind us...right behind us. But it kept going to the left instead of following us. It was tearing the park apart. I could see a ride with people in it caught in the middle of the tornado. We were safe, though. We were out of its path.

Then, I remember being outside under some structure. We were all sitting down on the ground. We were talking. I asked my mom where my phone was. She said she didn't know. I started thinking about where I had been, and figured out I may have left it at Nate's (going back to my previous dream). I got super pissed at my mom about it though, blaming her and asking her why she didn't pick it up or remember it. My brother pulled a bulky phone out of my mom's pocket, and said something about how she had taken that instead. I was yelling and screaming at her about it, saying I hated her and such. I had a glass in my hand, and I threw it to the ground. It just bounced. Fuck that. I picked it back up and threw it to the ground again. It smashed everywhere. My mom started yelling at me.

Then, I figured out where we were. We were by that crazy messed up roller coaster. They were running it again, testing it out. We were alright where we were; we wouldn't get hit by the carts in the area we were in, but we were still very close to the tracks. They were randomly firing off the carts. I looked to my left, and my brother was standing on the track. He was going to try to jump out of the way right before the cart hit him.
"Move, B, move! Get off of there!", I said.
He stood there. I saw the chain start to move under the track.
"Move! Now! MOVE!", I yelled at him.
The cart started coming towards him. It was the smiling yellow caterpillar cart. He tried to jump, but he didn't move in time. The cart hit him and he was thrown off to the side. He looked up at his legs. As he did so, I did the same. They were bloody and gored. I ran to him, screaming
"Hospital. Now. Call the hospital! Now!"
He started to cry. I knelt down beside him and held him, crying, telling him it would be ok. He hugged me as I tried to comfort him.

I woke up with a grimace on my face. I was still very sad. It took me awhile to fall asleep again.

~

I remember something about entering a Shoney's (ew), and seeing some really tall fat lady who was supposed to be their mascot. She approached me and handed me some fried thing. She was talking to me in character. I started to eat it. It wasn't too bad, a little chewy, but not awful. The end of it was sweet, almost like it was an M&M. I tried to ask the lady what it was, but she was talking to someone she worked with, she seemed upset about something.

~

I was with my friend Mike at a restaurant. We were drinking. I had an almost empty glass of wine and a full cup of beer. I sipped the beer. It was really good. Mike told me it was Sweetwater Blue. I loved it. I knew I needed to finish my wine. Mike suggested that I just down it.

Dream - Lucid

I was at some art show/contest. I remember wondering whether or not I should enter, because I don't paint or draw, but I take decent photographs and I write. I was wondering whether or not it would be ok for me to enter a poem or story. I remember knowing that the show wasn't just for paintings and drawings, but for all forms or art, even written art. I believe I did enter a written piece.

I also remember I had just started a new job at some restaurant, even though my boss was the same as she is in my waking life job. I remember coming into work and putting an apron on. It was my second day on the job, and I remember asking my boss what I needed to do. I rang someone up on the touch screen register, but then I went in the back and did some stuff. I knew that I was supposed to be back there anyway. I had to learn all the stuff back there before I learned register.

~

My mom was taking me to Ryan's (I guess for some reason I couldn't drive myself?). It was nighttime, and I had decided to get back together with him. My mom pulled up into Ryan's driveway and I got out of the car. I saw him through a window. He was wearing a forest green apron. I started getting a sinking feeling, the same that I had been getting before we ended things.

I entered the garage, and Ryan was in there with tons of food all lined up on a table. He had been grilling.
"You've been out there grilling in the rain?", I asked.
"Yup.", he said.
The sinking feeling in my stomach only got worse. I knew I couldn't really do this, as ideal as it may seem.

I said something along the lines of
"I can't do this, Ryan."
He just kinda smirked at me and said that I should probably take off, and that he was going somewhere too.
"Where are you going?", I asked.
He looked at me with that sick smirk on his face and said
"Don't even worry about it."
I asked him to please tell me, but he just repeated his previous statement.

I then remember being outside. Someone else was with me, asking if my mom was coming back to pick me up. I told them yes. I remember many people being in the front yard. I saw my mom's car approaching the house from the right.

~

I remember being behind some counter. I have no idea where I was, but it looked like a cloudy day outside. I remember seeing lots of girls all dressed up to go to prom. One girl walked up beside me. She looked like a girl I knew back in high school named Emma. She wasn't too dressed up, just wearing a nice top and a skirt. I remember it was my high school's prom night. I saw some marker board outside that had all this stuff written on it about the prom.

I then remember I was doing something behind the counter, when one of my professors walked up next to me. We still haven't met in waking life, but we email back and forth about a class I need to take to graduate. I remember looking at my phone and seeing that she finally had answered all my emails. I remember the first part of one said "(hurry)". I don't remember what else it said though.

I didn't think the professor had seen me, but she turned around. She had a white mug of coffee sitting by some papers. I almost spilled it, and apologized to her. She was nice about it and said that was alright. She then recognized me and asked me how I was. I told her I was alright and asked her the same. She then started talking to me about how I needed to hurry up and get the class approved by my advisor. She was saying that I needed to hurry because my advisor would give me some refund if I had everything approved by a certain time, I can't remember what it was anymore though. I told her thank you, and she left. She approached another lady and they had accidentally switched coffees.

Then, I remember sitting down with my mom. We were eating some pasta dish, but instead of regular noodles, she had used rice noodles, and she had made the sauce with soy instead of dairy. My mom was complaining that it didn't have enough flavor. I agreed with her. We still kept eating.

We ate in silence for awhile, and I started to let my mind wander as I thought about how I needed a new bike. I remember seeing a flash of some bike rack that was attached to the side of a big drainage ditch, right above the hole where the water flowed through. I remember many bikes being on it, I specifically remember a light pink one being on the very far left side. I knew that was where Kacey usually kept her bike.

I then stopped thinking about that and was still eating the pasta. I told my mom
"I forgot I was even eating rice noodles and that there's soy in the sauce!"
My mom said
"Me too!"
The pasta really wasn't that bad after all.

Dream - Lucid

I was in a room with my ex, Chris. We were laying in bed, though the set up was weird. We weren't laying next to one another, but he was laying on the opposite side of the bed than me so our feet were facing each other's heads. I apparently lived with Chris. I remember getting up out of bed to take some Tylenol because my whole body was sore (pain leaking into my dream from waking life...sore from dancing all night a couple of nights ago). I got back into bed.

I then remember us getting up out of bed. Chris looked so much different. He was muscular and toned (in waking life he's very big). I thought he had done a good job working out to get to this point. When he talked to me, though, he was a huge douchebag. I don't remember exactly what he said, but he was being an ass. I then knew that we weren't really together anymore, we just still lived together.

Then I remember being in bed with Chris again, although this time, he was sleeping next to me. I wanted to cuddle with him, but refrained. I knew he probably didn't want to. I remembered that we hadn't even had sex in forever.

~

I remember being in the middle of town somewhere with a whole bunch of other people. The sky was grey and cloudy. I was mad at myself because I kept somehow missing History class at 10:25. I had only been to one the whole semester apparently.

Anyway, I then remember seeing some person in a cape fly in front of us. He landed and started to talk to us. He looked like a superhero. He was basically telling us to remain calm, and explaining to us that some sort of disaster had occurred. I figured out that the disaster was a volcanic eruption. The man in the cape flew away. I asked myself if I was dreaming, but it felt so real that I didn't possibly think I was. I thought the superhero man had just been using special effects to make it look like he was flying. I then took my phone out of my pocket and looked at it. I had missed calls and texts from my college's emergency alert system. One of the texts said there was some sort of government warning.

I then remember seeing flashes of parts of my town covered in volcanic ash, signs that had been knocked over and destroyed, buildings that were hit. I asked someone where the volcano was, and they replied "Ashwood". I was really shocked and upset by that, because I used to live there, and I have a really good friend who still lives there. I immediately wanted to make sure she was alright.

Then, I saw these women dressed in all purple who had this eerie calm about them as they tried to get the crowd to listen to them and not panic. I knew they were trying to trick us, into what, I'm not sure, but I didn't trust them, not for a second. I remember one approaching me and trying to talk to me, holding out her hand, but I told her no.

I thought that this must be the end of the world, or at least the beginning of the end.

I was then in some hotel room by the beach. I walked out onto the balcony, and saw that the volcanic eruption had taken out the railing on the balcony. I saw a couple of the chairs laying in the hill of sand that had accumulated up to the balcony. I looked to my left, and saw the rest of the hotel was in the same situation. I watched the waves of the rough ocean crash onto this wooden walkway that was used for beach access. I knew it was only a matter of time before it was destroyed by the waves. I then saw some lady push these girls sleeping in these beach chairs off the balcony and onto the sand hill. I thought she was just trying to wake them up by doing so. The girls woke up and started to laugh as they went down the hill.

I then remember being in the hotel room, and seeing my mom there as well. A lady in purple was also in there, calmly trying to tell me what to do, all with the eerie, calm smile on her face. My mom was trying to get me to listen to her, but I wouldn't. I turned and ran out of the hotel room.

~

I was in my house. I remember being in the bathroom, looking for some Tylenol or some pain medicine. I rummaged through this basket we have sitting on the bathroom counter. At the very bottom, I found a sample pack of Xanax. I thought it was probably very old. I looked at the date on it, at it had expired in 2006. I didn't care. I opened the pack, which contained a sample of not only Xanax, but another sample of some sleep aid and one of some allergy medicine. I took out the Xanax, which was in yet another pack within the pack. I opened it and took some Xanax. My brother then came in the room and asked why the Xanax was there. I told him I took some.

Then, I remember being in a hotel by the beach again. It was the same one from the previous dream. The balcony was still messed up from the sand hill. I remember my friend Virginia being there, though there were definitely some other people there as well. We were on some trip. I remember us going down the elevator. Our room was on the 4th floor.

I then remember us being in some hallway. We were trying to figure out how we were going to do this performance. We were going to all dance to "Love Game" by Lady Gaga. We just needed more people for it, and had a lot of details to sort out. I remember Virginia cutting up some strawberries and putting them in this plastic container. I helped her cut some up. I remember she said we needed 20 pieces. When we were done, we had to take them back out. Something about the way we drew them out of the container determined something for the show. I remember us talking about how we needed to keep the costs down to $150 per person who was participating (we apparently had a lot of stuff we had to pay for for the show). I remember someone talking about everyone paying $200, but I said that wouldn't work. They argued with me a little.

I then remember having my own apartment again. I had just moved in. I had a cat and 5 mice as pets. The mice were running around under some TV stand. I was keeping the cat from messing with the mice. I looked under the bed, and I saw a pair of shining eyes. I thought it was a rat, and I was a little upset, because I had just moved in. I shouldn't have rats. I then remember leaving, and worrying about the pet mice. I don't remember where I went, but I came back. Lo and behold, what I thought had been a rat under the bed was really another cat. He was brown with fuzzy, messed up fur. I tried locating the mice. I found them under the TV stand. 4 were still alive, and one, a red one, was dead and bleeding. I was really upset. I collected the rest of the mice into the container that Virginia had used for the strawberries. There were still a couple of slices in there. I closed the container. All the mice just stood at the edge of the box and stared outside (the box was clear).

Then, I remember seeing the cats talking to one another. They were talking about leaving into the apartment next door through these open windows. There were more cats over there, apparently. They wanted to visit them, and have them be able to visit. I said no, and closed the windows. One of the cats said
"I can just open the windows again."
I was pissed.

Dream - Lucid

I remember being with my coworker, Dakota. He and I were going through some kind of video game scenario where I had to collect 160 items (they were just a bunch of random items).

We were running through an old building. The building had 3 stories. I could get to the first two easily. I did so as I ran through the hallways, collecting all the items. When I finished doing that, I realized I still was lacking about 30 items. I remember asking Dakota how I could get to the third story. I don't remember what he said, but after that, I got to the third story and collected the rest of the items.

~

I remember being on vacation. I think Mary Katherine was there. I remember swimming in a pool outside on a sunny day. Then, I remember something about exploding cats in the pool. Belle, my kitten, was one of them. I was mad at my mom for killing the cats. I also remember something about different pools being open at different times. I remember dreading the end of my vacation.

I also remember being able to breathe underwater as I swam in the pool. It was supposed to be something called "circular breathing" (something I learned about when I was in band in waking life). I could breathe through my nose under the water if I did it a certain way.

I remember waking up in the middle of swimming and breathing underwater.

~

I was in a hair salon. I was supposed to be getting my hair cut (which I desperately need to do in waking life -_-). I sat down in a chair, and the lady asked me what I wanted. I told her
"Just a trim, to get rid of these janky highlights."
I then asked her if layers would look good, and she told me she didn't think so. I told her to skip the layers then.

The lady then proceeded to dump a bowl of milk on my head to wet my hair. I thought that was weird. It was apparently supposed to be healthy for your hair. I remember feeling the cold of the milk spilling over my head and down onto the smock that they had put on me. She then combed it out and started cutting away. I noticed that she was cutting it way too short. I heard her say something about a bob cut. I told her to please not do that. She laughed and said she wasn't.

She finished hacking off my hair, and it actually looked quite nice. The back was covered in bright orange, yellow, and red highlights, though they were only temporary colors. I put my hair up in a ponytail. It really looked good! I remember seeing my coworker, Kim, and she said she really liked my hair. I told her thank you.

I walked up to the counter to pay. No one was there. I waited...and waited...and waited. Still, no one showed up. I decided to leave. I'm not going to sit here and wait to pay if no one's gonna come take my money. As I started to leave, this HUGE, long tongue of some beast whipped out of nowhere and smacked me. If I tried to move, it would try to hit me. It was kind of freaky. The tongue also looked like it had been injured; it looked like the pink skin had been peeled back on half of it to reveal a white interior. Ew.

So I guess this was weird, because I realized I must be dreaming. I did a finger count to make sure...6 fingers on my left hand. I decided I needed to get out of there, it was such a silly situation. I remember seeing Kacey and laughing, telling her to come with me. She looked different, however. Her hair was darker and her face just looked different. She didn't follow me as I flew into the air.

I remember flying through some casino or arcade. I would fly up through the roof, and then down back into the building. I didn't want to lose the dream.

Then, I remember being back at the hair salon where the giant tongue was. I remembered that I had wanted to try to use my new portal system to try to visit Teraluna. I approached a wall and drew a circle. Hmm, too small. I drew another one, and it seemed big enough. I wrote "Teraluna" inside of it, and colored the circle in.

I jumped through into a black room. In front of me to my right was an opening into another place. I entered it. I was in some condo by the beach. I took off and flew out of the room. I smiled as I flew over a beautiful landscape of flowing waters, trees, and other plants. All of the colors were very vivid. The water was some of the clearest water I have ever seen in my life. The lighting told me that it must be dusk.

I decided to follow the flow of the water to the ocean. I flew over creeks, small lakes, and rivers, and finally got to the ocean. It looked like dusk over the calm sea. I laughed and said
"This is Teraluna!"
I did some finger counts while I was here, and I always counted 5 fingers, though I still knew I was dreaming.
It was so beautiful!

Dream - Lucid

I remember being with a friend I met last semester, Windy. We were outside taking a Data Analysis test. The only way I knew it was Data Analysis was because my teacher from that class was giving the test. It was a strange test; we had to go to different "stations" and answer questions about the stations. It was a lot of fill-in-the-blank. I remember feeling pretty good about most of the test.

Then, Windy and I got to a station where I remember there being a GIANT pair of scissors, and a measuring tape that was outstretched a few feet. Windy was trying to get the scissors to cut, but it was proving to be very difficult, seeing as they were so huge. She finally, slowly got them to cut. They severed the measuring tape. She had to go tell the teacher what she had accidentally done.

At some point during all this, I remember seeing my face in the mirror, and seeing that the right half of it looked weird and saggy. My eye looked really messed up. I started to freak out, thinking my Bell's Palsy had come back. I remember asking my mom if my eye looked weird. I don't remember what she said. I do remember trying to move my face a few times though, and the right side would barely move.

~

I then woke up, and decided as I was drifting back off that I was going to become lucid. I felt my body fall asleep, and I entered another dream.

Windy was there again. It took me a minute to get my bearings, but I remembered I needed to reality check. I did my finger count, and ended up with 8 or 9 fingers. I was dreaming! I said to Windy
"Windy...look at your hands!"
She did indeed look at them, and a look of wonder came over her face.
"I have 6 fingers!", she said.
"It's because you're dreaming!", I replied.
She laughed and said something else, though I can't remember exactly what it was.

I then remember us having to rescue all these people who were in prison who were innocent. We started the mission, but I woke up.

Or at least I thought I did. I was still dreaming as I woke up standing in some room. Some guy was in there with me. He was talking, though I can't remember what he was saying. I closed my eyes and "fell back asleep" into the dream I had been in before and was immediately lucid.

I was outside somewhere. I kept examining my hands and rubbing them together to ensure that I stayed lucid and aware. Sometimes, though, I counted 5 fingers and would have to redo my check.

Anyway, I wanted to walk on some clouds. I saw some light blue and purple-tinted clouds spilling over the ground, and started to approach them. I climbed up the low, spilling clouds as if they were solid. I remember wanting some special boots to walk on them with, and I remember then having them.

I then "woke up" in the other dream again. I "fell back asleep" and continued my lucid dream.

I was then on the ground again, and I think Windy was there. I remember wanting her to fly with me, but I never asked her to. I remember her laughing as I took off. I started to climb higher and higher into the air. I started to feel like I was going too high and the dream would get lost, so I lowered myself a bit and watched the ground below me. I remember seeing lots of clouds covering a pale blue and pale purple-lit land.

The land then started to disappear until there were only clouds. It was then a cloud world-type place. As I flew, I spotted little islands in the clouds. It was a very beautiful sight. I remember trying to land on an island, but I was flying too fast or something and couldn't get my timing right to land.

Another "wake up" in the other dream. "Fell back asleep".

I was then on the ground. I tried to remember some of my lucid goals, but they were so hard to access. I remembered then that I wanted to try to get to Teraluna with my new portal system. I couldn't find a wall anywhere, so decided to try to draw one in midair.

*Sigh*...another "wake up" and "falling back to sleep" episode.

The next thing I remember is we had rescued all of the innocent prisoners from before. I can't really remember how we did it, I just knew that we had done it. I remember seeing some in a cave with some water running through it. Their prison cell was behind them.

~

I was going to have to go to trial...about my mom's oatmeal chocolate chip cookies. I was appealing a decision that had already been made against my mom. Something about the cookies being misleadingly unhealthy or something to that effect. The person filing against my mom? My first real boyfriend's mom, R.

I remember preparing for the case, which was going to take place in my old high school's auditorium on the stage. I remember not understanding wtf was going on, and why R would do this. It was extremely stupid.

I then remember being on the stage, sitting in a chair. I had a lawyer behind me, and R, also sitting in a chair, had a Lawyer behind her as well. There was no judge or jury present, it was just us 4. I remember R presenting her case. She had a tray full of different kinds of cookies. There were a few that looked old and dark brown. I thought those must be my mom's. I thought "Wait...mom hadn't baked cookies for her in months...those must be from the last trial!". I interrupted R and said
"Aren't those cookies from the last time?", to which she replied
"Yes..."
I then yelled
"Then that evidence doesn't count! That doesn't count!"
I remember her trying to go on about how my mom bakes cookies for her every week and a half. I yelled
"Well, if you don't like them or whatever, why do you keep taking them from my mom? Why don't you just ask her to stop baking for you?"
She just looked at me with this sad, pitiful look on her face. She said something about needing the money. I started going into a rage and started throwing things at her while screaming at her at the same time. I remember some small, chubby child with glasses being there too. I threw stuff at her as well. I was fucking pissed.

I then remember being on some ride. I was sitting in a chair as it went through this flooded hallway. It was about to go down one passage, but a voice said that it couldn't, because it was a dead end. It had to go down some stairs instead. It was supposed to pretend to kill you. I remember someone else being there, I'm pretty sure it was Ryan. I had ridden it before, and knew it was all a part of the ride, but he didn't. He thought I was really going to die. I didn't tell him otherwise, I just decided to let him find out.

The chair took my down the flooded stairs. I ended up at the bottom, and pretended to be dead. Something then happened, something involving an airplane, someone trying to act like this puppet thing was real (it wasn't very convincing). I don't remember details of this part. It was really weird. It was kind of like a video game boss in a way.

Dream - Lucid

All I remember from last night is a dream about killing people...I don't remember the details. I think the people were people that I knew. It was kind of like a video game. There was some goal that was being achieved by me killing the people.

Dream - Lucid

I was in my room. There were lots of people in there with me, mostly people around my age. I also remember my brother being there. It was nighttime outside. Looking out the window, the weather looked really tumultuous. I remember all the lights being off in my room.

I then remember something about a tornado, or maybe it was just a tornado drill that we were supposed to be doing. I remember a girl, who was "new" (new to what, I'm not sure). She suggested that we have a "cake party". The places she suggested that we have it were very strange, like at a Winn Dixie, and there was another place she mentioned, but I can't remember it right now. No one thought it was a good idea, and no one wanted to participate. I remember something at this point about being in my closet.

Then, my friend Tori came up to me and said that if one of us had presented the "cake party" idea, which was originally Tori's anyway, more people would have been in on it. It had something to do with the way the new girl had presented it.

I then remember seeing Ziggy, my old cat (we put him to sleep about 7 years ago in waking life). I remember seeing him in our kitchen. I pet him. He meowed. I thought to myself "He looks so young, healthy, and full of life!" (I think something along these lines every time I dream of him). He ran around, jumping off of walls and doors. He seemed so vibrant! I pet him some more and listened to his meow.

A backnote on Ziggy: Ziggy was my friend for years, until we put him down (he was very old and sick). He was my protector, in a sense. I felt like he was a guardian angel to me almost. I miss him dearly.

Dream - Lucid

I was in some medieval castle in medieval times. I was someone else, I remember I had a different name, but I can't remember what it was anymore. I was with two other people. At first I thought I was a man, but then maybe I wasn't, I can't remember for sure. I was still me, in a way, but different...if that makes sense. I was me in a different body in a different time.

Anyway, the two other people I was with were killing themselves by taking a sword and slashing it through their stomachs. It would leave 3 gashes, which slowly bled out. I had to do it for some reason, but I didn't want to. If I was going to do that, I'd want to make it quicker than bleeding out so slowly.

Then, an executioner approached me with a giant ax. The ax had some sort of protective cover on the blade that could be removed. He asked me if I just wanted to be beheaded, and I said no. That wasn't how I was supposed to go out.

I don't ever remember slashing myself with the sword, but I guess it happened somehow, because I remember bleeding out slowly and becoming lightheaded and woozy from blood loss.

~

I remember being in a very small liquor store with Ryan. I was sitting in a shopping cart, like where a child would sit. I was already drunk. I asked Ryan to find some Yellowtail Riesling. He looked, but said
"They don't have it."
I said
"Ok, just get some sparkling wine then."
He looked.
"They don't have that either."
I told him to look in the refrigerated section, but then got up and did it myself, searching for a bottle. Man, this liquor store doesn't have anything. I didn't even see any vodka, mostly it was just beers.

I then remember Ryan picking up a bottle of gin. It looked old and antiquey. The store owner said something about it being an antique. It looked like it had some weird filtration system built into it. Ryan asked me if it was ok if we got the gin. I said yes.

~

I was watching something on live TV about the Japanese bombing my town and college. I remember seeing a view of their radar system, which was like a blue, slightly fuzzy 3-D picture of the town in the POV of the aircraft dropping the bombs. I remember seeing them bomb a computer lab on campus. I saw the damage of the building from the inside. I wondered if everyone had escaped. They never announced any casualties on TV.

I remember asking my mom whether or not our home would get bombed. She said that we were in Sector 1, and the Japanese had declared war on Sector 5. She did say, however, that they had originally declared war on Sector 1.

Dream - Lucid

I was standing outside of a building next to a parking lot. It was nighttime. I was with someone, though I can't remember who it was. I was talking to them, when I noticed a couple of young, "ghetto" boys of about 10 or 11, one black and one white, standing next to my car. They opened up the passenger's side door. I think they saw me or something, because they left.

At first, I didn't think it was that weird, until something clicked in my head that they had been trying to steal stuff out of my car. I walked over to my car. They had left the door open. It didn't appear that they had taken anything out of my car. "I don't have anything valuable in there anyway.", I thought to myself.

I then remember looking across the parking lot, and seeing them doing that to another car. A few feet away from them was a police car with its lights flashing. The police were outside the car, beating up some dude with nightsticks. I thought that the police had at least seen the boys, and were going to go arrest them. The boys ran towards the building.

I remember thinking that the police had gotten the boys, when I saw them walking out of the building. One of them had a plastic shopping bag in his hand with something stolen from one of the cars.

I then remember confronting them about it. They denied ever stealing anything out of the cars. When they left, I saw the shopping bag sitting by the building. I picked it up and reached inside. I pulled out a white ashtray that still had ashes in it. At first I was confused about why the hell an ashtray would be in the bag, and then figured out the boys had tried to steal it. How much could they possibly get for an ashtray? Weird.

~

I was getting on a roller coaster. I sat down in a seat, but it didn't have a working seatbelt or safety bar. I would try to buckle the seatbelt, but it didn't have a part that it needed to buckle in properly, so I tied the belts together across my waist. Likewise, I tried to pull the safety bar down, and it wouldn't stay down. I knew the ride had lots of loops and twists in it, so...this wasn't good. The ride started. I started to freak out. There was a conductor at the front of the coaster. I yelled for him to stop the ride, because I didn't have a seat with safety restraints. He stopped the ride, and I found a new seat. A girl sat in the seat I had been sitting in. She got the safety bar to work.

I then remember waiting in line to get on an indoor roller coaster with Ryan. The park was closing, and the employees were turning lights off in the waiting area, which resembled a cave. They only had one part of the coaster that was left open. We finally got to the coaster and rode it. I was sitting in between Ryan, and my friend's ex, Rick. I remembered that we had ridden the coaster before, but this time, as it was going, it felt different. There were different corkscrews and loops than what we remembered. I laughed as we went through a corkscrew.

I then noticed that the tracks were made up of T-rex heads, and there were T-rex heads all around us. I guessed that the ride must be dinosaur-themed (dur). The ride slowed to a stop in the middle of a corkscrew. We were stopped upside down, but none of us seemed to worry too much about it. I was talking to Ryan, and Rick was talking as well. Then, I think I told Ryan to punch Rick in the face. So he did. He punched Rick right in the nose. Rick's nose started bleeding. I was kind of surprised. He told Ryan he was going to call the police.

Then, we were off the ride, but we were in some school or something. I think it was the building from my previous dream. I remember talking to Ryan about the police. He had pretty much accepted his fate. I was anxious about when the police would arrive.

I then remember exiting this classroom. This part may have been in 3rd person, but I can't remember for sure. Rick came up to me and started to whisper things into my ear, flirting with me. I giggled. I worried that Ryan would see, because he was going to come out of the classroom soon as well. I think Rick's plan was to make Ryan angry.

Then, I remember playing the piano with someone. They were on the upper octaves and I was on the lower ones. It wasn't really a duet, because we were both playing the same exact music, just at different octaves. There was a lady directing us and teaching us. We were getting ready for some big performance. I kept reading the notes and the chords over and over again, and I would mess up at some points and get discouraged; I'd think that the teacher wouldn't want me to perform. But I kicked those thoughts from my mind and kept on playing. The teacher stopped and started us over at the beginning a few times.

~

I remember being on DV. There were chat rooms for every different forum, but they were time-limited. I remember entering one, and talking for a bit, and then getting kicked out because I'd been there for the time limit. I entered another one. This one didn't seem to be time-limited.

Then, I wasn't just in a chat room anymore, but I was with a bunch of people from DV in a room. One of my friends was with me. I remember being there for a bit, and then heading to the door to leave. As I was leaving, Rman said something to me about him dating an older woman. I asked
"How old?"
He replied
"No, I can't tell you."
"Oh, come on, yes you can!", I replied with a smile.
"Ok, she's 74.", he said.
I laughed and said
"You're kidding right?"
He looked a little offended as I left. That was probably why he didn't want to tell me. Whoops.

~

I remember being at some wedding rehearsal dinner for some black lady. It was at her house. I didn't know anyone there. I also felt like I had been there before.

This must have triggered something, because I became lucid. I floated around outside, in what looked like my friend Courtney's backyard. I floated into her neighbor's yard, all the time being chased by these weird little white, floating robots. I kept kicking them away from me. I had done that so many times, my legs were starting to get tired. I remember floating into my house. I floated down from the kitchen up through the ceiling into the bonus room. The bonus room looked smaller and messier, with a big TV on some table where there had never been a TV before. I remember rubbing my hands together a couple of times throughout this dream.

Then, I woke up briefly and went right back into the dream.

I was outside again. Everything seemed a little dim. I figured I was wearing sunglasses, so I took them off and put them on my head. There, that's better. I floated back into my house again. I examined my hands. My left hand looked like it was swelling up. Then, the middle of my vision "broke" open, and I woke up.

Dream - Lucid

I was with a couple of other people in some store, I think it was called American Outfitters. I was shopping for blue jeans. I found a pair I liked; they were a size 23. The saleswoman handed them to me, and I started to head towards the dressing room with the people I was with.

When I entered the dressing room, I saw it was HUGE with a ton of elegant-looking beds of all sizes. There was a stall, one of 2 stalls in the whole dressing room, that I tried to enter, but someone wouldn't let me. So I kept walking, seeing all the beds around me. We stopped at a big, queen-sized bed. I started to change, and someone pointed out that people were staring at me, watching me change. I looked around, and there were indeed lots of older men watching me change. I felt extremely uncomfortable, and tried to tell them to go away and stop watching. I tried to get some of the people I was with to stand in front of me as I tried the pants on. They tried, but there were still all these men staring at me. I remember an overweight black man being one of the men. I eventually just gave up and tried to ignore them as I tried the pants on. They fit perfectly, and I wanted to buy them.

Then, I remember walking off to the side, and seeing this small, light orange ball covered in pink dots. I knew I was supposed to be collecting those. I picked it up, and then saw myself in 3rd person. It was floating above my hands, and phased through my chest. I went back to 1st person as it did that, and I felt it phase through. I was with someone else as I took off to fly over a city. I was laughing as I flew, turning upside down and then back to normal. I think I was supposed to be some kind of superhero.

I then remember feeling myself float back to Earth. I didn't want it to end; I wanted to keep flying! I inevitably landed, however. I went around and did some things, though I can't remember exactly what.

Then, I remember being in a grocery store by the refrigerated section. I looked at my hand to do a relaity check. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8 fingers. I'm dreaming! I redid the check. Still too many fingers. I rubbed my hands together.

~

I was in my kitchen with my mom and brother. My brother asked my mom to get some "Skinny Fruit Loops" from the store. Huh? Skinny Fruit Loops? Wtf. Then, there were a ton of "Skinny Fruit Loops" boxes arranged neatly on the floor. I asked my brother
"What are Skinny Fruit Loops?"
He said
"They don't have like 1,000 calories like regular Fruit Loops do." He picked up a box.
I said
"Regular Fruit Loops don't have 1,000 calories..."
"Oh, they don't?", my brother replied.
I remember thinking that the Skinny Fruit Loops probably weren't as good or filling as regular Fruit Loops.

Dream - Lucid

I remember being outside with some group. It looked like it was around dusk. I looked up at the sky, and the dark clouds were making spirals. I knew that this was not a good sign. I then saw a tornado come out of the middle of one of the spirals. I then saw a flash of a television screen. The TV said that we were under a "Huebert Warning", meaning that the potential for bad weather was very high. It was called something else, too, something that started with a Y, but I can't remember what the name was.

I then remember seeing a man in camo, a soldier I believe, stuck inside of one of those shovel-scoop construction machines (the actual name of this machine evades me right now). The shovel kept closing in on him over and over; it was out of control. He looked like he was in a lot of pain. I then remember seeing many people trying to help him get out of there. They finally rescued him.

I then remember being at McDonald's with my mom. She was trying to order this chicken salad wrap, but without the wrap, because she can't eat gluten. The lady behind the counter seemed annoyed and just generally upset about being at work. She kept misunderstanding my mom, who kept trying to order. I remember seeing the chicken salad spread all over this chunk of wheat bread. The lady finally really understood what my mom was saying. Then, my mom tried to ask for celery and carrots, and the lady said that they didn't have them, or something. I butt in at this point, because I saw some sitting on the counter. I said
"She wants those, the celery and carrots."
My mom then ordered a fruit bowl instead.

~

I was at the coffee shop I work at, but it looked much different. Everything seemed spacier. We weren't getting a lot of business. I then remember hearing that there was a tornado warning, and people started to go to the back. I was directing them as they went. I then saw them pass the back room, and go outside, where it was nighttime and raining. Outside was the shore of a lake. Beside the lake was a tree shadowing some green grass. Everyone went to sit outside by the shore. I thought that was kind of silly, since, oh I don't know, THERE'S A TORNADO WARNING?

Then, I turned to go back to talk to my boss, who was in the office (which was MUCH bigger than in waking life). She was sitting at the computer. She saw me enter, and said something about how we weren't going to the back yet, because the radar wasn't showing anything bad yet. I told her
"I know, everyone went outside."
She then got up and hugged me, spinning me in circles. I closed my eyes, enjoying every second. I felt so loved at that moment, like she was a mother to me almost. She started to crouch down closer to the ground as she was spinning me, and I felt like I was 4 years old again, being held in the arms of my mother. It was such a warm, loving feeling.

Then, I remember some guy coming from behind me to ask about a sandwich. It sounded like Chris, my ex, so I kind of snapped at him. I turned around, and it wasn't Chris. It was some shorter bald dude. I quickly apologized for the misunderstanding. I told him I had thought he was someone else. I went behind the counter to find his sandwich, he had said something about a "Panera salad". Weird.

This must have triggered something in my brain, because at that moment, I did a reality check. I counted 6 or 7 fingers, with some being very short and stubby. It's a dream! I started trying to think of what I should do. I almost just took off to fly, but thought better of it, knowing that I had a goal preset before I went to bed, though I couldn't remember what it was. At first, I just started to explore, walking around a bit. Then, I remembered my goal: To resolve something with one of my exes.

I was still behind the counter, and I floated up to where a blank wall was. At that moment, inside the dream, I had an idea to improve the functionality of my portals. I started to write my ex's name on the wall with my finger. As I wrote it, it showed up in the oily rainbows that have occurred with some of my other portals. I then drew a circle around his name with my finger, and calmly said "I want to see A". I started to color the circle in with my hand, and then it was an oily rainbow circle. I jumped through into blackness. I was afraid I might wake up, but tried to shove that fear aside.

I was then standing in a room somewhere. My ex was right there in front of me, sitting at a computer desk, doing something on the computer. I got his attention by saying his name. He turned to look at me. I rubbed my hands together so I wouldn't lose the dream.

"Hey Krista," he said "what's up?"
I sat down in front of him and said
"A, I have to ask you something. Why didn't we work?"
He looked at me for a minute, then disappeared. I was then holding a phone, and he was on the other line. I tried to get him to reappear, but gave up and just talked to him on the phone as I got up and walked down a concrete path. He started telling me about how he had another girlfriend now. I then told him
"I'm just not affectionate, A. And you are."
He said
"What do you mean?"
I started to explain that I'm not a touchy-feely person, and then got no response.
"A? A??" I said into the phone. Nothing but silence followed.

I felt the dream ending. I woke up, and stayed completely still so I could DEILD.
*Continued in part 2*

Dream - Lucid

I woke up in my bed. I looked out the window, and it was very cloudy. I looked at the stereo clock across from me (don't have that anymore in waking life). It read 11:30. SHIT! How did I sleep so long? I was supposed to have a final at 10, and now I was an hour and a half late. I wondered why the hell my alarm didn't go off. I looked at my phone. The alarm was still set. I tried to do an RC on the clock to see if I was dreaming, but it passed. Well this sucks.

I got up and started trying to figure out what to do. Then, the phone rang. I answered it. Some lady was asking me why I wasn't taking my final. I apologized and said I had slept in too late because my alarm didn't go off. She told me to just go ahead and get over there as fast as I could. I threw some clothes on and left.

As I got to the parking lot outside of the auditorium, I noticed a tornado forming in the parking lot. It spun for a bit then disappeared (I actually saw something like this happen in waking life a couple of days ago O_O). It then happened again. The clouds looked super ominous.

I got into the room I was supposed to be in for my test, and saw a line of students with notebooks and neatly organized papers going up to my teacher. Shit, I thought, I was supposed to have my notebook together for her. I frantically started trying to get my worksheets and stuff together. I got up to the teacher, and she told me I should have done that before now. I told her I knew. I started tearing sheets out of my workbook (don't have a workbook for that class in waking life) to put in order for the notebook. When I finished putting everything together, I handed it to her to check. There were candy wrappers all over and between the pages. As she was looking at it, I was cleaning up the wrappers.

I then remember sitting down in a classroom that looked very similar to one of my elementary school classrooms.

~

I was with Ryan. We were at my parents' house. We were trying to play Cupid and set a couple of people up on a date. I remember the guy being obese, and I think the girl was too. I remember seeing the guy in my parents' house. Him and Ryan were talking about cars.

I then remember Ryan and I looking at these receipt paper printouts that looked into the future of these people, and some other people as well. I remember Ryan talking about them spending 60 days of the summer together, but I corrected him and said it was winter break, because they had gotten together during the fall semester. He agreed with me.

Then, I remember being in my car with the obese guy beside me in the passenger's seat, and Ryan in the back. I reached for my sunglasses in the cup holder. The obese guy had to move for me to get them. I started to back out of the garage. I noticed my mirror was about to hit the edge of the garage as I was about to pull out. I pulled back up, adjusted my wheel, and tried again. Only I had adjusted the wheel way too much. I said
"I don't know why I can't back out of here!" I thought that Ryan was getting frustrated with me, because he's so into cars and driving.
I finally made it out.

Then, I was standing in a room with everyone. The obese guy was holding a very fat cat. He put it down, and I picked up an ugly brown argyle sweater that was sitting on something behind me, and I threw it on the cat. The cat started walking around with it draped over him. Someone asked if the sweater would fit the cat. I said
"It's a size 24!" We all seemed to agree that it would fit the cat. We laughed.

I remember driving down the street, and seeing that the sky was very cloudy. I saw a piece of dark cloud stuck to some telephone wires. Then, as I drove a little further, I saw a few people standing on the side of the road. One had a little dog on a leash. A tornado formed above them. I thought they were screwed, but they just stood there as if nothing was happening. As the tornado disappeared, it got smaller and smaller. It was then very tiny, and stuck to one of the guys' shoe. He started trying to shake it off.

Dream - Lucid

I was with Ryan. I remember there being 3 children, 2 girls and a boy. For some reason, we had to buy them each 2 gifts: An article of clothing, and a toy. They gave us lists of what they wanted. We were shopping for them at Old Navy. I remember seeing that the youngest girl wanted these purple-striped panties. I found a pair, but they had multi-colored stripes instead of purple. I looked for the purple ones, but they were out. I picked the multi-colored ones off of the shelf. They looked like a thong. I thought that they were NOT age appropriate, because the girl was so young. I mentioned something about it to Ryan, saying I couldn't believe what 'kids these days' were wearing or something.

I then remember telling Ryan we could get the shopping done faster if we split up, and I went and found the shampoo (??) and he went and got the clothes. We started shopping that way, but somehow ended up shopping together again. I remember wishing that the store had the purple-striped panties, because the girl really wanted them. I kept picking up the multi-colored ones, and finally deciding to get those.

Then, I remember something about a girl named Twila ('twi' as in 'twilight'). I remember being in a room with her and a lot of other girls. She had long, wavy blonde hair. I remember her being at a table with some codine pills on it. I compared her to some girl I used to be friends with in high school named Stephanie.

Then, I remembered that I hadn't bought a toy for the youngest girl. I hadn't been able to find what she wanted, which was some "My Little Pony" doll. The kids all already had their gifts. I decided I needed to go to their house and tell them that I was going to get the youngest girl a toy.

I got to the house, which was at the end of a cul de sac. I had to climb a ladder to get up to the entrance of the house. I got up there, and the parents saw me. They wanted to kill me because I hadn't bought a toy for the youngest child. I tried to explain myself, but they wouldn't listen. They didn't seem angry either; they were eerily calm about it.

I then remember running away and trying to hide from them over and over, but they kept finding me. I remember the father flashing a pair of surgical scissors (not sure what to call them) at me, and I thought to myself "Face your fears, nothing can hurt you right now". It was implied that I was dreaming, and I recognized it, but I still ran from the man, forgetting my thought.

At one point, I was back in the main room of the house that you entered after climbing the ladder. I saw the youngest girl. She had blonde hair, big eyes, and looked like she was about 3 or 4 years old. I knelt down to her height. She said something about me not getting her a toy. She seemed sad. I told her that I was going to get her one, and I promised I would. She looked hopeful, and said
"Really?"
I told her yes, I would.

While I was talking to her, her father found me again. I knew it was only a matter of time. I remember then running to the entrance to the house, and going down the ladder. At some point, I remember trying to transform into Link from the Zelda games, cause then I could kick some ass. I remember seeing Kacey down at the bottom, standing in the cul de sac. I feel like there were many other people there as well. I was talking to and looking at Kacey, when I remembered my thought from earlier.

It's a dream! But I like this dream, do I really want to be lucid right now? I guess I could forget and keep seeing where the dream takes me...no, I haven't been lucid in awhile...fuck it! I looked at Kacey's face. She smiled at me. She looked beautiful. I started to laugh, rubbed my hands together, and took off into the air. I flew above trees. I said
"I can fly! Why? Because I'm dreaming! I can do whatever I want!!"

I then remember feeling the dream fade. I was then down at a very clear river that was located in a field of very green grass. I was standing next to Link. He told me he was "pandering" for gold in the river. He gave me 3 green leaves, one small, one medium, and one large. I then knew he used those to "pander" for gold. I looked into the clear river. Many golden flakes and specks floated by.

Then, I "woke up" and started to type out my dream on my mom's laptop. I was sitting downstairs in the living room. I started to write about how the dream had started with Link and I "pandering" for gold, and me turning into Link at some point.

I then "woke up" again. I repeated the same process. I had to minimize a ton of my mom's files on her computer, because she had a ton of them open. I started looking for my dream, I thought maybe I had saved it as a draft to finish typing later. When I couldn't find it, I knew I had had an FA and was kinda irritated about having to type everything again.

This happened a third time before I finally actually woke up.