LukeSid

Throughout (what I percieved to be) a long winter, and despite pressing domestic problems, I still managed reasonable amount of dream-recall. Now that the weather's improving and despite more time spent on preparation I'm getting virtually nothing...and the few fragmants I'm snatching are sooooo boring.

Is my mind going? Certainly I can no longer duplicate the mind-blowing (but ultimately unsuccessful) rushes I used to get when I tried WILD attempts during the day. Yes, I know that isn't supposed to work anyway but, to me, it was a visible sign of something that was maybe potentially powerful just around the corner...and, as such, it was quite a morale-booster. (maybe I burnt the connections out)

I've just had a two week email-tussle with a gas utility company (where I copied in all local papers, the ombudsman and my local MP) and the quality and sarcastic wit of my responses tells me I've still got some of my higher mental-functions...and I won. So why doesn't that reflect in a reasonably memorable dream?

Sure, I've still got health problems...the nose job doesn't seem to have really worked...although this area is so notorious for its poor air quality it will ultimately take my move away to prove that fact one way or the other...and I'm still pressed for time re house improvements.

Is Ed (for the benefit of new readers, he's my brain...I lean towards the opinion that mind and brain are seperates) is Ed trying to protect me from possible bad side effects of LD attempts? It's noticeable that most wake-times are a bit away from the end of REM effects (and the ones that are nearer do tend to make me feel a bit wobbly)

To answer that I'd need to be strapped to a full monitoring-device to record heart, respiration, blood pressure and brain function and they don't sell them in the local chemist (and to install a machine like that in my room I'd probably have to remove the bed...catch 22) in one of my LD's, as the dream ended I swear that I felt my heart-rate speed up but it didn't feel life-threatening.

As I've said ad-nauseum, I'm not likely to ever completely walk away from dream recall or LD attempts... because it's now so intregal to my whole philosophy of life, so I'll plod on, wait for the move, keep trying to move towards greater awareness and let Ed muse on these comments. Send me a sign ED...a dream where the grim reaper (like the one in Monty Python's Meaning of Life) slowly curls his bony finger and points to my heart and maybe I'll listen...or maybe not...



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