lucid

Dreams
I am pursuing enlightenment and different states of consciousness with Spock from Star Trek. There is a scene I incubate and it would appear and I would know I was making some kindof progress. I was very scared and I was at a table with a Spock action figure talking about it with him. I could feel changes happening to me, and I tried to snap out of whatever change I thought was going on.

I am at Albert Einsteins house and I look up at the ceiling. It is made of wood and the upper floor is filled with water. It is buckling the roof above me and there is a huge bulge where the water is about to leak out. For some reason it feels very significant. It has something to do with the secrets of Einstein. I am sitting down somewhere in a different building and I look to the right, there is a glass window and some art exhibit below outside. In front of me is more glass with some of my profs sitting behind it. I start talking to one of them but the glass prevents any sound from travelling so we try and read eachothers lips. Another prof beside this one thinks that I am talking to her, so she starts speaking as well. They both seem really into me. I think the profs are part of another exhibit and some of the ppl behind the glass might have been dolls.

I was in some building not a prisoner but I couldn't really leave. There was a cute girl on the phone and she was asking me directions about the streets around the area. My sister? is outside the doorway and I ask her these questions and relay them to the cute girl but she hears the answers directly from my sis. The girl is ordering french food and I ask her how much it is, I'd like to have some french ood too. My sister comes over and is like "really? you just ate -blank- and pie as well and are still hungry?" "I didn't have any pie." I say.

Earlier I was at an art Gallery and Tristan was sitting on a bench sleeping so I woke him up. He denied that he was sleeping. I went and looked at some jewelry that was part of some art on the floor. I'm on a bus at night with KZ and I am very disturbed about the whole Spock thing. We are going far past my house so I ask kz if he wants to get out and start walking now, but he says we should wait. Somebody takes a picture of me with a really bright flash. It was Leslie, kz says. I take a picture of him with a flash but its not leslie anymore its conner. Am I dreaming? I look around and seriously consider it and get a little creeped out at the possibility. Kz goes "woohoo!" or something and I wake up.

-I wake up kindof disturbed and fall asleep a little later. Just fragments of the next dreams.-

Dreams
I wanted to go study in Paris but somebody didn't want me to go. King Joffrey from A game of thrones is at the front of a lecture theatre and some game is going on. He tells his guards to bring him my head, but some people object. I am afraid. There is some gunfight in a hallway related to going to Paris. I remember running into my grandfather and having a brief conversation with him.

Dreams
There's some kindof war? I run outside and in this courtyard is a giant doll like robot that I shoot in the eye with a bazooka. It is absorbed right into her eye. I go into the courtyard and there is an angry birds game, and I am the angry bird. I launch myself with the elastic slingshot and try and hit the targets. There are lots of pastries and cakes on the targets that I eat while doing this. During this there are some voices talking about a really chillax prof. Im running along some dirty gravel mounds barefoot trying to get to a cabin. David's cat died, so they got a new one, and Kelly was standing over me as she said it. We go inside and I shake some Indians' hands, and we see david and say "thats horrible news, I'm sorry to hear it." I'm in this camp or cabin now and the other people are all druggies. Prince Joffrey from a Game of Thrones is there and so is Queen Cercei. I swear my allegiance to Joffrey and my future king, and also to Cercei, but she says that nobody actually wants to be queen so don't swear allegiance to her. The druggies give me food but its all drugged with barbituates. I spit most of it out. It is nightime and there is a chopper hovering around outside our tent. It has the roof of a tent, but the sides are all glass and the chopper must be able to see us with its searchlight which is on us. The chopper lowers down and turns into a tent with the crew all sitting down on a bench inside. "How did the chopper change from that into a tent?" I ask. "It has scissors." The guy next to me replies. I think this is a dream. Things go black and I go into a non lucid where I get sick and vomit from all of the bugs in Key West where there is a vampire.

-Wake up-I wake up with that bad dream kindof feeling, and stay up a little bit to try and get my bearings.

Dreams
I am flying in a cessna with my mom who is the pilot. She flies very low, no higher than 400 feet off the ground. We fly under powerlines and stuff. We fly under some structure and see the runway and she puts down full flaps and cuts power an we land on it. I am a little bit relieved because I wasn't sure she would pull it off. It is a relatives place in the winter and a lage British man comes out and talks to me. He jokes without really any hint of humour in his voice and asks me if I brougt my swimming gear to swim in the lake. Is this in Kingston? I reply that I didn't bring my wetsuit. There is a long and large machine under some covering that will be revealed to us as a surprise. They eventually uncover it and its a huge digging claw that a tractor has. It picks up snow and dumps it into some bin. They are wearing suits and hats I think, and it reminds me of an old old picture in black and white. It reminds of death and how we are all going to be dead someday.

I am outside in my backyard or something similar in the winter looking for a large harp with my friend Jesse. We go along the side of the house and I spot it. The french teacher is going to get there first! Oh no, if she gets there first we'll fail! She's about to touch it but I dive for it and grab it. I'm about to play when I realize that this is a dream! I say so, and Jesse is like "Yah man its a dream!" I don't know what to play, but I start to pluck the strings. It sounds beautiful and I'm shocked that I am able to do this. Its a decending scale I'm playing, and I'm plucking two strings at a time going down the scale. Theres a pitch difference between each string in the couple, it sounds really nice like something from ancient greece or something. I start to screw up, and am worried that I'm going to screw up even more, so I do and it starts to sound horrible. I try and convince myself that I can do it but theres just too much self doubt and it doesn't improve. The professor tells me that it will sound much better in real life.

Woke up from a dream in the night where I was driving my old friend's dad's Camaro, but it could fold into a motorcycle. Don't really remember falling asleep and couldn't rem the dream at first so was sitting in my room not really sure if I was asleep or dreaming. Read for a bit, then said "I will lucid dream tonight or very soon" once then went to sleep.

I'm in a nice house in the dining room with a girl. She looks pretty punk, with some bright blue hair dye I think. I realize I am dreaming, and things start getting heated with her. I say "stablize!" to the dream, finally remembering to do this stuff. I rub my hands together, as well as rub my arms and legs. I lick a cabinet, and try to smell the room to ground me. It helps, and it was more stable than my other 2 second lucids but I was still thinking "Don't think about waking up..oh shit I'm thinking about it". We start floating up to the ceiling, and there are older men wearing monacles and top hats watching us. I get to the ceiling and start to go through. I either woke up or entered a non lucid.

I am at school walking to somewhere. I am talking to one of my professors from a distance and we are talking about a bug underneath my dunce bone. There is a fountain and I go and swim in it. It is like half ice, so its hard to move anywhere but I am doing it for a reason to prove a point or something. I go into this tunnel or hall. I am walking through it on a false bad credit rating so I can get to some guy for an answer. The tunnel branches off to the side, and there are some people sitting there and one of them holds out a knife so that I can see it. I continue on and it becomes a temple. There is an asian man sitting down with a knife, so I leap over him. I passed the first challenge! Now there is an asian guy with a samarai sword and hes about to attack. I don't have much room but I just grab the dull sword and take it, which makes it obvious that this is a dream. I gently hit the confused asian dude. Now this black guy in an electric wheelchair charges out and gives a nerdly yell while he's coming at me. I'm still clear that I'm dreaming so I grab him and ask him how to lucid dream every night. I know I'm about to wake up so I urgently ask him again and shake him, but he's resisting and doesn't seem to want to talk.

I am standing in the mirror after Jesse's lame birthday party at the movies. At this party I left as soon as the movie started and went into the school field and was doing something with the garbage. I got back as soon as the movie ended. Anyway I am looking in the mirror and my teeth are massive. My upper right teeth are not attached to the roof of my mouth, and are just free floating. After a long time I start thinking that this is weird. I nose plug and try to breathe in and I can. I don't believe it, so I do it 2 or 3 more times and can still do it. I realize its a dream but its a pretty sluggish realization. I drift into a non lucid where my dad is gangsta now and riding a motorcylce right behind our car.

WBTB-30 mins ish this time, read a bit from a latin book to jog my mind, and meditated for 10 mins before setting my intention and vis. Took me a long time to fall asleep again. I had the intention of stabilizing the dream this time, but didn't work out.

I am walking outside in the courtyard of a party, and people are at tables eating dinner. This just doesn't happen to me in real life. I think that its a dream, and also think that anything I want to happen will happen. The cute blonde girl I've been wanting smiles at me and walks over. I lose lucidity here. She climbs up on a ledge/balcony and asks me for something I can give her? I don't follow her inside as she climbs into the house through the window or some door, but wait for her instead. The next thing I see is her hanging from the balcony from her neck in a noose. Why did she kill herself? Earlier in a very tall building where you could see the stairs go all the way up many of us were watching and waiting for her to come out of the washroom, because something seemed wrong. Something about her dead relative who created a pill who could bring ppl back to life. Lazarus? I was walking strangely earlier and she commented jokingly but with interest and I told her I'd explain later. She was Latino then, not white and blonde.

I am sitting back to back with her now, or someone like her watching a movie with lots of other ppl. There are two halves of the ppl facing eachother. I am happy that I'm making some connection with this girl. There is a brunette in front of me beside who I think is a boyfriend, who shyly slips her fingers in between mine. Its awkward and I'm not sure she's my normal type but I kindof like it.

I have a false awakening where my friends are at my house in my sisters room making all kinds of noise and breaking things. Conners shoe flies off and almost breaks a grandfather clock that isnt usually there. There is a black guy in my room that I don't know, and he is floating and has his hands on me. I'm afraid of him and think he's gonna hurt me. Either way I want these people out of my house but can't do it. He has a knife pointed at me, and I take it from him. He's saying things to me and I want to stab him, but know that it won't even do anything.
I 'wake up' and go into the computer room where my sister is. She is dressed as if she's about to go to a club but its daytime. She seems annoyed. I am on the floor sitting, and my mom is there too now. Something breaks and we try and get our dogs out of the room without them stepping on glass.

I had a lucid dream last night, just a short one where I became lucid and woke up. I didn't write it down thinking I'd remember it because it was lucid, then fell asleep and had more dreams and forgot it.

The last couple of nights I have been trying something like "In the next hour, I will reality check." Trying to activate the goal seeking part of my brain. Then visualized preforming reality check. Still only hitting about half of my goals in the prospective memory exercise. Sometimes less. Not sure if this is for me.

Dreams
I am at a convienience store near where this old video store used to be. Someone in the line asks for milk with something, and the guy on cash says he's leaving soon so he doesn't want to go get it. He also says it will be like $1.50 more. He goes to get it, and I talk with the guy about the bad service. A big guy comes back too, and says to me "You're gonna buy that shit?" I am holding already made cold coffee in a jar. "yeah." Now it gets scary. There is a woman in the shop screaming. She is on the wall like a horror film, and she is about to see herself for the first time. Her face is darkened, there's something wrong with it. There's this demonic blackness on it. I see images of her as a child with the darkened face screaming. I see her trying to punch the image of herself in the mirror with the darkened face. I wake up with my eyes a bit watery because I was scared!

--WBTB--
Decided just to go with the mantra "I will lucid dream this morning or very soon", and visualized the girl screaming and realizing that it was dream. Decided to try WILD a bit as well, but after about 25 mins just wanted to fall asleep so I moved. Can only ever get to a point where I start to see flashes, but then get too excited and it goes away.

Dreams
I'm on the bus and there is a really attractive girl on it too, and she periodically bends over. This happens a lot, but her dad and family is right there so I don't want to check her out which is difficult not to do. She gets off the bus, and the next thing I remember is being at school looking for some attractive girls. I see some of my friends' sister's friends up this circular ramp. I am in a parking lot near my house now, with my dad. I am in the car, and I see this girl from my martial arts club, but she looks older and more attractive now. My dad and I are walking home but he is running now, and I ask him what is wrong. He says nothing, but he just feels the need to get home. He starts losing it or something. He says "In case you snap, I can tie you to this." I am creeped out, and get into a fighting pose. I try to throw a few strikes at him but nothing can land. He tells me if I try to fight him he'll hit back like a wrecking ball or something.

I am thinking that I wake up, but then go to my window. It is wooden with portholes, and I open them up. In my tree in the backyard is a basketball net box, and a huge sandbox filled with cranberries! I remember asking myself if I was ever going to wake up. "This is just too weird to be real." I thought.

I'm not sure if I became fully lucid, but at least partially lucid. It was a long dream but I only remember part of it now. I was congratulating my friend from graduating while he was at a desk at school, and then he insulted me I think. I was in a washroom next but then the power went out. It was really creepy so I decided to get into the limosine with my friends who were waiting outside. They said that someone else was going to get picked up next so I would have to push over. I remember looking out the window and thinking that as long as I tried to use all of my senses and really focus on my surroundings the dream wouln't end. But it wasn't an aha! moment.

I am at a strange school and carrying some things for someone. I am outside where some railroad tracks used to be on elevated ground on the side of a field. It is a heated moment, and there are people who are very angry and almost rioting. In this dream I have children, and they are yelling at me about them. Why are they in school!?!? I just kindof end up on the bottom of the hill and curl into a ball crying. Ask them! You'll have to ask them!!! I spit out with lots of tears. My mom and sister are suddenly there, and there is a person with a gun. The three of us start to run down the old tracks as fast as we can. I encourage them on and tell them not to stop. We get to the entrance to some woods, and there is some silky material hanging down, and for some reason this is safe so we stop to make camp because it is night time. I wonder why this silky stuff makes us safe, and am a bit afraid that the gunman is going to sneak up on us in our sleep.

I'm in my room at night and look out into the field outside of my window. I see a badger about twice the size of an elephant sniffing and grazing around. Okay...thats just wierd I thought. But this feels so real, how could it be fake? I plug my nose and breathe in through it, and I am able to do so. A dream! The badger runs and jumps/flies towards my window and I wake up.

Another dream was this sort of battle on a hill slope. There was this one man with glasses taken prisoner. He seemed like a nice guy, but the other soldiers or whomever were throwing small cherry sized explosives at him. I was throwing some at the soldiers. Then they loaded him with explosives from the inside, and his abdomen/chest exploded leaving a bloody space between his legs and his head. He was still alive to experience this and know that he was about to die, with half of his body gone. I felt so bad for him and was completely disgused.