dream fragment

Dream One (Fragment): I'm in the Tulpa's thread here on dream views, I've been lurking there reading about them because it sounds interesting but not like something I have the concentration for. Instead of being a thread though, it's a chat room, and instead of being online, it's an actual room and people are actually talking face to face. It's hard to lurk when people can see you and are expecting you to say something, lol.

Dream Two: I'm in an under ground cavern, like man made cavern. Reminds me of Moria or that giant underground sewer or whatever in Japan. I'm with a man, an older Male, and in the dream I actually think to myself that he's kind of like Coram to my Allana (Song of the Lioness Quartet by Tamera Pierce, I haven't read those books in ages so Maybe I got the names wrong?) He's kind of like my body guard and mentor I guess. He says something about Princesses of Heart, and I remembered in my dream seeing a Disney Princess Wall Sticker set that said princess at heart and misread it as Princess OF heart (which is an important phrase from the first Kingdom Hearts) but despite remembering my real life I didn't stop and say, "Hey! I'm dreaming!" -_- So then we're coming out of the catacombs and the landscape outside the catacombs is a valley with sheer cliffs to my left and right. at the end of the Valley there are guards, guarding a large wooden gate. One of the medieval looking soldiers runs up to me and is happy I'm alive, but tells me the fortress is under attack and about to fall. They're going to hold the enemy off long enough that I can hide, so I need to hurry. I am rushed through the wooden gate and start climbing a tower. I see the soldiers falling one by one to arrows, then there's only me left, climbing this huge tower (not stairs, but a ladder) and this guy in red shooting at me. His first arrow misses barely. The second doesn't look like it will miss, and I wake up just as I see it in front of my eyes. Half a second later and it'd have gone through my head, lol.

Dream Three: I'm in the pasture, watching the neighbors horses. (We have our pasture opened to the neighbors pasture so his horses can roam it because we have no animals of our own and it's a waste not to use it.) The neighbors kid that I babysit is there too, so I think that I'm babysitting him in the dream. I notice theres a black horse, and I can clearly see the print of a saddle on it's back. Like someone rode it hard, then just took the saddle out and turned the horse out to pasture. I turned to the neighbors kid and asked him, "Did you turn that horse out hot?" (and apparently in the dream this means, did you put him in the pasture after riding without grooming him, lol) The kid tells me no at first, and I call him on his lie because of the saddle mark, and he confesses and asks that I don't tell his dad. I tell him to go get me the grooming tools, and he'd better believe his dad would hear about it, it's bad for the horse! He brings me the grooming tools, and I try to groom the horse, but it's very people shy around me. It keeps getting close, just to get wide eyes and run off. I try to put a lead line on it, and it won't hold still, dancing backwards and side to side as if it's very nervous. Finally I give up and decide that I'll tell the neighbor when he gets home and he'll be able to do it since the horse knows him so well and doesn't know me at all. The neighbors kid has disappeared but I don't care. A dog comes up, and it shifts colors throughout the rest of the dream from Black to brown and white spotted. I start petting the dog, and it leans against my legs, then rolls over. So I sit down in the dirt and start petting him (her? I never checked, lol) but the dog rolls back over and starts pushing the curry comb with his nose. I take it as a clue he wants me to groom him like the horse, so I start moving the curry comb across his back in small circles and he's happy about it. I start to move the comb back over his rum to get the back above his tail and he gets mad and growls, so I move the comb back to his shoulders, and he's happy again. He rolls over on his side so I can brush his sides too. I wake up after a few minutes of brushing.

Dream Four: I'm walking to my Aunt Jenny's house to give her a message. She actually lives 45 minutes away, there's no way I could actually walk there. I don't know exactly how to get there, so I'm looking it up on on phone on google maps. I walk up a big hill behind a Walmart, then I cut through a yard and I'm at her house! She's worried about my grandma since I came alone, but I tell her grandma is at work and not to worry. I borrow her phone to call a friend and let them know I'm not going to hang out today, then I leave. I cut back across the neighbors yard, and then I'm going back down the hill behind the Walmart when I think for some reason my husbands car should be parked there but it's not! My husband is suddenly with me, and I'm freaking out because I see a sign that says No Parking, violators will be towed at the owners expense. I freak out knowing the car has been towed. My husband takes me up a small grassy hill and to the police station where I think I'm going to get my car back. I try to argue with the lady that My car had ran out of gas and I had to walk to the gas station to get gas and couldn't help that my car died right there, but she told me if was still my fault for letting the car run out of gas and being irresponsible. The rest of the dream is spent crying and arguing trying to get my husbands car back.

Dream Five (Fragment): I'm walking through the toy departments at various stores looking for the Fashion Style Ponies I don't have (Apple Jack, and even that Fake Derpy b/c my little girl freaking LOVES Derpy pony!) I'm annoyed though because all the toys are in patterns. there's shelves of red boxes, then shelves of white boxes, and then red again, and so forth and so on. I'm mad because the pony boxes are clear and purple, and they have no place on the shelves for them, so no stores have them. At some point I see a pedestal with a thank you card on it and for some stupid reason I just walk up and rip it in half then run off.

Dream Six (Fragment): I'm in the old house in Holly Springs, the one we haven't lived in for seven or so years... only instead of a closet between two bedrooms it's a bathroom with a door to both back bedrooms. I'm in the living room and my daughter is crying that she's pooped her pants. I Take her back to the bathroom and start changing her. I can hear my Husband's family in the living room telling my husband he needs to help me because I'm not capable of doing it myself. I'm mad because I change her pants 90% of the time around here and getting him to do it is like pulling teeth so I don't bother. I don't want him coming back and giving me any help because the way they put it was insulting. I sneak into the other bedroom to watch them talk about me being incompetent and all the things that I can't do. I wake up after just a few seconds of ease dropping though.

Dream Seven (Fragment): I'm looking at a black void like room. There's a silver oval, and inside that silver circle is a grey human form. Someone says something about space, not like outer space, but space as in not having enough room. Then there's a click like a light being turned on or something, and the human body shape starts to slowly fade as the skeleton inside the body starts glow, slowly growing brighter until all I can see if the skeleton inside this big silver oval. As creepy as it sounds, I don't feel scared, in fact I feel the opposite. Like the body it's self was strange and I didn't know what to think of it, but when it was replaced by a skeleton I suddenly felt calm and very safe and like I was with a good friend or familiar place, not with some random stranger or in some random strange place. This is one of the few symbolic dreams that I can actually say I know why I had it. I don't deal well with people, very shy and just socially awkward. My best friend I've known since 6th grade, and I really don't talk to anyone else outside my immediate family except on the internet, lol. Now is where I start sounding crazy While I don't get along well with people, I am pretty sensitive to energies, especially spirits. Family and family friends actually seek my advice before buying houses and such to be sure there's no negative energy or spirits hanging around. I also tend to find myself with energies hanging around pretty often. I don't like see or hear ghosts or anything, I just feel them, if that makes sense. While I am completely uncomfortable with living people, I do enjoy being around spirits, they're good company in the sense I know I'm not alone, but I don't have to worry about what I say or do because they can't tease me or laugh at me (or if they can I don't hear them, lol) or whatever. They're just there. Pretty sure this dream, and the uncomfortableness I felt with the human body shape the the security and comfort I felt when the body became a skeleton has something to do with this. Not sure what the comment about space could have been about though, as I'm not sure what the exact comment was... just that it said something about having space.

Still not much sleep thanks to waking life stress. Oh well.

Dream One (Fragment): I'm playing My Little Pony... not sure now if it was a computer game or paper dolls or what. I had a pony, and I could choose to put her in any one of four scenes, and each scene came with different outfits I could put on her.

Dream Two (Fragment): I watched in third person as Sailor Moon made her boyfriend breakfast, but it was gross and she cried because he told her as much.

Dream Three: My mom hired someone to come to my house and give me Karate lessons. She apparently lived in my house too. I wasn't happy about her hiring someone without asking me if I even wanted lessons or not, and decided to be rebellious about her treating me like a kid. I know, what a childish thing to do, lol. I started out being pretty cold and distant to the instructor, telling him I didn't want lessons and he could just go home. But he tells me he has to give me lessons to get paid, and he needs the money. The he asks if I could just give it a shot, not because mom's making me do it, but because he wants to teach me. He doesn't look much older than me, early thirties at the most, but more than likely mid to late twenties. I decide to humor him because I can understand needing money and it's not his fault mom hired him without asking me. By the end of the lesson I find myself really happy that I took the lesson, and I feel proud like I have learned something though I can't tell what. I started the dream feeling angry, but by the end I'm happy and almost a little sad when I wake up because I am rarely that happy and proud of myself in waking life.

Dream Four (Fragment): Someone's crying that their kid fell down a manhole in the park. A crowd gathers and lifts the man hole cover. Instead of a kid climbing out though, a bunch of people on the backs of grey birds like those in Skyloft (from The Legend of Zelda Skyward Sword) come flying out of the man hole. I watch in amazement as one after another they come out of the ground and soar into the sky. They just kept coming, there must have been ten or fifteen of them at least.

So I didn't sleep much last night. I went to bed around 3 am, and woke up around 9. I'm too stressed to sleep b/c we've got some big decisions to make about our house. All my dreams were the fuzzy early night dreams and I can barely remember anything. That's ok though, the My Little Pony wedding comes on in half an hour, so I don't want to spend forever typing anyways.

Dream Fragment One: I'm talking to someone. I don't remember who, or what they said, but it really helped me. I actually had an argument with my husband last night over possibly moving, and went to bed feeling like the Grinch that stole my husbands Christmas. Luckily, this dream left me feeling like I made the right decision and everything was going to be better in time. I can bet it was either K or Vesta I saw last night, I kind of wish I remembered who, lol.

Dream Fragment Two: My dad was talking to me about losing weight

Dream Fragment Three: I was telling someone that I worked in a "stripper store" and not to tell my husbands church. I've never worked in a stripper store, lol. but I read an article before bed about a local strip joint getting busted for drugs, so I'm sure that's where that came from.

Dream Fragment Four: My dad was talking to me about weight loss.

Dream Fragment Five: I was shopping for something for my best friend A, or maybe I was looking for her in a store.

Dream Fragment Six: I was going to demo a video game coming out soon. But the demo was set up in someone's living room.

I'm going to post another important dream from the past later since these are so short

The only common theme in these dreams was my best friend. Not complaining though, she lives several states away so it's always nice to hang out with her, even if she is just a dc Other than that, there's not a whole lot to say about these dreams.

Dream One: I'm in a blimp with my husband and son. The captain says we're making good time. My family decide to go up some stairs to a viewing platform and look out at the world below us. When we reach the top, there's some sort of turbulence. We start to go back down the stairs to our seat, but the whole thing is shaking and kicking, like it's being bumped or tossed about. We all drop to our knees on the stairs, but my little boy is three steps down from me because he was taking off quickly without holding my hand (as usual, he never sticks close by like he should, ha ha). The Blimp heaves forwards, and the steps are tilted back so the bottom of the stairs is higher than the top of the stairs. I'm so scared my little boy is going to fall off the steps and I won't be able to catch him. I wake myself up when I start to reach out for him and smack my hand on the wall, lol.

Dream Two (Fragment): I'm in the house I used to live in years ago. I feel like I'm a business owner of some sort. I've signed a contract with a man who is supposed to be building something for me, and the contracts says he can use one of my employees to help him and he temporarily becomes their boss. I don't specify what employe he can take though, and he takes my best friend A. I'm mad at first because she's my best employe and I need her organizational and office skills because I lack those skills myself and I trust her with my paper work. But He reminds me of the contract and I have no choice. Then Later I find her in her underwear in the garage. I'm flipping out, she looks upset. The guy had taken her to the garage, and told her to strip that he was going to have a Dr examine her before she could work for him because if she got hurt doing manual labor he could be sued. The guy then walked out and left here there. Thinking a dr would be in she had done as requested, but no one had shown up for hours, she was like an abandoned puppy. I was so mad, I started yelling at the man and telling him to take his stupid contract and shove it where the sun don't shine. He won't treat my best friend like that! I feel guilty for even making the contract in the first place, I didn't know this would happen, but I still feel like it's my fault.

Dream Three: I'm the owner of a grocery store. Or maybe I'm opening one? I'm renovating the building, and making it two floors instead of just one. I'm doing inventory when I feel like I should turn around. A blond guy with short hair is standing there. He smiles crookedly but good naturally at me. He seems familiar, so my dream self decides he's the guy who fixed my shower the other day and must be here to install the escalators. He goes along with what I tell him, and I keep thinking to myself, "Damn, he's so cute!" I'm really busy with my inventory though, so I take him to one of the escalators and tell him here it is, I will bring someone to help him out and answer any questions he has. I go a few aisles up, and i find my best friend A. This time she's in a wheel chair, but in the dream it seems normal? I tell her the guy has shown up, and that he's gorgeous! I ask her if she'll supervise him for me and answer any questions he has. She agrees to, and I feel a bit jealous. I wish we could both stand there and watch him work! lol I push her chair to the escalator, and the installation guy is on the floor drilling something into the floor. I can't help admiring his rear A takes a deep breath like she didn't expect him to be that cute (I tend to like guys with long dark hair, like Johnny Depp, lol. Blondes are rarely my thing... K being one of the very few exceptions, and now I guess this DC can add himself to my short list of hot blond DCs. A likes the cute, boyish men like Heath Ledger, Elijah Wood and Daniel Radcliff. Our tastes don't match well at all, ha ha) Anyways, she introduces herself, and he nods at her and looks up at me. I tell him I have to finish my inventory, and I'll be back to check on progress later. I go back to an aisle of canned goods, and do some boring inventory. After a little bit, I go back to check on them. A is on the floor now, the wheel chair is gone. She's looking so lady like and sophisticated despite sitting on the floor. As usual, I'm blown away by how she can look girly and flirty even in the most ungirly places, ha ha. She's tucking some hair behind her ear and talking and giggling as if she's really interested in what the escalator guy is doing and thinks he's so fun and entertaining. I think Damn, she's fast! I never had a chance, but in the dream I feel like she's more in the position of accepting hot guys attention than I am. Like she's single and I'm not I guess. The guy looks up and smiles at me, my heart practically melts. I catch myself and clear my throat like I have something important to say. All I end up saying though is, "I'm just making sure you guys are getting along ok and don't need anything." HG (lets just call him hot guy for the rest of this, lol) says everything is going wonderfully and he'll be done in no time, and thanks me for having one of my employees answer his questions. I smile, but before I can say anything A chimes in that she's having so much fun talking to him and then goes on to say something to both of us about how she'd like to hang out with him if she got off work early. Kind of a hint to me to let her go, and a hint to him that she's interested I guess. He shakes his head, looks at her softly and says, "That would be great, but I'm not really ready for another..." then as he says, "Relationship" he's turning his head towards me, and the looking me right in the eyes he says, "yet." I can feel my cheeks getting hot and I say, "Oh my cheese! I forgot!" and turn around and act like I had forgotten to do something important and I really had to do it right away. I can hear him asking quizzically "Oh my CHEESE?" and A goes into telling him the story of how we were up really late years and years ago chatting on AIM and stopped making any coherent sense in our conversation and someone said OMC instead of OMG, and then the other decided the C must stand for cheese, and thus our inside joke, "Oh My Cheese!" was born. I only hear half of this story though because I'm all fluttery and practically jumping down the aisle to get away from the situation. I don't handle flirting well, ha ha. I do some more inventory, then I hear a noise outside. So I get up and start to walk out the front door of the store. The parking lot is still just a big square of dirt, and there's an odd oak tree towering in the center of it like it belongs there. There's a white truck parked in the shade of the tree, and HG is bending over the bed of the truck grabbing some more tools. I can't help checking him out again. He straightens up, and turns around. He looks at me, and smiles, then drops whatever he had back into his truck and walks purposely my way. I'm standing in the door way, and he gets only a foot or so away, almost creepily close, but I'm not bothered because I'm so attracted to him and he still feels so familiar. I remember his right arm being up, either like he was propping himself on my doorway or like he had put it behind his head. He asks me if I'd like to go somewhere with him, but I get flustered again, and I tell him I'm sorry I've got work to do, and duck back inside. I can hear him sigh heavily like he's annoyed that I keep blowing him off. I find A, and ask her if she'll come with me for a minute, and she agrees because she says HG is getting some tools anyways. We end up at a gas station that around here we call "The Country Market" (but I think every small town in this area has a "Country Market" and none of them are actually affiliated with one another, lol) and then there's snow on the ground. Then this dude who looks like Ray Williams Johnson wants to race sleds. A and I get in a sled and pass him easily. He gets up and curses a bunch, then I wake up. Just a quick side note, the HG character has me pretty confused. I got the same "I need to turn around, there's something very important and familiar here" feeling I get when K comes into my dreams... but where as K's presence tends to make me feel like I'm tingling along the back of my neck and down my back, this HG only made me feel that tingly feeling around my mid back. I'm sure this sounds crazy, tingling? But every one in real life has a different tingle pattern, and normal DCs just don't for whatever reason. It's like they're empty of tingles, ha ha. I'm curious if this DC is of the same variety of K, or even if it could be K with a hair cut and I just only noticed the back tingling and not the neck tingling because I was flustered. I probably won't know unless I either see this DC again, or see K looking like normal in a dream again, lol.

Dream Four (Fragment): I'm on a wooden trailer being pulled by horses. It's a mobile stage though. A and I are sitting below the actual stage platform. A is holding a white and grey cat, maybe it's her cat mittens? There's a man in a magicians outfit, complete with cape. It's the most beautiful color black cloth I've ever seen. It's obviously black, but it shimmers in different colors like mother of pearl or opal... only it's cloth. The guy has long dark hair, and even a mustache. He's got a black dog with him. A is afraid his dog is going to attack her cat, but the man assures us his dog is well behaved. He climbs on the stage platform with his dog and starts to pull something out of his hat. I wake up.

Dream Five (Fragment): My husband and I are looking for some place. We're trying to remember the number to call for information on a cell phone. Like 411 or something, only my husband swears in the dream it's 919. I tell him we should just google it since our phones have internet and google is free.

I didn't nap yesterday, and I took Benedryl before bed to ensure I slept. I also tried a couple of new things. I told myself several times during the day, "I am the dreamer, I have control of my dreams." as DreamProfesser had suggested. I also added a new line to my "nightly plan" that I'm working on. The first line read "I will be lucid tonight. When I am lucid I will..." and then went on to my plans to try to meet up with K this time and ask him some of the questions I've been wanting to ask. It all sort of worked, I was lucid twice! But, they were the short early dreams that never last more than a moment anyways. By the time the longer dreams came around, I was already exhausted from being lucid during the early ones, and I had no success, lol.

Dream One: I'm floating in the air above some Victorian style houses. It's night time, and snowing. I am repeating to myself, "I am the dreamer, I have control of my dreams. I will be lucid tonight." then I realize, wait a minute... is this a dream?! And it was I have enough time to right myself as I was floating on my back, and look around to really admire the scenery. I notice the houses have elongated windows that are glowing yellow, but the light is steady like a light bulb not flickering like a candle which is what I'd have expected in a Victorian house. Then I wake up because my daughter's having a nightmare and crying out in her sleep.

Dream Two (Fragment): I'm not sure about much with this one. all I can remember of it was stopping in the dream and saying, "This is a dream!" then I woke up instantly. First time getting lucid has actually woken me up, lol. I was so sleepy I rolled over to try and DEILD and ended up forgetting pretty much everything about the dream :/ lol

Dream Three: This one makes absolutely no sense, even to me and I dreamed it! It starts out I'm getting out of a broken down suv, I'm in a snowy area. There are zombies coming up this snowy hill, and I panic because my ride is broken. Then I turn to my right and see a giant door in the mountain, like Moria(?) in Lord of the Rings. There's a woman signaling me to come inside and hurry, before the zombies can get me! I make it inside. I find out this room is some sort of zombie survival test. We have to do something to prepare ourselves to move onto the next level. I don't remember what we do, but I remember this room looks like a living room. The zombies are busting down the door, so we move on to the next level. The next level looks like a kitchen! I'm about to close the door between levels when the "zombies" break through and they're not zombies at all! They're little kids, like preschool/kindergarten sized kids. I decide we can't run from them, we have to take care of them. The girl tells me that I can't take care of them, it's a test. I have to act like they're zombies, and ignore them while we fortify ourselves. I ignore her and try to tell the kids to do something. It soon becomes apparent that the kids are little hellions! They bite me and bad mouth me, and I finally give up. I move on to the next level shutting the door behind me. This kitchen level has candy sitting on the shelf, and I'm hungry, so I grab a piece. My brother is suddenly there, and he steals the bag of candy from me. That's cool, I got a piece so I don't need the whole bag. I ask him about his girl friend, and he tells me he doesn't know, he doesn't love her anymore. I'm in complete shock because they make such a great couple and I would love to have her as a sister, ha ha. Then I walk to the table and there's a baby basket on the table. The kind like they show moses floating down the river in on the history channel when they do those bible history shows. It's light brown, and lines with a white liner, but it's filled with blood! Gross! My brother morphs into his girlfriend (hows that not make me lucid? lol) and she/he sniffs the basket of blood and tell me to smell it! I'm like, "no thanks!" But it ends up getting bumped and some of the blood spills on the table and we have to clean it up. Then we notice there's a window between the kitchen level and living room level, and the "zombies" (kids) are crawling through it! We run to the next level. But instead of ending up in the next level, I'm in a commercial for some gold colored minivan. There are windows all around with leafy golden vines etched in them, and this gold minivan is sitting on one of those spinning car platforms. There's a beautiful middle aged woman talking about the car. She's down dark skin, and she's standing in front of this golden light that makes it look like she is glowing gold. The light makes her black hair look like it's made of gold on the tips. She looked like someone had softly dusted her outline with gold. I'm not sure how to describe how awesome she looked, just that I was standing there in a awe for a bit just admiring this effect the light was creating. Then this portly white man walks up with all this ugly gaudy jewelry and purple robes like he was some sort of rich guy. He starts saying he hates the mini van, but he wants this glass and the doors. He severely annoys me, so I leave and find myself in a cubicle sort of area. That's weird, and boring. I leave that room, and I'm back in the Zombie Kitchen. Or rather in a hallway that didn't exist before, looking INTO the kitchen. There's also a small room to the side where the "zombie" children are in a class now, learning like normal preschool/kindergarteners would be. The teachers holding up a book, it all looks so normal now. Then everything flashes, and it's like I'm watching tv. The screen zooms out, and there are creepily life like Skylanders on top of a water fall with some humans. The narrator is saying they're the last hope against the zombie invasion. Then the dream cuts to a parking lot. My mom, Grandma, son and I are all about to get in the car.. only instead of a car it's my mom's tiny truck. There's only 3 seats. Someone has to ride in the back, and it's going to be me because Grandma's too old to climb up there, my son's too young, and my mom has to drive because I can't drive a stick shift. I'm scared mom will wreck and I'll get crushed. I wake up, thankfully, lol.

Dream Four: This one still has me feeling a creeper, lol. It starts off with my mom and grandma and I looking for a hotel. We end up going on a toll road, but the toll booths are closed. I feel like I'm going to get a ticket because I didn't stop, but the booths were closed so I don't. We find the hotel, and it's green, but there is a prettier rainbow colored one I'd almost rather go to, but our reservations are for the green one. Inside the hotel though, it's my husband, my two kids and me, as well as some other random little boy. Then my uncle and his wife and their two sons are there too. I'm watching the little kids play in the hall way, but then they start jumping and running and screaming and I tell them that if they don't quiet down they will kick us out of the hotel. The kids whine about this, but stop. Then I get a phone call in our room. I answer it, and it's the front desk man telling me that he has to report on all guests who stay in his hotel. I'm like, "Ok? it's just us and our kids, and we've done nothing wrong?" Then he tells me that one of my four kids is wanted by the government and they are on their way to pick him up because of his report. I hang up and I'm flipping out, apparently I don't realize I only have 2 kids, ha ha. It turns out, my fourth kid is a teenager?! and we've taken him in because he had no where else to go, but he's wanted on hacking charges. I walk out into the hallway where my husband is talking to a man in military uniform and our "son" is standing there with him. I ask the military man if we can't just pay for the damages he caused, and the military man says no, that he will have to work off his debt. I try pulling the, "but he's just a minor!" card, but then the kid tells me he turned 18 the month before. I'm mad, and I stomp my foot and tell the man he is not taking one of my kids away! Then I hug my "son" and tell him I am so, so, so sorry that we choose this hotel to stay at. That if I had known this would happen I would have never come there. He seems really apathetic, and it feels pretty awkward because my "son" is taller than me, so I just walk out of the hall and leave it to my husband to handle. I'm a mess, blubbering like a baby, lol. I walk outside, but feel like I'm doing no good and restless. I walk back inside and fuss at the desk man (who funny enough looks like George Lopez). "My son's getting taken away because of you! By a man in the military no less! What if they send him to war? What if he dies because you turned him in?! I am never staying in your crappy hotel again!" I walk back inside, and my aunt is talking loudly to someone about how she "didn't know we'd taken in a criminal, and if she had she'd have never come on this trip with us! How dangerous! Her kids could have been killed!" I snap and tell her that he isn't a murdered, he just got mixed up in some hacking crap a few years back and he didn't realize he was doing any wrong until the wrong was done. Then I equate it to downloading illegally or something. Then a cousin from a different side of the family starts telling me that no one is buying my sad mother act, that everyone knows I'm secretly in love with that guy and that's the reason we took him in and acted like he was our kid. Then I'm still bawling and go outside again, but this time so does our "son". I try to get my space by walking away behind the building but he follows me. He tells me quickly behind the building that he knows I didn't mean to get him caught and that everything's going to be ok, to just not worry, but I'm really upset. I realize I'm mostly feeling guilty because if I had chosen to stay at the rainbow hotel this would have never happened. I walk back around to the front of the building remembering what my cousin had just accused me of, and not wanting to be in a position that might make that look true. My husband pulls up in a white car and tells us we need to go home to get the kids things so he can take them with him to the military. Then my husband starts telling me in the car that the military has found several of the "kids" teeth, and they were dated and he's a lot older than he's trying to play off. He says the kid is almost 26, making him older than me, and that they've also found some of his bones as well as bones of missing persons (basically, dream logic translated this to implying that when he'd break a bone or something he'd cut someone else's limb off and replaces his own with it because it'd heal faster that way?) I tell my husband there's no way he'd do that, he may have gotten mixed in with a bad crowd, but he wasn't a bad person. My husband accuses me of being too gullible. I turn and look back at the "son" who tells me not to worry about it, everything will work out but doesn't say anything about those accusations. We get out of the car, and we're at a house with a pool! We have to climb through the pool to get into the house though (weird! lol) and I turn to the guy who's been deceiving us this whole time, and I tell him to make sure he survives, and not to forget he was supposed to go to college, get a good job, and build a mcmansion (yes, I called it McMansion, lmao) for the whole family to live in. He smiles and says Yeah. Then my real kids wake me up! I look back at the dream and feel pretty gross, lol.

I managed to fall asleep again, probably around 9, and my kids woke up around 10:30. It was enough sleep to have a couple dream fragments and leave me feeling even more tired than when I went back to sleep, if that makes any sense. Here goes:

Dream One (Fragment): I'm at a Japanese shrine. Either the shrines name was Mikage, or the character named Mikage from the Manga I was reading when I was trying to fall asleep earlier was in it. I'm pretty sure it was the character Mikage, because I remember someone with white hair being in the dream though I don't remember the roles either of us played.

Dream Two (Fragment): I was watching a portly yet muscular bearded man was singing country music in a bar.

Dream Three (Fragment): Also set in a Japanese style building. There was a girl and a guy, they were in older more traditional Japanese clothing. The girl wanted the guy to stay with her, she loves hm and didn't want him to go. He seemed a bit cold, he told her he wouldn't stay and that she needed to get off him (she was holding onto his shirt trying to pull him back inside) Once he was outside into the darkness however he seemed very sad to leave her, and he didn't go home as he claimed he was going. Instead, he climbed a tree nearby where he could watch her house and protect her. Then my view shifted to inside the house, where the girl was crying on the floor. Suddenly there was a commotion outside, and my view switches back to the guy, and he's in a fight with something. He knocks whatever(whoever?) it is out cold, and sends them flying through the front door of the girls house. Then he quickly runs off before she can see who saved her. I hear someone say, "The princess is staying in that house." as I was woken up.

Well, the Manga I read at least incubated good dreams even if it didn't serve the intended purpose of quieting my mind and putting me to sleep, lol. I was reading Kamisama Kiss is anyone was wondering. I was hoping shojo manga would give me happy romantic dreams. The last dream sort of hits that mark, except it was in third person

Dream One (Fragment): There was some guy that I some how thought was from here was attacking me and trying to take something from me. It confused me because everyone I've ever talked to on here has been really nice. I actually woke myself up thinking, "This is wrong, people on Dream Views aren't mean!"

Dream Two (Fragment): The same guy shows up again. This time he's really nice though. He tells me that he's going to help me and be my dream guide. I don't think anyone here would seriously be interested in trying to come into my dreams, they're pretty boring most of the time, lol. I was online just before bed though reading dream journal entries and no doubt that's what did it! Still, if anyone happened to be attacking a chic last night, then did a 180 and offered to be her dream guide, it might have been me, ha ha.

Dream Three: I'm taking off my wedding ring. I've just gotten a letter that states I am officially divorced. My husband is next to me, and he seems sad, but also proud. It turns out we've decided to divorce, not because we dislike each other or anything, but so that I can fulfill some guy with cancer's last wish. He wants to marry me and spend his last couple months with me by his side. I feel guilty at first because I know I really don't feel the same way about the cancer guy as he feels about me, but the smile on his face when I'm around reminds me that the important part is that he dies happy. If he smiles like that every time he sees me, I can totally live with this for a few months. It makes me happy knowing I'm making him so happy. There's a party, and I "propose" to him. The ring gets dropped, but it's all good, and he is so happy he's got tears running down his face.

Dream Four: I'm sitting at a counter in a kitchen. I'm really short, then somehow I know I'm only 5 or 6 year old. There are two men in the room watching tv. One is an ex boyfriend who was an alcoholic and a big time cheater. The other guy looks familiar, like a guy we walked past in town sometime or someone I've seen on facebook or something. There's a "ding dong" sound, and I realize this kitchen is part of a home with a business office in the front. The ex boyfriend, walks past me into the office that is behind me. I jump down off the stool and peek around the corner. There's a pretty girl who needs some sort of help with something. Her car maybe because he was a mechanic when I dated him? He comes into the kitchen and tells his friend to come along. Apparently he's planing on doing the chic while his buddy fixes whatever is wrong. The friend motions to me and asks if it's really ok to leave me home alone. The ex says I'll be fine, then tells me to go upstairs and go to bed like a good girl. I'm scared, but I do just what I'm told because I'd rather be hiding under the covers than in the dark kitchen alone with no where to hide. A short time passes, and then I hear a sound like maybe a helicopter. An old man walks into the house and I see him walking into my room. He seems surprised to see me there, and I think I'm going to be in trouble, but then I notice there's a red orange glow behind him. The house is on fire! He is freaking out now that he has to get me out of there so the fire doesn't hurt me (and now that I'm awake I wonder if he thought the house was empty and started the fire himself, for suicide or something) We can't get out, the fire is on the stairs. There's a window, and I climb out it, but I can't jump, it's too far! I'm trying to tell the old man to climb down because he's tall enough to reach the hand holds, but he doesn't want to. Suddenly I see dozens of giant rats in the street climbing up the wall. It's freaking me out at first, but then I see that the look like the pet rats my brother and I had as kids. They reach the window, and link tails and arms and wrap around the old man, then they act as a rope and lower him out of the building. I think I'm going to jump out into his arms then, but he runs off instead leaving me behind. The rats are starting to burn and catch fire, so they leave. I'm alone, but then a boy in chainmaille and red tunic who looks a lot like Russel Brand (definitely a kid in the dream though) is standing there telling me to jump and he'll catch me. I feel like he's let me down somehow in the past and I don't trust him. I'm afraid he'll drop me or hurt me or leave me or something. I'm not sure what I'm afraid of, just that I am. He promises he'll take care of me, he promises I'll be safe and that I need to jump or I could die. Finally, I do jump. He catches me, and sets me on the ground. I curl up in the fetal position and Notice I have a teddy bear in my arms. I drift out in third person and am looking at my body... but that little girl looks nothing like me as a kid after all. I wonder who I was, then I wake up. I can point to why I dreamed I was a child in this one. Yesterday evening while at Walmart with my husband and kids, a lady said to me "You look like a baby yourself, and those two babies are yours?!" I gave her the same response I give everyone, "Believe it or not, I'm actually 25, and yes, those are my children." She then tells me that I am aging really well, and told my husband he "got himself one that would never look old." No doubt that's why I dreamed I was my oldest kids age.

Well, I kind of screwed myself over last night as far as recall goes. I got the kids to bed early and all, but then ended up staying up until 2 am playing that Hakuoki game... I played all the way to the end, and couldn't help tearing up because it was so sweet but so sad! Then of course I had to wait for my brain to settle down before I could fall asleep, and my kids woke up early because they had gotten a good 4 hours head start on sleeping. I usually get around 10 hrs of sleep, last night I got maybe 6? I still have a full dream, and some fragments though so here goes

Dream One: I'm flying through the air with someone. I don't know if I was flying in a plane or just like dream flying myself. We're following what we're calling a plane but looks more like a spaceship (of the nasa variety, not the alien variety) The side parts of the space ship fall off (I know they're supposed to, they're like the boosters to help it out of the atmosphere in real life. Anyways, those parts fall off, and they start spiraling out of control like some kind of missiles. Then, the space ship turns and starts heading towards an airport for a landing. Suddenly I'm worried that those boosters are going to hurt someone, so me and the guy (I'm pretty sure the person with me was male all night, but my memory is fuzzy.) make a big lazy circle, then head down towards the airport to warn everyone about the space ships broken boosters. But, before we can get there, the boosters crash into the building and there's a big explosion. We're blown back by the blast, and then we decide to just go home and check on my family since there's nothing we can do now for the people we wanted to warn. When we get home, my grandma is getting ready for some sort of appointment, and she told us we had a family get together to attend. The person with me and myself go to the family get together. I remember there being snowmen decorations there. The next thing I know, I'm playing Hokuoki and I'm choosing the path I completed last night, but instead of getting a happily ever after ending I get a "They never saw each other again" ending. The first part of the dream was easy to remember because flying was awesome, the end of the dream, no so cool and I barely remember. Thank goodness for my notes!

Dream Two: I'm trying to get somewhere, but I have to follow this stone path that is up high in the air, like on top of aqueducts or something. I reach a point where I can see a city, but the bridge in front of me is made of what I can only describe as ghost stones. You can see them, but you can't touch them and I would fall right through if I tried to walk over them. There's someone with me, maybe the same person from the first dream, I don't know because the dreams were both so hazy. Some guy flies around and then lands beside me. He's cocky and stuck up, but he knows how to fix the bridge. He tells me he'll repair it for me, but he wants something in return but I can't remember what it is now. The person with me doesn't think it's worth it and tells me not to accept his offer, that we will figure something else out. I really need to get on the other side though, and I trust this arrogant guy for some reason, and I agree. He flies up into the air, the quickly flies through the ghost stones, and they glow green for a moment then they solidify. I start across the bridge, and wake up.

Dream Three (Fragment): I'm in a cave like place, and there's a cavern that's blocked off by iron bars like a dungeon cell. There's someone inside the cell, and I want to rescue him. In fact, I'm down right desperate to rescue him. He keeps telling me to go back, escape before I'm caught, and he's nearly in tears trying to get me to leave him, but I refuse. That's all I can really remember. I *THINK* I rescued him, but I don't remember how. I'm pretty sure I remember flying with him around the cave at some point, but maybe I'm just getting the first dream mixed up with this one, lol.

Last night we all went to bed about 2 hours earlier than usual because the kids were cranky. It ended up working out fairly well for me because I could recall 5 dreams and fragments, that's the most I've had in a couple weeks at least. Definitely going to make the family go to bed earlier again (and by earlier, I mean 10 not midnight, ha ha. So still not too early!) The only downside was I woke up after about 8 hours of sleep and am still super tired. I usually need 10 hours of sleep to feel fully rested. This just means a nap might be in order for later on in the day!

Dream One: I'm at the house we lived in 7 years ago. It's night time, and storming something fierce. There's no thunder or lightening, just a torrential rain and wind. I'm a bit scared, but it passes quickly (storm season is coming and I'm worried because we're the southeast that got hit bad last year.) I look out the screen door and notice my mom and a bunch of kids standing in the yard. It looks like there's snow on the ground. I walk out across the yard to talk to my mom, and she asks me to take the kids inside. I think they're her kindergarten class? (She was an assistant teacher back when we lived there) I'm on my way inside with the class lined up behind me. I look up at the sky, and notice the moon looks beautiful but like an anime moon not a real moon. I *might* have seen a character from the vn I've been playing standing in front of the house, I keep thinking I did but can't remember for sure as I woke up as soon as I looked back down towards the house.

Dream Two (Fragment): I dreamed I was in the visual novel I'm playing, Hakuoki ( Hakuoki: Demon of the Fleeting Blossom ~ Welcome to Kyoto ). I was in one of the old Japanese buildings, and I was running from someone. I ran past one of the Shinsengumi (Heisuke?) and he called out to me, but I ignored him, I was trying to get away from something, and didn't want to stop.

Dream Three: I'm at my dads family's lake house. I'm walking up the hill towards the cabin, and I notice my neighbor and his family are there. I'm under the impression that my husband invited them, but I felt unhappy about it because this was my family's place, not his. When I reach the cabin, my aunt and uncle's suv pulls up, and they get out. My aunt wants to know who those people are, and I try to explain it's the neighbors and that we're about to leave. My family doesn't get upset about it, and says to stay as long as we want, they just wanted to be sure it wasn't someone uninvited crashing our lake house again. I go inside, and there are some binders with pictures of Street Fighter characters on it. I ask what it is, and some guy, who's a friend of my cousin's I guess, tells me it's a game then proceeds to tell me the name and rules, but I'm not really paying much attention. I tell him that's cool, and then leave. Somehow I end up at home, on the computer, and I've got a facebook friendship request. It's my cousin's friend and his screen name is something like Eniji(random numbers here) and I think it's funny he has a Japanese screen name. He tells me my cousin said we were into Anime, and he's like to talk and hang out with my husband and I because he needs anime buddies to go to cons with.

Dream Four: There's a building, that's old off white plaster. The plaster is chipping off in several places. It's kind of weird the way the front of the building is, because the building is like a big rectangle, but there's an inset porch or entrance or whatever made of the same plaster before you actually get to the front doors. There's a sign that says the building is closed for renovations. I walk away, but then I'm walking back to the building again. Dream logic This time the off white plaster has been painted Carolina blue and there's a dark blue line about 6 inches thick going all around the entrance about 6 feet up. It looks... odd, to say the least! There are lots of flyers hanging on the walls, and I'm excited thinking it's open now! And suddenly I know it's a museum, and it's in another country! (Probably influenced by the fact my husband was watching Hetalia last night and I couldn't help over hearing bits of it) There's an old man whom I guess is the curator standing at the door, telling me I can't go inside because renovations aren't complete yet. I tell him I came all the way from America, can't I just have a peek? I've come twice and they're always closed! He refuses, but asks me what part of America I'm from. I tell him from the Carolinas, but he seems confused about where that is so I just give up and turn around. I'm walking away and see a woman who also wants to visit this museum. I tell her it's closed, but she goes to try and persuade the curator anyways. She probably would because she was thin, blond, and had big boobs. I woke up before I found out though!

Dream Five: I'm texting my best friend A on the phone. She's telling me she can't chat much tonight because she has some sort of late meeting at work. I tell her that's ok, we're going to help someone with their hotel. I don't know anyone who works at a hotel, lol. Turns out, this hotel is more like the Japanese inn in "Hanasaku Iroha" ( Hanasaku Iroha Full episodes streaming online for free ) and I'm taking food to customers in their rooms. Someone says my uniform is "Seastar clothing" and I notice then that it does look a bit like a star fish.The apron is cut so that there's a star point on each arm, one at each leg, and the final point was a hoodie that could be worn on my head. It looked as ridiculous as it sounds. I woke up then because my son was waking up.

Dream One (fragment): I woke from this dream after only being in bed about an hour and a half, so I'm surprised I remembered anything at all. I'm standing outside the headquarters from this Hakuoki game I've been reading. I'm looking at myself in third person though. K is there, and he's got the white hair and red eyes of the fury creatures that the game characters become (they're like vampires, kind of) and he's wearing the shinsengumi blues. He's bending slightly, with one hand on the hilt of his sword and the other under my chin, kissing me softly.

Dream Two: I'm sitting at the computer playing the Sims 3. I'm trying to build a lot, but it keeps going wrong. For some reason there's a big crater in the middle of the lot, and I can't get it back to level. The grid is also screwing up, and placing random grid squares in mid air at different heights. I know in the dream I'm supposed to go somewhere, but I want to finish this sim house first. My little boy is saying, "Mommy! Lets go!" but the computer is driving me NUTS and I don't want to go until I've defeated it. Suddenly the doorbell rings, and I realize I'm in the house we used to live in years and years ago. I look out the window and see that the person at the front door is my husbands ex-fiance, the girl he was engaged to before we met. (She and I talk on Facebook because we have a lot in common, so it's only a little weird that we'd be hanging out) I grab my phone, realizing my husbands not here yet and he was supposed to be here before she arrived so we could go. I call him, and he says he's leaving now and on his way. I ask him if he remembered to grab out Daughter's Hello Kitty something or another (She has so much Kitty crap, I couldn't even begin to imagine what it was) Then I woke up.

Dream Three: The dream starts off with me being in a house that I somehow know as my own but I've never seen before in my life. My friend is there, and she's telling me that since my husband and I have split, and I have all this empty space, she has a friend who needs a place to stay. I think that if it's a friend of hers, then they're probably easy to get along with and I could use help with my rent, so I agree to take them in as a room mate. When my new room mate arrives, it's actually a guy who's a friend of both my husbands and this friends. At first I think this is going to be really awkward because he's very christian and I'm uh, NOT, lol. But it seems to be working out ok as religion doesn't come up. Then I get this wild notion to go somewhere, and dress up in a mini skirt and tank top and start to head out the door. The room mate then grabbed my arm really tightly and asks me where I'm going. I'm kind of shocked that he's touching me when we barely know each other, and really pissed that he's acting like he has some sort of right to know where I'm going or what I'm doing. I Glare at him and tell him I'm going out and he needs to let go of me. He tells me he's not going to let me leave, I need to stay there with him. I tell him to let go of me again and that I'm an adult and I can go wherever I want and do whatever I want, and if he's going to act like a parent he can get the fuck out. He refuses to let go of me, saying that he couldn't let me go out tramping about. I get really pissed and pull my arm as I kick out at him hoping to throw him off guard. But, he's a lot bigger than me and instead I get thrown off balance and he smacks me in the face. I'm REALLY pissed then, so I do some sort of awesome karate like roundhouse kick to his head and knock him back on to floor. He grabs my foot and trips me. I struggle free and grab the telephone, and call 911. I tell them I don't want to have to cause trouble but I have this crazy room mate that won't let me leave the house and things are getting violent. I briefly wonder if because I kicked him first, I will be the one charged, but at this point I'm actually scared this guys going to crush me and don't care. He starts crying telling me I shouldn't have called the cops, and I'm crying myself because I'm scared and I feel a bit guilty, if I'd never let the guy stay here this never would have happened! I make it outside crying, and my husband shows up, and gives me a hug and asks whats wrong. I tell him what happened, and the cops are showing up arresting his friend and I'm begging my husband to come back, telling him I can't take care of myself without him, all I do is get in trouble by myself (legit fear here, lol. One that rarely works its way into my dreams, but one I actually have in waking life) My husband agrees to come back, but he wants to leave the kids with my mom and grandma until we work things out. I agree, and we go inside the house. Inside, there are suddenly three people (two men, one woman) lounging in the living room. One of the guys, a thin and grungy looking guy nods his head in acknowledgement that we're there and then says to my husband, "Dude, I hear your wife's a bitch!" then starts laughing. I'm pretty sure these are friends of my husbands, who probably know the guy who just went to jail, and I don't want to face them knowing they must hate me, so I run back to the bedroom and lock myself in. I can hear the conversation through the door though, and the guy asking my husband why he puts up with me. I get mad again, and storm back into the living room. I tell them they can hate me all they want, but they're in my house and they won't talk about me like that there! They start snickering, and they tell me they're just giving me a hard time. Then they ask what really happened. I tell them, and then they're still laughing and saying, "Yeah, that sounds like something he'd do! That dude's crazy. Good for you, your not so bad!" I feel like things have been smoothed over now, but I'm so tired, I just want to go to bed. My husband and I start to go back to the bedroom again, but then out the bedroom window I see an old building in the back yard with a hole in the stone walls and desks inside. I go outside to investigate. As I look inside I see the desks look old and abandoned. I turn to my husband who followed me out and say, "Doesn't this look like something out of that anime Another?" My husband agrees. Then there's some noise from inside, and I almost scream before I realize it's my husbands friend doing the worm on the floor in the abandoned classroom. I think that's silly, and then wake up!

My kids just don't seem to be getting better So Sleep has been mostly non existent and dreams short and murky if apparent at all, but here's my catching up for the week:

4/4/12-

Dream One: An assassins creed dream. There were lots of bubbles, and I was on a stealth assassination mission on a tower. I wasn't alone, there was someone else helping me, maybe the game was multiplayer in the dream?

Dream Two: I'm following some one, then I see some police step out. I notice they look like German soldiers from WW II... one looks like Hitler and hands me a business card. The card is for some dating service. I think it's funny, Hitlers trying to help people hook up. An Asian dude walks by with huge headphones on, then looks over his shoulder at a huge billboard that takes up the whole wall of a big city building.

Dream Three: Another Assassins Creed dream. I'm scaling walls.

4/5/12-

I'm at some sort of school dance type function. My old drama teacher is there, as are a couple other teachers from high school. I see a friend I had a crush on back in the day, but he looks a lot different. His hair is darker, and long... while I know his hair these days IS long, it's red not brown like in the dream. I stare at him for a moment not recognizing him, then realize who he is, and talk to him for a moment. I remember feeling in the dream like I was by myself, and I wanted to be near people I knew because I hate being alone and awkward. Funny thing is, I found out later that day via Facebook that it was that guys birthday. I haven't spoken to him in years (I graduated like 7 years ago, and he left school a couple years before me) I'm not even subscribed to his news feed so I never see any news about him, so it was a neat coincidence

4/6/12-

Dream One Notes: Forum W/ White light room, Snow? Aunt (can't remember these now )

Dream Two notes: Security check, Balls (Still can't remember)

Dream Three: I was in a world with Vampires and werewolves (just called them Weres, so perhaps there were other animal shape shifters as well) someone wanted me to make them a ball room masquerade type mask with red and silver paint. There was a well or a cave or something I was nearby and thinking of going to.

Dream Four: I was at a family dinner. There were broken fences in the back yard. I had a lot of cousins over. I needed to pee, so I went to the bathroom. When I got in the bathroom I discovered that I was wearing some sort of form shaping underwear that covered from my arms to my knees. I couldn't figure out how to take it off, so I tried to sit on the toilet and pee while wearing it. It got really wet and I realize what a bad idea it was. Later in the dream, my grandpa was there. Then I went home.

Dream Five: My brothers pet snake Pete was ten times it's normal size, and I was baby sitting. It got lose and was slithering through the house. Everytime I'd see it's tail and start to follow it to catch it, the tail would disappear into a hole in the wall and I'd be looking for it again. I remember searching the car and the bathroom.

4/7/12-

Dream One: I'm in a building, maybe and office or hotel building. I'm either looking out a window or standing on the ledge about to scale the wall. There's a guy with me, I think blonde or brunette, and he's sad because he wants me to stay but I have to go.

Dream Two: I'm packing to visit my best friend. I'm talking to her on the phone as I pack and we are so excited!

Dream Three: I'm in the backyard and the ground looks like it's moving. At first I think it's worms coming out of the ground after rain, but then I realize there are MILLIONS of tiny six to ten inch snakes crawling all over the yard. I try to kill then by cutting their heads off with a shovel, but there are too many. I tell my husband to get the lawn mower and run them over, but he swear it wont work and not to worry about them. I'm so sure they're poisonous snakes and we need to kill them before they're big enough to bite.

6/8/12-

Dream One: My cousins daughter and her daddy are delivering Skylanders to our house. It's dark, and the daughter is afraid to walk in the grass because she thinks she will step on a snake.

Dream Two: I'm on a bus, on some sort of trip but it's dark. I feel like I'm not a student, but not a teacher either. Perhaps a parent helper or something, though I don't see my kids on the bus. We're in my town, and I tell the bus driver I'm from the area and that if she gets lost I can help her find her way. Time skips or my memory is missing, but we end up in a room with a door and a window to another room, like the receptionist at a doctors office would sit behind. There's a lady we're waiting on behind the counter to open a door for us. I see a tall guy with blonde hair and a long face looking at me. I wonder for a moment why he's staring at me, because he's being very obvious and stalker like. I think for a moment that maybe he's K because K has blond hair, but his face doesn't look like K's, and he's taller and more bean poleish than K. I ask him anyways why he's looking at me. I don't remember the reply, I think it was that I looked familure or something. I ask him if he is K, and he says Yes. I tilt my head and shake it, No, he's not K. I tell him he's lying, he doesn't feel like K. Then I feel like my attention is being jerked to my left. I look, and there's K! K starts to talk to me, and coyly asks me if I've been looking for him. I think he asks if I missed him (it's been a while since I've seen K for sure) and of course I do, but I can't remember how I reply because I feel cocky like I'm flirting by playing hard to get. He tells me he's in a band, and asks me if that makes me want to date him and I think he grabbed me around the waist and put his fore head against the side of mine so he's talking right into my ear. I pulled away teasingly, and told him I didn't much care for band members, but if he really liked me I guess I could give him a shot. I look away at the end though, acting like I wasn't so interested after all. Suddenly a really short guy dressed like some sort of gangster want to be (complete with the gold bling necklaces and baggy clothes and silly hat!) jumps up in front of me, and he's shorter than me even (I'm 5 ft, so that's SHORT!) and says, "I really like you! Would you give me a shot?" I'm playing hard to get, so I tell him sure, then look at K to see if he's jealous. He just smiles like he find the whole thing hilarious. I'm pretty disheartened by his response, but when I turn back to the guy I agreed to give a shot He's suddenly a little kid my sons age (no wonder he's short!) and I think it's hilarious and adorable because he's acting just like my son does when there's a teenage girl around and I'm like I'll just humor this little kid for a few minutes and hold his hand and walk with him to where ever we're supposed to go then break it to him gently that I'm way too old for him. We walk through the door, and we're suddenly outside. It's still dark, but the sky up the road is glowing red as if there is a bright red light illuminating the sky. The road is blocked off, and there are some emergency vehicles. Someone's saying there's an airborne chemical in that area that is burning people and they are trying to keep people away and evacuate the unaffected people. I see a girl who reminds me of a Hawaiian friend of my husbands. The dream goes into third person, and I'm watching her go home. There's a little girl there, and she's upset. Apparently the older sister brought some sort of chemical home from work, and the little girl dropped it on the floor and it spilled. She scooped it back into the container, but it had dirt mixed in with it. The dirt made the chemical change, and when the sister got to work the chemical became the air borne chemical that's burning peoples faces. The older sister is worried the mistake will be tracked back to her and she'll get in trouble. The little sister keeps messing with things that belong to the big sister, and she snaps that it's the little girls fault. The little girl gets something black on her hands, and the big sister gets worried that it's the chemical and it might burn the little girl. She wipes the child's hands off and starts crying, then I wake up.

We were up way too late last night because of the midnight release of the Star Wars Xbox (my kid <3 Star Wars and had been asking for that thing since it started showing up on xbox advertisements a year ago) so all I have are two fragments

Fragment One: I'm on top of one of the view points in Assassins Creed. I'm standing on the wooden platform with my arms held wide just absorbing the feeling of being on top of the world, the wind whipping my face and just pure awesomeness.

Fragment Two: I'm on a battlefield of some sort, I think Medieval. I'm sitting on the ground with a small table (possibly a chess board) in front of me and there's a man across from me. He says, "They think we've given them the battle, but this battle is ours now." I'm confident that he's correct, we have some sort of plan in place that ensures our victory while completely blindsiding the enemy with a false sense of security.

I'm trying something new. Since I've read many dream journals where people dream of Assassins Creed, and I often dream of Video games I decided to give the game another shot (I started it last year, but got stuck in the second memory block because I suck at "core" video games and tend to stick with the easy kids stuff ) I'm playing it at least an hour a day for the last three days, and it's appearing in my dreams as expected. While I'm not completely lucid in the dreams, I definitely feel like I'm not in reality anymore, but rather in another world or virtual reality. Now if only I could remind myself that other world is a dream and I can control it I'll be set. Even if I can't gain lucidity through making myself dream of a certain thing, at least the world is awesome. When I woke from that first Fragment I felt like I was on the top of the world, even though the dream was over!

I thought the night was going to be a bust for dreams as I went to sleep at 2, and woke at 8:30 with not a single dream to recount. But it was raining so Terminix canceled our 11:30 appointment and I got to sleep in after all

Dream One: I need gas, so I pull into a gas station, but all the pumps were pulled out except for one. The one pump that was there had no card reader. So I went inside the gas station and told the attendant (a pleasantly plump middle aged woman with frizzy curly grey hair) that I needed to pay with credit but the car reader was missing from the gas station. The woman told me they were renovating the place and could only accept their own gas cards as a credit payment. I tell her it's actually a debit card, so she's welcome to scan it as Debit I just won't get my visa extras points. The woman then starts telling me that if I don't use my gas card it will ruin my credit. I tell her I don't have a gas card, and she threatens me again saying that if I don't apply for one she will personally ruin my credit. I storm out, pissed off, but pretty sure she can't ruin my credit because I refuse to apply for her gas card.

Dream Two: I'm walking around Sam's club with my husband and I see these really cute Disney bowls for kids. They're shaped like Mickey mouse heads, and have princess and mouse designs in the center of the faces and ears with crowns and characters around the borders. I decide To buy some for the kids to eat their popcorn in when we watch Disney movies. I end up loading like 5 or 6 in the buggy, but for some reason most of them are the different princesses for my daughter and there's only one mickey design for my son. I feel bad about this, but as they only have one boy design I think I'll buy him something else to make up for it. I get a phone call from my grandma that Terminix has shown up, so I go around the next aisle and suddenly I'm in my kitchen. The bug man hands my husband a bill, and my husband goes off saying it's supposed to be cheaper than that because he's an annual member of some program through his work that makes all deliveries and driving fees of services in the south east free. He calls it a "stomping fee" and says we should have free stomping fees through this membership he supposedly has.

Dream Three (Fragment):I'm watching some tv show in the living room, and my kids are there with me as is the little kid next door we babysit after school. The kid next door says, "this crap is weird!" I pay attention to the show wandering whats so weird about it. On the screen a little cartoon tanuki like the one in Inu Boku SS:


(yes, I'm hot linking so that picture may not work, lol)

Is praying to "the Great Goddess, Mother, and Lady Saint" to help him protect the forest where he and his fellow animal friends live. I love the show immediately and tell the neighbors kid that this is the kind of stuff I wish my kids would watch more of! That we don't see much that can even remotely be considered pagan programing here in the bible belt, and this is about as pagan as you can get. The kid then asks me what Pagan is, and I go into some long explanation about how pagans are nature loving people who worship multiple gods goddesses and spirits instead of just one god, then go on about how it was once the most popular religion around the world. Looking back, it was probably mostly a bunch of bs because I'm really not that knowledgeable about it, I just generalize, ha ha.

Dream Four: I'm in the basement, and the neighborhood kids show up. One of them is looking around the basement which in this dream has lots of glass shelves with Anime Figurines on them (this must be my husbands dream basement, lol ) The kid is asking me about them and I'm trying to tell him what each figure is and what show they're from. I end up giving the neighbors kids a tour of our anime collection and trying to show them how cool it can be, while trying to skip past all the not so kid friendly stuff that is in our collection.

Dream Five (fragment): I'm dropping my kids off at the elementary school I went to so they can start school and it looks exactly the same. (That building was torn down 13 years ago, lol) I go into the girls bathroom, and marvel at how it hasn't changed a bit. The stalls are still falling apart and it's still pretty beat up looking.

Dream Six: I'm in a shiny black car, I think it was a Cadillac. There is a man in a black suit driving, and a woman in a black suit with a pony tail in the passenger seat. I'm in the back. We pull up to a grey square building that's very plain and government looking. The woman gets out, she has to go inside to get something. I'm sure in the dream that I am friends with these two people, and I trust them, and apparently they trust me because this is a top secret area or something. I'm looking out the window and I see a boy with blond hair and a girl with long dark brown hair walking towards the building. They look like teenagers, and I notice they're carrying books like they're on their way to class or something. The girl stops, and turns to look right at me. I feel like ice runs down my body, all scared and panicked that I was seen. The girl rushes over to the car and knocks on the window I'm sitting at. The guy in the drivers seat rolls the window down and tells her to get on to class. She says she will, she just wanted to introduce herself to the new student and make her feel welcome. I try to tell her I'm not a student, I'm way too old for school, and she tells me that's nonsense, she could tell as soon as she felt me nearby that I was to be a student here. I try to tell her I'm not even supposed to be here, so it'd be best if she just ignored whatever she was feeling and went to class. She tells me again that it's nonsense, that if I wouldn't be here if I wasn't supposed to be because the security here is too tight to let just anyone in. The woman comes out of the building and tells the girl she will be late if she doesn't go inside now, then climbs into the car and rolls the window up. I ask the woman and man in the car what that was all about, saying I'm 25, there's no way I'd be going to class with those kids. The lady says nothing, but looks at the man and he looks back in the mirror and tells me to "just ignore it, those kids are weird." Then the car is moving and we're pulling away from the building. There's mountains and a lake in the back ground, and I see a few tall pine trees as well. We're trying to go through the big concrete main gate but are stopped on the way out. I either wake up here, or I skip to another dream, I didn't take notes last night so I can't be sure and will treat it as waking up

Dream Seven: I'm in the woods with a group of people ranging from teenagers to adults about my age, hiking maybe. I feel like I'm on the older end of the spectrum at 25, but there are people who definitely look older than me. There's a woman with me, she looks about 22, and she's dressed in all black. She has red orange hair braided down her back, and a face that reminds me of a young Angelina Jolie with smaller lips, lol. She's dressed in all black, leggings and long sleeved shirt, with a bulky belt holstering a gun and sword and a couple pouches around her waist. She seems to be my protector or body guard, and I call her Pandora. There's a sound like wind, and then these people in black robes are attacking us. One girl in particular has blond and curly hair like Dakota fanning in that Twilight movie (don't ask which one, I haven't seen it so I don't know, I just remember the ads) is trying to attack me. She has a sword and is lunging at me. Pandora blocks the attack, and tells me to run. I don't want to run because I don't want to leave all the other people at the mercy of these robed figures, but Pandora tells me that it's me they are after and if I run I can draw them away from the others. I tear through the woods as fast as I can and come across an old barn. I run past what looks like empty rabbit hutches and into the barn. The blond girl is right behind me, and I have no sword to fight her with. She swings at me wildly, and I keep stumbling around managing somehow to dodge her attacks. Then she slices into my left arm, and it HURTS, but it's not deep as she only just barely caught me with the swords tip. I think to myself I can cast a sword spell, and try it but it back fires and doesn't work, instead the other girl tells me that If I'm going to use magic so will she, and she summons her own swords spell that causes swords to fall from the sky. I see a round piece of metal laying nearby, and decide to use it as a shield. I imagine it acting as the Hyland shield from Zelda, and tuck up under it to keep the swords from hitting me, and it becomes the shield. I peek out from under the shield when everything goes quiet, and I see the swords have stopped falling but the girl is standing over me with her sword held high about to hit me as hard as she can. I shove the shield towards her as hard as I can and slam her with it. She staggers back a bit, and I proceed to keep trying to bash her with the shield until I'm able to knock her down unconscious with blood dripping from her mouth as though I've knocked some teeth lose. I'm exhausted and barely standing, but I teeter out of the barn and am greeted by Pandora running up the hill. She steadies me, and asks me if I'm ok, apologizing for taking so long to get there as she was being held back by the other attackers. I tell her I'm ok, and that I was able to bash the blond with a shield but that she was unconscious, probably not dead and may get up to fight us again. Pandora tells me to relax, that I'm safe now, and that the others were ok as well. I can see the group climbing up the hill through the woods at a slow pace. A blue bird lands on one of the empty rabbit hutches and tweets. Pandora tells me that "everything will be fine now, that is a Blue Bird of Happiness, and a sign that the fight is over." I wake up.

Dream Fragment (???): Not sure where this one fell in the night, but as I was getting my cheerios this morning I remembered having a dream that my kids wanted me to read the books from the Cheerios Box to them (they're giving out books in the cheerio boxes right now, or were when I bought them last week, lol) I go to the bookshelf to get them, but when I pull on the books, they rip in half! I'm so upset because I bought double the cereal I normally do so I could get my kids one of each book since they thought it was so awesome their cereal was coming with a book!

Didn't dream much last night. I didn't sleep well the first half of the night bc of allergies. I took some Nyquil in hopes of getting some sleep, which pretty much sabotaged any chance of really remembering dreams.


Dream One (Fragment): I'm standing next to a computer desk. There's a little old lady sitting sideways at it, and her cat is looking over her lap at the computer screen. The Cat starts getting really excited because a screen name "CoolKitty57" logs on and it's the cat down the street. Apparently this cat has a thing for the cat down the street. I think that this is so cute, I have to tell my bff about it because she loves cats. I turn to look behind me and there's a tv with golf on.

Dream Two: I am in an SUV going through a drive through. I pay for my food, and pull to the next window, but the lady at the next woman is smoking a cigaret and wearing a ball down. She looks at me for a minute, then says they're closed. I tell her I just paid for my food they can't be closed. She informs me I've missed the second window for the drive through and that I am now at the drive through window for "Lusty Lust" I can only imagine what sort of joint that is I turn around to go find the second drive through window, and it end up being inside the building! I actually drive my SUV into the fast food place to get my food. I think this is the strangest drive through I've ever seen, then wake up.

I had several hypnagogic (I know that can't be spelled right, but firefox isn't giving me an alternative) hallucinations all morning though b/c the nyquil wasn't wearing off fast enough and I couldn't seem to wake up. I'd be sitting at my computer, then suddenly I'm seeing a naked woman or a pirate ship or a zombie and get startled awake, realizing I'd started dozing, ha ha. Planning on getting a nap when my husband gets home, hopefully that'll produce a dream or two of real quality.

Dream One (Fragment): I can remember seeing Skylanders stickers and stuff, and that's about it. Pretty sure I had this dream because we spent the better part of 4 hours going from store to store last night trying to get my kids the last 5 figures they needed to complete their collection. We got lucky and found a few in Walmart and then found the last 2 online at normal prices (I refuse to pay scalper prices!).

Dream Two: I'm walking through an old Victorian house. Everything is in greys and purples, and even the furniture looks old, so everything is super creepy. A girl with long beautiful anime like blond hair walks in. Her hair goes down to her knees and billows like normal hair wouldn't. She makes a fist, but sticks out her pointer and middle finger, then does a fancy flourish with them that involves making a circle and snapping her fingers and saying some word that starts with an I, but I can't remember now what that word was. When she does, the room glows faintly green and her fingers glow greenish as if she drew some of the green energy out of the room and to her. Then a ghost like creature appears (not human, looked more like some random anime Yokai ) and she points to me with her fingers. When she motions to me, the monster starts flying my way. Afraid it will attack me I open the closest door and find myself standing in an old street, similar to the alleys in "From Hell". I see a carriage drive by quickly but ignoring me. Suddenly I think to copy the girls movements and try to summon a ghost yokai of my own to fight back with. I say the word and twist my fingers, but I can't figure out how to snap both fingers at once so I skip that part. A ghost yokai comes out of the ally and flies through me to attack the creature that was just coming up behind me. The two yokai merge and become one, then fade away because their energy is unstable fused. They both want to go after different targets after all. Then, a man in a suit and a top hat with long hair appears, he seems to have come from the front door of the house while I was standing in the side door. He tips his hat at us, and the other girl runs away. He turns to me and asked if I am the one who summoned the creature in the alley. I nod, and tells me I did the spell wrong, but still managed to call a creature strong enough to protect me, that was impressive. I tell him I didn't know what I was doing, I was just copying the other girl when she attacked me, and he tells me that is "Most interesting" then wanders off out of the house, down the street the way the horse and carriage had gone earlier. I follow him, scared to be alone with all these monsters around, but since I don't know him I tail behind him about 20 feet or so. He doesn't seem to notice me at first, but then we are standing in front of a castle, and he asks without even turning around, "Well, will you come in then?" as if he knew I was there the whole time and choose to ignore me. I nod, scared to stand outside by myself, and I follow him inside really so the doors can't close before I make it safely inside. Once inside, everything has a sad and creepy vibe to it. Similar to the house, only instead of being scary, it was just depressing. The man walks into a room, not even bothering to turn on a light, and points to a dresser. He asks me if I can feel anything in the dresser. I'm confused, so he demonstrates the summoning technique and the bed glows green. I try the technique again, this time though I can't even do the flourish so I just say the word and hold my two fingers out. The dresser in front of me glows purple, and has sad and apathetic smiley faces all over it ( ) I'm confused, I thought it was supposed to glow green! I tell the guy as much and that I've never seen things glow purple before, and he tells me neither has he, "Yet here this dresser does. Fascinating, yes?" I nod unable to really form any words at the moment. Then there's a crying man walking in from the hall way, and I think he looks like a prince. He's crying, and asks the man if he has found his sister yet. The man smiles, and says that he is making progress, but the mans sisters reincarnation would not remember him regardless. And that's all I can remember, I know the dream went on, and I woke up thinking I was the sisters reincarnation, but I can not recall the later events

Dream Three (Fragment): I was driving on the interstate and needed to get off at an exit that's been closed for years, but in the dream it was open! I got off the exit just to get trapped in road work (they really are repairing that bridge at least) There wasn't really much detail to go into.

Dream Four: I dreamed that my husband calls me to move my car so he can park his car first in the driveway (we drive my car almost everyday, and his maybe once a week, so we keep his parked up front to avoid playing musical cars every time we have to go somewhere!) I walk outside, and notice I'm in sleep clothes (a tank top and a pair of my husbands boxers) I'm not comfortable walking outside without a bra on because I know some of my adult neighbors are pervs (and not quiet about it either), and there are some teenagers in the neighborhood that always make me uncomfortable. (The kids in the neighborhood used to ask if my dad would let me come out and play, until they found out that what they thought was my dad was really my husband, lol. Then they'd forget that fact and ask again two days later for the first couple months we lived here ) Anyways, my husband is sitting in his car impatiently, so I suck it up and just go move the car. I'm completely covered so it's not that big a deal, I know I'm just making it one. I notice as I'm moving the car there's an old man and a teenage boy moving boxes into a house that's been for sale for ages. I park the car and go inside, but my husband stays outside for who knows what reason. I decide to put some actual clothes on instead of running around in my tank. So for some dumb reason I walk into the kitchen and start taking off my boxers thinking I'm going to put the dirty clothes in the hamper, then go to the bedroom naked. As soon as I get my boxers off, just as I'm grabbing the bottom of my tank, the front door opens! The new teenager is walking into my house uninvited! One of the kids who've been around here since we moved in is following him and he's yelling at him, "Dude! You can't just walk in uninvited!" I'm in complete shock, standing there half naked, for half a second I don't know what to do, but then I dash off to the back of the house and my bedroom and close the door! I change so quickly I can't even remember how I changed or what I put on. Then my bedroom door opens and it's the new kid again. I flip out on him, ask him what his freaking problem is and hasn't he ever heard of fucking privacy?! Then the other kid is in the living room and he shouts to the back, "I tried to stop him! But there is no way I'm going back there knowing your naked!" I thank him for at least having some freaking manners then tell them if they don't get the hell out of my house I'm going to call my husband in here to kick both their asses! They leave when I threaten this, but the thought of my husband kicking anyone's ass is pretty funny. He's nerd to the core, and probably couldn't hurt a fly, lol. I do something in the house in the dream, but can't remember what it is, then I realize my husband still hasn't come inside yet and it's been forever since he got home! I walk outside, and he's sitting in the street chatting with the kids in the neighborhood (the teenagers and the younger kids) I go out to find out what's taking so long, and it turns out they're talking about video games from when I was younger. He asks me if I can give the kids better gaming advice since he was a computer nerd not a gamer. The dream ends with me trying to tell the kids how to beat some boss or something in Majora's Mask. I'm sure this whole dream was sparked by the fact that my husband left his phone in the car last night. When he realized it he was already in his boxers, and I was wearing a nightgown. It was clingy and low cut, but it covered everything and it was like midnight, so I sucked it up and went out to find his phone instead of him going out in his underwear. Turns out the phone was hidden in a compartment I didn't even know my car had, so I spent a good five minutes outside in my nightie trying to find his stupid phone. None of the lights were on in the neighbors houses so I knew everyone was in bed asleep, but I couldn't help feeling like I was naked in public anyways, lol. This dream just rehashed those feelings to make it even more awkward.

Dream ??? (fragment): Just remembered this, it's not in my notes so I'm not sure if it's a forgotten part of another dream or a dream all in it's self, but I can recall being in a parking deck type structure. The whole thing was metal and concrete, but there were no cars, just ramps and speed bumps. I was looking for someone, it felt like a video game where I was clearing out one room at a time of bad guys. The next room was going to have a big bad monster boss in it, and I needed some help from another player to fight it. The other player was hiding underneath one of the parking deck ramps. I was yelling at him that we needed to get a move on, but he was scared and wanted to "prepare". I kept thinking that there was no way to prepare past what we'd already prepared, he was just stalling for time and I was impatient.