Oneirin's Dreamworld

I'm walking down a driveway in front of a two story structure as a narrator finishes speaking. I begin thinking about my awareness practice and wonder how good I'll be at lucid dreaming/dream yoga in three years if I keep working hard at it. I wonder if it'll all be worth it. My awareness raises as I reach farther down the driveway, and it feels as though visuals from my pre-bed meditation kick in. I become lucid as my hands come in front of me, and I'm good to go; no need to do a formal RC at this point. There is a slight shock at how clear/rational my mind feels at this point. I fly a bit upward and notice a street running in front of the property, dense woodland laying beyond. I continue flying, and make my way across the property and across the road. As I enter the woodland I make a point to use all of my senses, anchoring myself into the dream. I feel this area may be due to my first dream goal of heading to an astral forest. My stabilization feels pretty solid as I enter my way into the trees, gliding smoothly. I begin rubbing my dream body to practice this technique a bit. I feel all my limbs and torse get stimulated by hands as if a slight staitic is running through them. I consider using visualization to try a dream goal, but decide to explore and practice stabilzation instead. I continue my way through the trees, alternating between rubbing my dream body and using my senses. The branches are thick with pine needles. The dream gets a bit blurry but I hang in for a while. I enter a void soon then go into a short period of non-lucidity before waking. I attempt a DEILD, and get very close to my separation point, but I don't quite 'sink' into the next. I stay up for the day.

1. I hold my awareness through the 'sinking' feeling and stand up with my dream body once I feel I am ready. I find myself in a very dim room resembling my bedroom, yet with a longer extension to the left. I consider where to go, then decide to head through the window to the right and explore outside a bit. I find my way onto the wooden porch attached with a small set of stairs descending to the left. A small yard area with vivid green grass lays beyond. I walk a bit farther and notice that the area I'm in resembles a lodge of sorts. The building is mostly a darker red color, constructed of wood, with many rooms on various levels. I head toward the lawn then look to my left and see a large white square door. I continue on thinking about what I should do in this dream as I make a bit of progress toward the door. I feel the heavy feeling -similar to the last dream - holding me back; it feels like a strong resistance is hindering my movement. I remind myself that it's just a dream, and that everything is taking place in my mind in dream space - I can just will myself forward. I look to the left and notice a turning staircase connecting the various entrance ways to the bi-level lodge. I engage the five senses once again at this point. I continue my way floating up the staircase and head to go into one of the upper level rooms to explore. White light is spilling from under the doorway. I phase through the door and enter the room which is very dark. I quickly enter a void, but am determined to hold awareness through. I engage as many senses as I can, and maintain strong sense of hearing on many birds chirping. The scene begins to appear,and I make my way through a wall.

2. I wake up, hold completely still, recall the last dream, and feel I can enter another LD by relaxing my body once again. I relax and 'sink' until I feel that I have control of a dream body then stand up and walk to the foot of the bed. I do a jumping jack spontaneously to engage my sense of kinesthetics. I begin to head through the nearest wall, and try to imagine myself heading into a natural setting at this point. The dream is not taking me anywhere, and I reason that I don't have a dream incubated within my mind - I think back to Sageous's posts about having a dream 'on tap'. I continue to fall in this void state.

3. I wake up (yet am not fully sure if it was a real or false awakening). I continue the same sinking process from the previous dream, and once again stand up and begin to move around a room closely resembling the previous one. The dream quickly fades and I wake up.

I continue the 'sinking' of my body into the bed, feeling that I can transition to a lucid from this point. I soon find myself standing in a slightly lit bedroom resembling my parents' bedroom in my childhood home. I'm staring at the master bed with dark golden sheets - dim sunlight is coming through the window to the right. I see somebody sleeping, then see a DC which appears to be a younger version of my mom sit up in the bed slowly, eyes fixed on me. I decide not to approach, and instead back out of the room, thinking to myself 'well, that's creepy..'. I head out to the hallway and peer over the banister. The dream space feels very 'thick', almost as thoguh I am moving through glue. I think back to my dream goal and a convo with OneUp the night before, and immediately begin engaging my 5 senses. The dream begins to stabilize a great deal, and I feel I have some control over the length at this point. I stare ahead at the arched window on the 2nd floor wall as well as the door. It's light outside, but I decide not to take this route. Instead I decide to fall back through the wall, and imagine a forest scene as I fall. I continue in a void state for a bit waiting for a scene to emerge, yet nothing comes for a bit. I simply allow the dream to re-form instead of forcing a scene. I reappear in the hallway and decide to float through the wall with the door and window. I fly through and begin engaging my 5 senses again, and am happy with the time extension as I begin to make my way through the front yard, walking and flying low to the ground. I try to feel my breaths, pay attention to the tastes in my mouth, see the colors, and listen to the birds all at the same time. After doing this for a couple minutes, the dream quickly goes void and transition to a FA which only lasts 1-2 seconds before I regain lucidity.

I continue to walk down the outdoor trail in the dream after hearing a boom of thunder and hearing the narrator discuss practice of awareness by a mystic. I'm walking through an outdoor trail in a farmland area and continue my awareness practice. A DC continues to follow me, and I eventually feel as though it's my brother. I enter an area with an intersection in the trail and look left. I see a small white fountain with trapezoidal shape formed intot the front. It's located in a small green field with a structure to the right. I begin to voice how this looks like a scene from a dream I had a while back and begin running my memory. My awareness raises, and I say "this is a dream!" back to the dream character. The vividness of the fountain raises and I take in all thee shapes as well as the layout of the area, thinking back to the previoius dreamscape. The colors brighten, and everything seems to come alive. I levitate up into the air and tell my brother that I'm getting lucid off of the word "dream" a lot now these days. I think back to sensei's podcast and how the word dream popping up in conversation should spark a reality check. The DC continues to trail about 50 feet behind me remaining silent as usual. I turn around back to where the trail is leading, but the dream collapses rapidly and I wake.

I'm in the back of a cab with S heading down a very steep hill. We have a cab driver, and the man is wearing a rimmed cap. We're having a conversation about different relatives who live in Europe. I look at her as my awareness breaks through, and in a very collected, nonchalant manner I tell her how awesome it is that this is all a dream. I look around the cab and take in the vivid colors of dark red of the seats that have a slight glow in the dark of the night. I then follow up by saying that it is a DILD we are in actually, and explain to her that it is because I became aware of the dream as it was occurring. I say this with an interested smile of satisfaction. I look to either side of the very narrow road we are traveling down in the dead of night. Closely packed building, roughly 3 stories high, stand crammed next to eachother. The architecture resembles that of 19th century Europe in a city area. Archways over windows and doors are intricately formed into the cement foundation of the structures. The row of buildings - which appear to be living quarters are dark goldden yellow. A couple groups of two to three people begin makin their way up the narrow sidewalk as we make our descent; they are dressed in very old clothing resembling 17th-18th century western Europe. The dresses are gray, and the hats are black. S's face is different as I look back, and it appears to be a different DC altogether. The DC gives an expression as though it is cognitively impaired - not processing any information I'm saying. I still ask the DC to help me stabilize, and follow up by stating I want to see how a DC would do. I then decide to fly up and out of the car to the bottom of the hill, where the street meets another street at an intersection. I turn left and see a group of three people. I fly forward rapidly to see their faces, yet they all vanish into wisps of smoke as I get near. I raise up into the air turning left and gaze town to the two story building which has a small ledge outside the second floor. I decide to stay in this area as I feel this will keep the dream stable for now. I fly toward this white colored second level, and begin thinking about dream flying dynamics, and how the dream space is all just existing in my mind. I make a bit of progress, then quickly enter a void and simultaneously ramp up my awareness in order to maintain the dream. I tell myself that I'm goign to hold awareness no matter what. I hold for about 15 seconds, then feel the interesting transiton back into my physical body. I hold perfectly still for a couple minutes attempting a DEILD.

I find myself aware that I'm in a dream as I'm standing in a dark hallway with rows of doors are lined up on either side. It is the dead of night, and I get the impression that I am in a house. My hands come out in front of me, and I know I need to stabilize as things feel a bit unstable. I keep getting the impression that I'm beginning to feel my physical body and then I'm going to wake. I find myself in a FA for a period of time in which I am trying to re-enter the last dream lucidly (I didn't realize it was a FA until several minutes upon waking for the day). My arm is around S as I begin on focusing and incubating a dream scene and entering lucidly. I close my eyes and notice hypnagogic imagery develop into the dream scene. I am looking consciously aware as I begin entering into a scene with a tall red Japanese shrine. The shrine is situated on a small island floating high in the sky with grass scattered across the ground on the bottom of the floating mini island. Behind the floating shrine sits a massive brown cliff with jagged edges. The cliff rises to the left, far above the shrine. My awareness begins merging with a dream body that I imagine, and I continue to recreate the feeling of the body moving through the entryway to the scene with waving motions of my limbs. I begin this transition into the sky and suddenly wake.

I find myself standing next to my bed facing the wall lucidly aware. My arms come in front of my face, and I say outloud "I'm lucid" with excitement. I am facing a wall at this point, and the room is very dark. My arms have an ethereal transparency to them.I gaze to the right a bit a notice a large doorwary with a thin white frame. The door leads into a square room beyond. The dream feels a bit unstable, and my awareness still needs to be increased. In an effort to stabilize, I decide to try entering a new dream scene. I kneel down, take my right arm and imagine myself carving a cirucular portal into the ground. I trace the circle with my arm and visualize a blue border. The dream becomes fuzzy and I wake shortly after.

I'm walking toward a sectioned off shower as I transition from narration in a previous dream. Someone is talking about how great it is to remember their dreams, and I think to myself, "I travel to other dimensions". I have a quick memory of a higher level lucid. I reach the shower and see S. I knock on the edge of the glass as I enter so I don't startle her. I ask if I can come in, and she says yes. I take a step in and turn towards her I take a look at her face, and my awareness begins to raise to a critical level. Looking at her face with a big satisfied smile, I say: "I'm dreaming". She begins to grin at me as she tucks in her her chin a bit, as if to communicate: 'yeah you figured it out'.I wrap my arms around her to savor and enjoy the moment, and begin tracing my memory for dream goals. I quickly decide to just forget about the goals for the time being and enjoy the moment in the dream. The shower is surrounded by walls of small white tiles with a glass door to our left. As we hug, the dream gets a bit blurry, and I gaze into the corner of the shower to see three racks with various items on them. I revisit the idea of dream goals and decide to multi-task by imagining a dream item popping up from a goal in order to try tasting it. I grab a blurry box, yet it has no taste The dream begins to go into the void. Once in the void, I am distinctly aware of the very realistic sounds of water running. I resolve to hold my awarenesss through to the next dream scene. The sound of the water is very soothing, and for a short period I begin to think it is coming from waking life. I begin to focus on this as I begin to rub my hands as well. This goes on for about a minute, then I wake.

I'm in a small room following the void state fromt the previous lucid. My awareness breaks through without RCing, and I find myself lucid in an area closely resembling a section of a high-scale hotel. There is dark marble throughout the counter tops, and mirror against some portion of the wall. A high quality sink is in this area along with some toiletrees. I think back to the goal I've been working on and try to imagine a cacao bar in one of the small boxes. The same situation from the previous lucid repeas, and there's a tasteless piece of papery material inside when I imagine it to be there. I begin turning to see where the room leads to an enter the first door. It is a very small room with a lounge chair of some sort. I quickly turn away, and open a door on the adjacent wall. Another small rooms lays beyond. I turn once again, and the same sitautuoin repeats. I finally open the door on the 4th wall and find another small room with a bath inside of it. However, it's another dead-end. I step inside, and look at the intricate pattern on the dark red tile above the bath. I decide I'm going to phase into another dream through this wall. I begin sliding into the wall, and my vision starts heading to a blackout. I begin imagining a snow scene. Nothing forms, so I begin trying to imagine a mountain peak with a shrine. The visuals don't catch on, so I think back to a podcast, and imagine myself driving a high-end sports car up a mountain path. I begin to get some tactile sense, but the dream fades and I wake up.

I'm with S in an area resembling a kitchen following the previous lucid. I am standing in front of a tall counter top with a dark marble surface, and she is standing in front of me to the left of the counter. I'm aware of how 'strange' things feel, and do a noseplug. I breathe and become lucid. I turn away from her slightly, and repeat"I'm lucid! I'm lucid!". Past where S is standing lays a doorway entering into a hall beyond. I get the impression that this leads to the hotel-like setting of the previous dream. At this point I decide to get started on some dream goals. I think back to one goal and my previous lucid and want to try eating a massive cacao bar and feeling the effects. I look around the counter top and determine it would be a good idea to just imagine it's inside of one of the containers on the counter. I peer inside the box, pretend it's what I'm looking for and take a bite. It's fairly tasteless, and tastes pretty much like paper. My mind isn't convinced. I decide to continue on down the hallway and enter to the next section of the dreamscape. At this point, the dream goes void, and I hold my awareness through a minute long segment, awaiting the next to form. I lose lucidity for brief time as the new dream forms.

I find myself in a void intermission following a dream about progress of one of my students. I feel my dream body in the void and focus on relaxing it completely; part of my mind understands that I will enter into an LD from here. I find myself in a house, and quickly do a noseplug. I breathe and become lucid. I become excited, and focus on my goals and mantra of extending the dream duration. I keep thelling the dream that it will last for an hour. I shout "this will last for an hour" with conviction several times. I continue on down one of the hallways. I feel as though I am in a combination of a house/hotel with many hallways connecting various rooms. I explore for a bit. There is a lot of vividness to this iniitial portion, however *there is a section of the dream around this portion which slipped from memory due to subsquent dreams*. I think back to previous goals once again and think of eating a huge cacao bar and feeling the effects. I'm appreciating the length and stability of the dream and have the thought that it is lasting quite a few minutes. Before I continue on to the goal, the dream fades and I enter a FA.

I'm walking by a curved window of a large house. I'm practicing awareness in a walking meditation, and glance to the left. I notice my brother working at a desk with a dim yellow light on. I return to my walking meditation, and go to raise my awareness more. The vividness of the ground starts to come out, and I see the intricate small black stones woven into the brown dirt. I head a few more feet then begin to levitate as I turn around. I catch my brother's attention, then levitate more in order to show him my ability. I ascend a few hundred feet, then get the feeling I may be dreaming. I do a nose-plug and become lucid. I have free flight and begin circling counterclockwise around the house/mansion. I think about staying in this dream as long as possible. As I continue circling, I consider changing the dream scene. I gaze out to the forest surrounding the property, laying far beyond in the darkness. Scattered, wispy, gray clouds are present throughout the sky. Once in the back of the structure I finally stay in one place. I get the sense that a storm of some sort is approaching. I think back to the purple reishi I had during my WBTB and wonder if it is influencing the dream in any way. I am feeling a strong sense of contentment and enjoyment throughout this process, and consider making my way to the roof of the house. I feel a sense of mastery with the freedom of flight and levitation. I look down at the dark gabled roof as I'm now quite a few hudnred feet in the air. I'm unable to approach, however, as I feel a force of wind is preventing me from advancing - almost like an outward moving cyclone. A void quickly appraoches and I resolve to hold my awareness through and into the next dream scene. I remain aware, then begin rubbing my hands, reminding myself that a new scene will form. I begin rubbing my feet of my dream body in the void as well. I hold awareness in the void for a minute or so then lose lucidity during a brief segment of a dream before waking.

I find myself standing standing in a yard area resembling my childhood home. I realize I am in a dreamscape, and take in the surreal environenment and the slight glow to all it's contents. There is a dim blue pervading the entire scene, providing that extra "LD" quality to the whole thing. In front of me stands a tree in the shape of an upside-down bowling ball. To my right is a two story structure with a small squar table set in front. To the left is a very dark body of water with a row of dark shrubbery behind. I feel that going to the left may destabilize the dream, and I decide that I want it to last a long time. I turn to the right and head toward the square table, aware that there is a set of white balls on them resembling pool balls. I am aware that they serve some sort of function, and am interested to go over and find out what they are for. As soon as I start to head over, the dream abruptly ends and I wake up.

I find myself in a bed in a room that feels normal to me at the time. I have the intent to leave my body and enter a lucid dream so I imagine my limbs moving from my body. I move my legs first, then my arms. I find myself standing up next to the bed, facing the door, lucid. I realize I'm in a different room. Another door stands on the oppositve side of the room, across from the foot of the bed. My brother is in the room, but I don't interact with him. Instead, I make my way through the door, and begin thinking of what I should do. I think to myself: 'I really need to pee' then realize: 'No! Bad idea! lol. At the time I have a strange impression that I had just seen a movie (upon awakening, it seems it was a memory from a dream I had just before the lucid began). I continue on to a narrow corridor with a ceiling ~4 stories tall. Doors lay on either side, but I continue on straight ahead, beginnig to fly upward as I go. My brother follows along as I enter the expanse of the mansion. I continue on to two massive room separated by a massive wall. I continue to the right and enter a massive room. I look toward the far wall and notice a bookshelf with four racks. On the third lays a row of books with spines colored from white, to black, to red mixed in-between. I tell myself that the book I pull out will have an important teaching for me (part of one of my dream goals). I move my gaze down the row of books and select one toward the middle with a red spine and gold lettering on it. I slide it out, but the top line reads something like: S O; the next line reads something like D R G T. I reason that it is gibberish and decide not read the following lines or open the book. I return the book, fly up toward the top of the ceiling while turning around. I look down and notice my brother standing on the bottom. The dream quickly fades and I wake.

After a couple short FAs I find myself at a table that resembles my grandparents' old kitchen table with my brother. He's talking about games, and I'm trying to show interest, but have lucidity on my mind. I then realize this is a dream!I check my hands, comparing them to my last FA, and realize the other dream was far more convincing. THis time it seems my middle finger wasn't appearing. I feel as though I'm standing in a re-cration of my grandparents' kitchen in the dead of night, and it feels ominous and creepy. I make my way out of the room and turn right into the lviing room.I look across the room into the next hallway and it gives an impression as though it's haunted. A door stands partially opned with a dim golden colored handle. I small white object that looks cloth like and about two feet wide sits next to the door. I think to myslef about how creepy some lucids can get and decide to change the scene by heading through the window. I look through the thick white curtains, and can tell that dense dark trees, like a woodland area, lay beyond. I decide this is fine and go to phase through. As I make my way I get slowed down, almost as if the curtains are blocking my movement and vision. Strands move throughout my visual field. I find myself waking up and RC.