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1. I was trying to visualize what it would be like to visit Candyland and how fun that could be, eating lots of candy when I wasn't even fully asleep and was flying like a bird, extremely fast and right near the edge of a mountain road that was near the water, I was impressed at how fast I was going but really couldn't soak in the beauty I was enjoying the breeze and the feeling of the wind when I went around the mountain side and immediately in front of me was a road with a small red convertible on the left and a big huge military truck on the right (the kind with the canvas covering the back) and swoosh I went right into the front grill of the truck and could feel myself being sucked in but it wasn't painful. It was extremely fast.

2. Took me a little time to fall asleep from that but woke up in Candyland....Ummm this totally disappointed me! I wasn't in a beautiful Candyland I was literally in a 3D cardboard game where even the colors weren't very bright and it was way out of the normal characteristics of my dreams which are usually more real. I felt like I was tiny and I was feeling all of the cardboard and I was so bummed out that I tried to change the scene.
Well that certainly didn't work, I was now in some old bar or more like a pub with cobblestone floors and full of cigarette smoke yet not a single person was around. I actually thought of sticking my head through the ground but I never did that before and I sure wasn't going to do it on cobblestone. Time to go potty and try again later.


Note: I was riding bikes with my husband yesterday and we stopped at a little rest area with a bench and water fountain. I was looking around when I saw about 1000 buzzards in a line heading our way, some were already past us and as far as the eye could see. That was a freaky sight and I actually thought for a moment, am I dreaming? haha. That is probably why I was flying and seeing from a birds view.

I had several short dreams last night but this one is the most memorable for me as it seemed to last all night even though it won't seem like it when I write it down.
I was confidently walking down a city street that appeared to be like a China town. I would never be doing this in my RL. I never go anywhere alone and that is probably why I always know I am dreaming because I am usually alone. I see dead animals hanging right there in front of the shops, yet I am still hungry and I smell something good coming from down the street so I keep walking and taking in the sights. Noone is looking at me, yet I smile and wave at people to try to cheer them up. I follow the smell to this little restaurant and I walk in. As I get inside there was a man in a black karate looking outfit with a yin yang type symbol inside a suns flames. I thought he was the waiter so I followed him inside. He took me through the kitchen which was odd, and then into a back room where he asked me if I had anything in my pockets. I checked my pants and nothing, but my hoodie had a crumpled up used tissue in my left pocket and my right had a baggie with about 10 cough drops. (Ummmmm I already did this challenge haha) he pointed to the trash, in they went, I then followed him to another room which looked like a closet where he placed a blindfold on me (this felt strange yet for some reason I was going along with it because curious me is always wondering what the message is, am I about to get a cold? I had cough drops) I am now in darkness and he pushes my back forward as I hear the creek of another door open, I am now standing inside a room with nothing but silence. Now I am expecting the VOICE to appear. It felt like at least 10 minutes I waited and the Voice said he has been waiting for me and we need to get started on the lesson (almost like I was late which kinda hurt my feelings being I never know when the lessons will happen). I feel pretty comfortable even though I cannot see, I feel very safe with the Voice nearby. He tells me to visualize the ball he gave me the last lesson. Asked me to describe it to him. It was larger than a softball and appeared to be earth or a similar looking planet floating inside some kind of liquid with what appeared to be a fragile glass outer layer, it was cool and lightweight and glowed a greenish glow. He told me to see it and feel it in my hands right now as if it is there. I hold my hands up and really feel as though he placed it in my hands so I felt I had to be very careful with it again. I started to feel the energy coming from it and it was working its way down my arms, I started to swirl it above my head in a circular motion and could feel it traveling down my body. I then brought it down to my torso circling my hands with the ball to keep the energy flowing then down to my knees. It felt like I was standing inside a ball of energy. The Voice said there is a maze in front of me and there is only one way out. Blindfolded I am to find my way using the energy to guide me. I was a little hesitant but the energy felt awesome. I started to walk and could feel the energy from the wall in front of me as if it also had an energy field around it and as I bumped into it I could hear the vibration as I bounced off of it, I now feel safe and protected. I make my way through this humongous maze that never seemed to end and there were many obstacles in my way, like chairs, balls, etc, it got to the point where I could not only feel the energy but I was actually able to see through the blindfold several different colors surrounding objects. I also saw my useless grayed out eye holes as I have done once fairly recently like I was seeing from behind my eyes a few inches back. Hard to describe that one. I came out the other end and walked out of my bathroom and my husband asked me if I was going to cut his hair. He handed me the scissors and they floated above my hand. I woke up.

HH- I saw a very vivid black and white fingerprint image that took up my entire vision and I was admiring its interesting lines before I fell asleep.

1- One of the fun things I did as a child was I created a long hallway with lots of doors and it was so much fun for me to check out all of the fun adventures in each one. Sometimes I would open a door and each time it was a new adventure and sometimes I could go in 10 times and it would always be the same. Something changed one day when I was opening every door I saw a dark character that I guess would look like the grim reaper. He had glowing eyes and would float after me until I could escape by creating a new door. I became terrified to open any doors again and every time that dream scene appeared I would have to vanish it by creating a slide at the end of the hallway that was super high up, so I escaped and it was still fun going down the slide. Last night I dreamt of the same exact hallway with doors, I could hear my heart rate really loud and really fast because I knew this was some kind of test for myself. I had to overcome this fear once and for all! I peeked in a door that was about half way down the hall, and it was black inside, I opened it and walked in and stood there going with my dream as I usually do and this time I knew the reason. It was damp and very cold, I couldn't hear a thing. I just stood there looking around for something, anything when I could feel my hairs on my arms and the back of my neck standing up. Suddenly the room was white and the VOICE said are you here for your next lesson? OMG I woke up lol. Darn it!!!! That was not what I was expecting at all!!!!! Whew! I woke up relieved that I faced my fear but sad I missed my lesson. Or did I?

2- I have a fear of planes in my dreams because I had nightmares of recurring dreams of people I love blowing up in planes, or crashing on landing, or me in them with people I love knowing we were going to die because we were spiraling out of control. All vivid nightmares. I had a dream last night I was on a plane very aware that I was dreaming of a plane AGAIN which I have not done for years and knowing the prior dream I am expecting the VOICE to appear again. I was on the plane when the speaker comes on the plane and the pilot says we will be delayed momentarily because they found a problem but it will be fixed and we will be on our way, Oh great! So I decide to deep breathe and try to relax while waiting. I fell asleep in my dream and woke up when we were already in the air. Whew I was so happy but then fear hit me again, then I woke up again, because I was dreaming in my dream that I was already in the air, OMG! Still sitting in the plane waiting to take off, this dream was going nowhere...time to get up for work.

I walk into this white room yet it feels outdoorsy, I was looking around for a door to go through curious as to where it would lead when I started thinking about what I wanted to do with this room. I just stood there thinking what a relaxed feeling I had and wanted to soak it in for a moment before I tried to use any control. I always have a feeling when I use too much control that I may be missing out on something special. After that thought, the VOICE said "Are you here for your lesson"? He startled me because I haven't heard him since I wished my husband could see my dreams. I was thinking how excited I was to have him back because he has always been there for me, like a teacher. He sounded direct and to the point. He said it was time I was given my next power but he was not going to reveal what this power is or what it does, he put this glowing ball in my hand that was larger than a softball but seemed it should be much heavier, I was in awe looking at it, it had a green glow to it and it looked to be a glass ball with a world inside spinning around slowly counterclockwise as if it was in some kind of fluid. Very delicate looking glass. The thought ran through my head that this was not going to last long in my hands because I am a klutz. Then he told me that I was to be very careful and to not force the power, the power would come to me when I was one with it. You must become one with it, I think he said that three times. Of course my mind was thinking one with it? What does that mean? This part is hard to explain in words...I was standing there with this glowing ball in my hands and I could feel it, I raised my hand and started doing some kind of oriental dance of some kind like karate or something like that but very fluid and smooth, all while I must have been split in two because lucid me was watching from a short distance away wondering how I am doing this and watching myself holding this glowing ball. It was like half of me was serious and taking it all in and going with it while the other half of me was watching and questioning everything as a curious mind. Like the real me was watching the dreaming me?!?! Loved this one! I woke up happy even though I only slept 4 hours.

I thought with only 3 hours of sleep last night that I would try for an hour nap. No success for sleep but one HH after another. I was only in bed for 45 minutes total.

1. Saw a wall with screens on it that were each showing images scrolling up on each one and there were at least 30. As I tried to pick out any image that looked familiar they started going really fast. I chuckled (my mind is teasing me, nanny nanny boo boo you can't see me) my heart was beating faster as the images were going so fast, I thought to myself "slow down damn it" then they started to slow down to one big white screen and my heart rate was back to normal.

2. I saw an image as if I was sitting on a red bike and looking down at the front wheel, again I laughed, the wheel wasn't even inside the fork it was to the left. I have a black Trek this was a red Scott, My dreams are usually much more real and not as blatant craziness.

3. Again images scrolling this time in a single line and moving to the left, and not fast...none of them were anything I ever saw before...people and places like photographs..heart rate went up again, and photos sped up and then again it fizzled out.

4. Then I see a wheel like on the price is right and it has movies playing on each screen of the wheel. This was a bit more strange. I willed it to spin so I could see all of the movies. These were of familiar dream scenes. The wheel stopped on a very good looking DC I met at a baseball game about a month ago. He is about 35-40 with light brown hair and beautiful blue eyes. All of these were silent but he was smiling at me and looking right at me. Prior Dream: I was at a baseball game and I was upset about something so I was crying. I could feel the heartbreak but I don't know what it was for, when I sat down next to a guy (same as above) I looked over at him and he looked right into my eyes as if we had known each other forever, and he reached over and wiped my tears from my eyes. I could feel the energy and emotion was extremely powerful. We spent the night walking around the town and I was trying really hard to see how far I could get it go. He kissed me on the lips and flew into the air....hmmm he can LD also....cool.. I chased him but he was much faster than I was and was and he was showing off. I never found him...darn it! I felt like we shared a really good moment.

The frustrating thing about not sleeping is I am not having good dream recall. The strangest part about it is I rarely get more than 4-5 hours of sleep (even though I am in bed 7 hours) and I wake up feeling fine and still run, walk and ride bikes with plenty of energy. I feel as though I rarely really sleep even when I do sleep because I feel I am aware of everything going on around my physical body in bed and in my sleep. I feel I rarely get to a deep sleep. I try to think positive and feel that if I am in a relaxed state laying in bed it is good enough and I will be ok. I have been doing this for so long I guess it is normal for me. You just always hear that you need 7-10 hours of sleep and that just hasn't happened but I am hopeful that day will come. Ahhhhh I can only imagine my wonderful dreams then :-).

I went to sleep thinking about dream recall and wished I could get enough sleep where I could start remembering more.
I was at work when I saw this door that I never saw before so I knew it was a dream but what could be behind the mystery door? Of course I go inside, it is a dark black room which you would expect to be scary but I walk inside and I see nothing but darkness. I stand in there and spin looking for a sign of something and wonder if there could be a message somewhere hidden? I start feeling around when I feel a presence in the room, I can hear breathing and yet I am not afraid, I ask who it is and he tells me not to be afraid, he is my "Mentor" and is there to help me find my dreams. Then he tells me to wish for the "Dream Remote". I open my hand and wish for the dream remote and I see a green glow in my hands, it is a square box, unlike a typical remote. It has glowing buttons and only the symbols for forward back pause and stop. I hit the back arrow button and I see images flying past my eyes like an old movie going in reverse. I stop and it starts playing where I stopped. It was me in my 30's and my kids when they were small, it wasn't a memory so I wondered if it was in fact a dream, then I went back further and saw one of my nightmares from when my son was a todder, I quickly went back more and saw when I was a teenager and I played it for a little bit, I had a white van (which I didn't) and I was drinking and left it somewhere and couldn't find it and the Voice I hear in my dream was telling me this will be what could happen if I don't stop drinking, this happened often where I had life conversations with the Voice, didn't remember that one, rewind more, I see a missile that says USSR on the side of it and it was guided and going up and down over the hills (yep that was a dream that scared my dad because I drew it and he said they really had those but they were new back then and something I drew he said I should not have known about) I often scared my parents with my dreams so I didn't tell them as I got older. I saw several more dreams that I never remembered, then I went to the beginning where it wouldn't go back any further, I saw an infinity symbol with what looked like a sparkler burning in the lines. I clearly remember being a baby drawing with my fingers the infinity sign on the smooth part of the headboard. I try to go back again....nothing. My Mentor tells me that if practice I could combine this remote with my Time Bending skills I could use this remote in my last dream and recall all of my previous dreams of the night in one dream? (Sure that made sense in the dream). I then told him I wanted to see if I could see the future which he seemed curious about so I hold the forward button and I see images going so fast I start to get really hot, it feels I am reliving my dreams in seconds. I get to the end and then go back a little. I see my granddaughter riding a two wheeler (she is only 2 right now) and she falls off the bike and scrapes her knee and I bring her in to clean it up but it isn't my house so it must be a dream, then I hesitantly want to see if I have any future dreams and I forward to the end and see my mom in a casket and immediately feel I should not have pushed to see the future, like I was doing something wrong and when I had that feeling I was sucked through a tan colored wormhole and I could feel the energy building inside of me to the point I thought I was going to blow up, it was so much pressure that I woke up.

1- My husband and I were on a cruise ship early and we were eating food when my husband realized he forgot our dressy clothes. He said we had plenty of time to go back and get them so we got off the ship (Dreaming because I had no idea where home was) and I couldn't find him anywhere. Needless to say I was walking and running through really bad areas that looked like a ghetto when I made it back to our place(dead giveaway it was a dream) we had a roommate. I kept calling my husband to find out where he was and worried if something happened to him, or did he stay on the ship? I mentioned that to the roommate when she acted as though she was shocked we were on a cruise. I was worried about the dogs. I showed her the directions on the table and she said she couldn't watch them. Now I didn't know where my husband was and the roommate wasn't going to watch the dogs, yet the cruise was paid for and I wasn't going to waste it. I teleported there by just thinking I needed to be back on the ship and if only life were this easy we could actually go on vacation haha. I was back on the ship and spent so much time again searching for my husband and never found him. Very loooooong exhausting dream. So happy to have had sleep last night though :-).

2- It was daytime and I was out in the backyard playing frisbee with dogs when I noticed the moon starting to open up (knew it was a dream, but intrigued to see how it played out). Panels were opening up on it and it looked like a big black opening. There were a bunch of spaceships flying around it that looked really long and rectangular and they were all lining up. I call my husband to come see this and tell him he has to just watch and not talk or move. You could hear the sounds of machinery all the way on earth. People started floating toward the moon like there was no more gravity, only it was just the people moving? I looked at him and his eyes were wide, I told him he was in my dream so he was safe. (This is opposite from my usual flying dream, now I had to keep us both on the ground) The dogs were no longer in my dream but my neighbors dogs and kids were all floating up and they went through the pool cage. My neck felt sore from looking up for so long but I couldn't stop watching. They were piling them into the space busses and taking them to the moon. I know I could have probably done a lot with this one if I was on my own but for some reason it felt good to know I kept my husband safe haha.

#1- CAN AM I was riding on long winding roads which seemed like it was the Pacific coast. There were only guardrails and I was high up from the ocean. I was riding a Can Am (two wheels in front) and all alone and really enjoying it. I love seeing the water and I could hear the waves even though they seems pretty far down. I was having so much fun and thinking hmmmm I may need to get one of these, I can shift it easy with paddle shifter. My hands are small so I have a hard time with a clutch on a motorcycle and the three wheels seemed safer to me. I was wearing full leather gloves and immediately thought of the TOTM with the pockets. I reached with my left hand and I didn't feel any pockets. Then I noticed I was wearing rain gear with the letters BRP on them, the pants were elastic waisted and without any pockets? It was sunny out....I started thinking my mind is testing me, so I tried changing my pants with my mind but had no success. I did manage to pull my elastic waistband back and feel with my NOW half gloves with fingers exposed (never actually thought of that one, it just happened) I could feel I was wearing jeans under the raingear so I pulled over. I was going to take off the rain gear since it was beautiful out. I started pulling off the pants when they got stuck on my boots and I fell to the ground. I took my boots off and could only imagine what a fool I looked like. People were slowing down because they probably thought I was stripping. I finally stood up, when I hear my husband jump out of bed. He said he had a crazy dream. Great!!!! Now I missed my challenge lol. I did want him to share his dreams with me and it was a strange one.

#My Husbands Crazy Dream:
He had a dream he was at a co workers house. I will be nice and just say this is a woman he would never be at her house. She probably lives in a really bad neighborhood, we give her items for her house that we no longer need. He was sitting on her couch looking at her tv in a wall unit when everything in the house started flickering and tv was going off and on. He said the house got dim. Then a repair guy came to fix the tv and while he was there fixing it, my husband saw a bunch of ghosts come out and one big one was giving him dirty looks. He could tell he was not friendly like the others seemed. He said the ghost sat down on the arm rest of the couch and said I am real and if you don't believe me touch the back of my neck. My husband reached over and touched the back of his neck and felt sharp whiskers and cold. He said that he was an indoor spirit and he never leaves the house. He told my husband that he is real and he can hurt him and suggested he leave right away. Oh my goodness.

#2 TOTM- My goal was for Basic II because it looked like fun to me. I was at the graveyard to visit my Grandson to bring him the little pumpkin I got him. It was so tiny but adorable. No idea where I got it. I was alone (I never go alone). It was sad to see so many children there but I didn't feel extremely stressed. I had this peaceful sensation, which I have had a lot these days. I was admiring the sounds of the birds and watching the pairs of birds flying together and listening to the wind chimes in the tree, when I felt a flutter feeling in my right pocket. Oh yeah, that made me think of the pocket task! I was a little hesitant to see what it was so I went for the left pocket. I pulled out a little green matchbox car and a tiny spiderman figurine. That seemed very logical to me. I almost expected something else. I placed them down next to the little pumpkin on his marker/stone. Then for the fluttering pocket. I was extremely careful as I pulled out a white triangular box. I could feel it moving, at this point it was really shaking. I opened it carefully and out came about 3 large orange a black butterflies which were flying around me. Then out came the most beautiful green butterfly. Green was my grandson's favorite color :-). He sat on the edge of the box for what seemed like minutes. Then they all flew off together. These kinds of dreams have a lot of meaning for me and it gave me a sense of happiness in a place where I probably should have been sad. I completed my first task which also made me feel excited!

I only got 3 1/2 hours of sleep so no good dreams to report.

1- Just an image of a drawing of a bird that was black ink on white paper and the bird was in 3d and facing me. It appeared to be watching me. As I stared at it the paper with the bird floated away.

2- Another was a fragment of a dream where there was a German lady speaking to me in German, at least I think it was German. It was just one sentence and I tried to remember what it sounded like but that poofed away when I woke up. Swell oon ????? She was light blonde short curly hair and had glasses. Wearing salmon capris with a white shirt and was floating like she was lounging on a couch. Whatever it was she was saying to me, she was trying to get me to listen.

I sure wish I could get back to interesting dreams.
With dreams like these it is no wonder I am always feeling like there are messages in them. I used to have long dreams that were so good I could have written a movie.

I was leaving work and on my way out the door a bunch of wasps were swarming around me and I could feel them hitting me all over, I could hear them buzzing in my ears and my hairs on my body were at full attention, the fear was real, yet they weren't stinging me, I knew with all of these wasps around me one would have stung me by now, when out from behind a tree came a dark figure telling me that these wasps had a very powerful sting and I could send them to anyone I wanted to send them to so I could watch them suffer, instead of going through it myself. I said I could never do this to anyone! I would rather take the pain, I then walked away and never looked back. As I walked around the corner, the wasps were gone and I felt empowered. At that moment, in my dream I had this feeling that our dreams could be testing us for something. Hmmmm.
Now that is yet another take on this and I sound like a total lunatic but is it possible that our dreams are a test? Could we be getting groomed for something? I don't know that I ever used lucidity for entertainment, more for survival and for the purpose of being a better person. I am extremely aware while dreaming and experience a very fulfilled dream life. I have always looked for messages in my dreams as though they were telling me something important. I can tell you from experience that my dreams have prepared me for many tragedies by letting me experience the feelings and emotions involved before the events, sometimes several years before, even though the tragedy is very difficult, I felt I was strong enough to overcome it because I had been there before. There is more to dreams that we know. I know this!