Smudgefish

I was too tired to get up and write my dreams down so forgot loads today.

There was a large container full of slugs, next time I looked it was full of hundreds of baby rats. I like rats so this was a nice thing for me to see. I came back to the container to find the rats had all been drowned and someone had started dissecting some of them, I wondered if it was one of my children, and I was very upset. Somehow I then saw a female vet stood behind a counter and she started crying because all the baby rats had died.

I also remember talking with a friend and the discussion was about how to spell the name of where we went on holiday.

A long boring car journey, can't remember much else.

I was stood in a carpark and saw an old lady on a moped, she sped along then took off into the air over a wall.

I was talking wit hsome work colleges about working nights. Then we were in a room sitting at tables and it was a medical quiz. There was only one other person at my table and we realised that we didn't have a copy of the questions so I went to the front to ask for them.

Standing in our driveway, a mini drove up and through the barn. I found a doorway had been made at the back. On investigation someone had made an illegal milk bottling plant at the back of the barn.
Spent ages showing my dad how they had made special doors to hide what they were doing.

I was doing lots of things around the back of the barn. Then there was a small fire in the roof of the barn I didn't do much about it. it was raining and I was worried the rain would get in through the hole and threw some plastic sheeting over.

Can't remember much else.

- On a bus, I think I was escaping something. Images of a forum discussion but can't remember what I was reading, but something to do with why I was on the bus.
- The bus stopped and I got out. I was in Germany during the second world war and knew I had to pretend to be German or I would get into trouble. I walked quickly and crossed a road dodging several vans and another bus. Then a German officer came up beside me and started talking to me in German, somehow I could understand what he was saying but I can't speak a word of German. I remembered a few words and mumbled and he seems satisfied that I was really not English.

- Then I was in a canteen and there were several round tables. I was with someone (?from school) who sat at one table and I knew that I was not important enough to sit there. I sat at a different table and waited. Then other people arrived and sat down, I think they were people from my school days. I was given a drink but it was only half full and everyone else had a full cup and I thought I didn't deserve any more. The we were given a piece of quiche and it was very tough. I ate mine and my daughter was at the table by now and she tried hers, we were the only two to eat any.

STILL NO MORE LUCID DREAMS!!!

Arrived at new surgery. One doctor commented that he hadn't spoken to me yet and wandered off through double glass doors so I couldn't talk to him. Walked down corridor to my new office a nurse was clearing up a mess in the corridor and I didn't need to help.

Long consultation with female patient I thought I was being very understanding. Realised I was lying in bed talking to her and commented on how unusual it was. Looked at a rash on her chest and tried to scratch it off.

Went to get lunch and returned home. The lane had become a massive roadworks site, I was walking down it. A very small car got under my feet and drove off and in the distance became a normal size again. Couldn't find my house the road had changed completely so went to another house. Looked at a map and realised that the road had completely been erased.

A tiger was in the field so the police were called and they were talkign about shooting the tiger.

As usual I know I had a lot of dreams but can only remember a small part of them.

1) I found myself at a medical clearing station. There had been a chemical incident at a swimming pool. The doctors there were French, and I was taking over as lead doctor, then those doctors left. I was shown some of the injuries, everyone had deep holes where the chemical had eaten into them. I took over and went into a back room and talked with the other doctors, can't remember too much about the conversation, I was looking out of a window and saw some more ambulances coming along the road and wondered why we had not been told to expect anyone else yet. The new patients arrived and I was too busy looking for gloves, the other doctors sorted out the new arrivals and gave them all B12 injections I didn't know why but it looked impressive.

2) Fragment: In a house that was all white and single storey, narrow. I went into a room and hung something up. Not sure how I got there. I remember that there was a field next door and I could see someone doing the mowing at the top of a small hill.

3)Vague memory of having to get back somewhere. Cannot remember anything else.

4)A distinct memory of looking at my hand and seeing 3 fingers. Didn't trigger any lucidity though.

Still no more lucid dreams.

I had my first semi-lucid dream last night, at least I think that is what I would call it.

I can't remember all the details, but I found myself doing stabilisation exercises, rubbing my hands together (although I didn't look at them), then looking at objects around me in detail and feeling them, and remembering to move quickly from one object to another. Then I remember showing someone that I could fly and trying to levitate myself off the ground. Then I became worried that I might wake up and started to become aware of my real body, and woke up.

It wasn't a real lucid dream because I wasn't really in control or fully conscious, more that I felt I was just going through the motions.

Is this a step in the right direction? I hope so.