nightmare

AWAKE/NOTES DREAM SEMI-LUCID LUCID

I had a nightmare today, which is strange I think because I haven't had one in months. I had a bad day yesterday, so maybe that's why I had it, who knows.

I am in a building and I think I am a hostage. I feel very unsafe and scared. I see an open window and jump out. If I am dead they have no use for me. The air is nice and cool, and I feel very relaxed as I speed to my death.

I "respawn" as someone else. I am in an elevator with a few teenagers and I feel uneasy. They make one teenager go out of the elevator at one level and we hear him die as we go up. The teenagers laugh. We get to our level, and we have to tie some people up. I start tying a big guy up but then some people come in and we become the ones who get tied up.

I am lying in a bed, tied up. I want to get out of bed and jump out of the window. There is a guard outside of my room, in the hallway, and when I try to move a pillow falls on the floor and the guard turns around. I keep still and he stops looking at me. Carefully, I get out of bed and go up to the window. I open it and feel the cool air rush in, fresh like freedom and cold like death. It is dark and I can't see what's below me but it is definitely a few stories high. I squeeze myself through the window and fall to my death… but when I hit the ground, it doesn't hurt as much as I thought it would, and I am still conscious. I realise that I survived the fall, and I start running, before someone finds me and kills me. I see some police officers in the distance and I run towards them and they seem friendly, although I am not sure at first. There is one lady police officer and I try to talk to her. She seems to be busy with her own stuff but eventually agrees to help - she tells me a room number. I go into a building and try to look for it. I find my mum in a hallway, and at first she says we can stay in this building, but then she walks down the corridor, sees someone and says we should drive somewhere far away. I go get my shoes and flannel, since it is cold outside, and I try to do this quietly, but then I hear the toilet flush and I quickly hide in a room. I try to hide behind the door, but it slams closed for some reason, very loudly. I put my back against the door to stop anyone from coming in. Someone starts trying to open the door, and eventually are able to come into the room. It is a male police officer, and he has a gun. I try to take the gun or point it away from me but I am not strong enough, and I die and wake up.

This is the first lucid dream that I had on 18-03-2014. It was the start of my lucid dreaming journey, so it is pretty important for me.

I have written that I had a bad dream right before that, I did not write down what it was, but I think I may still remember it. I was in my room and there was this guy who ran up to me with a cheese grater and tried to grate my face off or something o_O I woke up.

I walk out of the car and I have my books and bag ready for school. I am in Russia (I was born in Russia but I do not live there anymore). As I am looking around, I see how much some of the things have changed but some things are still familiar. I think wow, I can't believe I am finally visiting Russia again, usually whenever I am visiting Russia, it is in my dreams. At this point I get pretty suspicious and realise that it is a dream. I am finally having a lucid dream!, I think. Instead of just standing around, I turn away from the car, do a small jump and will myself to grow wings (I wasn't feeling confident about flying without wings) and flew up. I see a forest that I've seen many times in my dreams (it is very beautiful and has different coloured trees) and start flying above it. I start losing control a couple of times but I am just really happy to finally get a lucid dream. I look ahead and see a city in the distance. I really want to visit it and explore the buildings - for some reason all these elements from my past dreams make me feel nostalgic. Unfortunately the dream fades to black and I wake up.

This is a digitial painting of the forest I did after I had that dream.