Tiktaalik

Saying goodbye to my friend
23/06/20
-Vivid - Semi lucid

Im with my old best friend from my teen years and we walk up my current street and to my house as if we’ve been out for a while like old times and the evening is just coming to an end. As we always did we start talking outside my house and not wanting to say goodbye because we’re having such a good chat. I then look up at my daughters window and see my wife is there putting her to bed. I know we can’t talk much longer or we’ll wake her up. We talk a bit longer though and I bring up Lucid dreaming. I can’t remember what we say but I discover my friend is also into it. After a bit I grow somewhat suspicious of something but I’m not sure what? It’s then he says something to me like “You need to think about it and next time ask me the right question”. I look at him confused and feel like he knows something I don’t and is trying to give me a clue. “Wait, is this a dream?” I say and feel amused because we were just talking about it. It feels so real though, I know it’s real but I decide to check anyway. “Do you ever do reality checks?” I ask him and ready my hands but he doesn’t reply. I begin my new routine of hand reality checks and first notice my wedding ring is gone which is odd. ‘Oh I must have taken it off’ I decide. I then open and close my hand. Nothing happens. I count my fingers, there are 5. I count again, I count 6? Thinking I must have miscounted I count again. I count 6 again. I try again and be more careful and this time there is 5, so that’s all clear. I then flip my hand up and down multiple times but there is no change. I then put my hand down and bring it back up again and as I open it I can’t open all my fingers all the way as if they’re broken. “That’s what would usually happen in a dream!” I chuckle thinking it’s a funny coincidence. I then do the finger palm but it doesn’t go through.

Analysis: A very vivid dream, it’s quite vague now when I recall it but at the time it felt so real and I woke up in disbelief that it hadn’t actually happened. It was just like I was in the street with my friend chatting like old times. I miss it and was nice to experience it again. Then there was the reality check. It was weird, I realised something was off but it wasn’t till my friend said that odd sentence that I thought wait a minute? I still wasn’t convinced though as it all felt so genuine. I recalled my new 5 hand reality check practice perfectly but it didn’t work. Even though some of the checks showed evidence I was dreaming I didn’t take any notice of it and carried on as if it was totally normal? I’m really not sure why I couldn’t convince myself? Maybe I don’t expect them to work in waking life so I don’t in dreams either?