lucid

Date: 4/11/2014 (Thu)
Total sleep: 11 hrs
Daytime Techniques: RCs
Lucid Techniques: None
Recall Techniques: None (Sick & on night time cold meds)
Fell Asleep: 8:30 pm
Dream 1 Title: Strange in door amusement park
Dream 1: (Fragments) (Note – I woke up after this dream but didn’t even bother to try to recall it. I dozed back off and then remembered this dream in Dream 2) I am at some kind of strange in door amusement park. There is the ride. I have to climb up a set of metal stairs to get on the ride. It looks very unsafe. I don’t know if I can describe it clearly. It has the same design as a toy called a “wiggle snake” (see picture below).

It is huge and is made of highly polished stainless steel. There is a single seat at each of the hinges. When the ride is turned on it whips around in all different motions (in RL this would cause all the riders whiplash). My wife is there and doesn’t want me to go on the ride because it is too dangerous. I tell her not to worry. I know this is a dream so I can’t be hurt (yet I wasn’t lucid). I get on the ride. The seat is tucked into what looks like a large stainless steel cup that just fits one person. The ride goes out over the crowd below (about 40 feet above the people. I can see tables with people eating, and many people standing below the ride. The ride starts and it just moves around (forward, to the right, back to the left, then back…and repeat) very slowly. The ride is completely lame! I am annoyed and can’t wait for it to end. **Jump** I am now in a food court. My wife and daughter are with me and we are waiting in line to get some food. I am happy because they have organic beef hotdogs which I love. I wake up.
Dream 2 Title: LD# 60 Neighbors removing trees (**Lucid**)
Dream 2: (Note: I am sick with a bad cold. I took some night time cold meds last night and slept about 11 hours. My wife slept in another room. She came into our room to get some cloths at about 6:30 am and woke me up briefly. I dozed back off and had this dream.) I am in my house, except it isn’t my RL house it is my parent’s house but I believe it is mine. I know my daughter had a sleep over with some friends last night and they are all down in the basement. I walk to the basement door, open it and walk down about five steps so I can see into the basement. It looks just like it did back in the 80’s when I lived here as a teenager. There is orange carpet on the stairs and floor. There is an old TV and TV stand in the right corner. I see the girls lying on the floor. All of them are covered by blankets or in sleeping bags. I go back upstairs and close the door. I walk over to my wife, who is looking out the front window. I can see the house across the street, which also looks like it did back in the 80’s. It is pink (it is tan today). There is a large black pickup truck, which looks very shiny and new, parked with its tailgate facing us. There is a business name and logo on the tailgate but I don’t bother to read it. The front of the truck is right up against one of the large maple trees in front of the house. I realize that the neighbors have hired a company to remove some of the maple trees in their front yard. I can see a large set of yellow painted metal hydraulic claws attached to the front of the truck. I realize they are going to pull the tree out by its roots. The claws close on the trunk of the tree and the truck begins to back up. The trees is easily pulled from the ground and it falls backward onto the roof of the truck, but the top of the tree falls into my driveway and on top of my car. I am very angry. I am going to go over there and demand they pay for the damage. I am looking at my car, which is under leaf covered branches, and suddenly I realize it isn’t my car, it is a smaller black truck with large hydraulic claws on the roof. The claws close and take hold of many of the branches. The two tucks then begin to drive away with the tree. I decide to go outside and take a look around. I walk out the side door and into the front yard. It is a perfect summer day; warm, clear blue sky, everything is green as far as the eye can see. I see the large whole in the neighbor’s law from where the tree was pulled up. I look at some of the other maple trees and wonder which of those will be removed next. I walk across the front yard to the other side of the house. I walk down to the two car garage which is under the house (looks just like RL). There is a regular door between the garage doors, I walk to it and open it. The garage is full of old junk. I continue to walk through the garage to a second door which leads to a storage room (it still looks just like RL). From that room I can get to the area where the girls are sleeping. Just before I open the door to the storage room I notice my cat sitting near the left wall of the garage behind some of the junk. I open the door to the storage room when suddenly I have a flash memory of a previous dream (Dream 1). For some reason I think that I was lucid in that dream (I was close, but not quit lucid). I think, “I had a lucid dream and forgot about it. How could that happen???” I stop and realize this is not my house, it is my parent’s house. Then I think, “What if I’m dreaming now?” I look at my left hand and count my fingers: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7. I yell “Hey! I’m Dreaming!!” I am lucid. I walk back to the garage door, through which I entered, grab the knob and try to turn it. It doesn’t move because it is now locked. I turn the latch to unlock it and try again. The knob still won’t turn. I say out loud, “This is my dream and this door is unlocked.” I try again and it opens easily. I walk outside. It is like the vividness level has been turned up 1000 fold. The colors are brighter, the detail is amazing. I revel in how beautiful everything looks. I am walking toward a line of maple trees to my right (which aren’t there in RL) and see my cat sitting on the grass. I say, “Hey Punchy! I’m Dreaming! Come on boy!” He ignores me (just like RL). I decide to fly. I take two steps and do a little hop into the air. I am gliding slowly toward the trees and end up under the branches. I turn to my left and glide slowly out into open space. I look up and see a brilliantly blue sky with just a few small puffy white clouds. In a small space between the clouds I can see a few stars. Then I remember my goal of flying into space (which really isn’t a goal any more). I start flying faster straight upward. I don’t feel like I’m flying very fast so I say out loud, “This is my dream and I can fly much faster!” I thrust my arms out in front of me and kick my legs a bit and my speed picks up, but not by much. I still have my eyes on the sky. The blue begins to disappear and more and more stars become clear until the sky above me is full of so many stars that it looks like I can see the entire galaxy. It is so amazing I can’t fully describe it. The dream fades quickly and I open my eyes. I do a RC and I am awake. I need to start working on DEILD. I really field that if I had kept my eyes closed and stayed still I could have reentered that dream.
Awake: 7:30 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = D1 = 8; D2 = 14
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 8; D2 = 9 then Lucid
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 15 min; D2 = 10 min
Emotions: Excitement; Annoyance; Happiness; Anger; Extreme Joy (when lucid)
Dream Signs: Strange amusement park, Dangerous ride, back in parent’s house, Strange machines to rip out trees
Notes: I am coming down with a bad cold. I am taking zinc and vitamin C. I took Alka-Seltzer Plus Night Cold & Flu Formula at 7:20 pm. I headed to bed at 8:15 and was asleep within 15 min. I didn’t do any meditation, visualization, mantras, or any other LD techniques. I did wake up after 2 dreams and didn’t even try to recall. My wife came in the room to get some cloths at around 6:30 am which woke me up. I dozed back off within a few minutes. Then I had my LD. I also remembered a previous dream in the dream that became the LD.

Date: 4/8/2014 (Mon)
Total sleep: 6.75 hours
Daytime Techniques: RCs, Visualization, Awareness, Mantras
Lucid Techniques: Mantras, Meditative Visualization, Reading Dream Journal
Recall Techniques: Meditative Visualization, Mantras
Fell Asleep: 10:00 pm
Dream 1 Title: (Fragment) Bike Ride
Dream 1: I am riding my old BMX bike along the main street of my town. I am with a friend (but I don’t know him in real life). He is wearing a white t-shirt, blue jeans, and dark blue Converse sneakers. He is riding in front of me on a red BMX style bike (the rims have regular spokes). It is a warm summer day. The trees are covered in green leaves. We swerve off the road onto a dirt path which leads behind a chain link fence on our left. I can see tall green grass on both sides of the path, and taller grass around the fence. The fence is old, the galvanized steel has grown gray with spots of rust. We peddle up a slight incline and I can see a sharper incline (about 10 feet high) in front of us. We stop at the bottom. I know the incline leads to rail road tracks. I know we are trying to get to the high school and the tracks won’t take us there. I say, “I think we should go back and stay on the street.” The dream fades and I wake up at 4:15 am.
Dream 2 Title: The Moon Makes Me Lucid (**Lucid**)
Dream 2: I am in my old house, the first house where I lived with my wife and daughter. I am lying on a mattress, under a white comforter. The mattress is on the living room floor near the large front window. The room looks very similar to reality. I can see the yellow painted walls, the white painted steam heater in front of the window, the light colored wood of the hardwood floor, and the large white framed window. I can see the reflection of the moon on the shine of the hardwood floor. Something doesn’t feel right to me. I roll over onto my back and see my wife next to me, on my left (which is the wrong side of the bed for her). She is snuggled under the blanket so I can only see her wavy blond hair and her face from the nose up. Behind her I can see my daughter laying on the floor under a white blanket. Beyond her I can see the fireplace. I turn back to the window. Outside I can see the large maple tree and beneath it the low stone wall. I can see the neighboring houses beyond the tree. I look upward and see a brilliant moon between the bare branches of the tree. I still feel that something isn’t right. I stare at the moon. It is very bright and much larger than I have ever seen it. I can clearly see the craters on the surface. As I stair I start to wonder if I’m dreaming. Then the craters begin to shift and swirl. The bottom section of the moon begins to disappear. Then I remember that I was back at my real home, in bed, just a little while ago. I am lucid without a reality check. I throw the blankets off of me and stand up. I am no longer in the living room. I am now out in the front yard, but the mattress, my daughter, and the fireplace are all there as well. My wife and daughter are sitting up and looking at me. I say, “I’m Dreaming!” Neither respond. I remember my goal to fly into space, but I don’t remember to stabilize the dream. I also remember that last time I tried to jump to fly it wake me up. I levitate off the ground and float up into the tree branches. I’m annoyed as the branches poke me and I worry I will get tangled. I float away from the tree and begin to fly upward. I am feeling such joy at being lucid again. My eyes are on the night sky, which is now overcast. I will myself to go faster, I want to hit supersonic speed and leave the atmosphere as quickly as possible. I can feel the wind on my face and the g-force increase as it pushed the skin on my face back. I can still only see the clouds and darkness above me. I worry that the dream is going to collapse so I decided to look down at the ground so I have something more upon which to focus. I awaken. I am back in the front yard of my old house laying on some blankets. I am no longer lucid. I can clearly see the yellow vinyl siding, the white framed windows, the stone steps leading up to the white side door, the large front window, and the bushes. My wife and daughter are there and are picking up blankets and clothing off the ground. I get up and begin searching for my notebook so I can write down my lucid dream. I am looking under cloths and blanket, but just can’t find it. I’m very annoyed because I don’t want to forget the dream. My in-laws walk out of the door of the house and into the yard. I say to my mother in lay, “I just had a lucid dream.” I start to explain the dream to her, but the dream fades and I awake. It is 4:47 am.
Awake: 4:47 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 5; D2 = 12
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 5; D2 = Lucid
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 2 min; D2 = 10 min
Emotions: Joy, Annoyance, Worry
Dream Signs: Riding old BMX bike, Being a kid again, Back at old house, laying on a mattress in the living room/font yard
Notes: I took magnesium before bed. I read my dream journal, meditated, visualized being lucid in a dream, stated my intent to wake up after each dream and remember my dreams, and repeated my mantra before I dozed off. I did wake up several times after 4 of my dreams, but couldn’t recall the first 2. I did not get frustrated by the lack of recall. I reminded myself that I am in the early stages of learning and I will continue to improve. I stated my mantra each time I awoke until I dozed back off. This LD happed exactly like my recent ones. I woke up after 4 am from a dream. I made some mental notes about the dream. I stated my mantras as I dozed off. Then, while I was dreaming, my awareness was much higher. I could “feel” that something wasn’t right. Then something trigged me to remember being back in my RL bed shortly before the dream. I do need to work on stabilizing the dream. This particular dream hasn’t left me with as much of a “high” as other recent LDs. I feel it is due to the false awakening. The lucid part of my dream doesn’t feel as vivid to me because I didn’t come straight from lucidity to being awake. I have to work on RCs after all awakenings.
I am going to change my goals for LDs. My #1 priority is to get lucid as often as possible. The experience of being lucid is the best way for me to have more LDs. When I am having them more often then I can start setting goals for what I want to do in the dreams. For now I just want to stabilize the dream, explore and do what I feel like at the time. I just want to gain more experience.

Date: 4/4/14 (Thu)
Total sleep: 6.5 Hours
Daytime Techniques: RCs, Visualization, Text Search
Lucid Techniques: Mantras, Meditative Visualization
Recall Techniques: Meditative Visualization Mantras
Fell Asleep: 10:00 pm
Dream 1 Title: Aimless wandering
Dream 1: I am walking up a low grassy hill with my wife. We are walking to the mall together. I am wearing a long black trench coat. **Jump** I am at the mall and I am in the kitchen area of a restaurant. Lisa from work is there. She asks me if I need help with anything and I say no. There are stainless steel cabinets and counters all around me. They are covered of boxes, cans, bottles and kitchen utensils. There is a large gray plastic trash bin, with wheels, right in front of me. I look in. There are a few boxes, and beneath them are a bunch of cookies. I see some cookie that are cupped, and in the depression is yellow filling. I know they are lemon and really want to eat some. I reach in to take some, but realize they are in the trash and that would be disgusting. I walk out thought a set of swinging doors and find myself in a local mall. I walk to my left, not paying too much attention to anything. There are people all around. I notice a pretty woman pushing a baby carriage and stop to look at the baby. She gives me a dirty look. I feel embarrassed. I quickly turn away and walk into the store to my right. Then I realize this isn’t a store but a daycare center. I know I shouldn’t be in there because you have to sign in before entering for security reasons. I quickly leave. **Jump** I am sitting in the sand of a beach, but I can’t see, hear or smell the ocean. It feels like I’m on a movie set. But, the sand feels nice. It is warm and very dry. Then I notice a bundle of sticks sticking out of the sand to my right. They are sticks which would be used for beef and chicken skewers at a Chinese restaurant. Then I see pieces of meat clinging to the sticks. I am disgusted. I look around and there are many more around me, sticking out of the sand. I realize I am sitting in the middle of a garbage dump. I jump to my feet and begin to walk away. The dream fades and I awake.
Dream 2 Title: Sleeping in a warehouse (**Lucid**)
Dream 2: I am in some kind of small warehouse. The floors and walls are cement. There are tables and chairs set up. There is a small stage. There are miscellaneous items (boxes, bins, boards, etc) that you may find in a warehouse pushed up against the walls. My wife and daughter are there. We find seats at a large round table (seats about 8 people) as more people start to come into the room. Everyone starts to take their seats. A woman comes in and goes up to the mic on the small stage. I realize she is a comedian. She walks out into the audience and is talking but I can’t make out what she is saying. She walks to our table and put’s her hand on my daughter’s shoulder. She gets up from her seat and walks with the woman. I assume she is going to go up on stage as part of the act, but instead the woman escorts her to another table. I’m confused by this. I realize I am sitting on a couch and I lay down on my side because I’m feeling tired. I see my wife get up, walk over to the table where my daughter is now sitting and sit next to her. Things start to fade out as I feel I am falling asleep. I open my eyes and the show is over. I am still lying down with a coat covering me. I look over my right shoulder and see Maggie (a woman I used to work with over 10 yrs ago). I say hi to her. She says Hi back but is looking at me funny because I am sleeping during a show. I sit up and look for my wife and daughter, but I realize I am now shirtless and only wearing athletic shorts. I see my wife and daughter about 20 feet away, they have their backs to me. I notice my daughter has much more hair than in RL, it is up in a ponytail and hangs to the back of her legs. Someone behind me playfully wraps his or her arms around my neck. I don’t know who it is. I move toward my wife and daughter and the person continues to hang on. My wife turns and smiles. The person lets go and I turn around. It is a young man who I don’t recognize (in the dream or RL). He is about my daughter’s age, with short red curly hair and lots of freckles on his face. Behind him a see a large metal sliding door which I know leads out of the building. Something is feeling strange about this situation. I walk to the door. Suddenly I have a shirt on. I know I was shirtless seconds ago, and I know something isn’t right. Then I remember I was awake in my bed just a little while ago, and having a lot of trouble falling back to sleep. I am lucid without doing a reality check. Everything around me, colors and details, become more vivid. I am surprisingly calm. (I completely forgot to stabilize) I grab the handle of the door and slid it open. There is an alley before me with a one story brick building to the left and a wooden stockade fence to the right. I walk out into the ally. About 20 feet down the alley is a maroon dumpster and standing hear it is a woman. She is taller than me (probably 6 ‘6”) with dark black wavy hair that falls below her shoulders. She is wearing a puffy white long sleeve shirt, a long black skirt, and tall black boots. She reminds me of a gypsy. I walk towards her. She turns and smiles at me. I smile back. I say, “I’m dreaming!” She continues to look at me but her face morphs. Her cheek bones and jaw become more pronounce and the shadow of beard stubble appears. She is now a man dressed like a woman. I ignore this change knowing this is just a dream. I decide to jump over the six foot fence to my right. As I jump I remember my goal, and drop back to the ground. I know I want to fly into space and view the earth from orbit. I look up at the sky, which is brilliantly blue with no clouds. I turn back to the man/woman and say “Do you want to see something amazing?” He/she nods. I look back to the sky and it has changed. It is a swirling mass of deep purple and blue with millions of stars and galaxies. I pause for a moment to stare at this amazing sight. Then I squat down a bit and give a tremendous leap…but my real life legs respond and jerk which immediately wakes me up.
Awake:: 4:00 am then dozed back off around 5 am and awoke at 5:15 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 6; D2 = before lucid 8, after lucid 13
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 4; D2 before lucid 8 then Lucid
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 20 min; D2 10 min
Emotions: Disappointment, Fear, Embarrassment; Disgust; Happiness
Dream Signs: In strange places (restaurant kitchen, day care center, warehouse, beach, etc), person from my past, daughter with long hair, some kid I don’t know hugging me from behind)
Notes: I woke up after Dream 1 just before 4 am. I have pain in my neck. I lay there recalling my dream for a few minutes. I make mental tags. But then I realize I’m probably not going to be able to fall back to sleep. I then jot my tags down on my notebook and lay there thinking about my dream and trying to remember previous dreams from earlier that night. I glance at the clock at 4:32 am. I start meditating (breathing, clearing my mind) in the hope of falling back to sleep. I glace at the clock at 4:53 am. Then I ended up in Dream 2, but it was a very light sleep right on the verge of waking up. In the dream I completely forgot to stabilize. I’m sure that would have helped.

Date: 3/28/2014 (Thu)
Total sleep: 6.5 hours
Daytime Techniques: Text Search, RCs, Visualization, Mantras
Lucid Techniques: Mantras, Visualization
Recall Techniques: Mantras
Fell Asleep: 10:00 pm
Dream 1 Title: Weird South Park Cartoon
Dream 1: I am in a strange house with my wife. She is very upset. We had a contractor cut an area in the floor and install a set of stairs to the basement. To do this they had to cut a large hole in our hardwood floor. He cut it unevenly so there is an area with exposed brickwork that is very old and ugly. I can’t blame her for being upset, it looks horrible. **Jump** (3rd person perspective) I am watching a South Park style cartoon. There are three characters (Brad Pitt, my wife, and another one who I didn’t recognize) and they are dancing around in a cartoon apple orchard. Suddenly Scionox’s (From DV) avatar (a black dragon) comes onto the screen and starts chasing the characters. They act comically scared and run around the orchard. Then they all run off the screen. I wake up.
Dream 2 Title: Breakup in Hawaii (**Lucid**)
Dream 2: I am in a hotel room with several women I used to work with 10 years ago; Judy, Coleen, & Cindy. My long term girlfriend is also there (whom I don’t know in real life). Everyone is sitting on the floor and we are having a pie tasting party. In front of me are several pieces of different types of pie on white paper plates, with white plastic forks. I am handing out the pieces to people. I am hoping there won’t be any pie left when I’m done passing them out because I am trying to not eat sugar (this is a RL habit). When I am done passing them out there is one piece left for me. It is a large piece of apple pie. The crust is golden brown and I am dying to have some, but I resist. Coleen says, “Come on! You need to have at least a bite.” I just shake my head no. My girlfriend brings in a pot of hot cider and we start handing out styrafoam cups filled with cider, with a red plastic coffee stirrer in each. After a short time the women decide to leave and I am very happy because I want to have some intimate time with my girlfriend. I lay down on the bed, which is in a corner of the room. My girlfriend, who is a slim woman with brown shoulder length hair, (I don’t know her name, but I know that we have been dating for years) comes out of the bathroom. She is wearing blue jeans, a brown leather jacket, white t-shirt, and has a large brown leather bad hung over her shoulder (I know it is her overnight bag). She has her car keys in her hand, and I know she is leaving to go sleep with another man. I say to her, “If you leave it is over.” She replies, “Fine.” and walks out the door. I am devastated. I can’t describe how horrible I felt. It was just too real. I actually felt like a happy long term relationship had just ended because she wanted to be with someone else. I get up off the bed, walk to the dresser, and grab my car keys and my hotel key card. I just want to get out of this room. I need to just walk. Go out the door, which leads directly onto a city street. There are tall buildings on both sides of the road, and many cars parked along the street. I am lost in my despair and not paying attention to anything. I turn left and begin walking down the sidewalk, with my eyes down. I can feel the keys in my left hand and the key card in my right. Suddenly I decide to turn around and walk the other way. I look up, and directly in front of me at the end of this seemingly endless perfectly straight street, is a beautiful sunset. For the first time I also notice there are palm trees along the street. I realize that I am in Hawaii. Then something clicks in my mind! I remember being awake, at home, in my own bed, just a little while ago. I can’t actually be in Hawaii if I was just home sleeping. I am lucid without doing a reality check. The despair I was feeling moments before is completely washed away by overwhelming joy and excitement. I remind myself to stay calm. I look down at the keys in my left hand and am amazed at how realistic they look. It is like the level of vividness has increased one thousand fold. I look back to the sunset, and the vividness has amplified dramatically. It is indescribably beautiful. The sun has just slipped below the horizon. There are thin clouds reflecting brilliant hues of orange, mixing with the oranges are shades of purples and pinks. All of this is reflected brilliantly off of the buildings, which are now all made of mirrored glass. I think, “My God I wish I could take a picture of this and bring it back to real life!” I pull my eyes away from this amazing site and turn around to look down the street in the other direction. The building end about 100 yards away, where the street ends at an amazing beach. There are palm trees to the right and left of the last buildings and a long expanse of beautiful white sand ending at a perfect ocean extending to the horizon. I have completely forgotten about my goals. I want to experience swimming in the ocean. I jog down to the beach. I slip my keys and key card into the pocket of my swimsuit (which I am now wearing) as I run. I can feel the warm sand between my toes. I run straight into the water, which is as warm as a nice bath. A large wave is heading right for me as I reach waist deep. It washes over me and feels amazing. I swim deeper under the water and can see with complete clarity and just continue to breath as normal (no fear of drowning in a dream). I see a small school of angelfish . They are vibrant orange with vertical purple stripes. The vividness is amazing. They begin to shift colors from orange with purple stripes to purple with orange stripe and back again. I laugh under the water. I am filled with such joy. I swim to surface. As I come out of the water I find it is late dusk. I am back into waist deep water. I see two beautiful women walking out of the water, both are wearing wet white t-shirts with bikinis underneath. The urge for sex takes over. I walk up to one of them. She is in her 20’s. She is tall (about 5’ 8”), with long wet blonde hair. I take her hand and we walk out of the water onto the beach. Her friend just walks away from us. I take hold of the bottom of the t-shirt , pull it over her head, and toss it onto the sand. Her bikini is a brilliant sapphire blue. She has an amazing voluptuous body and very large breasts. I reach around to untie her bikini top, and with a seductive smile she says playfully, “No, no, no.” I respond, “Yes, yes, yes.” The dream quickly fades away and I awake. I do a RC by looking at my clock…but I am actually awake.
Awake: 4:30 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 7; D2 = 15
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 6; D2 = Lucid
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 3 min; D2 = 6 min
Emotions: General happiness, Utter Devastation, Indescribable Joy
Dream Signs: Cartoons, my wife is a cartoon, someone cutting holes in our floor, people I worked with 10 years ago, a girlfriend who I didn’t know (didn’t even know her name), not text anywhere.
Notes: I didn’t take any supplements last night. I purchased “Creative Visualization” by Shakti Gawain and started reading it last night. I used my typical visualizations, mantras, RCs, and text searches during the day and before I fell asleep. I awoke from Dream 1 and lay in bed trying to recall as much of the dream as I could. When I looked at the clock it was 3:35 am. I worked on recalling the dream for around 10 – 15 min. I then ran my mantras through my mind several times as I fell back to sleep. So, essentially, I did a short WBTB. Also, just prior to becoming lucid I was in a heightened emotional state (despair). I have found in the past that heightened emotional states contribute. Also, I was sleep deprived from the previous night. I awoke from Dream 2 at 4:28 am, and felt so high I wasn’t going to be able to go back to sleep. So that means this is 2 nights in a row of sleep deprivation. However, I don’t feel tired at all because I’m still riding the high from the lucid dream. . I am a bit disappointed that I didn’t remember my goals, but it still was a great LD.
Text Search Experiment: (Day 5) I paid close attention to text all day yesterday. I repeated my mantras as well. I didn’t notice text in either of the 2 dreams recalled from last night.

3/16/2014

Note: I started taking magnesium, B-5, & Chorine supplements, on 3/15, hoping to enhance dream recall. So last night was the second night of taking them.

I got to bed late last night, shortly after midnight and fell asleep easily.

Dream 1 (Fragment): I remember searching for Lorene (The mother of a girl who plays on my daughter’s soccer team). We were in an astronomy class and I had to tell her about light pollution.

Dream 2 – LD #56 “Bed in the middle of the street?”: The first thing I remember was being at a house that resembled the house I lived in with my ex-wife. In my head I knew I currently lived there with my current wife and daughter. I am standing in the driveway. There is a latter that extends up to the first of 3 balconies (one above the garage which is the first floor, one on the second floor, and another on the third floor (In real life there are no balconies, and the house only has a first floor). I am very annoyed that the latter was left out because it is a danger to my daughter and her friends. My daughter is there and I ask “Where is mom?” I know that my wife left the latter up and I am very annoyed with her. **Jump** I am at school (which I know is high school). The building is huge and actually resembles a casino I’ve been too in the past. At one point I am walking around with friends. I find myself sitting in a folding chair in the middle of a hall. I am waiting for my wife to bring me my suit because I have to attend a funeral. The funeral is for someone close to me and I am very upset (I suspect my father has died, but not 100% sure). Ashton Kutcher comes up to me. He is trying to cheer me up. He shows me his fake ID which is a picture of a ID on a coffee mug. I tell him to leave me along. I realize my wife has forgotten to bring my suit to the school and I am very angry. I get up and start walking to class. I see the principal (who is actor Tim Russ), who is reprimanding some kids for hanging around in the hall. I hear the bell ring and know I am late for class. I further realize I don’t know where the class is located. The principal comes over to me and starts reprimanding me. I collapse to the floor sobbing from all of the emotional stress (father died, wife didn’t bring me my suit, can’t remember where my class is located). He begins to rub my back and tell me it is ok. I shut my eyes tight. **Jump** I open my eyes and I am in bed (False awakening?), except it isn’t my bed. I am laying on a mattress in the middle of a street. I pull back the blankets (white sheet and bright red blanket). I notice my wife sleeping next to me, snuggled under the blankets with her back to me. I also notice that I was sleeping on the wrong side of the bed. I stand up, and can feel the rough pavement under by bare feet. I know something isn’t right and do a reality check. I look at my left hand and count my fingers. I count to 7 and more fingers keep appearing between the ones that are already there. I’m Lucid! I remind myself to stay calm. I look around and see it is a beautiful summer day. The sky is blue (I did not see the sun), the trees are covered in amazingly green leaves, the air is warm. The colors and details are so much more vivid than real life. I am on a neighborhood street, with lines of houses going off to my left and right as far as I can see. There is a house directly in front of me and it resembles the house I used to live in with my ex-wife, but isn’t exactly the same. I begin to walk through the yard of that house. I try to remember what I’m supposed to do, then I recall I need to engage all 5 senses. The yard is very overgrown with grass and weeds, but they are all beautiful. I begin touching the plants. I start talking to myself out loud for hearing. “I need to engage my senses.” I lean in close to a group of weeds. I say “This is amazing!” The leaves were light green with streaks of pink. I say “I’ve got sight, sound and touch…I need taste.” (I have completely forgotten about smell) I remember what I need to do. I say, “I will just taste those blow pops that were dropped here last Halloween.” I then turn around. There is a low cement wall behind me with long grass on top. Among the grass are two blow pops, one is green apple flavored and the other is strawberry (I know this by the wrappers). I pick up the green apple flavored one. I can see the front door of the house, which leads out to a small porch. My ex-wife walks out (she looks just like she does in a recent picture of her I saw on Facebook – she hasn’t aged well). She says “Hi!” She seems excited to see me. I say, “I’m dreaming!” She responds, “Impressive!” as she turns to head back into the house. I am walking backwards down a low grassy hill to another street. I remember my goal for my lucid dream (to fly into space and view the earth from orbit). I yell, “HEY! Come out here!” She turns and comes back out onto the porch just as I step onto the street (again I can feel the pavement under my bare feet). I say, with a huge smile, “I’ll show you impressive!” I am just about to take off at supersonic speed (Man of Steel style)…the dream ends abruptly and I open my eyes. I do a quick reality check, by looking at the clock and looking back (the numbers didn’t change – 6:28 am). I was too excited to go back to sleep. I took my notebook and left the bedroom to write some notes (I didn’t want to wake up my wife).

Recap: This is the first LD I’ve intentionally had in several years. I am glad I had a planned goal to keep me focused. I am also happy that I remembered to engage my senses prior to fly. But, I forgot about the sense of smell. I also note that is was strong emotions which lead me to realize something wasn't right, which then lead to a reality check.

1/6/2014

LD #55 - Desperate for a BJ

Weird night sleep. I woke up at 3am and didn’t fall back to sleep until around 4 am. In my dream I am on some kind of college campus. There are building all around, it is winter and it is night. I realize I’m dreaming.

Spoiler for Sexual Content:

I start looking for a woman to give me a BJ. I find one woman sitting on a couch in one of the building. I walk over, lay down on the couch in front of her and gently pull her head down. She starts and it feels very good, but then I have a false awakening back outside on the campus. I still know I’m dreaming and go looking for another woman. I find one laying in her bad, in her dorm room. I get into bed with her and gently pull her head down. I have another false awakening. I go to another building. I find an older woman sitting in a chair. I stand in front of her and gently pull her head to me. She starts and it is feeling good.

My alarm goes off.

1/16/2013

LD # 54 HUGE Penis

So I woke up and used the bathroom at about 3:30am. I went back to bed worried I wouldn’t be able to fall back to sleep. Suddenly I find myself back in the bathroom and I’m naked.

Spoiler for Sexual Content:

I walk by the large mirror over the sink and to my pleasant surprise I have a huge erection. I actually say “Well Hello!!” out loud. It had to be over a foot long and as thick as my wrist. I look down at my huge penis and lean down to look at it. It is so big it reaches my face easily. I realize that this isn’t reality and without a RC I am lucid. I then do what, I believe, most men would do…I begin to perform phallacio on myself. As I’m doing this I glance at myself in the mirror and notice I have about 3 days worth of stubble on my face. I continue to perform on myself, and it feels very good, desperately trying to bring myself to orgasm..but I can’t seem to get there quick enough.

I then wake up.

12/31/2012

LD #53 Wife tells me she is lucid dreaming.

In my dream I was working at a Target, and I was very behind on my work and very worried I was going to lose my job. At some point I end up in a room that looks similar to my basement. My wife comes running in the room and says, “I’m lucid dreaming! Look I can fly!” She levitates off the floor and begins to fly slowly around the room. That moment I think, ‘If she can fly than I’m dreaming!’ I’m lucid without a RC. She lands and I run over to her. I grab her by the shoulder and bring her face very close to mine. I say, “Are you really dreaming? Are you really here? I’m dreaming too!” I stare into her eyes. I am hoping we are sharing a dream. The dream fades out and I wake up. (I spoke to my wife, and she did not have a lucid dream last night.)

12/7/2012

LD # 52 Going to miss my flight!

I know I’ve had at least 2 other LDs this past year that I didn’t record and have forgotten.

In my dream I’m at an airport waiting for a flight for a business trip. The airport looks more like a farm (old rundown) and I had to walk across a field of long grass to get to the actual airplane. So I’m walking to the plane when I look down and notice I’m barefoot. I’m annoyed, then suddenly I realize I forgot my ticket and I won’t be able to board the plane. I start to freak out. I’m thinking that I’m going to miss the business trip, my company paid over a thousand dollars for the tickets and I am going to have to pay that back. Out of desperation I do a RC just hoping that I am actually having a nightmare. I look at my left hand and count 5 fingers. OH NO!! But I double check (as I often do in RL). I look at my right hand and count my fingers, and I have 9!! I am incredibly relieved and I’m lucid!. Then I decide to fly. I jump into the air superman style and fly upward (a bit too slowly) about 50 feet. I then jet off to my right at a good speed. I fly near some power lines and dodge around them. I notice a train (a new high speed train) speeding along on a raised track to my left. I decide to catch the train and land on its roof. I jet towards it. I catch up to the train, but have to bank left to line up with the direction it is going. My banking doesn’t work well and I drift as I try to turn (like being in a car that is sliding on ice). I bring myself to a stop and am about to jet toward the train…when everything fades and I wake up.

1/13/2012

LD # 51 Mutant Chickens

In my dream I’m in my own kitchen and there are bags of frozen whole chickens on the counter. I think to myself “I better get these into the freezer before they thaw out.” ( I have a large freezer in my basement.) I take two of the chickens in my arms and walk down into the basement. I open the freezer door, but before I put the chickens in I notice they look funny. They have several long spider legs sticking out of their sides. I drop the chickens in surprise. I then notice the freezer if full of plastic bags with giant spiders in them, and the spiders are alive and moving. I try to close the freezer door but suddenly it is too small and I can still see the freaky spiders moving around inside the freezer. Suddenly I realize something isn’t right. I look at my right hand and I have way more than 5 fingers. I’m lucid! I stop and look around and revel in the how real everything looks and how my mind created all of this. I remind myself to stay calm and head up the basement stairs. But before I can get out of the basement I wake up.

Wow! I’m only calling this 2 LDs, but I did 3 separate RC’s so technically it could be 3. Plus I just hit 50 LDs!!

LD #49 - Invisible Car & Nose Hair

In my dream I’m at my friends’ house visiting with John and Dave. The house looks just as it did back in the 80’s. Their mother is there and she tells me it’s time for me to go home. I walk out onto the front lawn, and it is night. In my mind I knew I had parked my care on the street in front of the house, but it’s not there. I worry that it was stolen. I look up and down the street and my car is no were to be seen. I take my keys out of my pocket and push the unlock button. The tail lights of my car flash red, right where I parked the car, but the rest of the car is invisible. This strikes me as funny. My car is invisible??? I wonder if I’m dreaming and look at my left hand. I count 8 fingers. I’m Lucid! I walk out into the street and levitate about 20 feet off the ground. I look around and there is my wife’s house (the house she lived in from childhood through her early 20’s). I fly over to the second floor window. The window is open so I fly right in. There is my wife, in bed. I walk over an pull down the covers. She has on a tiny white t-shirt, which barely covers her breasts, and white panties. Her body is amazing…she looks just as she did as a teenager. I climb onto the bed and begin to pull off her panties…the dream fades and I wake up in my own bed. I’m very annoyed. I roll over and look up. There is a mirror where my headboard should be. This doesn’t strike me as strange. I look at my face in the mirror and to my horror I have hair growing all over my face. The hair growing out of the tip of my nose is at least six inches long. I grab the hair and tug on it. I think “What the hell am I going to do with this hair??? Shave it?? Wax it??? Then I realize this must be a dream. I look at my hand and count 8 fingers. I’m Lucid again! My wife is lying right next to me. I pull down the covers and she looks exactly as she did prior to my false awakening. I reach over and touch tight abdomen. She is soooo gorgeous. Her body is so perfectly toned. I slide my hand down and begin to remove her panties when the dream suddenly fades and I actually wake up.

LD #50 - Blue Briefs

In my dream I am at a college. I am in a large classroom by myself. I am cleaning up the classroom. There are old papers all over the place. I am picking them up and stuffing them into bags. At one point I stand up and bump a table. A large glass of some dark liquid falls over and splashes all over my cloths. I’m very annoyed. I strip down to my underwear, and notice I’m wearing skimpy blue briefs. Suddenly, the room is full of students and a professor. (I’m in class in my underwear, what at cliché). The professor yells out, “What are you doing?” Everyone in the class turns to face me. I am completely embarrassed. I turn and walk out of the room into the hall. The hall is full of people. I take a deep breath and say to myself, “You look good, this is no different than a man wearing Speedos to swim. Just keep your head up, take pride that you are in good shape, and get to a bathroom as quickly as you can.” I walk down the hall until I find a men’s room. I go in, but it is a room full of men waiting to go into another room. The other room is the actual bathroom, which is full of children. I think, “Oh my God. I can’t go in there with a bunch of kids I’ll get arrested for being a pervert!!” There is a man standing next to me. He is a short guy, with dark thinning hair. He is giving me a dirty look. I think to myself, “God I wish this was a dream!” Then it dawns on me that this might be a dream. I look at my left hand and I have 2 thumbs and 8 fingers. I’m lucid! The first thing I do is levitate about 4 feet off the ground, turn and kick the man next to me right in the face. He flies backward. I drop to the floor and walk out of the room to the hall. I head back to the classroom, smiling at everyone I see in the hall. I get back to the classroom and jump into the air, float over to my seat and drop into it. My buddy John is sitting at a desk behind me. He says, “Vib! You look great! Every girl in here is checking you out!” I glance around the room and he is right. There are at least 10 beautiful women in the room and they are all looking at me with admiration in their eyes, and all are wearing seductive smiles. It the front of the room is a gorgous redhead. I smile at her and coax her to come to me. She walks over and sits down in front of me. I take her hand and kiss it. I can feel her hot skin against my lips. Suddenly the dream fades and I wake up.

11/13/2011

LD #48 - Talking to Trina

This was a strange one. I don’t remember much of the overall dream because I didn’t write it down as soon as I woke up. I just fell right back to sleep. In my dream I suddenly realized I was dreaming without doing a RC. I remember looking around and briefly admiring the amazing reality my mind created. Then I walked over to a very thin blond woman, who was sitting cross-legged in a hole. The hole was a natural hole with gray stones on every side. She was wearing a green robe. Her hair was long, straight and very light blonde (golden) Her face was strangely thin. Her chin was too pointed. Her eyes were large and light blue. She had an ethereal quality to her. I crawled down into the hole, squatted down in front of her and asked for her name. She replied, “I’m Trina Brown.” Trina Brown was a woman I knew back when I was married to my ex wife (more than 10 years ago). I haven’t seen her since prior to my divorce. I responded, “You’re not Trina.” She replied, “Yes I am.” The dream faded out and I woke up.

10/31/2011

LD # 47 – Jump in the pool

Unfortunately I can only remember a limited amount of this LD because I didn’t wake up immediately after the dream.

I’m in a large mall with a lovely dark haired woman. In my dream this woman wants to date me, but I’m not sure if I want to be involved with her. The mall has many levels and I am on the top level. There are railings all around and I can see down 4-5 stories. I’m not sure what triggered me to do a RC, but I look at my left hand and count 8 fingers. I am lucid, and a bit shocked that I am dreaming. I jump up onto the railing and easily balance. 4-5 stories below me is a huge pool of water. I turn to the dark haired woman, hold my hand out to her, and I say, “Come on, let’s jump.” She climbs up on the railing. I smile at her and then leap off the railing. I can feel my stomach drop as I plummet 40-50 feet. I hit the water and sink 20 feet under the surface. The water is warm like a bath. I look up and can see thousands of bubbles moving toward the surface. I marvel at how real it all looks and feels. I lose lucidity at some point and the dream continues, but I don’t remember anything else.

6/11/11 – I know I had a low level LD, but I can’t remember the dream.

6/16/11- (not LD, but interesting) I’m in a dream walking up Upland St and I ask myself, “Am I dreaming?” I look around and everything looks just like real life, so I disregard. I then end up at the golf course, which again is covered in at least 20 ft of snow. There are deep paths carved out, like streets, and there are people everywhere. This is very similar to another LD I had. The dream gets pretty cool after that….My fiends Rich and Mike B had lost tons of weight…I was with a woman who was making statues come to life…the female statues wanted to have sex with me…very interesting.

6/26/11 – LD # 46 - Did I poop the bed???
So, my wife had an LD on 6/25. In it she was trying to find a bathroom and having trouble. She finally found one and began to pee. Suddenly she noticed something wasn’t right and looked at her hand. She had too many fingers. Then she woke up and realized she actually pee’ed the bed. In my dream I was on a college campus. At one point it was winter and I was searching for something to use to go sledding. I ended up in a bathroom because I had to go. I dropped my pants and noticed my penis was hugely swollen. I wondered if I could find someone to have sex with and try out my enormous girth. I then sat down on the toilet to poop. Across from me was a mirror. I looked at my face and I looked like an alien. My skin was its normal color, but my cranium was bulbous. My eyes were too big and my hair was like peach fuzz. After a moment of looking at my face, and actually pooping, I realized something wasn’t right. I looked at my left hand and I had 12 fingers. I’m now lucid and I remember my wife’s LD. I am now horribly afraid that I pooped the bed in RL. I need to wake up right now. I look down at the floor, which is bright yellow linoleum, and yell “Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!” I do wake up and I did not actually poop in RL.

5/28/2011

LD #45 – Fountain on the golf course

In my dream I was at home, at an old house I use to live at, and needed to get to work. A 1970’s white Cadillac pulled up to the house. I knew it was my ride to work. Joe (a guy I went to high school with) was driving. I knew I hadn’t seen him for many years and was very excited. I said, “Joe! It’s been a long time. How’s life brother?” He went on to tell me that he works for a company that sells store brand canned vegetables and the company is struggling because of a new canned veggie company. We are driving along and we pass the golf course. I notice a huge fountain in the center of the golf course. I know it doesn’t belong there and suspect I am dreaming. I look at my right hand and count 8 fingers. I’m lucid. I am very surprised and excited. I marvel at how realistic the dream appears. The inside of the car is so incredibly detailed. I am completely amazed that my mind is creating all this detail. I look at Joe and laugh. I yell out, “I’m dreaming.” Joe answers, “You’re dreaming?” I say yes and order him to do some donuts with his car. He doesn’t hesitate. He cuts the wheel sharply to the left onto the golf course and does several donuts on the grass next to the clubhouse. I can feel the centrifugal force pushing me against the car door and laugh with joy the entire time. The car stops and I jump out and jog toward the clubhouse. I want to get something to eat in the restaurant (there is no restaurant in RL). The dream fade and I awake. It’s 4:20am.