non-lucid

I'm forgetting how some of these dreams start. I can only remember a few. I'm inside a music shop, one that I thought of. The music store was filled with so many different types of musical instruments but the only instrument I was interested in was the piano. The piano was all I could play while living in my house.

This store looked a lot like the one near the park where I used to walk whenever I found curiosity in the city. I imagined it while dreaming. This place was also seen as a dangerous part of town if you're walking alone. I never liked this place in real life or in this dream. But this music store was the only interest I had while dreaming and while I was dreaming of it, I thought of my beautiful piano. I never actually played one in the dream but I thought of it.

As soon as I was done finishing up, I walked in to the back room of the store and begin making an exit towards the waking life. The next room I entered was very quiet, not for long though. I saw one of my favorite rappers who is obviously Eminem! Well, at the time he was only Slim Shady. I also saw one of his friends, I think it was Proof too.

It is sort of hard to explain this next part. Eminem wanted to make a song about his father at the moment, a good song, and they were performing the song now. Proof was in the background while Eminem was moving his arms gangster style. This whole thing was all inside my head. I saw a screen of them both performing it but never saw it in that room.

When the dream ended, I realized I was now in a paralyzed state. I noticed because I felt very sleepy at the time. I was laying in bed thinking it to be real until I found out I had no power to move my feet. I was in fear and it only got worse when I felt a sensation of an upcoming terror entering the room! I tried my whole best to get up from bed. My eyes begin to close and the more they tried to close, the harder it was to try and stay in the position I was. After this, I woke.

I had just fallen asleep with the idea that 2013 will be no different than 2012, it was a bad year for me. Me and the rest of my classmates were back at that same area where one of the doctors had to inject a needle through me. This time it was different though. I felt no happy emotions throughout all of it. These feelings scared me. It was depressing!

Me and the rest of the class started to work our way through a narrow hall down to the next station. There was no other classrooms in front of us, so that was kind of strange. I can only remember stopping once. I sort of smelled like a wet dog at the time, so I didn't want any of the classmates around to smell me. I tried my best to keep my distance from them.

Okay, that seemed to be it for that part. There is another scenario that came along with it so I'll just include that one with this one.

It was on a dark, lonely street. It was way past our bed time and being out here was very dangerous! Me and my family were walking down streets trying to find our home. We were all at a distance from each other at the time. While this was happening, I could only recall the horrible experience I've been through last year(beaten up while walking alone to see one of my friends). I have always hated to feel like it, especially loneliness. I began to shudder at the darkest parts of this street. I had no choice but to continue my search for home.

I did run in to a few obstacles on the way. I ran in to an old man throwing some kind of fireballs on to the street I was on. Me and my father watched this man feared this man would've throw one at us. This other older man had a routine on where he would through the "fireball". He only threw it on the street. Oddly enough, my father walked past around the circumference of the landing zone on the street rather than simply walking on the front yards of homes. I did the same, it only took me longer.

Once I got past that, a new fear entered my mind. I finally reached the end of the street. I was standing on the spotlight of a street light. I took the street to my right and continued walking, leaving my family behind. I was now alone which meant danger.

Luckily, I reached one of the wide roadways, so if I got attacked, people would see. I was walking in the same direction from when the dream started now. I slowed down my steps. I saw a little boy a few meters away from me. He had seemed to be lost. I walked past him and heard a scream come out of him. The boy yelled out once he saw me right past him. I don't remember much of what he said but he said something about being afraid of me. I told him not to be afraid, I would not hurt him. Then a few seconds later, I see this young middle aged man in a car's passenger seat staring at me. He just kept looking at me. It was as if he though I would kill the boy. :/

The dream would end here but there is another part I'd like to mention. A part that saddened my mind.

I appeared in a car this time. Some woman was driving me to places I've been to before. She had no problem driving me to places. It felt like I was lucid dreaming sometimes too but it didn't feel like I had much power controlling it.

She brought up Pacific High School. "You wanna go to Pacific?", maybe worded a bit differently but that's what she said. She drove me over to Pacific but I knew it was a bad idea to go back there again. That was what is bothering me. I'm not sure if I want to go back there again. I finished high school two years ago, but I still dream of this place! But going back there meant I could probably see my old friends again, possibly even Quynh, when she wasn't such a bitch. Still, this woman took me to this school I gained some awareness there or at least I thought(I kept asking the woman dreaming questions when we got there). But when we got there, I was spectating the whole thing from the top of the school. From there, the school looked a lot like a medieval palace.

So anyways, I woke up after this and saw the Christmas in front of me. It was a sad year for me but I don't plan to keep dreaming about Quynh as much, but if I do, it'll be the only place where I can believe she loves me too, well, after I kill her once in the dream.

The first thing I could remember is becoming a helper at a kid's school. An instructor escorted me to the room filled with young kids between ages five and ten. This classroom was very small and had an irregular shape. I noticed that the floor had black and white square shaped tiles. I stared at the floor and only felt a sense of calmness enter inside of me. The classroom was filled with about ten kids but I don't recall any of their faces. I do remember walking around the classroom observing it. I did feel a little optimistic working with these children. Then I woke up.

I'm laid under the covers on my bed in a very comfortable position. I was also very sleepy and didn't feel like getting out of bed. At times it felt like I went to sleep for a minute and then woke up. I laid there for a few more minutes and heard some weird noises entering the room. I closed my eyes and started to feel something scary coming up to me, like Spider Man. All of a sudden I hear a loud scream in front of me. I covered both my ears with my hands but the screams still annoyed me.

I continued to go through this for about 3 more times. I'm guessing it was sleep paralysis, so I just tried to remain as calm as possible. I thought about trying to go to sleep to see if that can get me a lucid dream but when I did, I woke up.

It was a long dream. I'll first start out with the area where it all started. Me and the rest of my classmates were on a field trip exploring the city we lived in. We first explored the one area where I get up in the morning and take early walks, the church. It was the Catholic church and all we did here was just hang around. I was with another friend. Like most times, I don't remember who I am with.

I was standing next to this student and I just stared at the bell on top of the church. I thought of possibilities to get on there to feel just like Ezio or Altair from Assassin's Creed. I was afraid of being on there though because I have a really big fear of heights.

They day was getting dark but not for long. Me and the rest of the class walked through another building near the church. Once we walked through the building, the scenario changed. We were no longer near the church, but we were in an area I've been in before. It looked a lot different from the last time I came here. It was a school, an elementary school. I never thought of exploring the areas on this school, so I followed my classmates instead and made our way through the cafeteria.

It was a good experience visiting this place again but the more I thought about all this being a dream, the more worried I was that I was going to wake up. Following my classmates led to a whole new area. This time I was back at my old elementary school. We were at the back of the school visiting other kids from this school. The area was full of kids and teachers and although I can't remember some of their faces, it was still a great feeling to be back here again.

There was an area I wanted to explore but didn't here. It was the location where students would tell stories of murders in front of the school playing field. The area was lonely at that moment thought, so I never walked there.

There were so many kids here at the moment that I lost track of my classmates. This was where I felt strong about my lucidity. Me and the rest of the class made our way in to another building. In this building there was more classrooms with more students in them. I can tell that this whole dream was a field trip to other schools.

I walked around the classroom and found some things of interest. Because this was a lucid dream, I thought it would be a good idea to pull out a few words from it. I looked at the walls in the classroom and eventually found a map with the names of countries. The words were hard to read and I noticed that only some parts of the map were marked with country names.

After a while of being inside this room with all these students, I walked out the nearest exit that lead me in to a narrow hall. I sat there waiting for the rest of the students to walk out. The room appeared to be a calm one. I felt so relaxed. Abigail came out of the room and had told me that the class was already on their way to the next room. I walked down the narrow hall to my left and stopped when I saw a waiting room. In this room I saw a few other classmates relaxing in it as well. The teacher was probably waiting for us in the other room.

I exited the waiting room and walked across in to another room, through another building where the rest of the class were waiting. They were waiting for me. I walked up to one of the teachers and tried to figure out what was next. I did see my old science teacher, Mrs. Kelly. They were waiting for me to take a few syringe shots. I'm not sure what the effects were. One of the instructors here called me over to a seat. I listened and sat down near her area. As I was seated, she gave me a red colored syringe and I wondered what it would do. The woman had another syringe in her right hand though. She pulled it out and struck me with it in the neck. Once that happened, I had a feeling of wooziness. It wasn't a bad feeling but I was afraid of what I would end up being. Then I woke up.

I was at it again. Quynh is still haunting my dreams with feelings of suicide and murder. I'm sitting in front of my kitchen table, staring at the memories when me and Quynh were arguing over our friendship. We recently stopped chatting on Yahoo but I thought of others ways to gain back friendship in the dream.

I was losing myself and never knew when to give up on this girl. I messaged her in the dream and sent her a few photos of different areas of the world. I'm not sure why. She sent back a message telling me she didn't want a virus opening up one of my letters.

I turned around and stared at the front yard in front of me and wondered what this feeling felt like and why it felt so sad while I was thinking. I heard my mother in the next living room and it only made it worse because the more I saw her sitting on that couch on this boring day, I wanted something bright to come my way.

I later appeared in my own room, thinking. The room was dark. I laid upon my bed and thought more about Quynh. There was only one option I was able to perform to get rid of these thoughts. I wanted to kill Quynh and commit suicide. It was the only thing I felt was something to wait for. Then I woke up.

I had this dream more than once. It's the same classroom just different teachers. As a matter of fact, I don't think there was an active teacher here, only me and several other students. It was Pacific High School and I sort of thought I would forget about this school. Nothing much happened in the dream besides talking to fellow classmates. I was happy but it's all I could remember. The classmates were strangers I've never seen before, though there was only one male student I think I met somewhere before. I want to say someone I met on the streets while walking but, I know his face from a very old classroom I walked in to before...

I'm somewhere in the same city I grew up in when I was a kid. I was no where near my home but I was somewhere near a friend's house. Her name was Trinh. I've only seen her face in a few dreams before. I felt like I've been here before. This place looks a lot like a dream where I once became lucid by noticing the no need to catch my breath after a long run.

At first, it made no sense to me what I was doing here. I wasn't here for long. I got teleported back to my old home in the same city. I don't remember much from being in the house once I teleported but, I do remember the time walking outside.

I was hanging around outside waiting for Trinh, me and her are going to walk together back to her home. I was in this area for a while until someone finally decided to show up in front of our house. The people who arrived were a few of Trinh's friends, and her. They came in a car. I fell to the ground once I saw them. I'm not sure why. I laid with my face towards the ground, looking at them. I saw everyone come out of the car and walk straight towards the house in the neighbors house. I saw Trinh walk in as well. I assumed she didn't want to go walking with me anymore. I didn't know what to do. It felt as if I was of no importance to her.

I got back up from the ground and walk over to my right, the garden. From there, I thought of another idea. Perhaps Quynh would like someone to walk with. After all, she is going to walk down this street in a couple of minutes. I noticed that my relationship in these types of dreams, Quynh was always my friend, never a stranger. I never did take a walk with her. I woke up instead.

I'm back home with the family. I'm just outside the home property where I used to live. The day is barely about to begin. There is nothing down this street. Just like my other dreams, this area was always the place where it felt alone. I wandered around this area until I found something to entertain me. There was nothing much I could find but, there was a car that drove past me. I never followed any vehicles down this street but maybe this car could lead me somewhere more exciting.

I followed the car and before I know it, the scenario of the neighborhood changed! The buildings around me turned in to skyscrapers and all the areas began to stretch out! I followed a crowd before me. It was a crowd of friends who held guns to fight against an army of people. These enemies we were fighting were not very strong. They often hid behind walls and on tall structures above us. Me and my allies walked through them and shot every man we saw. It had a Call of Duty feel to it. There were times where I almost got shot but I did my best to dodge, duck and roll to avoid the bullets.

We reached the corner of the enemies' territory and found a civilian resting place. Me and my team walked inside and observed the building. At first, I had no idea what is was but something told me the entire area we were in, was about to be blown to destruction. There was a rare chance for us to live. I told the rest of my teams to hurry up and prepare for an escape on what we believed to be a plane but was actually just the inside of a building. I walked around and found an area where I wanted to sit. I saw a few people here and all I can tell from remembering, they didn't looked so confident. Before I could do anything else, I woke up.

I'm in front of the danger zone(a big red circle that indicates it just like in Assassin's Creed). There is someone I'm talking to. I'm assuming it was an ally because they were telling me to be careful as I try and attempt to make my way in to the danger zone. The more this ally told me about the enemy, the more I feared going in there. There was nothing I could do but have the courage to complete the job.

I decided to flank the enemy by going to the right side of the map, jumping and climbing through through buildings. It was fun but as I kept going through a few buildings, I feared one of the enemies would catch me. I finally stopped climbing and jumping until I came to a corner and stopped. In this corner I saw a circle to my left and as I got closer to it, the circle started to shrink. I'm guessing this is where I must make an entrance. At first I was just going to go in without any disguise but soon found out I can get in to a disguise. I knew this because before I walked in to the danger zone, I killed an enemy wearing a funny devil-like costume. There was even a cut scene that shows me, or Ezio, killing the human with the hidden blade.

When I soon made my way in, it now turned in to a Hitman Absolution/Assassin's Creed game play. I had to hide in crowds to make sure no one would notice me. There was a crowd of 4 people I moved in to and while I was in it, one of the guards found the body of the person I recently killed and searched it. As that happened, I quickly walked in to a dark corner right across the dead body and crowds. There was a set of stairs I walked up to. When I did, I found a room of a friend I recently met in the dream. In this room, there was a video recording setup. To my left, I found a window which viewed enemies outside. I decided to sit down for a moment and try to see how to get the video on a camera to show up on the television. I was struggling. But eventually, something happened. I heard a door opening behind me. When it opened, it was only my two sisters. They scared me for a second there.

When my two sisters walked in to the room, I was talking to them. I didn't tell them what I was doing here but there was one person who made it in to the dream to try and make me feel guilty some more. It was her again, Quynh. Quynh walked past the room we were in and as she past it, I only stared at her and thought, "What the hell is she doing here?!" Even when I stop my conversations with her in reality, I still see her in dreams. I hear her speak a few words but they only made me angry. If I remember correctly, I think she said, no wait, I forgot. :/ But she did say things like not having anyone to love, how good of a life she has, and how happy her life is without me. All of which made me mad. My two sisters tried to cheer me up(knowing there was something wrong with me) by telling me Quynh has a big chin and lives on the corner of 19th street. I think I only remember this stuff because my niece tells me this all the time in real life when she sees me sad. Then the dream ended.

I fell asleep a few minutes after feeling sleepy and cold in front of the computer. I made my first appearance inside a car parked on the street my home was in. My parents had just left the car to get something from our home next to us. I sat in the front seat waiting.

I wait a while inside the car until something happened. The car suddenly turned on and the car was about to start by itself. I panicked! I quickly grabbed on to the steering wheel but as soon as I did, the car started to move backwards . I tried to control the wheel, so I wouldn't hit any houses on the narrow street. The car continued going faster. I stepped on the brakes but the car kept on going! I was doomed. I was always afraid of driving cars in my dreams. I was never sure why. Probably has to deal with how I control things in real life? Anyways, a few seconds later, the car backed up so much that I hit a tree at the end of the street. I was relieved I didn't die. Now it was time to go back home.

When I finally got back to my home, I don't remember how but, I was now inside the living room of the home. It was dark. There was a few other people in the living room at the time. All of which I've never met before. I seemed to have some kind of long relationship with them in the dream though. The light was on in the middle of the room and all 4 people(including me) were gathered around looking at some of the family photos we had on the table. I was the only one standing up and watched as my supposed father handed me pictures to look at.

It was a calm night and nothing strange really happened. The only person I remember from this scene was the father. He was about 60-80 years old. So an old man. There was one strange thing that did happen that I never noticed. All of a sudden, the family inside the living room were all crying because they had just realized that the father is dead. I was confused. I took a moment and went with the flow and cried. I cried a lot for a man I didn't even know. However, someone did manage to wipe those tears away.

A few seconds after the crying, I started to realize that the dream appeared a little foggy. I performed a technique I learned before from a page here on Dream Views. It was the rubbing of hands. I rubbed both my hands together to make the dream clearer. After that, I noticed a little bit of awareness of being inside a dream. I used this extra time to summon someone whom I hold close to my heart. I immediately thought of my old friend Quynh. I faced the living room closet right next to the bedroom, and tried to summon by calling out her name and believing she was beyond the bathroom in the hallway. I walked behind the corner of the hallway and saw no one there. I attempted it one more time, but this time I extended my arm.

I walked over and faced the closet, turned around with my right hand behind me and I yelled out, "Quynh!" in confidence. A few seconds later, I felt a touch. A hand. When I turned around, I saw Quynh! I would've never known I'd see her at this time.

I got closer to her but as I did, she suddenly went on running towards the two rooms in the back. I held on to her and noticed a change in her appearance. She was synchronizing in to her self like in Assassin's Creed. I followed her over to my parents' bedroom and noticed her crying. She was crying for something. She was heading towards the room in the far back but I grabbed her shoulders with both of my hands and turned her. This was not Quynh. Yeah, she had Quynh's old clothing from high school but the face of the girl in this dream was the old girl I liked back in middle school. Why? I was disappointed that I never got to see her this time.

Although, it was not Quynh, I still had some affection for this beautiful looking woman. She was crying and all I wanted was to try and make her feel better. I felt as if I had to help her out, so I can stop seeing all of these tears coming out of her eyes! It was heart breaking. I slowly walked her over closer to the hallway but stopped just before that. I stared at her and watched her cry a bit more. "Why are you crying?" I asked. She had her eyes closed and spoke out, "I'm pregnant!" I then woke up, wondering what it all meant...

I first appeared in a casino. I'm walking around the casino game rooms looking for my family. There were several people around the halls and rooms. I don't remember hearing any noises. I walked around the casino searching for any of my family members. I only found one. It was my older sister, looking for the rest of the family too. We both decided to split up and look for them together. She walked towards the direction behind me and I walked towards the direction behind her. I continued walking until I came to a big, noisy hall filled with people. Most of which were laying on the floor or sitting on it. I didn't know what was going on. I met some people and shook some of their hands, I even made a couple of friends. But after this, something totally strange happened. The scenario changed and I was now in the backyard of the home I lived in. There was some kind of a party going on, with some people I have never heard of before. Most of these people were teenagers around 15 years of age. There were also a group of little girls hanging around the front porch of the home.

I walked around the home to see if I could find anything of interest. I found a group of teenagers, so I decided to hang around with them. There was this kid I told something to. As we were walking to the front yard of the home, I had told him how boring my real life was. I also mentioned how much better a dream world was. I tried my best to not wake up. Still, I wasn't sure if I was lucid. We stopped right in front of the home porch and found the group of little girls. One went running up to me and hugged me. I was hoping she wouldn't bite me. I felt as if I saw this little girl on television before. I heard a noise behind me coming from the garage. It was my father closing the front garage door. There was something I needed in there or just a place I wanted to hang around in.

Me and the group of teenagers walked towards the front yard and I noticed the time of day was bright. I was still able to see things and people clearly. I was first hopping around the front yards to see if there was anything in other yards of other homes. I was using matrix wall abilities to run on the sideways of walls. As I was jumping and running, I did find a home which looked interesting. There was a dalmation dog in a backyard. It was just looking at me. I stared around the area it was in and felt it would be a bad idea to go there. Perhaps there was something else lurking within.

Me and the teenagers were in the front yard for a few minutes longer. At one point, I yelled out saying, "Who's dream is this?" I kept on yelling it until I got an answers. I had no clue it was my own dream. I stared at the street in front of me and saw two cop cars pass by observing our actions. The front gate was opened. I walked in front of the gate and stared at the narrow street. I found two girls walked down towards our location. I did not know who one of them was but the other one, I remember. I remember her from piano class my senior year of high school. Her name was Valerie. I walked slowly towards the street and rushed up to Valerie and confronted her. I grabbed each of her shoulders with both my hands and asked her, "Is this your dream?" I shook her. I kept on shaking her until I received an answer. She was trying to escape. I carried her by force over to the home I was in but I was struggling. A few dogs were after me. A pit bull was one of them. Once the pit bull got a little close to me, I grabbed its upper and lower mouth and stretched them apart from each other and broke the mouth. I continued carrying Valerie over to the house. The pit bull was still alive. I hurried over to the house as fast as I could and when I finally stepped in to the property, I closed the front gate. I left one of the teenagers outside the property though. As I was locking the gate, the pit bull was attacking the teenage boy. I watched the scared teenage boy as he struggled to get himself loose of the dog.

I carried a bucket over to the front door of the house. The bucket was supposed to be Valerie. I carried the bucket all the way in to the room I lived in. The house was dark, so I had to be cautious. I brought the bucket in to my room and closed the door behind me. I turned on the lamp next to my bed and struggled to turn on the fan lamp. I couldn't turn it on. I quickly walked over to the box(now it was a box), but noticed the area around me was still completely dark. I ignored it and as soon as I got in front of the box, I always had a thought that Micheal Myers was behind me. I ignored those thought and slowly opened the box. Before I got it opened, I woke up to a phone call ringing in the living room.

So I'm back again after a while of spending time on Facebook. I start out in an abandoned building/backyard of my home place. I'm confused to why I am here. I don't remember much of what happened but only a person. I remember Quynh, right after I just ended a deal both of us made in real life. I had not hate for her in the dream, but I still did love her and was willing to do anything to take her back in to my life. I was standing around the abandoned building, below the room I lived in. Quynh was in front of me, or I felt as if she was. It could have been the feeling I have when ever I chatted to her online. She told me something. She brought up the time back when I used words of hate and jealousy before our conflict towards each other started. She had said something about the tears I gave her that day we first hated each other. I woke up a few minutes later, realizing she will never grow up and forgive me for what happened a long time ago. I already tried.

It is noon, probably a few hours after it. I'm living back at home with the family. I've got nothing going for me but the smiles on my families and few friends. Speaking of friends, I had a few over this time, two of them. Quynh and Janna. Well, more like people I used to work with in piano class. I'm not sure why though. I'm in the backyard without a shirt on just trying to enjoy what I could do while Quynh was here. I'm a skinny guy, so it's embarrassing to walk around the home without a shirt on. I still had that same feeling of loss though. Quynh was next to me, watching me. I cannot believe she is here. I figured I would've been lucid. She looks so beautiful, not by the way she wore things but her being here is the biggest thing I could ever ask for at the moment. I feel a little sense of depression though. Her face gives off some kind of a "bore" feeling. I want to try my best and please her but I don't want to come off as too much. Or maybe this is just the way she is. I walked her inside the backyard door in to the house and escorted her in to the living room where my parents were both watching television. I left her there for a while. I decided to walk over to my younger sisters' room in the back and see what she is up to. This room gave off an old feeling of one of my recent dreams. My sister was on the laptop, just relaxing. I sat down on the couch in front of her, just sat there and thought of Quynh being here at my home. I'm addicted to this girl. I'm not feeding off the old memories in dreams to try and find a view of better life but, I'm going to keep on doing it until this all really means something. I walked over to my room next. I saw my older sister. She's using the computer as well. I sat right next to her and talked. As she was using the computer, she asked me, "Why is she here?" I stared at her for a second, then left the room. I walked back over to the living room and saw two of the girls in there. Janna was watching television and so was Quynh. They looked very bored. And so, this is where the dream ends.

I'm back at home, wandering around the yard. It was a dark time with an atmosphere so creepy I didn't dare to see what was outside the borders of my home. I felt like I had this dream before. I can remember feeling trapped and the only way out was to kill the enemy. But this time, I had no idea of my enemies' location. Instead, there was a friend with me. Her name was Trinh. The old side of her, not when she started showing hate towards me. We were both roaming the side of the house, deciding how we're gonna end each others' memories. Our memories were hidden inside an Enderchest. It was a sad moment for the both of us. I watched as Trinh destroyed our memories inside the chest. She cried for a bit after and then the dream was over.