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Got Lucid via WILD, but since my dream stabilization is dogshit I decided to just stand in my room(the place where I always start) and touch things to stabilize. The good news is that the dream lasted for about 3 minutes. But I could barely see out of my eyes. It was like only one was halfway open.

Somehow ended up in a lucid dream this morning. I was riding around in my car wondering something until I realized I was dreaming.

Gotta break out of the habit of changing my technique when I'm in a dry spell. I so wish MILD would work, because the setup seems pretty easy but it hasn't and it won't for whatever reason. Lying in bed with a "Clear,Quiet, in the moment" mind and waiting for sleep to overtake me has been my best entry into lucid dreaming. A notable thing I remember from the lucid dream was that it was very cold. I did my very best to stabilize the dream with hand rubbing but it only prolonged it another 5 seconds or so.

Had a dream this morning where the singer for the band Seeded Crown(aka Calm; aka Phoenix Rising), was calling me out for liking his band. He said that Nu Metal was a stupid genre and had a stupid sound. The dream featured me at my old elementary school playing the bass line of one their songs titled "For What It's Worth"; the chorus specifically. Interestingly enough, I had figured out that bass line a few days ago and have been experimenting with it. I was shredding that bass-line in the dream.

Had a dream where I was graduating college in the spring and thus was surrounded by many empty seats since all the cool kids graduate in the fall. I saw my parents there and also saw some old school chums there. There was a woman holding a baby who was urinating everywhere.

The dream shifted to me traveling through this dark forest. I found a nest of baby squirrels and hit one of the pups with a dirty rag. The mom came out and attacked me repeatedly. Later in the dream, there was a monster that grabbed me. I beat it to death with my fists.

Got to sleep paralysis, messed up the transition. Just slept through since I rather not lose sleep anymore over a failed attempt. Better luck tomorrow.

Had a more stable lucid dream this morning. Walked around an empty neighborhood. Didn't see anybody. It was weird because I felt the sleep paralysis kick in. It was cool. It feels like you can't move your body at first because you're scared of waking up but then you feel your dream body become loose. All you do then is just get out of your bed and walk around.

Before that, all I did was lay back down to sleep and imagine what it would be like to have a clear mind. I mentioned in previous entries that meditation was the holy grail of lucid dreaming. The end goal of meditation is to have a clear present mind that enables the dreamer to observe hypnagogia. I found a short cut where instead of fighting to clear my thoughts, I just on what it would feel like, look like, be like to have a clear mind.

I'm pretty much at that point where I can lucid dreams everyday now providing I get enough sleep the night before.

Cleared my mind and watch the hypnagogia. Had a pretty empty lucid dream. My best dreams are always non-lucid.

Had a lucid dream, woke up, went back to sleep for a non-lucid dream. It appears I may have to meditate every time I want to go to sleep. Also, experimenting with having a Clear Mind.

I feel like I am past the point of trying to "get a hang of" lucid induction. My next goal is dream stabilization and lengthening. I woke up in early part of the morning to meditate like I usually do. My meditate was different in that instead of merely focusing on the breath, I began to watch the images produced by the mind's eye. This takes a quiet, focused mind because the images are extremely faint and distance in the field of vision when the eyes are closed. Another detail to note that images were "elevated". Instead of the images being parallel to the eyes, they were more parallel with the forehead so naturally, I raised my eyeballs upward to observe them. Which is strange because these aren't real images, merely generations of the mind. Yet, I couldn't help but observe them as if there was a distant movie screen raised behind my eyelids.

The effects were strange to say the least. My awareness felt muted and quiet as my awareness was focused on the mind's eye. It was like I was in a dark room inside my head. Well mind you I sleep and meditate with earplugs. After doing this for about 15-20 minutes, I went back to sleep. Before I got into bed, I had a strong sense of confidence that induction would be effortless because I had done it a dozen times before plus I had good feeling about the meditation. So I lay in my bed I do the same meditation exercise I was just doing. I don't know how much time passed but there came a point where I pushed my awareness into the dream world. It really felt like that. At first I am just observing the images in the mind's eye, then I am trying to push into to them. Next thing I know, I have my hands on the top of a metal fence and I am ready to hit the dream world.

I go outside to try to find Naomi, the dream character. Don't find her. Walk down my street and walk into this little house with two dogs; one which tried to bite me. I'm lucid so I used telekinesis to toss the dog aside. I meet these two men dressed in elaborate robes. I ask one of them dressed in red and has horns, "Have you seen a woman with grey skin and braids?"

All I remember was the man chuckling.

Woke up to find out I was only asleep for one hour. I'm pretty sure some more stuff happened but I have been lazy with my dream recall. I got back to sleep and have a very action packed dream about fighting Anakin Skywalker with Rey and Obi-Wan. LUL.

Meditated during WBTB period. Just focused on breath and nothing more. Lied on bed and focused on relaxation while focusing on the breath to keep mind awake. Essentially the same technique used to astral project. Body went numb, got out of bed. Got outside, saw dream character and.....that's all I remember. Either the lucid dream or the recall is ending so soon. I don't why I can't transition into at least a 15 minute dream. I rubbed my hands and even touched everything in the dream.

Next time, I am just going to stand in my room during the dream and focus on anchoring. I am not going to move until I finish anchoring and the dream is completely stable. So far I had two lucid dreams in three days. I am very close to lucid dreaming at will if I can just get the stabilization and the meditation down.