[The following isn't explicitly sexual, so I hope it doesn't contravene any rule of this forum...]

I've recently had several non-erotic but sexual dreams that have left me feeling low about myself and my ethics.

In one of them, a girl (not anybody I've ever met, I think) was tied naked to a cross. Her nakedness wasn't particularly interesting or arousing to me in my dream –*I don't remember that I bothered to look at her breasts or her genitals, for example. I approached her and penetrated her. Although she didn't cry out or try to struggle it was obvious from her expression of hate and contempt that it was non-consensual.

Whilst I'm not religious (at my most religious I'm Agnostic) I have a very strong sense of ethics, and when I woke up I felt very low about how I had acted in my dream.

About me: I'm male, heterosexual, in my thirties, English, and a virgin (I've not yet been able to become good enough to even date!)