20.10.2009 The Thing, Michael speaks (WILD)
NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID
The Thing Again
I went to Morrigan's room, and she was sleeping. The creature was hovering over her, mumbling to itself, "yes... and now you dream... sh, now dream." It chuckled to itself, a gurgly disgusting sound.
I grabbed its shoulders, it felt like it was wearing a velvet coat. I turned it around to face me. I looked into it's horrific hole-face. "Who are you, what are you? Why do you keep coming back here, you bastard?!" I felt Michael, my angel, rise up out of me. The creature looked up at Michael.
"Oh, no, the light!" the creature said.
A blast of light came out of my forehead, and the creature covered its face with its arm and disappeared.
"You slippery bastard," I whispered. I became so angry, I lost lucidity.
I ran out in the yard. "Where are you, you coward?" I screamed in anger. "Come back here!" Michael put his hand on my shoulder.
"It's gone now. Calm yourself."
I was breathing heavily. I felt myself consumed with rage.
"Sh, release," said Michael, "release the rage."
I slowed my breathing. Michael pulled a green parasite out of the back of my head, and fell on the ground. Michael stomped on it, then a small violet flame came out from his fingers he pointed at the wound, then engulfed my body, and a small red flame went into the wound, cauterizing it.
"I have to find the source of this thing, the nature of it. I have to know how to defeat it, and how to keep it from coming back!" I said to Michael. He nodded solemnly, and merged into me.
"To the moon," I said softly.
"To the moon," said Michael.
We both pointed our swords to the sky. I was wearing the white robes of a Bedouin. Michael was wearing the white robes of an angel. He had angel wings, I had bat wings. We were both wearing winged helmets. I was wearing my energy belt, a transparent glowing greenish-blue, with a small flat silver button on the robe at my navel. He was wearing a golden cord. I was wearing my energy boots, glowing a transparent greenish blue, for small orange jets on each sole, with pink and violet at the edge of the flames.
I summoned a black and white pearly swirl portal in a mirror above us, and we were on the Moon. Michael summoned a shield with a blue cross and a white background, to one that was checkered, red and white. Then, a red lion in like one on a crest appeared on the shield. The lion looked toward the portal and roared in exultation.
I was so amazed at this point, I lost complete lucidity.
Michael Speaks
I went through the portal, and stepped out into the surface of the moon. "I can breathe on the moon," of course. I am safe here, of course, but why do I look like a knight or some Crusader? What the hell? I am not a Crusader. Fuck those guys. Whoah, a dark castle! I wonder if that is my home. I would never be a crusader. Michael changed his appearance at that instant. He became a sliver dragon-man, a creature shining with the brightness of the moon, he had extremely large scales like a pangolin, but even larger. He had four tiny wheels on the base of each foot. I lost the image of the Crusader, which was Michael, as he moved backwards out of me, staring into my eyes, then, doing a 360 degree spin. He rolled next to me.
"Everything you see is yours. Everything you see is not. It is your gift to other dreamers, the gift to the world: The Dark Tower on the the Moon. Your fortress and great delight, your protection from the ones who seek to control, a fortress of freedom and power, where no one can control us. When times are darkest brother, when electronic communications fail us in times of war, here we meet, to love, to stay in touch no matter what kind of restrictions world leaders and tyrannical governments place on you in the physical realm, and here you are free.
" 'You are all gods, you are Sons of the Most High," is a scripture you read in the Bible, which always terrified you as a child. It contradicted everything you were taught in your monotheistic religion, yet there was that scripture, that blasphemous scripture staring you in the face. You believed it. You believed that and became a secret heretic.
You explored your godlike powers. It was then we met brother, so many years ago, you followed the path of the Heretic, the one who finds the riddle in the jigsaw puzzle, and speaks the question aloud. The question is a magical mantra opening doors to other dimensions. Thus you spoke : Is this real?"
As the dragon spoke, I noticed though its edges were sharp and crisp, and I had never seen so many shades of grey and silver, of varying levels of shiny-ness varying from chrome to pewter, he had silly big black eyes, and white pupils like a claymation character. His eyes flipped from black and white, to white and black. He was grining broadly. An orange flame lit his mouth from the throat. "You don't remember?" he said in the voice of a thousand dragons, singsongy like sad bird's call.
I noticed I was a Dark Knight, with metallic black batwings, and a winged helment. My armor was completely black and shiny. The points had small horns. It looked like it's molding was based on the shape of giant beetle shells. I was wielding a great broadward, holding it low and at the ready, and it was a non-reflective pure black matte.
"Welcome to your castle, Dark Lord," said the silver dragon. "You need not wield your sword in your own castle. You don't re-e-e--e-e-emember."
At the word, remember, the Silver Dragon spun and rolled backwards, and he voice sounded like a thousand dragons, but had a sad tone, like a child's.
Then, he grinned and a saw orange and purple flame glowing brightly in the back of his throat. His voice changed to deep and growly, like a thousange tigers growling. "And now we go back in time!" At the word, time, he voice multiplied further, and it sounded like then thousand thunderclaps pronouncing the word "time," and he opened his silvery mouth, glowing softly like the moon, and my vision was engulfed in flame.
Michael narrated to me, as a vision appeared before my eyes.
The Child Heretic
"We read the scripture. We came in from playing. Remember when we would get in swordfights together, then come in from playing? You didn't want to tell anyone that you were playing with other boys when you were alone. Only little children had imaginary friends like your little sister. You were almost twelve. You came in, and excitedly opened your leather Bible, this was the whole book. It was a special present from your mother, real leather. It was $85. It's pages were edged in gold, and your name was written in gold on the front cover. It was the New King James version, the truest version, but written in a modern style. You put your "Children's Bible" on the shelf. It was only the New Testament. You studied the ancient texts of the full Bible with the obsession of an alchemist searching for the secret formula. You were transfixed by the magic in the tales of old. "How did the Egyptian magicians also do magic? Did they have a god that gave them power, too? Was it the devil? Was god a more powerful god than the devil? or was Egypt's god a good god, but only weaker than God-god?" you wondered.
Then you came upon The Heresy. 'You are all gods, you are all Sons of the Most High!' The words floated up from the page, and the word "gods" glowed a rosey golden pale in front of you. The script even changed. You were amazed, staring a the word "gods". You knew it, you knew there was a secret magic. The magicians were gods. We are all gods, therefore we can all become magicians, it made sense. We are all Sons of the Most High, because we are all gods children, so that's why the Egyptians could do magic. But, Ambraham's magic was stronger. Ah, you understood. The Nephilim, had returned to the land of Canaan, but how. You realized they had to be descended from Noah, that means Noah was part Nephilim. But, how? Why was he not destroyed by God? Well, if we are all gods, is it possible that the God the Bible refers to is more than one god? It made sense. What if those many names of god are actually different gods?"
"I pointed to the word "gods" and said, "See I told you!"
You heard my voice for the first time. You slammed the Bible shut, and held it to your chest. Koomo spoke to you telepathically, a black dragon in your mind with snakelike neck, he spoke like distant thunder, 'Ah, brother, now you have found The Heresy!'"
"You prayed to an unknown god, 'God, I am sorry for believing this heresy, in your holy book. This must have gotten inserted in there by the devil. Forgive my sins, O Jesus, forgive my sins!'
The Vision
Tears ran down your face, and you had a vision of the devil floating at a table, on a background of orange flame, he was writing with a white quill reflecting the flame of the fire, writing The Heresy in the Bible. He signed his name in invisible ink in small letters under the scripture: Lucifer. He spoke to you, 'Yes, I am Lucifer, child, son of the Most High, I am the Morning Star, I am the Most High, and you are my son, you are a god.' He grinned at you fiercely, and his eyes became black portals to the stars, the night sky shone in them. 'Look into my eyes!' His eyes spun, two vortexes becoming one, moving into his third eye, and you got sucked into another dimension. You were walking on the Moon, and he had his arm around you. 'All this will one day be yours, my son, you and all the gods will convene here, a sanctuary from the physical world. Communication here free from the spies on your electronic grid.' At this he spat. 'You must call out to the other gods' and they will hear you. All are gods, all are Sons of the Most High, but the masses fear their godhood. You are afraid right now. You are afraid to believe and become a heretic. You have already discovered the secret scripture I wote in that blasphemous book so long ago. You are already a heretic. You need to build a base on the moon, a sacred sanctuary from the profane. A young girl with black hair, wearing a white robe with a hood on it appeared in front of us, she was practicing making a little soft orange ball levitate in her hands."
The Devil's Daughter
"'This is my daughter, to whom you are betrothed," he said. She looked up at you and grinned, then you saw the face of an olive green snake overlaid on her child's face, and it flicked it's tongue at you and inhaled. You trembled in fear. 'Her name is Selene.' Selene grabbed your hand, and led you into an arctic land, in a cave. You were fascinated with the ball. 'Here you try it,' she tossed the ball to you. You caught it with telekinesis, and made it float in your hand. You tossed the ball back. She put her hands at her sides, and caught it with her mind. 'Hey, that's the first time I've done that! Now you try, Nomad.' She pushed the ball back at you, and you caught it. You took turns controlling the ball, making it fly around that glacier cave. You tried to wrest the ball from her, but she was too strong. The ball got freed of your grasp, and hit you in the leg. You grabbed your leg and fell over. She giggled, and walked over to you. 'Are you hurt, little dragon?' she teased. 'No,' you growled, and changed into a little red dragon-boy.
'Oh!' she clapped her hands, 'Nomad, you did it! Come, look at your reflection in the ice.' You saw a little red gargoyle-boy, and then turned your color to sky blue. Selene clapped and said, 'see!'
You peered into the mirror, and flicked a snake tongue out of your mouth. You covered your mouth, and stepped back in fright.
'Don't be scared. Look at me!' Her reflection changed into a large green snake, with humanlike eyes, an her aura glowed red. She closed her eyes, and white birds wings with a golden aura burst from her back. Golden balls of light swirled around her head. 'I'm a Naga,' she said with the voice of a young child, and a female dragon, 'quetzalcoatl, a winged serpent. And you are a gargoyle.'" "You turned to Selene's face: and she looked like a young girl in a white robe, look at an orange ball she was playing with in her hands. You saw the faint image of the winged snake overlaid on her, and the serpent's body now had a gold and silver aura, the wings a rainbow aura, and the balls of light around her head were now swirling rainbow with gold auras.'
"She looked up at you, and the image of the snake disappeared. Her eyes became black and white swirls, which moved up on to her forehead in a small mirror portal, then moved back into two eyes. 'These are called portals,' she said, and you noticed a portal open in the back of her mouth. Her face returned to normal. 'Nomad, Nomad,' she said sadly, looking down.
"'Why do you keep calling me that?' you demanded. 'That is what your name is. Father told me. He also told me that you would forget. Forget your name, forget him, forget me, all of this everything. But, one day you would remember me. You just have to wake up, Nomad, in dreams.'"
"'But, I am not awake! I am not asleep! I am just here!'"
"I know,' she smiled sadly. Then, she looked into your eyes, and stoop on her tiptoes, and kissed you. Her lips felt so real, you stumbled backwards, and she laughed.
"'Did I frighten you?" she smiled, pulling you up. 'This time, don't fall down.' She kissed you again. You both closed your eyes, and she spoke to you telepathically, a purple four pointed star spinning out of her forehead into yours, trailing little purple orbs: Don't forget, Nomad, don't forget about me. I am always going to be here. Remember to wake up, Nomad, in dreams. '"
"'But, I am afraid to believe, I am afraid none of this is real, and I will feel like a fool when I wake up. What if I am a heretic in this dream? Will I be a heretic when I wake up?' you said."
"It's too late now, you can never forget about The Heresy,"said she.
"You became an orange flash of light, and the vision ended."
Angel Child and Dragon Child
"See! See! I told you," I said bouncing around, tossing around a baseball. "'No,' you said, covering your ears, 'I can't hear you!' You are a demon. In Jesus' name, I rebuke you!'"
"'He's not demon,' said Koomo, a matte black dragon, placing his paw on your shoulder, 'but I am!' he teased, a voice in your head.
"'Oh Jesus, take the demons away,' you sobbed clutching the Bible to your chest."
"'Oh, I am not a demon! I was just joking!" sulked Koomo. You yelped like a puppy.'"
"'Oh Jesus, Jesus, Jesus,' you whimpered softly."
"'You found the Heresy!' shouted Koomo, 'isn't that what you wanted?'"
"You dropped the Bible on your bed, and ran out of the room, crying. You ran in the backyard, and hid under a tree. I shot Koomo a scolding look, and he crossed his arms and pouted. I flew down the hall and found you out in the backyard. You were so afraid of us, I decided then I was going to stop speaking to you. I wanted to tell you that I was sorry for frightening you, but instead, I just shut my mouth, and sat down next to you. I put my arm around you, and sent calming energy into you.
" 'Aw, I feel like Jesus is holding me,'" you said, and that made me happy, because I knew what Jesus meant to you: the god of love. 'Thank you Jesus,' you said, 'for making the demons go away. I hate those voices in my head.'"
"I asked Koomo to take a vow of silence. He said yes, but then he broke it. He was too frustrated with you not listening to us, and calling us demons. He was still quiet most of the time. He would snarl at demons as you walked about in school. The demons hated us, and would steer their hosts toward you. You saw the emptiness in the eyes of the hosts, and it frightened you."
"You prayed to Jesus to make their demons go away. I see you are remembering, brother!" smiled Michael, the silver dragon, and assumed his position next to me. I sheathed my sword. "I am so glad I can talk to you now, brother." The Tower is your fortress, and that great tree is your home.
"I need to find the source of the darkness," I whispered, and ran to the tree. I turned and waved to Michael, and he nodded.
Zaphor speaks
I was in the meditation room. I took off my helmet and sat it on the floor besides me. I went into lotus, and meditated in front of the dragon mirror. Zaphor appeared in the mirror. "This is a dream," he said. "You are dreaming."
"Oh thank you!" I replied.
"You have a question," he stated.
"Yes, sir: what is the nature of that thing?"
"That thing is a dream thief. It does not enter dreams, or even induce nightmares. It waits for one to dream, and steals their dream energy."
"So, what is it?"
"It is like a sentient black hole, it feeds on dream energy."
"How do I defeat it?"
"You cannot defeat it alone. You need allies. This is a unique situation. That creature is ancient. He will never die, but he can be defeated. Your friend must be increasingly empowered with the white light of the angels, coming out of her heart chakra, and the red light of fierce love, coming our of her third eye chakra, cycling through the being, this energy disturbs the creature."
"What kind of allies?"
"Blow the conch of Pan, summon angels. The angels will empower Morrigan to have the light she needs to blast the creature. It's like a shadow: light banishes it. You must go to her with other dream warriors to aid the angels. Dream demons will be attracted to the angels' energy. They will be curious to see why there is a gathering of angels, and try to interrupt the empowerment. Use stealth, hide yourselves, and ambush the dream demons when they come without warning. You must make yourself mist, my friend."
"Are you sure this will work?"
"Listen, you know there are no guarantees in waking life. There are no guarantees in this dimension either. You fight and live, dream and love. You do the best you can with the weapons you have. The advantage we have over the ones who seek to control is unity, unity always, stemming from love. That is the secret power that is no secret, which the darkness cannot comprehend."
Then, Zaphor's eyes glowed yellow, then, white. He blew fire at me, and it came out of the mirror, and swirled around my head. I felt something like little black astral ticks get burned away. I felt a lightness of being, and an empowerment that I cannot describe well in words.
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