Quote Originally Posted by angie746 View Post
You know what you really wouldn't want to have mine ... ok this was before i managed to controll them but here is a typical SP hallucination: It's all black, i feel myself being dragged downwards then begin to spin uncontrollably, i am petrified and i hear people shouting me and laughing at me...i am suddenly in my bed, everything is how it should be, things in their right places and hubby asleep next to me, i then think "ohh shit its happening i gotta wake up" suddenly i will feel the most evil precence, i cant see it but it feels like a large man so full of evil, anyway i begin to panick and my heart starts banging as if its going to burst out of me...i try to move but i can't the i feel hands all over my legs and something grabs hold of me, i try and scream but just a mumble slips from my lips, i try to reach over to my hubby, trying to grab him and get him to wake me up, in my head im screaming "wake me up, for f--k sake wake me up" this thing suddenly tugs hard on my ankles and drags me down the bed it then starts throwing me about, i can't fight it or stop it i'm completly helpless against it, it drags me off the bed and i slam onto the floor, imopening my dream eyes really wide hoping it will make my real life eyes open and wake me up but it doesnt work..i then hear scary music and i feel like im going to cark it from heart attack i'm that scared...i then get lifted from the floor, i'm just hovering then my body gets slammed against the wall and the pain is unbearable, i have also only once been used sexually by this thing totally against my will.

Also i was once lying on my bed relaxing and all of a sudden i could hear saws sawing it began to get louder and louder and i felt as if there were 2 tiny people laughing and they both had an end of the saw and they were going to saw into me, i got louder still and i was lying there not able to move thinking "shit me they gonna saw me to death" LOL i saw yellow and red colours on this occasion.

I am able to controll my SP now so it doesnt get to that point but sometimes i do still now and again get the spinning feeling and as if i am being shoved under my duvet and held tightly under it and too scared to do anything so i wait it out, but it doesn't get to the point where i am grabbed etc anymore because now i controll it, instead of it controlling me.
Holy shit that's some extreme stuff. It reminds me of a movie called "The Entity" where a woman is being sexually abused by a ghost everytime she goes to sleep. And sometimes the ghost is pissed and throws her around the room just like you described. It said the movie was based on a true story.
You grossly misunderstood my willingness to explore hallucinations tho. If i could have an experience like that for just once i would be very happy. Having it every night however sends chills right down my spine.

I practiced AP again yesterday, here's the result..

I was trying to induce natural hallucinations again by focusing on an area above my eyes and immediatly felt a strain there.
I let myself get immersed in the feeling and watch my CEV . A small blue bubble is arising on the top of my periphecal vision.10 minutes in one of our dogs start barking
as usual and this immediatly produced an outline of my dog . The bubble was small and so was the image. I figured what the hell and i send reassuring thoughts his way.
The dog calms down and i begin to focus on the bubble again. The bubble increased in size and was now taking over my entire CEV . The dog barks again and this produces
the image of my dog again. This time bigger and i noticed it was moving. At first i could see my two dogs in CEV then vaguely i could see the floor, and the front door where they
always bark uncontrollably to try and summon my parents back. I tried telepathically saying it's alright. they are coming back, stay calm. Then i took a deep breathe
and i could feel my dog's presence right next to me. I could see his tail wiggling and i could feel his excitement.
They where still a little bit wound up when suddenly a cat miauws outside my window and (here's a tricky part to try and explain) in the back of my mind, u could say this is
where the pineal gland is located i saw a cat standing inside the window screen and it's miauwing at me.(a dream scene) In my CEV however i can see the body of the cat made entirely
of bright white light. I mean really bright, and it was also very alive. It felt like the cat was sitting on top of my head or inside my brain.
I think holy shit and i open my eyes to try and see the cat but it's not there. I still heared the miauwing so i look outside to try and see it and there it was sitting on top of
the gate/door where you enter my backyard. It left our backyard and he/she seeked contact with another cat that was sitting on the gates of another backyard.
Cats have been adored since ancient egypt and they are widely rumoured to be natural dreamwalkers. Just thought that's interesting.

Also Angie, somewhere yesterday while trying to WILD i thought of you and i would suddenly see a woman entering a door with a dog on a leash. About 5 minutes later i felt strong emotions of holding back tears coming from you. My guess is that you walked ur dog, came back . Read one forum post wich i wrote that stirred up these emotions in u. Any chance this is remotely close?
I could be very wrong. But it's interesting.