You're doing it wrong, plain and simple. Don't take this post as offensive, but I've been in the same situation you're at, and it's necessary to cut off some of your current thinking.
First of all, habits aren't easy things to change (but you already know that). The deal is you can harm yourself (yourself= your goals) pretty harshly if you try to include one task of utter importance to the point where you're obsessing over it. You don't go out to the gym and work out all day, every week. You'll just hurt your muscles, and have a negative effect on your training. On the same way, you can't expect yourself to literally inflate your brain with queues and tasks with long duration and be fine with it. It will just lead to burnout plain and simple. If you add it spontaneously to your every day routine, it won't work either. Why? Because you're filling the blanks, you're adding it as a distraction, and not really a well-defined objective which is important to you.
Lucid dreaming is easy indeed, but no one said it's effortless. But you already know that. Do you? Did you accept the requirement of TIME? Did you accept that it might take MONTHS to get a regular minimum amount of lucidity? It's not months of every day stressing about it. It's not every day months of waking up and "maaaybe I'll write something down today". Nope, it's months of defining a time to practice, of finding effort and dedication to install a place for lucid dreaming in your life. Sure you might get occasional lucids without that. Sure you can do WILD and get lucid dreams sometimes. But if you really want to make it a part of your life, you have to make room for it. Not by changing your life upside down and erase your schedule for the sake of reserving it all for reality checking. The same way we get better results at studying if we do it over a long period of time filled with short duration sessions over a couple of super intense days, we also lucid dream better if we re-code our mental schemes to include lucid dreaming (read it, awareness) bit by bits, creating an array of powerful and multiple connections.
I've made plenty of solo research in ways of inducing lucidity, and it was easy to conclude that whatever technique you develop, whatever aid you have, it's the long-term consolidation of itself that gives you a high degree of regular lucidity. Let's be honest, you're re-activating certain parts of your brain by becoming lucid, you're defying the nature of the dream (because we're not even meant to become lucid in the first place), and more, you're making connections which didn't exist for most part of your life (I only heard about lucid dreaming when I was 20), so no wonder they will take time. If you try to take shortcuts to get the house built, the easier it will fall than one which had extended period to be constructed. These aren't just lessons of patience, they are rules when we refer to the neurobiology of learning.
The last thing I want to talk you about is emotional vs mechanical awareness. Even if you don't really feel "excited" about it, the fact is you'll make connections that can lead you to question reality (like recognizing dreams signs) if you practice enough. So, the only thing you have to do is make your mind to complete those chores, even if they seem to you a price to pay to get the goodies. Because they certainly can be that. Habits get easier with time, but don't go out and think you can change your life in a week. Make goals, like 3 dreams per week. Then 5. Then 7 dreams a week. Meanwhile, 5 minutes before bed to think about lucid dreaming. Then 10. Then 15. Then 5 minutes after you wake up. Then 10. Then 15 minutes during the day for specific exercise. Then half hour. Meanwhile, watch 1 movie that might inspire you every week. Then a movie and 2 dream reports from DV. Then have a bad week, but keep those 5minutes before bed, 5 minutes after waking up, 3 dreams per week, 5 minutes after meals to reserve to lucid dreaming. Then get inspired, and increase that time.
And now I'm freaking inspired.
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