A few nights ago, I woke up and stared at my ceiling.
There was no reason, no thoughts, nothing. Just pure *void*. The only other time I had this feeling was my first LD, the instant before me sleeping
As I watched the roof, the detail changed with out changing. The best way to describe it is it got more *ceiling-y*.
I fell asleep straight after. When I awoke I was dizzy as hell (assuming hell is really dizzy ), so much so that I nearly fell over. I got ready for work and about 10 minutes after waking, I realized things were different, just like the ceiling.
The path way was more structured.
The grass was greener and sharper.
Every entity in life was higher detailed, higher focus, almost outlined and generally better looking.
Textures were also more detailed.
Instead of seeing through my eyes, I was looking from behind them.
I was hearing the world from about 6 millimetres inside my ears, closer to my temples.
My vision range was much larger than usual, I saw more in the extremities of my vision than ever before.
The only thing that didn't change was taste, although I did taste banana on the roof of my mouth.
I also have been thinking really clearly, usually I have a few unguided thoughts in my head.
After reality checking many times, all failing, I started to panic, to worry about my existence, my mental health and the world.
Why?
Because NOTHING felt real.
My mother put it down to heightened awareness and said it will stop soon...That was a week ago.
It has lessened and I have gotten used to it but I am still uneasy about it. Yet in a strange way I enjoy it, more feeling than I am used to. For e.g. I can feel individual pores sweating, I can feel small cuts heal (I often get injured at work) and most interestingly, I can feel the infection in my toe. I have had it for 7 years and never felt it!
Does any body know what the heck is happening?!?!
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