Wow, it's been a while since I've posted on the forums. Anyway...

My latest LD goal was to spend time with my best friend from college. I became lucid and found her. When I tried talking to her, she didn't act like herself. She was having a completely different conversation with me than I was having with her. It was as if she could see me but not as myself. I couldn't get her to talk directly to me. I got really emotional to the point that I woke up.

In a non-lucid from the night before. She was the person I remember.

I haven't seen her in probably 5 years now and probably never will again. In a painful lucid dream from just after she left to go back to China, I found her in my room. I gave her a big hug and told her how much I miss her. With tears in my eyes, I could see her standing right in front of me, but I knew it wasn't really her. I felt like I was looking at a super realistic cardboard cutout. She just stared at me blankly as if she was looking through me as if I wasn't there.

I'm not sure if I should try to find her in a lucid dream again or not. I'm afraid it will end up a painful experience. Has anyone else experienced something similar? Is there something I can do so that she will act like herself again? I know it's not really her and maybe that is why it doesn't feel right and she's not the person I remember. In every non-lucid of her, she's herself. Does anyone have an experience they can share or maybe advice on the subject?