Epiphany!

I went on a 10mile bike ride today and thought a lot about lucid dreaming and what I told CanisLucidus. I got to a point were I was really struggling on one particularly nasty hill. My heart rate went way up and my breathing got fast and heavy. My mind started freaking out with racing thoughts. Like "OMG this is tough. It sucks. I can't make it. Maybe I should get off and walk" I immediately saw a connection with this and lucid dreaming. So, I decided to use my calming mediation like I do in my lucid dreams. I knew I could not calm my breath or heart rate but I could calm my mind. So I did that. I let my breathing and heart rate go wild but my mind was focused and calm. I concentrated on just the pavement as I continued to peddle. I noticed the rough surface, the tiny peddles, the cracks in the asphalt, ect. I remembered that the best way to forget about something it to think of something else. The ride to the top of the hill became almost effortless and before I knew it was coasting down the other side.

So the main thing I realized was maybe I should not worry about getting excited with my heavy breathing and heartbeat. Trying to control it only put focus and attention to it and make me more awake. I don't even know why this became an issue for me. Maybe I read something or heard something someplace?For all I know I did that all the time anyway. Its all mindset, focus, and awareness. The rest is just noise. On the next hill I did the same thing but more defined. Focus on the road, keep a calm mind, and ignore the noise. I really think this will work on my next DEILD/WILD.

Another thing. I started a mantra while riding the last half. "The next time I am dreaming I will know that I am dreaming" I fell into a sort of motion trance and begin to see words in large white letters "Remember" and "Tonight" appear in my minds eye. My mantra changed into "The next time we are dreaming we will know we are dreaming." I got a vision of myself merging with the subC version of myself and we became one. It was fascinating and exciting. I cannot wait to dream tonight.

Well that's my thought for today. hopefully this will be useful to someone.