Little update - 4 nights no lucidity after doing the 5th repetition - much to my dismay and as I have been afraid it would be - after hyping it so much. Maybe that's the exact reason, this holding my breath in subliminal negative expectation - but maybe my lucidity levels with the 4th were coincidental after all.
I did have a dream about lucidity, though, in the first night and in the third, I told myself, it's okay the scenery out of the window looks strange - that would always be so in my dream-flats. Happy about this solution to the dissonance - I turned round and kept dreaming non-lucidly ..
This time I included my WILD script - that's the main reason I gave it a shot in the afternoon yesterday - from Sageous' report thread:
 Originally Posted by StephL
I was sooo close just before!
Taking a nap, concentrating on my breathing, watching the optics on the back of my eyelids, which were really interesting - and they stayed to be looked at properly for a while at times, and crystallized to scenes at times as well. Bit of mantraing..
And then - that was not the first thing - of all things, I had before dreamt of stuffing candy in my mouth - but then I dreamt of scratching an itch on my chin - and realized, that my arm was at the time lying next to me, and not scratching!!
That jolted me awake then - damn!!
 Originally Posted by StephL
Yeah - it's so hard for me to keep my cool when "something happens" in a WILD attempt - tends to give me a surge of excitement, physically.
Thankfully that doesn't happen in DILD - but at least this time something did happen, and I'll hopefully get used to the craziness of it all soon!
Bit paradoxical, this - I obviously did dream already - but I didn't know that - so technically it wasn't an LD - despite me being otherwise of almost waking-life functionality, cognitively. On the other hand - why find it normal to take a piece of candy and eat it in the middle of a WILD attempt. I would never do that - so I was clouded after all.
It's actually better than it used to be - when confronted with stable optics in fine detail - that used to give me a jolt in the past, and this time not. There was one huge completely sharp and clear eye hanging in my vision for example - looking at me, or in me it felt - and I could take that without the visceral reaction.
Usually I am full of coffee and not able to fall asleep in the day - but this is encouraging. The more so the more I think about it.
I could have gotten up and had an OBE ("experience" - of course I do not subscribe to supernaturalism) - I was basically half there - or further in even. Just I was still aware of my physical body at the same time as doing things with my dream-body.
There was no candy of course, for sure not - but I must have reached somewhere and grabbed a piece of dream and put it in my mouth and tasted it and all.
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