I read you journal entry. This is really good stuff, Aquablitz! You were litterally one hair away from lucidity. I can absolutely relate to the going to sleep trying to ld FA. In fact, on several occasions I've been having really funny and weird in-dream wilds. Like I would try to ld in the dream, transition to another scene and then since I expect this to be the dream already, my awareness rises up and I have a normal lucid dream. Weird thing the mind!