new old curiosity

[Conscience]

I just found this site and thought I could tackle the project lucid dreaming again about 2 years ago I joined a german forum about lucid dreaming, and I already learnt tons of facts about it. I used that forum for a few months, I wrote my dreams down, I got better and better, but it didn't work. I was so close, I had several pre-lucid dreams, they were really intense and I dreamed everyday 2-3 dreams, unless I decided "I don't want to dream today" before I went to bed, and that was exactly the problem... I got busier and I didn't have time for dreaming anymore, so I just always said to myself "I don't have time to think about dreamings" and suddenly I stopped dreaming but I'll try again, and maybe I'll finally be able to learn it... I never had a lucid dream, never even unintentionally. However, I'm fairly good at meditation, I'm able to get to a trance state in which I can have vivid dreams, without really sleeping... but as soon as I fall asleep, I lose all the control anyway, I'm Conscience and I'm trying to visit the worlds of my subconscious nice to meet you Edit: Argh, I just read a few threads, I WANT THIS, it sounds so awesome and refreshing... I'll try harder this time