Thread: Tinnitus introduction

I) How and when did I found out the notion of "lucid dream"

Hi everyone!

I just get registered on this forum and that the reason why I thought it is a good idea to let you know "a bit" about me. I already signed up on a french LD forum about a year ago and some members here registered both on Dreamview and on Attrape-songes may have already heard about me. I'm very active on Attrape-songes and I firmly aim at participate to the discussions on your site as much. From this point forward, I'm begging your pardon for all the awfull mistakes in english in this text that will certainly make you tear your hair out. I hope not to be completely illegible thou.

As far as I can remember, my first real experience of lucid dreaming happened around 2000. A french TV channel aired Stir of Echoes. One of the themes of this movie is hypnosis. I didn't expectated much about this film when I decided to watch it. I'm interested in a lot in subjects revolving around hypnosis and the like, but this show seemed to me just another mainstream entertainment.

It didn't prevent me from focusing on the primary cliffhanger of this movie thou, the moment when the choice of the hero causes a chain of consequences he will have to fight against until the end of the story, THIS moment precisely I expected, when one of the friends of him put the character into the state of hypnosis!

In my bed, I tried to remember clearly all the steps of the process and applied. As soon as I visualised the word “sleep”, I dived into an unknown place, a gigantic cave in which stood still a town turned to stone that made one with this huge cavity. I was going ahead on a kind of conveyor belt and my moves were incredibly free, there were even no air frictions! I felt I was not inhabiting my usual everyday body. This one obeyed my will much better, no need for legs to come and go!

Since I saw a light at the end of a tunnel, I wondered what was going on out there and I follow the way. But as soon as I tried to enter the tunnel, the conveyor belt suddently pulled me back, I felt litterally sucked out from this place and finally found myself awaken in my bed. It's only much later I happened to put a name on this experience: WILD.

I'm pretty fond of what I would specifically call the “Uncanny”, to sum up briefly. During a while, I naively figured out I experienced O.B.E. I was very excited! However, there were something wrong... The more I read the witnesses, the more doubts grew, until the day when I spontaneously tiped “lucid dream” on Internet: a revelation! And a half disappointment at the same time, honestly!

II) My experience in lucid dreaming

all these years since that time is a long story. To make it short, it's only progressively I grasped the notion of LD. It took time for me to get used to write every dreams I could remember in a specific notebook for this use. But once, I recorded at least 5 or 6 lucid dreams the same week! of course, lots of my lucid dreams were only about a handfull of seconds! So frustrating! Sound familiar?

That said, I lived amazing things in my dreams being lucid. Flying for exemple, but it is pretty typical of what one can experience for the first time. I still do it today with big pleasure. I had the opportunity to see how I looked like in dream mirrors. The vision were sometime those of a deformed black and white toon or a black monster! I had once this bad idea to visualise metal bracelets to clip around my wrists to keep me in lucid dream, it made me experience pain for the first time in LD.

Since I thought LD let me free to do almost everything I wished, I planed goals to achieve for the next one I was going to make at night. I runned the streets, rooms, corridors or whatever dream places in search of the dream characters I needed and even sometimes characters who were themself dreams! But It was a real pain, and the brevity of my LD didn't help. Honestly, I hardly reached these goals I pursued.

Without knowing technically anything about it, I practiced WBTB and something close to SSILD. Relaxation, meditation and yoga nidra also played a part. I didn't have any RC. not the classic ones at least. I just have to think a bit and if I'm lucky one thought lead me to the statement. “what is this guy is talking about?” “Do I care?” “No!” ”I am lucid!” “let's take a trip into the air now!”.

I set up my own process to reach LD. At daytime, autosuggestion. At night, taking advantage of naturally waking up at least once, I rested my body in shavasana station listening to Throbbing Gristle, "Special Treatement" album. Meantime I forced my body to stand still despite all the terrible itchings coming and going. I like the music but the whole felt like a real self inflicted torture!

I didn't really took all the details of my WBTB process that serious. Clearly I knew I didn't hit the jackpot. It was just my own nocturnal ritual. Now I know a bit much about the technics, what it can do dor you, what it can't. But back then, standing apart from any LD community, I was persuaded that a worthy lucid dreamer sould have at least one LD every night! It affected negatively my self confidence when it is so important to maintain it to have LD.

III) Why I decided to sign up here

Following this sort of lucid blooming I was encouraged to make further steps toward the internet community concerned with LD. The subject was not as widespread in the 2000 on the french internet than worldwide, I turned my look toward the international english speaking forums. There were both good and bad. Odd and straigh. Do some you ever heard about the Lucid crossroad? So funny!

Once, I finally signed up on a forum which name was LD4ALL. I didn't post anything but read a lot. Somehow, weeks after weeks I was more and more tempted to follow the LD challenges of the forum preferably to mine only. But it was so easy to procrastinate and finally to give up. Finally*my “participation” came down taking a look from time to time. later, the forum got closed.

Last year I finally decided to sign up to a LD forum hopfully to exchange, for real. I registered to a french talking forum since it is my mother tongue. LD is not a very popular subject neither among the members of my family and friends nor in the place where I live and I also think that this forum I can possibly give me the chance to meet people on the same wavelength as me

I fed some others expectations with respect to this membership, beside of hearing others point of view about what it feels to be a lucid dreamer. Meeting people who understand my wanderings in the kingdom of lucidity and how I can feel puzzled from the problems and difficulties I meet in the mastering of these peculiar dreams, and also what are the specific detailed technics that really works.

I met many interesting people on AS, all with different background and sensitivities but lucid dream unites us. Unfortunately no one gave me the magic formula to make RL at will! I don't think anybody can. But there is a lot of emulation and mutual assistance among members. This is what I hope to find here also. Dreamview also has its own pecificities. The WILD section looks very well made up for exemple.

Here we go! Congratulation to the courageous ones who succeed to read it to the end! I wish at least it helped you to make you a little idea about me as a new member of the forum, my background, my interests hopefully it contributes to future extensive discutions between us about our nocturnal journeys each!

see you!