Welcome to Dreamviews! Anyone can become a lucid dreamer. If you can dream (which obviously you can), then you can lucid dream. LDing is like an adventure into your own subconscious and I believe you may be able to find some of the answers you are looking for. I suggest keeping a dream journal. You can browse through some and get the general idea of how they are kept, here: http://www.dreamviews.com/community/...splay.php?f=26 . Also, here is a link to the tutorials section, where you can get a nice overview of the many techniques and induction methods, http://www.dreamviews.com/community/...splay.php?f=25 . Good Luck in your future efforts!