Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Do you have anything better to do? You think the random things you do will make you feel better. Browsing dv for hours won't take away pain. It might distract you and give you mild intertainment and maybe a mild emotional connection with others. Meditation is the best thing you can do right now. Because it is simply existing right now. and when you just let yourself be. It heals. so do that. Do it for an hour. Just try it. Its not hard. the restlessness will go away after about 15 minutes. Just get over the hump. Its ok. you need to chill. To hyperactive. its not helping. Just let yourself chill. let yourself stablize. You will feel much better. Have faith in yourself. don't doubt yourself. Meditation is the easiest thing ever. Don't believe its hard. thats silly. I know you can do it.

Originally Posted by saltyseedog

Do you have anything better to do? You think the random things you do will make you feel better. Browsing dv for hours won't take away pain. It might distract you and give you mild intertainment and maybe a mild emotional connection with others. Meditation is the best thing you can do right now. Because it is simply existing right now. and when you just let yourself be. It heals. so do that. Do it for an hour. Just try it. Its not hard. the restlessness will go away after about 15 minutes. Just get over the hump. Its ok. you need to chill. To hyperactive. its not helping. Just let yourself chill. let yourself stablize. You will feel much better. Have faith in yourself. don't doubt yourself. Meditation is the easiest thing ever. Don't believe its hard. thats silly. I know you can do it.

I have nothing better to do...you are right D;
I will try right now....I have done nothing today except sit in my room....

I hate being hung over >.< I usually get really nauseous and throw up three times or more. Today I didn't get off the couch before 19.00, despite having stopped drinking at 2 AM. I still feel it now, 12 hours later. And I didn't even drink all that much.

Erible... you could also work up to an hour. Make smaller, more easily obtainable goals. Once you reach the goal, you'll have more faith in your ability to reach higher ones.

(((((Khh))))) here's some hugs, hoping you feel better.

I just got home about 30 minutes ago. Dear daughter has a multi-directional dislocation. Ehlers Danlos is so rare, she had about 6 Dr's popping into the room throughout the visit... each asking the same questions and giving the same tests lol. By the end of it all, they could do nothing but give her hydros and a tightly fitting sling. She's supposed to go back on Wednesday for an MRI to see what the best course of action will be. It's looking more and more like surgery :/

I kept falling asleep on the way home. I slap myself when I start getting too sleepy lol, which always startled my daughter. I also took 2 caffeine pills. Before leaving leaving home, I took a caffeine pill PLUS a Nuvigil. Now I can't fall asleep. Grrrrr.
I made it home in 1 1/2 hours. I lucked out and fell behind two state road workers so I could push 90 (77 being the norm... 70 mph being legal). During the last leg, when I had to leave the highway, I rolled my window down and cranked the AC.
I kept "seeing" shadow animals running across the road I was so stinking sleepy.

It has been an impossibly long day and I managed to spend $150.. I really hope my hubby doesn't expect that to be part of my allowance. $70. went into the gas tank, $20. to a cellphone card, $10. to a disposable electronic cigarette, $20 to Taco Bell on the way home. The only money NOT trip related was $24. for a new iPad charger. Whatever was left went towards snacks for myself and daughters friend who came with us.

I'm lost and confused in life

@Zhaylin, I meditated for about 25 minutes

Originally Posted by erible

I'm lost and confused in life

@Zhaylin, I meditated for about 25 minutes

You're not lost. You think that you need to know where you are going. You think you need to understand but there is nothing to understand. Of coarse it is hard at first to keep this state of being but in time you will grow into it

Originally Posted by saltyseedog

You're not lost. You think that you need to know where you are going. You think you need to understand but there is nothing to understand. Of coarse it is hard at first to keep this state of being but in time you will grow into it

I just feel so overwhelmed...but not at the same time

I know. You feel uncertain of what you want. You feel confused because of that. You don't know whats going to happen and it makes you worried about the future. I've been there. But you just need to listen to this song



Everything is happening perfectly and everything will fall into place perfectly. There is nothing to worry about. The spirit will take us where we are needed. The spirit will take us where we need to be.

@Salty I was just listening to this song literally a couple hours ago weirdness.

In other news the vicious cycle of insomnia continues...

I sympathize StormCrow. I'm so sleepy, it took 3 tries before I spelled sympathize correctly lol. I've gotten a couple of hours sleep sitting in front of my computer, but that's it.
I don't know why, but every time I sleep sitting up I get the major belches lol My head is down and my mouth is closed (no "swallowing" air) so it's always baffled (and humoured) me
On the plus side, everyone is sound asleep so it is peaceful. On the bad side, my 18 yo fell asleep on the couch with music playing in the next room which has been irritating me. But not enough to shut it off and risk waking him

Rant: Someone drank my last cold Coke. That annoys the dickens out of me. Crap... 16 yo woke.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

I sympathize StormCrow. I'm so sleepy, it took 3 tries before I spelled sympathize correctly lol. I've gotten a couple of hours sleep sitting in front of my computer, but that's it.
I don't know why, but every time I sleep sitting up I get the major belches lol My head is down and my mouth is closed (no "swallowing" air) so it's always baffled (and humoured) me

Simple. It's because you are sitting up. So the air/gas will end up rising up and accumulating in your stomach hehe

Erible - How did you feel after meditating?

Don't worry I've been in the same boat as you. And still sort of am.
I still don't know where I want to go, but I'm not as worried about it.
I can put that solely down to meditation and Alan Watts audio files

Originally Posted by tommo

Erible - How did you feel after meditating?

awesome :]

I feel fine at the moment. But I'm going to complain about stuff now so I won't have to later.

I wake up in the morning and at least one of my two little sisters will be throwing a fit about something. Their clothes, their toys, their breakfast, or something else completely pointless. It gets my mom in a bad mood and spoils what would've been a nice morning for me. Then there's two possibilities for the rest of the day: the first is school. If so, the kids on the bus are all loud, disgusting, dramatic brats. 2nd-7th graders pass around condoms and yell about sex. My sisters are stuck in the middle of it all. (Yes, they annoy me, but I care about them.) Arriving at school, my math teacher will yell at the four of us in the back row for things we aren't even doing. I'll embarrass myself in strenth + conditioning class. Last hour class is full of loudmothed idiots. If there's no school, we stay home and my sisters continue to irritate my mom for the whole day and pitch hissy fits about nothing. When my dad gets home he takes control of the whole house and makes us fetch his beer. The few hours where my sisters are in bed and I don't have to be there yet is the only peaceful time of the day. Then I go to sleep, try to have a lucid dream, and the whole process starts over again. Some days are better than others.

*Whew.*

2nd graders passing condoms O_o

hehe, thanks Tommo. I guess that makes sense

My rant: I am so freagin out of it I didn't even know what day it was. I fell asleep some time this morning. Kids annoyed me to no end, using my computer, waking me to whine about hunger and pain, my hubby calling because the green light was on on my gmail account (thanks to kids being on it). But then the mom in me finally woke up and so did I. I have to go to the store now and get groceries and hydros for dear daughter. But I am still out of it. I keep drifting to sleep, so I'm taking 15 minutes to get my head screwed on. I think I'm out of caffeine pills

Good news: Hubby's not counting my trip money against me.

I moved all of the outdoor furniture onto the lawn in order to water-jet clean the patio, now I have to put it all back

I'm sad.

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Whiskey Tango Foxtrot

I wish I was in a more comfortable environment. I don't like this house its got weird vibes. Not relaxing. Stressed and hyper active is what it feels like. I am not that way though. I want to leave. But I'm just going to sleep.

I just got up. My daughter came to see me because her shoulder hurt a lot after rolling on it in her sleep. I woke too quickly and forgot an awesome dream I was having.
I blocked the front door to my bedroom so I could have some uninterrupted sleep, but my 16 yo son just came in through the bathroom door *Grrrrrrr* I'm going to have to start turning off my computer when I don't want them to come in (password protected).
I slept about 20 hours today.

I can't sleep but really should. I'm lonely but don't want to hang out with anyone. My neck and shoulders hurt from studying my ass off for my physics test next week. I'm not comfortable in this house or general area because it's too noisy and bright and I want to see the milky way. I'm going to be insanely academically busy this summer since I'm trying to transfer out of here asap so I have that to look forward too lol

Every Sunday, I have to go to chruch. Its fucking bullshit. I told my parents Im athesit and they are like "NO, you still have to go to church tll your 18, its good for your eternal soul blah blah" christanity is all bullshit, all the same. Repent, prasise god, and repeat. Thats the whole bible summoned up in A sentance. there is no need to drag out ot 800 pages of words, just give me some religous freedom damm it!

Originally Posted by AustralianFire

Every Sunday, I have to go to chruch. Its fucking bullshit. I told my parents Im athesit and they are like "NO, you still have to go to church tll your 18, its good for your eternal soul blah blah" christanity is all bullshit, all the same. Repent, prasise god, and repeat. Thats the whole bible summoned up in A sentance. there is no need to drag out ot 800 pages of words, just give me some religous freedom damm it!

Aww you poor man That must suck

Originally Posted by AustralianFire

Every Sunday, I have to go to chruch. Its fucking bullshit. I told my parents Im athesit and they are like "NO, you still have to go to church tll your 18, its good for your eternal soul blah blah" christanity is all bullshit, all the same. Repent, prasise god, and repeat. Thats the whole bible summoned up in A sentance. there is no need to drag out ot 800 pages of words, just give me some religous freedom damm it!

Act possessed in church and they'll stop taking you.




Edit: ehm jump to 7:15