Originally Posted by Pris
I can't get a job. I'm doing everything that is in my power to find any kind of job, without waving my collage degree proudly, I'm not being arrogant or lazy. Any kind of job, waitress to begin with... Nothing. It's killing me, it makes me ill, I already have medical problems, on top of all I'm mentally abused by the person that feeds me so I'm loosing what's left of my patience and optimism. I began to push people away from me, cause I'm disgusted by my own behavior around others, that poor, naive enthusiasm that keeps loosing its credibility as I realize that I'm all words. Ideas and plans and wishes remain ideas and plans and wishes. I want to skydive. Is that ever going to happen??? Will I ever find the time and money to do it? EVER? This is just sad. I hate this. I just wanna work.
Yeah, it is rough finding a job with everyone getting college degrees and having the same competence as you. I worry about getting a job too after I graduate from college, I feel as if that I just have ambition and spirit, but that isn't enough to back up my ability to get job experience. Maybe you can ask your friends with a job to vouch for you in case there's an opening if you still can't find a job and hope for the best.
I find a lot of people I know do that lately in college/university, and most of the time they end up getting the job as well. And sometimes there are job openings, but they normally don't advertise them properly, which makes it feel like it's almost impossible to find a job opening.
I wish you the best, and when you realize that your ideas and wishes and just that unless you have something to fuel it, it does create a blemish on yourself because you're tired of the that prideful yet humble ambition that still turns to extreme idealism.
All I can say is dig deeper, hopefully other members here can give you suggestions on how to find some work, I'm sure there's an opportunity out there, it's probably just those who are giving it are probably doing a horrible job spreading it out.
I hope things turn around and you'll find what you are looking for.
EDIT: If you already have your degree (or not), you could go to your college and see if they will have job openings for small desk work or something like that, usually when you are/were a student, they'll still consider you a part of their life. I know mine does that a lot, maybe you can look to see if you can participate in helping with psychology experiments or something, I remember when I had to get credit for my Psychology course (14 hours of it) I saw people that looked like graduates being the instructors of the experiments. Then again some of those were probably volunteer work, but you never know.
Cliffs version: My dreams are showing me more sadistic and cruel things like guards being poisoned to death, a woman's head gets chopped off and is spewing all over the place, and bunch of other freaky shit that's degrading my purpose of trying to lucid dream in the first place.
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