Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

**Zhaylin** · 01-08-2012 11:59 PM

Sounds AWESOME Anderj!!

Khh. Sounds like a nightmare!!!!

My rant is exhaustion. I spent nearly 3 hours outside with hubby, stripping some old insulation from the RV sewage pipe to get to a foam sleeve (carefully removed for reuse) which was over top a heating strip. It was nothing like I expected it to be. It's like a large extension cord but heat runs through it. My back is sore as heck!!!
My formerly broken hand has been giving me some grief since last night. It was sore and I was absentmindedly rubbing it. Then I noticed it felt as if my finger and thumb had "fallen asleep". Right where the forefinger bone meets the thumb is a smooshy spot like a vein. If I press it ever so slightly, it causes the sensation

I think it's the coolest thing in the world, so I kept messing with it. Now that spot keeps going numb for no reason

Now I have to call my mother and then I have to go grocery shopping

**Abra** · 01-09-2012 02:27 AM

I've begun a lifestyle of seeking instant gratification.

**TheForgotten** · 01-09-2012 11:56 AM

Originally Posted by Abra

I've begun a lifestyle of seeking instant gratification.

I've heard that's a very rewarding life in the short-term. Tends to ruin the long-term though... but the short-term turns into long-term so who knows.

**Carrot** · 01-09-2012 12:59 PM

Was browsing through my China twitter homepage. And a guy just happily posted pictures of his public hair. Go post it somewhere else. Social media sites are not meant for nudity.

**Zhaylin** · 01-09-2012 01:34 PM

That is really gross, Carrot,

People can be really weird.

I ache all over. I didn't even "crab walk" like I do under the modular. I was just squatting, stripping off tape... or bent over at the waist tearing the insulation. I'm too young to feel this dang old lol

My mom told me my brother was living on the streets of WV for awhile before crashing at the home of my moms high school best friend. He came all the way up here from Florida, moved in with a teenage crush, she found out she was pregnant but it was from a relationship before my brother, so she kicked him out (or so the story goes). Women or drugs will be the death of him yet.

I have parenting class today... BLAH... I also have to fill two prescriptions and get groceries. I was in no shape for shopping last night, so I got a sub and some chips.
Heheee, I told my p-doc I hadn't filled the script for Midpress (or whatever it's called) because I love my dreams too much to get rid of them completely. He said taking the med would be like listening to the radio: I wouldn't be changing the station, I'd only turn down the volume

So I guess I'll give it a try.

**khh** · 01-09-2012 01:53 PM

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Khh. Sounds like a nightmare!!!!

Thanks. Didn't help that it was completely my own fault.

Zhaylin, is it just me or do you never sleep properly?

**Carrot** · 01-09-2012 01:55 PM

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

That is really gross, Carrot,

People can be really weird.

He got his retribution when someone told him to cut those hair off.

Originally Posted by khh

Zhaylin, is it just me or do you never sleep properly?

She never seemed to sleep properly. Not sure what's the problem though.

**Linkzelda** · 01-09-2012 04:19 PM

Spoiler for fuck this shit loooll.:

Cliffs version: I need to go back to college and try lucid induction techniques because I'll be alone and no one will be able to bitch at me because of a warning. If I will die from a tornado, let me die in my sleep. What's worse is that I can't tell them that I'm using a program to keep track of my movements when dreaming and drifting off to sleep, I'll look like a nut.

**Arra** · 01-09-2012 07:40 PM

Sorry to hear that link. I know being woken up from a WILD attempt or LD can be one of the most irritating things ever.

I really do need two alarm clocks, or to get rid of my habit of turning mine off. Having a class at 9:30 is really fucking things up. I woke up about 20 minutes late and knew I could make it 15 mins late or so if I rushed and got my dad to drive me, but hate doing that. I was so tired I just stood there for like 10 mins until finally deciding to go back to bed. Even though I'd gotten only 4 hours of sleep, I couldn't fall back asleep, and have just given up. I might as well have rushed for class anyway.

The same problem's been happening inexplicably whenever I try to sleep, only in the last week or so. My thoughts have been racing no matter how tired I am. I don't know why it wasn't happening before. It doesn't seem like my stress level has increased. I guess I was able to stop thinking about things while trying to sleep and let my mind drift to meaningless shit. But now, for whatever reason, I'm finding that difficult. It worked before. But now, whenever I try, I find myself fixating on whatever I'm most anxious about.

**Linkzelda** · 01-09-2012 08:30 PM

Originally Posted by Dianeva

Sorry to hear that link. I know being woken up from a WILD attempt or LD can be one of the most irritating things ever.

I really do need two alarm clocks, or to get rid of my habit of turning mine off. Having a class at 9:30 is really fucking things up. I woke up about 20 minutes late and knew I could make it 15 mins late or so if I rushed and got my dad to drive me, but hate doing that. I was so tired I just stood there for like 10 mins until finally deciding to go back to bed. Even though I'd gotten only 4 hours of sleep, I couldn't fall back asleep, and have just given up. I might as well have rushed for class anyway.

The same problem's been happening inexplicably whenever I try to sleep, only in the last week or so. My thoughts have been racing no matter how tired I am. I don't know why it wasn't happening before. It doesn't seem like my stress level has increased. I guess I was able to stop thinking about things while trying to sleep and let my mind drift to meaningless shit. But now, for whatever reason, I'm finding that difficult. It worked before. But now, whenever I try, I find myself fixating on whatever I'm most anxious about.

Every time I find a solution to a problem preventing me to try a WILD, another problem comes up. I end up fixing the problems more than improving on the technique. I should make a guide on PTSD-ild (Post traumatic Stress Disorder induced lucid dream)

If you can keep your computer/laptop on when you're sleeping, you can use this....this wakes me up every time. Just blast the volume to 100% and if you don't wake up to this, I don't know who you are.

Online Alarm Clock

You can even change colors on it too, so if you have a FA and you see a different color, another aid for you there.

And you can minimize the window so when you it alerts you, you actually have to move, maximize it (that can be a challenge especially when waking up) and open it and try to aim for the CLICK HERE button.

It will annoy the fuck out of you until you press the button, but it will make you get up. Good luck with your new schedule.

**ThePreserver** · 01-09-2012 10:04 PM

That stereotypical "college professor" that always appears in television shows and movies, who has a coat with elbow patches, a goatee, shaggy hair, rides a bike, uses Latin to explain the origin of every word? I have him this semester.

**Solarflare** · 01-09-2012 10:22 PM

Originally Posted by Carrot

Was browsing through my China twitter homepage. And a guy just happily posted pictures of his public hair. Go post it somewhere else. Social media sites are not meant for nudity.

**fOrceez** · 01-09-2012 11:34 PM

I've completely jacked up my dream recall. The best i managed last night was three fragments. Poo

**Zhaylin** · 01-10-2012 12:17 AM

My sleep schedule is NEVER normal. At least, not for any length of time. Part of it is health: Acid Reflux, RLS, Sleep Apnea. Other factors are poor time management and rebellion. If I go through a really rough spot of sleeping all the time, and find myself with a little extra energy, I get sick of sleeping and force myself to stay awake which further messes up any sort of schedule

The Parenting Class Lady rescheduled

so I got an extra hour of sleep (I laid back down at around 10 or so)

Tomorrow, I lose my youngest son unless something has changed and no one bothered to tell me. He's been packing all day in preparation.

I've been having lots of awesome dreams, but I've been too lazy to record them. I "fly" almost every night and I've become lucid a few times for short bouts. I've been having another recurring theme of breaking into a safe belonging to my hubby. Sometimes my hubby looks like my ex, sometimes he's another person entirely. I always manage to break into it, but then the rest of the dream is me feeling guilty or scared of discovery and trying to put everything back. I'm not quite sure of the symbolism yet.

**Arra** · 01-10-2012 12:47 AM

I need to get these transcripts submitted to the university by the end of tomorrow. I keep putting it off and am stressing about it but never actually do it. So I'll just say that I'm going to do it tomorrow. I'll post here at the end of tomorrow to say whether I did it or not.

I got 4 hours of sleep last night, and about 3 the night before. And it's showing. I notice I'm extremely irritated about everything including my occasional uncertainty over where to place commas.

Neither can I stand when people try to start a conversation with "what's up?" or "how's it going?" or something like that. I never know what to respond. "Nothing" and "fine" are too expected and normal and just annoy me. From now on I'm just going to ignore anyone who asks me that, unless it's in person. I understand the need for a conversation starter but I hate those ones. The only exception is if I know someone really well and I know that they mean "how are you" or whatever genuinely, because if someone knew me well enough to care how I was they wouldn't be asking it as a conversation starter anyway because they'd know I can't stand it. There's no one like that now. Well there's someone who doesn't use the annoying starters but I think it's because he doesn't like them either. It's a bit awkward but I'm starting to prefer that people just ask a question or start a topic outright without all this "hi/hey/whats up/oh nothing much, you?/oh nothing, anything new?/ah, not really, you?/no, just doing the same thing as always/oh okay, having fun?/not really" crap.

I almost never feel this level of irritation. After school I'm going to try to sleep for 4 hours as part of my new schedule. Hopefully I'll be as tired then as I am now.

Being irritated makes me irrational and knowing that irritates me further. I can't fucking stand it.

**Darkmatters** · 01-10-2012 01:28 AM

^ This is why I tend to treat these kinds of comments strictly as greetings rather than questions. If somebody says "What's up?" I'll respond with "How's it going", or if they say "How's it going?" I'll say "What's up".

**Erii** · 01-10-2012 02:38 AM

Ugh did more working out tonight and I totally strained my arms. I used this weird device thing where you're slanted and you pull yourself up, I did it with my arms backwards and pulled my self back which hurt so bad, it really got my triceps. They were killing me earlier, i could barely hold anything. They're good now though. Woo! XD

**ThePreserver** · 01-10-2012 02:46 AM

Originally Posted by Erii

Ugh did more working out tonight and I totally strained my arms. I used this weird device thing where you're slanted and you pull yourself up, I did it with my arms backwards and pulled my self back which hurt so bad, it really got my triceps. They were killing me earlier, i could barely hold anything. They're good now though. Woo! XD

The TOTAL GYM?!

**tommo** · 01-10-2012 04:27 AM

I lol'd so much at your rant Link, especially this part "LMfao I can't believe this shit, what goes on in your fucking brain, why can't you leeeet me fucking SLEEEP."
I just imagined you going absolutely psychotic and laughing and saying that with the breathy/laugh voice haha
I know the pain man, I know the pain. I get just as angry when someone does that shit while I'm trying to WILD.

**Puffin** · 01-10-2012 05:21 AM

I'm sore all over from skiing this weekend. It was my first time going down black diamonds - icy ones at that - and my knees and ankles are completely raw right now.

On a lighter note, we were messing around with my boyfriend... His mom was trying to tickle him, I was trying to tickle him, and his sister was trying to hold him down. He wouldn't stop trying to get to his mom and do the same to her, so she ended up pushing him into the shower and turning the water on with him in it. Wow, it was hilarious... He's such a good sport. xD

Regardless of the soreness, this weekend was the best I've had in years. It was SO much fun.

**tommo** · 01-10-2012 05:25 AM

I need a better job, don't wanna go back after the holidays. I really don't.
And I need to figure out what the fuck I want to do with my life. If I didn't need money, I know almost exactly what I'd do. But I basically do need money, so I have no fucking clue.

**DeeryTheDeer** · 01-10-2012 08:10 AM

Originally Posted by tommo

I need a better job, don't wanna go back after the holidays. I really don't.
And I need to figure out what the fuck I want to do with my life. If I didn't need money, I know almost exactly what I'd do. But I basically do need money, so I have no fucking clue.

What would you do if you didn't need money?

I am SERIOUSLY not over the shelter murdering my cat Ana. Not even close. She was perfectly healthy and should have been adopted, WHY did they put her to sleep??? I know it's stupid, but I don't even care that all three of our other animals are doing fine, because it's just not FAIR. I'm still overcome with grief, anger and guilt.

Edit: the shelters ARE overcrowded past their capacity, they even said it on the news, so I shouldn't be that mad. At least she went peacefully, and wasn't abused or lost to freeze in the winter. I just wish things could have gone better for her (or at least have a better ending to her life). She had a good, fairly long life though. 5-6 years. Just before we took her to the shelter, we made sure she had fun in the backyard by herself, rolling around frantically on the cement. I did the best I could. *cries*

...I'm feeling better as I get through this though. Well, back and forth.

**tommo** · 01-10-2012 09:05 AM

I would probably travel (not to tourist places, but go explore the forests and nature in general all over the world), play piano (for fun, not professionally), and then after doing that for a many years I would go to uni to learn about sciences and whatever else I felt interested in at the time.

**05moloneyb** · 01-10-2012 01:37 PM

I want to lucid dream already

**Enjyu** · 01-10-2012 02:06 PM

Originally Posted by DeeryTheDeer

I am SERIOUSLY not over the shelter murdering my cat Ana. Not even close. She was perfectly healthy and should have been adopted, WHY did they put her to sleep??? I know it's stupid, but I don't even care that all three of our other animals are doing fine, because it's just not FAIR. I'm still overcome with grief, anger and guilt.

I understand how you feel. A few years ago I had a similar experience. I opened the door to let my cat inside, and found him struggling to walk, with a bullet wound in his head. The bullet could not be removed, but he still managed to survive for a while. Up until his death he has been acting strange though.