Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

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Dreamer, glad you stuck to your guns about changing the writing! That could have turned into a real nightmare!!

No real rants here... I caught a cold. I guess that's why I've been sleeping so much. My poor nose is red and itchy, my eyes are itchy... which would point to allergies, but I also have a sore throat, so who knows.
I don't think I've slept this much in years! Caffeine is doing nothing for me.

My daughters ex never did get back to me about the dog. He's been active on FB, so I know he got my message. I guess she's mine by default then.

A rave is that we've had some really awesome storms throughout the day. We even lost a tree from it (it was pretty much dead already). I went to Smoker Friendly and saw that a ginormous tree fell behind someone's house- roots exposed and all. It would have destroyed a couple of houses if it had fallen another way!!
It's still raining, though Intellicast says it's only cloudy lol. Supposed to be nice for the next couple of days then more storms. I don't know when I'll be able to take another walk

I did some serious thinking today and I've got some big plans for the next few months.

Bah... too much caffeine. I took a pill this morning to try to keep from going back to sleep. It didn't *quite* work out. I HAD to go to bed but it was very restless sleep for about 3 hours. I just woke up. I feel a lot better now (no more allergy nose and eyes, no sore throat). But some mozzies or something ate me alive in my sleep. Well, that's how it FEELS, but I actually only have 3 noticeably inflamed bites and another... right on a nipple Seriously, stupid bug?

Now I'm about to have to rush out the door for my sons counseling. Gah! As much as I fought against sleeping, I just want to crawl back into bed. Instead, I must go out into the world for the next few hours... first to drive and then sit in the car for an hour, and then to the grocery store... then home to get money from hubby and BACK to the store for cat food and Taco Bell.
I'll probably nap in the car
I wish this funk would leave me.

I missed a meal and I feel like shiiiiiiiiiiiiitttttttttttt

Hope you found food, Gavin!

These mosquito bites are killing me! Now I know how my daughter feels. She gets eaten alive every day. I now have 6 or so noticeable bites. One's infected because I scratched it to death in my sleep. So I looked up an eHow page and tried dabbing some ammonia on it. Seems to help but it's not perfect.
I also can't get over this fatigue which is also driving me batty.

A rave, however, is that I bought some chocolate e-juice from Exxon yesterday. I took a hit and was like in a good way. It tasted like more than chocolate so I reread the bottle and it's Mint Chocolate. Dear God it is SO good. Unfortunately, all they had was 24 mg which is wayyy too strong after being on 16 for a few months. I'm going to go to Smoker Friendly later today and see if they have some 0mg of something I can mix it with.

Ugh... my Smurf game on the iPad glitched out so I delete it to reinstall it to get around the glitch. Looks like I just completely erased my game. I'm trying to sync it to my computer now. Hopefully that will save it but I doubt it. I can be such a dunce sometimes

**EDIT**
I've done it yet again This fatigue is likely 95% psychological. I have 2 trips coming up- back to back.
Why do I always do this? I haven't even been THINKING of the trips, yet I go into a coma. And I friggin always do this. "Why are you so sleepy self?" "I dunno" Then it hits me- I'll be traveling in a couple weeks. Why do I always forget that stress makes me comatose? Every single time lol
You'd think I'd have this routine memorized by now.

Had another demonic dream... Only recall it was about cats, but they were evil and I was having a hard time escaping them. I threw one out a window and it was devoured by some other animal (alligator ?)
I woke drenched in sweat and sick (need food).
I managed to stay awake for 5 hours before going back to sleep last time
I will be so happy when these trips are behind me!!! And here I was trying to have a positive attitude and building myself up about looking forward to the trip and how grateful I am that I have that opportunity. Apparently, that did not work
Must find food... I think all I had yesterday was some bundt cake and french fries. I'm starving...

**EDIT**
Okay... this is beyond ridiculous!!! I was awake for 2 hours then went back to bed for 8. Seriously?! I would have kept on sleeping if the dog wasn't so insistent. She had to go outside desperately.
Now the age old question: How can stress/anxiety/whatever affect me so severely yet NOT affect my thoughts? Friggin annoying...

Another, even more wider reaching, CISPA type bill. Awesome.

Had a bad week. Feel kind of alienated. Like a couple of times I said hi and was basically ignored. I'm fed up with people for now. This girl that usually says hi to me I tried saying hi and either she didn't hear me or ignored me and closed a door behind her and basically into my face... then tonight I gave this guy a cigarette and he took it away like he was mad which he probably was...not giving him one ever again... hopefully I'll have faith in humanity again...

Originally Posted by oneiroer

Had a bad week. Feel kind of alienated. Like a couple of times I said hi and was basically ignored. I'm fed up with people for now. This girl that usually says hi to me I tried saying hi and either she didn't hear me or ignored me and closed a door behind her and basically into my face... then tonight I gave this guy a cigarette and he took it away like he was mad which he probably was...not giving him one ever again... hopefully I'll have faith in humanity again...

I'm feeling the same way, i realize there is people that used to be close to me now are against me only for a little thing that would make no sense that led to this drama now. Do people ever know how to let live?....and mind their damn business? I guess not. So now i have to turn the other cheek and act like they don't exist because people like that want destruction, and i'm not giving the benefit of the doubt.

So i realize why im not dreaming much now, i stopped drinking green tea and changed to a different tea, so now i know whats stopping my recalls.
I just bought a new type of green tea with jasmine, hope it will work 10x better

I'm growing a beard, but one side seems a little patchy - going to have to let it grow for another week or two to see if it comes in evenly.

Originally Posted by GavinGill

going to have to let it grow for another week or two to see if it comes in evenly.

Even if, you'll have to post a pic for verification. Otherwise we'll assume it never grew in evenly.

Originally Posted by OpheliaBlue

Even if, you'll have to post a pic for verification. Otherwise we'll assume it never grew in evenly.

I'll think about it, broseph.

Bro-J Simpson

Originally Posted by GavinGill

I'm growing a beard, but one side seems a little patchy - going to have to let it grow for another week or two to see if it comes in evenly.

This has pretty much been my lifelong goal since I was probably 14-years-old. I'm afraid that in order to grow anything worthwhile on my face, I need to wait until some of the stuff on the top of my head falls off... I'm nearly 25 and still have patches. Though for what it's worth, the patches have gotten a slight bit larger over the years.

This is all I want out of life:

Beards go in and out of style so much. I have thick hair as it is, and the thought of adding yet more hair just isn't for me. Plus, I look damn good when I shave. It is weird when people question my man status for being clean shaven, then I show them how I shave.

What? Beards are timeless. Especially when you're going for the 'dirty jeans, stained white t-shirt, and old ratty boots' look. Essentially looking like a homeless man that has a job.

Woohoo i recalled a dream! It wasn't an interesting dream, but a bit boring, nothing happened only me walking outside lol....so far so good. That orange pekoe tea really messed up my recalls, i would drink it only sometimes. :sleepysteph:

Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. Mother Nature must really be on the rag this year. Another big storm came through and fucked up the electric lines. The electric company reports widespread outages again... Looks like another night of trying to sleep with the generator running. Hopefully it doesn't take almost a week to fix it this time.

Today I had a customer get mad at me for wanting to use the restroom.

Spoiler for short story long:

I had been waiting for at least an hour and a half with no chance to get to the bathroom, and when she saw me dancing around behind the counter she asked what was wrong. I said I just really really had to pee and that I couldn't at the moment.

She got so mad her whole demeanor changed, and she said nastily "well if you want I can just leave all my stuff here and go somewhere else!"

I'm thinking, chick you're seriously that mad about biology urging me to empty my bladder??

Fine, stupid but whatever. But don't think for even a second that you're gonna make it seem like I'm the one being rude here. You asked, I told you. Some people just can't WAIT to get upset or mean about something, they'll jump at the chance to even if their reaction is completely nonsensical.

Hell, I had to apologize to her! FOR WHAT im thinking, but I did anyway!

And the only thing I could've done to make that situation any better was to lie and say nothing was wrong, or wear Depends to my job because heaven forbid I rush anyone's cigar selection with my ridiculous urges to urinate.

working with customer service, i can relate. though i don't have a problem being rude back.

Originally Posted by acatalephobic

Today I had a customer get mad at me for wanting to use the restroom.

Spoiler for short story long:

I had been waiting for at least an hour and a half with no chance to get to the bathroom, and when she saw me dancing around behind the counter she asked what was wrong. I said I just really really had to pee and that I couldn't at the moment.

She got so mad her whole demeanor changed, and she said nastily "well if you want I can just leave all my stuff here and go somewhere else!"

I'm thinking, chick you're seriously that mad about biology urging me to empty my bladder??

Fine, stupid but whatever. But don't think for even a second that you're gonna make it seem like I'm the one being rude here. You asked, I told you. Some people just can't WAIT to get upset or mean about something, they'll jump at the chance to even if their reaction is completely nonsensical.

Hell, I had to apologize to her! FOR WHAT im thinking, but I did anyway!

And the only thing I could've done to make that situation any better was to lie and say nothing was wrong, or wear Depends to my job because heaven forbid I rush anyone's cigar selection with my ridiculous urges to urinate.

Should have jumped over the counter and kicked her in the chest.











































And then peed on her.

AnderJ. Hope your electricity gets up and running quickly. We had another storm blow through here too, but it was a nice one with no damage. I swear our little town is some geographical wonderland. If you watch the radar, there will be big storms all around us and we'll just get a little drizzle. Every now and then we'll have some damaging winds, but not that often. Mostly, we get floods in low lying areas. But even those aren't horrible.

My rant is Farmville I've gone back to the dark side, but on the iPad. There's a summer event going on where you have to craft stuff within a weeks time and if you succeed, you get a dog for your game (which helps gather harvestables). There's 2 days left and I have 4 more things to make. They take 4 vanilla each which only has a chance of dropping when doing certain things. It's guaranteed to drop with the 2 hour task, but I wouldn't meet the deadline. So I'm grinding the 15 minute task. Blah.
BUT, it's helped break me out of my hypersomnia, which is a huge rave.

Another rant is that one of our new kittens are missing. They've been venturing outside so I fear something snatched her up. I've searched the house but there's no sign of her in here. She was the healthiest of the new bunch too. Black and fluffy... which remains true with such colored kittens tending to disappear.

rofl, Gavin. That's what I was thinking too. Pee on her
Sorry you had such an annoying customer, Acatalephobic.

for everyone.

manic manic manic

can't sleep

need meds

no meds, still in assessment stage

>:/

Put a rubberband around your wrist. When you feel like you're going to jump out of your brain as well as your skin, give it a really good flick and tell yourself to "calm your ass down" or whatever other mantra works better.
Huge