Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Belated happy b'day, Athylus!


Are sex clubs real? lol.. I don't want to know.
I'm turning 25 next month and it's not nice at all! Being a virgin at 25 seems ten times worse than being a virgin at 24. *sigh* Even more, I hate it when people assume that it has to do with some moral or cultural reason. There isn't a reason. I'm not waiting for any 'special person'. I have low tolerance for emotional intimacy anyway. On a blog, I found a perfect description for the situation. You ate chips and have the empty packet with you. You can't find a trash can anywhere, so you stuff it into your pocket or handbag and decide that you'll throw it as soon as you find a trash can. Later you walk past several trash cans and don't remember the packet. The next day you see it in your bag and realize that you forgot to throw it. That's exactly how I feel right now... an uncomfortable feeling, like I've been carrying a piece of trash around with me for many years, which I need to get rid of. I might just fix a deadline to get laid because I find it easier to get something done when there's a timetable or deadline.

Rant: Work has become stressful, with a lot of additional responsibilities. Desperately need more manpower but until we get new recruits I have to handle it alone. I'm also considering a job change in the next few months; it's about time. I feel so reluctant because this is the first job that I actually enjoyed. But I've already learnt whatever there was to learn here and if I stay any longer it will just hinder my career growth. There's this fear that the next place I go to wouldn't be as nice as where I am now. I need to teach myself all over again to be excited about new opportunities.

Rave: I'm not spending my birthday with family this year, but taking 9 days off from work to enjoy some quality time alone. The new manager is a bitch, but she's fortunately generous when it comes to approving leave applications. I'm not going to travel, because it may be more stressful than relaxing. I'll just plan different activities...movies, dinners, shopping, and catch up on my hobbies..maybe finally make that art blog I've been wanting to make. I also have plans to decorate the house, make flowers out of egg cartons to put on string lights for the bedroom. I already ordered the lights, have to pick them up from the office tomorrow. Also got a dress which I ordered online. The measurements given on the website were too large for me. I bought it anyway. But when I tried it on, it was perfect...it feels so good to find a dress that I don't need to alter!

Originally Posted by Anju

Belated happy b'day, Athylus!


Are sex clubs real? lol.. I don't want to know.
I'm turning 25 next month and it's not nice at all! Being a virgin at 25 seems ten times worse than being a virgin at 24. *sigh* Even more, I hate it when people assume that it has to do with some moral or cultural reason. There isn't a reason. I'm not waiting for any 'special person'. I have low tolerance for emotional intimacy anyway. On a blog, I found a perfect description for the situation. You ate chips and have the empty packet with you. You can't find a trash can anywhere, so you stuff it into your pocket or handbag and decide that you'll throw it as soon as you find a trash can. Later you walk past several trash cans and don't remember the packet. The next day you see it in your bag and realize that you forgot to throw it. That's exactly how I feel right now... an uncomfortable feeling, like I've been carrying a piece of trash around with me for many years, which I need to get rid of. I might just fix a deadline to get laid because I find it easier to get something done when there's a timetable or deadline.

Rant: Work has become stressful, with a lot of additional responsibilities. Desperately need more manpower but until we get new recruits I have to handle it alone. I'm also considering a job change in the next few months; it's about time. I feel so reluctant because this is the first job that I actually enjoyed. But I've already learnt whatever there was to learn here and if I stay any longer it will just hinder my career growth. There's this fear that the next place I go to wouldn't be as nice as where I am now. I need to teach myself all over again to be excited about new opportunities.

Rave: I'm not spending my birthday with family this year, but taking 9 days off from work to enjoy some quality time alone. The new manager is a bitch, but she's fortunately generous when it comes to approving leave applications. I'm not going to travel, because it may be more stressful than relaxing. I'll just plan different activities...movies, dinners, shopping, and catch up on my hobbies..maybe finally make that art blog I've been wanting to make. I also have plans to decorate the house, make flowers out of egg cartons to put on string lights for the bedroom. I already ordered the lights, have to pick them up from the office tomorrow. Also got a dress which I ordered online. The measurements given on the website were too large for me. I bought it anyway. But when I tried it on, it was perfect...it feels so good to find a dress that I don't need to alter!

My birthday is next month too, i will also wear a "birthday suit" ;] will be 31 so why not have fun before you get older?

Originally Posted by Anju

Are sex clubs real? lol.. I don't want to know.
I'm turning 25 next month and it's not nice at all! Being a virgin at 25 seems ten times worse than being a virgin at 24. *sigh* Even more, I hate it when people assume that it has to do with some moral or cultural reason. There isn't a reason. I'm not waiting for any 'special person'. I have low tolerance for emotional intimacy anyway. On a blog, I found a perfect description for the situation. You ate chips and have the empty packet with you. You can't find a trash can anywhere, so you stuff it into your pocket or handbag and decide that you'll throw it as soon as you find a trash can. Later you walk past several trash cans and don't remember the packet. The next day you see it in your bag and realize that you forgot to throw it. That's exactly how I feel right now... an uncomfortable feeling, like I've been carrying a piece of trash around with me for many years, which I need to get rid of. I might just fix a deadline to get laid because I find it easier to get something done when there's a timetable or deadline.

Yup. They are usually called life style clubs, as in Swinging Lifestyle, but they definitely exist. Single women usually get in free too.

As for being a virgin, don't let it sweat you. Sex is awesome and fun when done right. Bad sex will make you feel less than human and disgusted with yourself. I think far too many people get fixated on meeting goals, especially in regards to sex. It doesn't matter your number or when you have it, as long as you have it with someone you feel comfortable with.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

GRRRRRRRRRRRR!!! I was coming home from dropping my daughter off at work and I heard a crack as a pickup truck drove by. I slowly realized my windshield was cracked but I kept driving. Then I turned around to see if I could spot the item launched but I couldn't even pinpoint the spot we connected. All I know is the item came out of a beat up red truck. Being me, I assumed something flew out of his bed but the angle's wrong. It was more than likely thrown.
What the heck is wrong with people?!

Are you sure it wasn't just a stone flinging from his tyres? Happened to me with a truck in a country area once. Of course that was an actual truck and not an american "truck", which we call a ute, so not sure how many rocks those could pick up in the tyres.

Originally Posted by Tiresias

Yup. They are usually called life style clubs, as in Swinging Lifestyle, but they definitely exist. Single women usually get in free too.

As for being a virgin, don't let it sweat you. Sex is awesome and fun when done right. Bad sex will make you feel less than human and disgusted with yourself. I think far too many people get fixated on meeting goals, especially in regards to sex. It doesn't matter your number or when you have it, as long as you have it with someone you feel comfortable with.

Agree. Especially the first time. For a girl, it will probably hurt and some random guy isn't going to care that much to ask probably. For a guy, it's gonna be quick and probably humiliating.
Better to do it with someone you trust and are in a relationship with IMO, or a friends with benefits type of deal.

Rant:
Chem test today. Feel pretty unprepared, this lecturer sucked so bad, spent so much time on irrelevant crap and then barely glimpsed at the actual stuff we need to know.
I kept thinking he was introducing us to stuff and then was going to go in depth and give examples later on, but he just didn't.
There are a lot of crappy lecturers at this university tbh. I think there have been two good ones so far, and 2 or 3 good lab supervisors.
I wouldn't care that much, I mean it was the same in highschool, 99% of teachers could not teach. But I'm paying thousands for basically teaching myself. Ridiculous system.
Khan Academy should be getting 2/3rds of that money lol

Rave: I'm not spending my birthday with family this year, but taking 9 days off from work to enjoy some quality time alone. The new manager is a bitch, but she's fortunately generous when it comes to approving leave applications. I'm not going to travel, because it may be more stressful than relaxing. I'll just plan different activities...movies, dinners, shopping, and catch up on my hobbies..maybe finally make that art blog I've been wanting to make. I also have plans to decorate the house, make flowers out of egg cartons to put on string lights for the bedroom. I already ordered the lights, have to pick them up from the office tomorrow. Also got a dress which I ordered online. The measurements given on the website were too large for me. I bought it anyway. But when I tried it on, it was perfect...it feels so good to find a dress that I don't need to alter!

sounds like a good plan. i usually like to travel when i get a lot of days off, but i realized that i can have just as much fun when i'm alone, not going anywhere, as i do when i travel. i pretty much do the same thing since i travel alone anyways. i just need a change of scenery from time to time. and i also love to explore different places.

My birthday is next month too, i will also wear a "birthday suit" ;] will be 31 so why not have fun before you get older?

that's awesome. my birthday is next month too. and i too will be 31. maybe we can all celebrate our birthdays together and show off our birthday suits.

Anju and Tommo. Hope your test goes better than expected, Tommo.

I really hope something was just accidentally flung, Tommo. I prefer to give people the benefit of the doubt (there's less anger and rage that way )

My rant is that I was terribly sick today. 3 days worth of stool softeners finally did the trick (been backed up since the 15th!!!). I was vomiting and everything- but that was from the pain. Amazingly enough, my kidney feels 80% better. I was reading that constipation can trigger bladder/kidney pain because of pressure from the bowels. Strange.

I'm now doing laundry in preparation for the trip tomorrow. Ugh. I am now dreading it. I HATE hubby's car. BUT, his does handle smoother than mine, so that will be nice. AND, I had less hassle getting ready- didn't have to clean the windows or ozonate my vehicle. Hubby fiddled with his car on his own. But his car is also smaller. I think I'll just throw my clothes into a walmart bag. I really only need 2 outfits- one for traveling and one for the auction. But I'll throw in another one for emergencies. And somehting to sleep in... So much hassle for a one day auction! We'll leave anywhere from 10PM tomorrow or 1-3AM Tuesday and we'll be back Friday or Saturday. I'll worry about the animals the entire time.

The kittens eyes are SO much better. The Siamese is still suffering the most. I know the kids aren't going to doctor them while I'm away Big wimps. "It's grossssss." Not any more you big babies

Another rant is that I've already about used up all of my calories for the day. I'm drinking another 32 oz bottle of Bolthouse Mocha Cappuccino. Hey... my app lied. From 2 servings, it said I was already at 640 calories. But there's only 160 calories per serving and when I saved it, I had only had 2 out of 4 servings. Stupid app. Gotta fix that. *whew* Not perfect,but not nearly as bad as I thought lol.

I'd like to get on Minecraft before I leave but my computer is being laggy again
Oh well, there's always Junk Jack X.

Well, I did alright. I don't feel that good coz one I kind of did illegitimately and that's all I'll say about that
The other I had to convince the teacher I was right, but I'm not sure if I'm actually right.
If it wasn't for those two things I would have only just passed.

Tbf this lecturer was horrible and pretty much taught us nothing that we need to know. So I shouldn't feel that bad I guess.
And they wonder why the failure rate is so high for this topic.... Can't learn if they don't teach you, there's only so much you can learn on your own.
Maybe they do it on purpose to weed out the people who don't care enough or something, not sure. Pretty dodgy though if that's the case, since we're paying to get taught things.

Anyway, got a high mark so slight rave.

Rant: Withdrawing from alcohol. Felt so sick before. Took a tiny bit of xanax and alright now.
I can see how easy it is for these things to get out of hand. I was drinking every night for probably 6 months or so without really realising.

They flattened one of my favorite stretches of trail.
Maybe it just got really bad over the winter or something. I mean it wasn't really in good shape to start, but that's why it was fun. It was just a gutter infested with roots and rocks and fallen branches. Now it's just... flat and boring. Meh.

Whatever; that's my pathetic rant for today. In truth it was a good ride minus that minor disappointment. I was on the trails by 6:45am so it was super peaceful and I scared the shit out of tons of tiny critters just waking up and looking for breakfast. Actually, I wanted to get their about an hour earlier, but procrastination wins again.

Spoiler for :

Rave: Tomorrow i'm volunteering to go to my daughter's school trip to Ripley's Aquarium, a new sea creature museum in my city, going to have fun!....and maybe find a guy LMAO XD eh, ya never know!

I have so many psychedelics right now that I can't decide what to trip on tonight, woe is meeee~

Nah, I ain't got no real problems. I genuinely do have so many drug options though, I really don't know what to do first....

Only real rant is that I've got five hours left of work before it makes a difference. :T

Good luck on your man hunt, hathor.

Also that sucks tommo, every night for six months? Gonna be a harsh ride....

Originally Posted by tommo

Rant: Withdrawing from alcohol. Felt so sick before. Took a tiny bit of xanax and alright now.
I can see how easy it is for these things to get out of hand. I was drinking every night for probably 6 months or so without really realising.

Be careful. It's a little known fact that alcohol is the only drug you can die from withdrawal from. Even heroin is only because of overdoses.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Good luck on your man hunt, hathor.

LOL, i laughed at that

Heh, dw guys. I'm not that much of an alcoholic. I think you have to drink heavily for years to get really bad withdrawals.
Having a couple of ciders tonight coz I need the Xanax for a presentation tomorrow.
Gonna taper off towards exams so I'm clear.

This girl at work man.... we make each other laugh soooo much. It's ridiculous. Wish we lived in Sweden....

Also another rave about the test. Teacher told me I got a question right, even though the answer sheet said it was wrong.
So that's like 95% again. Fuck yes! I don't know how I'm doing this well. I guess I never really studied at all during high school, so I got average marks.
Rant is that I still need to do better. Like 100% ace everything to get in to vet school. If not I might have to move to go to a different uni for it, or do something else, but I have no idea what else I would want to do.
I guess that's a year and a half away anyway, shouldn't worry now.

Originally Posted by Anju

Belated happy b'day, Athylus!


Are sex clubs real? lol.. I don't want to know.
I'm turning 25 next month and it's not nice at all! Being a virgin at 25 seems ten times worse than being a virgin at 24. *sigh* Even more, I hate it when people assume that it has to do with some moral or cultural reason. There isn't a reason. I'm not waiting for any 'special person'. I have low tolerance for emotional intimacy anyway. On a blog, I found a perfect description for the situation. You ate chips and have the empty packet with you. You can't find a trash can anywhere, so you stuff it into your pocket or handbag and decide that you'll throw it as soon as you find a trash can. Later you walk past several trash cans and don't remember the packet. The next day you see it in your bag and realize that you forgot to throw it. That's exactly how I feel right now... an uncomfortable feeling, like I've been carrying a piece of trash around with me for many years, which I need to get rid of. I might just fix a deadline to get laid because I find it easier to get something done when there's a timetable or deadline.

Thank you Anju! It was a good day.

Well you can't just say I will fuck on day x and then decide which guy you like and wether you'll fuck him or not (actually the other way around, I hope). I can empathize here though, you're just curious and secretly very interested in these sex clubs we are speaking of.

Originally Posted by hathor28

Rave: Tomorrow i'm volunteering to go to my daughter's school trip to Ripley's Aquarium, a new sea creature museum in my city, going to have fun!....and maybe find a guy LMAO XD eh, ya never know!

There's a cellar behind the bar just right at the dolphins, I'll meet you there.


Rave: 1 month clean, and dreams have been more present lately.

Originally Posted by Athylus

There's a cellar behind the bar just right at the dolphins, I'll meet you there.

In Canada....lol no didn't see you lol it got hella crowded after lunch time...too busy looking after my group. I took some pics of the place, will post in everyday pics thread.

Not really a rant but I'm just feeling a little weird. I just graduated and I'm a bit sad now, they just did all the video and music stuff so emotive. I'm gonna miss them all, even the stupid ones, I've had pretty good times with them and it feels a little incredible that all this time has already passed without even noticing it. I'm both happy and sad, sad because leaving them and the city I've been living in for 18 years but also happy because it means a completely new beginning in a new city and it feels terribly scary but wonderful at the same time. I hope everything goes just alright.

Originally Posted by Astaroth

Not really a rant but I'm just feeling a little weird. I just graduated and I'm a bit sad now, they just did all the video and music stuff so emotive. I'm gonna miss them all, even the stupid ones, I've had pretty good times with them and it feels a little incredible that all this time has already passed without even noticing it. I'm both happy and sad, sad because leaving them and the city I've been living in for 18 years but also happy because it means a completely new beginning in a new city and it feels terribly scary but wonderful at the same time. I hope everything goes just alright.

That's part of graduation!

I hate that feeling. I felt the same at the end of high school, and I hated high school. It was still sad to leave. wtf?

Same with the last Chinese class, since hopefully I won't have to take it next semester, but was still sad. Gonna miss it, and the teachers and the one or two people I liked in that class.

Rant: Fucking essays man.... this shit is ridiculous. Had an essay every week for the last 4 weeks, and it's always this vague description for what we're supposed to do. Takes me a day or two just to get some main ideas down and make sure I'm answering the vague questions and requirements. I mean they literally said find a "scientific article for....". I asked "does scientific article mean scientific study?" and the teacher said yes. Since when is a fucking scientific study an article???? Since never, that's when. If you want a study say study. Just lucky I had a feeling they meant study otherwise I would have wasted so much time.

The lecturer for this subject is a total asshole too. I asked him a while ago about some question someone else asked him relating to required work experience, because I never heard about it. He replied "students in x and y course doing this subject have to do work experience, we told you this in orientation lecture". REALLY! Oh my god fuck me for not remembering a few sentences in a lecture from 12 fucking weeks ago, dickhead. Luckily I did not have to do work experience for my course.

Not really a rant or a rave, but a girl from work has confided in me a few fucked up things about her.... I think I'm gonna tell her about some of my stuff. I've never done that before really. It just occurred to me that maybe I should. Not exactly sure why. We'll see how this goes I guess....

I went down the swamp road across the tracks last night fishing and the odd couple that lived in a shack over there have been gone for a few months and on the way back I noticed their two cats sitting on the porch waiting for them to come home.. The dogs are gone, he must have taken them, The weeds have grown up and the raccoon's have taken over the house but the beautiful white cat and the black one still wait there. I hate people that abandon their animals dammit

I just realised the goals in my signature which I think were from last year for the goal of the year thread, I have not even attempted a single one.

I want to get back in to lucid dreaming so much. It's ridiculous that that doesn't mesh well with living a busy waking life. Someone invent an LD pill already, preferably with a 100% success rate.

Originally Posted by tommo

I just realised the goals in my signature which I think were from last year for the goal of the year thread, I have not even attempted a single one.

I want to get back in to lucid dreaming so much. It's ridiculous that that doesn't mesh well with living a busy waking life. Someone invent an LD pill already, preferably with a 100% success rate.

I am the same way. I literally have no nights where I can get a full 8 hours of sleep, much less build time for 10 to 12 with WBTB sleep. It just isn't happening right now. I can get lucid in naps, but it is so fuzzy that I don't think I can do much in them.

Life as we know it rant....meanwhile...today...people be like....



RAVE! FRUITY/COCOA PEBBLES IS BACK IN CANADA!!!! YES!...SADLY ONLY LIMITED TIME! Because government has concerns for kids health when it comes to sugary cereals!! I say....so what! let us have it!

Rant: dang I'm so horny today lol!! It's killing me! I need it ASAP or imma die!!

Originally Posted by tommo

Better to do it with someone you trust and are in a relationship with IMO, or a friends with benefits type of deal.

That's easy to say. But for a person like me with zero social skills I can neither get a relationship nor a friend with benefits. The only guys I can get are the ones who don't care.

Originally Posted by tropicalbreeze

sounds like a good plan. i usually like to travel when i get a lot of days off, but i realized that i can have just as much fun when i'm alone, not going anywhere, as i do when i travel. i pretty much do the same thing since i travel alone anyways. i just need a change of scenery from time to time. and i also love to explore different places.

I think I may not have the vacation after all. Sudden change of plan.

Originally Posted by Athylus

I can empathize here though, you're just curious and secretly very interested in these sex clubs we are speaking of.

Lol, no. I don't like clubs in general. I always associate clubs with intolerable noise levels.

@Louai, Why don't you come here more often? DV is no fun without you

Rant/Rave: A head-hunter called me regarding a job last friday. I went there today. 2 tests and 4 rounds of interviews. I was almost dead by evening. They need some documents from me, after which they'll make an offer.