Ahhh here comes the moment I've dreaded.... sleep time. I'm really, really, really not looking forward to tomorrow. |
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I wish I had a Cheese Press for my Brain. |
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Ahhh here comes the moment I've dreaded.... sleep time. I'm really, really, really not looking forward to tomorrow. |
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Thanks. I'm glad I didn't either. Most of the depression I experience these days is just conditioned in. I'm actually really happy about life in general. Luckily I have some of the greatest friends I ever could've hoped for. And you're a nice person, too! Cheer up, life's not as bad as it seems. I'm going to bed soon since my physical symptoms are low right now and I want to be able to fall asleep while I can but I hope you feel better. |
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It's already almost 1:30... Can't fall asleep... I'm gonna die at school tomorrow. |
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Hehe, I did that too once. I wanted to see if it was really as relieving as people say. |
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I'm in that misanthropic mood again, going back to those temptations of just hating human beings and myself again. |
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About cutting. Uh yeah... it isn't just depression. You can't expect to get anything out of it. I don't think I've ever felt any 'endorphins', whatever those are supposed to feel like. When I do it, it's for the most obvious reason possible. Because I'm experiencing so much self-hatred that I feel like I deserve to have pain inflicted upon me. That's all. |
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Well that's not what I've heard most people say. And why would people get addicted to it? Endorphins. |
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Well that's the honest motivation for me. It can't be for attention when no one sees. Mentioning it to people on this website doesn't count because I never planned to while I did it, and I used to do it years ago without telling anyone at all. When you're angry at another person it's natural to want some harm to befall them. It's the same as that but toward oneself. |
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I got mayo on the rug. And then I rubbed it all over while trying to clean it up. Mom's mad. |
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So.... Drunk me is retarded. It never occurred to me last night that ALL my shirts are t-shirts. So now I'm wearing a dress shirt that is basically too small for me. Smart move Drunk self, smart move. -.- |
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lol Old Sparta but for your pain and depression |
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Good luck Zhay!! You can do it. I never smoked that much but it was still difficult to quit, and I'm so glad I did. |
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Grats, Alyzarin and thanks for the encouragement |
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Zhaylin, I used to think that your hubby was only a spiteful jerk, but now I see that your relatives contribute a good deal to your family problems. You're something like a family Mother Teresa, girl! |
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Lmao, my body doesn't want to cooperate with me. I used two alarms, one on my laptop and an external alarm clock. I set one 5 minutes before the other would start so that I would know that when I wake up, I better turn off the other and change it to a later time. |
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Last edited by Dianeva; 01-23-2012 at 09:09 PM.
I'm off 4 days a week now. The bad thing is I stay up late and sleep until noon. The upside is between 7am and noon, I have the best LDs. And a lot of them. But I feel lame for sleeping so late. It's ok because I still get stuff done, but it's like, a huge chunk of my life missing. But if, in that huge chunk of missing life, I'm having great LDs, then it's not a waste? I don't know.. I'm having a catch 22 sandwich for lunch. |
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power went out/ still tries to turn the lights on in the bathroom. |
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2 IP addresses on 1 interface without dot1q encapsulation? Are you f'ing crazy? |
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Uggg, why are people so annoying? |
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